As Conversation With God said...you already know that there are only two choices....LOVE or FEAR. You know that love is the truth and fear is the lie. But what you have not really seen is how you choose fear and pretend it is love, again and again daily moment by moment. You keep your heart locked away. Until you open your heart, you will not know me. You will not have the key to a new world. Even those who believe in love, who believe they are choosing love....saying yes. Are your? Really? If you were, you would live every moment in the deepest most profound joy.Choose to throw your heart and to see me in front of you, no matter what your ego tells you. The ego tells you lies. It holds up a screen in front of you upon which it has painted a picture, and then convinces you that picture is reality. Listen closely. Behind that false picture true reality exist. Right there in front of you. If you refuse to believe the ego, it has to take down the screen.
You could believe the lies of the ego. You could believe that i am not real,...a fake and right behind that image...your soulmate exist. Right there. Waiting for you to look beyond the screen. How do you do this? By switching to your heart as the organ and see with instead. And how do you do this? By throwing open your heart and trusting love and me.
Know too, that I am here always asking you in every moment...will you choose love? Will you choose me? When you say yes...and switch to your heart by unlocking it, throwing it open, you will begin our path of the heart, your path to me.
Sunday, August 19, 2012
POETRY: MY MOUTH SEEKS YOURS, I AM ENRAPTURED
I dream of times when we sit and stare into the sky
Caring about nothing, just looking and dreaming
Wondering in my mind what goes on in yours
Watching you as I tell you about space and time
Wondering if you understand.
It does not matter, you are with me in this moment of time
Important is the moment, so priceless
It is like a part of you that can never be
Lost or damaged, hurt or forgotten
Your own part of time locked away in the mind forever
So many parts of you are held close to my heart.
Looks and sayings and small little things
All are a moment in time for me
A moment that will last forever
A place for this moment is in my heart
I will never forget the love we have
This time, this moment of us in love
Will always be my smile and warmth you feel
The kiss on your lips as I say I love you
The look of passion as I gaze into your eyes
Are parts of the moment, parts of the love I have for you.
Moments are time I wish would never end
The moment of our kiss and making love
I wish to play back these moments over and over again
Moments are a priceless gift, hold onto them forever
Never, never let them go
2
Crash into my soul,
Just when I've convinced myself that,
I was over you.
Intensify me with your smile,
The smile I still adore.
Play a selfish game with my desires.
Replay our past,
As you lay in my bed
My bed,
Where only soft small talk passes
and I can smell your
Intriguing scent,
Feeling your
Strong body,
Your heart
Beating
Faster as
We float away together. Dreaming.
3
Imagine...
We were going to a place where lovers went
and I'm rubbing your body ever so gently,
ever so soothing.
The touch of your lips keeps my body moving.
Now imagine this..
On a night full of fog and mist,
we made love and took it further than a kiss.
Now could you imagine this...
We watched the sunset and made a wish.
Each kiss brought us closer to being together,
meaning we were forever.
4
The heart acts as a mason,
Steals moments of pleasure and passion,
Moments that touch cords of the heart,
Moments one hates to give away to the past!
These moments build the walls of memory's mansion;
Free entry to this mansion, for me, is the best pension!
The island of imagination opens the doors of poetry,
Poetry packed in the embryo of emotions,
Poetry that originates in the heart?s oceans!
As I step onto this ideal island,
Poetry pours in; in a queue, the words stand,
Like rain wetting the dry land.
The smell of satisfaction pervades,
All over the emotional arcade!
Reality is a merciless city,
Perished in pain, like my passion and intensity,
Reality robs my beloved, imagination protects it!
Hence, I make a journey to the mansions of memory,
To recall moments where reality appeared, a tale fairy!
Trips are frequent to the island of imagination,
So that, of joys and sorrows, I balance the equation!
Into the river, when you throw a pebble,
Ripples it creates, and then they disappear.
Similar is the case with this fable,
More intoxicating it is than it appears!
These are the islands of imagination,
These are my inns of intoxication!
5
Lie with me in the sunny Spring
upon a pallet of white clover,
amongst the tall grass
we will disappear, as the gentle breeze
tickles the long blades surrounding us.
Like children, let us play a game of explore and seek,
immersing ourselves in innocence, long removed
as we expose our nakedness to the blue sky,
the warm sunlight caressing our skin.
Look at me, for the first time, with your child's eye,
touch me here and here and here.
My mouth seeks yours, I am enraptured!
I am but a young boy, again,
playing in the field behind the old house.
Take me, gently, for I am enlivened, but take me now...
because I hunger for you with a child's demanding appetite.
Then lie with me upon the felled clover, as the sun smiles upon us.
Let me sleep in your arms in innocence, as I once slept...
so many Springs ago.
6
he winter snow laying on the trees,
the grass covered in a soft blanket of white.
In the stars of night, it seems to glisten
in the brightness of their light.
Peering through a window, a fire blazing behind.
The winter snow falling softly, she is wondering
what he has on his mind tonight.
He sits and watches; he looks up and smiles
from his chair at her and softly says,
"The days of winter, the star glistening in the night."
"My beauty, I love you... on this wintery night."
7
It's just me and you walking hand in hand.
Nothing between us but our toes in the sand.
The ocean breeze blowing our hair, gently caressing our faces,
We are as one, now going more places.
From here to there and back again,
Knowing our love will never end.
The tides ebb is rising and the moon is at a great height.
It's now time to say, "I love you, my dear, sleep well,
8
Arise! My beloved, angel of the night
Graceful wings of a dove
Arise and look at me with eyes that touch
My eternal soul.
Does not my blood, thick and alive,
Sing in your veins?
Your voice from distance shores
Dances to the rhythm
Of my quivering heart.
Arise! My beloved, sit with me
In moonlight splendor, caressed by the
Heavens, adored by the god?s in their
Majestic paradise.
The earth laughed, the ocean sang,
The forest dances, but I...
Behold I...
Echoes of my eternal night
I lost the need to love when we are apart.
Arise, my beloved!
Arise and calm my foolish heart.
9
My soul is yours, to cherish and to hold
everytime my heart beats.
A million thoughts of you fill the inner space
that others long to cover
Listen closely! The wind of my breath belongs
in your hands.
I know, forever, we can love as one
untill God's kingdom breaks all his eternal bands
Trust in love, and take my hand
10
Everything around them ignored
as there eyes slowly embraced
like the glowing light of two fires
unable to escape the seeds of desire
growing into the ritual of passion
beneath the spring moon they surrendered
to the mysterious musical notes
that swept in to there awaiting hearts
a thing of true beauty
now tantalized and tormented
for the need to touch nothing
will stand in there way
as this love was meant to be
no longer haunted by emptiness of being alone
only the sounds of two hearts beating together
as one with their souls now joined
11
The light that pains,
The hopelessness of love.
Everlasting flows of time
throughout which only thoughts of you persist.
The pull and ebb of love
affects me not. For I will never be
Again, alone? Oh, hide
me from my pain.
Become my love,
Or forever shall I wane.
12
Silence sets the stage,
Where lovers stut and play.
Their eyes meet in stolen space,
While eager heartbeats race.
Was she staring at me,
Or is it just my wishful fantasy?
Can she hear my raging chest,
Longing to embrace her tender breast?
13
From the highest mountain,
To the deepest ocean:
The love that we hold dear.
When I fell in love with you, I knew that I was here.
Here in your arms, because even heaven could not compare.
And even though we fight and argue, I know one thing is true,
That no one in this world can ever compare to you.
Caring about nothing, just looking and dreaming
Wondering in my mind what goes on in yours
Watching you as I tell you about space and time
Wondering if you understand.
It does not matter, you are with me in this moment of time
Important is the moment, so priceless
It is like a part of you that can never be
Lost or damaged, hurt or forgotten
Your own part of time locked away in the mind forever
So many parts of you are held close to my heart.
Looks and sayings and small little things
All are a moment in time for me
A moment that will last forever
A place for this moment is in my heart
I will never forget the love we have
This time, this moment of us in love
Will always be my smile and warmth you feel
The kiss on your lips as I say I love you
The look of passion as I gaze into your eyes
Are parts of the moment, parts of the love I have for you.
Moments are time I wish would never end
The moment of our kiss and making love
I wish to play back these moments over and over again
Moments are a priceless gift, hold onto them forever
Never, never let them go
2
Crash into my soul,
Just when I've convinced myself that,
I was over you.
Intensify me with your smile,
The smile I still adore.
Play a selfish game with my desires.
Replay our past,
As you lay in my bed
My bed,
Where only soft small talk passes
and I can smell your
Intriguing scent,
Feeling your
Strong body,
Your heart
Beating
Faster as
We float away together. Dreaming.
3
Imagine...
We were going to a place where lovers went
and I'm rubbing your body ever so gently,
ever so soothing.
The touch of your lips keeps my body moving.
Now imagine this..
On a night full of fog and mist,
we made love and took it further than a kiss.
Now could you imagine this...
We watched the sunset and made a wish.
Each kiss brought us closer to being together,
meaning we were forever.
4
The heart acts as a mason,
Steals moments of pleasure and passion,
Moments that touch cords of the heart,
Moments one hates to give away to the past!
These moments build the walls of memory's mansion;
Free entry to this mansion, for me, is the best pension!
The island of imagination opens the doors of poetry,
Poetry packed in the embryo of emotions,
Poetry that originates in the heart?s oceans!
As I step onto this ideal island,
Poetry pours in; in a queue, the words stand,
Like rain wetting the dry land.
The smell of satisfaction pervades,
All over the emotional arcade!
Reality is a merciless city,
Perished in pain, like my passion and intensity,
Reality robs my beloved, imagination protects it!
Hence, I make a journey to the mansions of memory,
To recall moments where reality appeared, a tale fairy!
Trips are frequent to the island of imagination,
So that, of joys and sorrows, I balance the equation!
Into the river, when you throw a pebble,
Ripples it creates, and then they disappear.
Similar is the case with this fable,
More intoxicating it is than it appears!
These are the islands of imagination,
These are my inns of intoxication!
5
Lie with me in the sunny Spring
upon a pallet of white clover,
amongst the tall grass
we will disappear, as the gentle breeze
tickles the long blades surrounding us.
Like children, let us play a game of explore and seek,
immersing ourselves in innocence, long removed
as we expose our nakedness to the blue sky,
the warm sunlight caressing our skin.
Look at me, for the first time, with your child's eye,
touch me here and here and here.
My mouth seeks yours, I am enraptured!
I am but a young boy, again,
playing in the field behind the old house.
Take me, gently, for I am enlivened, but take me now...
because I hunger for you with a child's demanding appetite.
Then lie with me upon the felled clover, as the sun smiles upon us.
Let me sleep in your arms in innocence, as I once slept...
so many Springs ago.
6
he winter snow laying on the trees,
the grass covered in a soft blanket of white.
In the stars of night, it seems to glisten
in the brightness of their light.
Peering through a window, a fire blazing behind.
The winter snow falling softly, she is wondering
what he has on his mind tonight.
He sits and watches; he looks up and smiles
from his chair at her and softly says,
"The days of winter, the star glistening in the night."
"My beauty, I love you... on this wintery night."
7
It's just me and you walking hand in hand.
Nothing between us but our toes in the sand.
The ocean breeze blowing our hair, gently caressing our faces,
We are as one, now going more places.
From here to there and back again,
Knowing our love will never end.
The tides ebb is rising and the moon is at a great height.
It's now time to say, "I love you, my dear, sleep well,
8
Arise! My beloved, angel of the night
Graceful wings of a dove
Arise and look at me with eyes that touch
My eternal soul.
Does not my blood, thick and alive,
Sing in your veins?
Your voice from distance shores
Dances to the rhythm
Of my quivering heart.
Arise! My beloved, sit with me
In moonlight splendor, caressed by the
Heavens, adored by the god?s in their
Majestic paradise.
The earth laughed, the ocean sang,
The forest dances, but I...
Behold I...
Echoes of my eternal night
I lost the need to love when we are apart.
Arise, my beloved!
Arise and calm my foolish heart.
9
My soul is yours, to cherish and to hold
everytime my heart beats.
A million thoughts of you fill the inner space
that others long to cover
Listen closely! The wind of my breath belongs
in your hands.
I know, forever, we can love as one
untill God's kingdom breaks all his eternal bands
Trust in love, and take my hand
10
Everything around them ignored
as there eyes slowly embraced
like the glowing light of two fires
unable to escape the seeds of desire
growing into the ritual of passion
beneath the spring moon they surrendered
to the mysterious musical notes
that swept in to there awaiting hearts
a thing of true beauty
now tantalized and tormented
for the need to touch nothing
will stand in there way
as this love was meant to be
no longer haunted by emptiness of being alone
only the sounds of two hearts beating together
as one with their souls now joined
11
The light that pains,
The hopelessness of love.
Everlasting flows of time
throughout which only thoughts of you persist.
The pull and ebb of love
affects me not. For I will never be
Again, alone? Oh, hide
me from my pain.
Become my love,
Or forever shall I wane.
12
Silence sets the stage,
Where lovers stut and play.
Their eyes meet in stolen space,
While eager heartbeats race.
Was she staring at me,
Or is it just my wishful fantasy?
Can she hear my raging chest,
Longing to embrace her tender breast?
13
From the highest mountain,
To the deepest ocean:
The love that we hold dear.
When I fell in love with you, I knew that I was here.
Here in your arms, because even heaven could not compare.
And even though we fight and argue, I know one thing is true,
That no one in this world can ever compare to you.
LOVE/ THOUGHTS: EVERYTHING WOULD BE PERFECT AS SOON AS THEY GOT STRAIGHTEN OUT
Every relationship I enter...I go with high hopes, only to end in disillusionment and heartbreak. The woman I loved, didn't love me or at least not enough. The woman who loved me, I didn't love or again...not enough. I am a easy person to get along with..but despite the magical moment....most of the woman I were with were largely taken up with their jobs, money...ect. I had to face the fact that I was not the chief priority in their life.
I was always trying to figure out how to make them see how perfect we would be for each other. It seemed absurd that these woman who were accomplished, sensitive woman couldn't recognize the mistake they were making in placing so much more importance on everything else than our relationship. Why didn't they understand that life is about sharing love. The possibility that I might not be everything they were looking for a guy was one I was frankly unprepared to consider. NO!!, this was definitely about there misplaced values, not about me. Everything would be perfect as soon as they got straighten out.
I would sometimes try to make them need me, while at the same time convincing them that it would be bad and wrong if they hesitated to commit. On the other hand they would see what a great time we had when we were together and what an ideal utterly undemanding husband I would make. On the other hand, I would find subtle ways to show them how hurt I was by their neglect.
I was trying to impose my will on my ex. Give your ex-girlfriend complete freedom to make up their mind about our relationship without reference to my needs and desire. What if I gave them a choice and they left. Most woman think that love relationship involved suffering and sacrifice. They could either give up the things they want to please a me, or else do what was best for themselves at the cost of hurting me.
I was always trying to figure out how to make them see how perfect we would be for each other. It seemed absurd that these woman who were accomplished, sensitive woman couldn't recognize the mistake they were making in placing so much more importance on everything else than our relationship. Why didn't they understand that life is about sharing love. The possibility that I might not be everything they were looking for a guy was one I was frankly unprepared to consider. NO!!, this was definitely about there misplaced values, not about me. Everything would be perfect as soon as they got straighten out.
I would sometimes try to make them need me, while at the same time convincing them that it would be bad and wrong if they hesitated to commit. On the other hand they would see what a great time we had when we were together and what an ideal utterly undemanding husband I would make. On the other hand, I would find subtle ways to show them how hurt I was by their neglect.
I was trying to impose my will on my ex. Give your ex-girlfriend complete freedom to make up their mind about our relationship without reference to my needs and desire. What if I gave them a choice and they left. Most woman think that love relationship involved suffering and sacrifice. They could either give up the things they want to please a me, or else do what was best for themselves at the cost of hurting me.
SPIRITUAL/ LOVE LETTER: ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS LEAVE YOUR EGO...JOIN YOUR HEART WITH MINE
Begin with me is a decision, a decision to use the only organ of sight with which you can see me, your heart. As many times as you slip back into your ego, that many times you will fail to see what love can be. You will lose your blessed connection with your true experience of me and of yourselves. As many times as you remember, that many times will you find your heart, your mind, your being filled with joy, with the surety of my deep and personal love and with the experience of yourselves, awake and alive.
Oh, yes, there are mysteries here! Mysteries of how suddenly you can see your me even a moment ago you could not. Mysteries of how, suddenly the moment you move into your heart, you are totally fulfilled, gloriously blessed, deeply and profoundly in love. Mysteries that speak to the deepest longing of your soul and mysteries that answer the questions of eternity. That mystery is the truth of the heart.
Your ego will never let you see me. Never. Please understand this. Because when you see me, the ego's job is totally done. It will automatically begin to fade until you live so deeply in your heart that the ego is a thing of the past. Only when you move to your heart can you see true love. Only when you see through your heart can you recognize your truth---that this love will always reflect to you your highest truth.
I am with you, has always been with you, simply cannot be without you. You have been drawn to me...i been guiding you, whispering to you all your life. If you do not seeing me...switch to your heart and wait....I will appear quickly, but switch back to your ego and I will disappear again.Not seeing it? Hmm Looking with the wrong eyes? Only if you are someone who has been asleep, totally shut down to love, could you have drawn to you someone whose vehicle cannot accommodate the higher vibration of my presence.
Reach out then...say YES. With heart and soul say YES. Come reach across the starry sky that holds all the worlds and reach within the heart of God and welcome your love to you. Nothing has prepared you for this beauty. Nothing until this could reveal your glory. All you have to do is leave your ego...join your heart with mine.
Oh, yes, there are mysteries here! Mysteries of how suddenly you can see your me even a moment ago you could not. Mysteries of how, suddenly the moment you move into your heart, you are totally fulfilled, gloriously blessed, deeply and profoundly in love. Mysteries that speak to the deepest longing of your soul and mysteries that answer the questions of eternity. That mystery is the truth of the heart.
Your ego will never let you see me. Never. Please understand this. Because when you see me, the ego's job is totally done. It will automatically begin to fade until you live so deeply in your heart that the ego is a thing of the past. Only when you move to your heart can you see true love. Only when you see through your heart can you recognize your truth---that this love will always reflect to you your highest truth.
I am with you, has always been with you, simply cannot be without you. You have been drawn to me...i been guiding you, whispering to you all your life. If you do not seeing me...switch to your heart and wait....I will appear quickly, but switch back to your ego and I will disappear again.Not seeing it? Hmm Looking with the wrong eyes? Only if you are someone who has been asleep, totally shut down to love, could you have drawn to you someone whose vehicle cannot accommodate the higher vibration of my presence.
Reach out then...say YES. With heart and soul say YES. Come reach across the starry sky that holds all the worlds and reach within the heart of God and welcome your love to you. Nothing has prepared you for this beauty. Nothing until this could reveal your glory. All you have to do is leave your ego...join your heart with mine.
LOVE LETTER: DROP NOW FROM YOUR MIND TO YOUR HEART AND LET ME SPEAK TO YOU OF LOVE
I hold you in my love every moment of every day. This love is deeper than anything you can touch with your mind. It is more profound than anything you can imagine in your biggest dream. How then can you know this love? You can know it because it is personal. Drop now from your mind to your heart and let me speak to you of love. It is only in the heart that you can hear this. You are one who is two in order to know me. Truly if you come to me directly, you will be absorbed in this love. It will be ecstasy. it will be home You were born of the longing in my being for company. How can you understand your true being and your relationship with me, when you cannot know me directly in the very deepest sense? The answer is by looking at your heart. What i am saying to you is that everything is changing. Your vision is clearing all the smokescreens that have been in place to protect you. The heart see completely differently from the mind and the ego.
Listen, I have always been with you. Always.When we were together...the universe was fly forth. Stars born. When your heart is ready...i will appear. Not because I wasn't there to be begin with, but because you have been unable to recognize me. The moment you can read with your heart you will recognize me. I will say to you once you are able to see me ...to reach a conscious awareness on this thick and difficult physical level...in that moment your universe will change. Now in that moment, when you commit to me in the heart, from the heart, you choose to go beyond the ego---in that moment you come into real contact with me. Not simply on a informative level. No...you begin to live in me and everything in your life will shift. Things will fly to you that show you my being. My truth and give you the experience of love through your ability to look into the eyes and heart.
Listen, I have always been with you. Always.When we were together...the universe was fly forth. Stars born. When your heart is ready...i will appear. Not because I wasn't there to be begin with, but because you have been unable to recognize me. The moment you can read with your heart you will recognize me. I will say to you once you are able to see me ...to reach a conscious awareness on this thick and difficult physical level...in that moment your universe will change. Now in that moment, when you commit to me in the heart, from the heart, you choose to go beyond the ego---in that moment you come into real contact with me. Not simply on a informative level. No...you begin to live in me and everything in your life will shift. Things will fly to you that show you my being. My truth and give you the experience of love through your ability to look into the eyes and heart.
SPIRITUAL: CONTROL IS AN ILLUSION
There is no such thing as control. Control is an illusion with which we comfort ourselves. But the bottom line is that we have no idea what the next moment will bring. We like to tell ourselves that the next moment will bring this or that, but we don't know for sure. There is no freedom in trying to control reality of thoughts of people or anything else. For then you are tied to an outcome. You are not free, yours sense of well-being and happiness depends on the actions of other people. You develop a codependent relationship with the rest of the world. True freedom means not depending upon anything outside of you, because there is no you to whom anything is happening. It is a wish that if a certain thing happen then I will be happy. It is the heart of the if-then way of being in the world. If this happens,,,then I can be happy.
SPIRITUAL/LOVE: WHY DO I KEEP ATTRACTING THE SAME TYPE OF PEOPLE......OR WHAT IS STOPPING ME FROM MEETING THE ONE?
The most common email I keep getting is ...WHY DO I KEEP ATTRACTING THE SAME TYPE OF PEOPLE? Or WHAT IS STOPPING ME FROM MEETING THE ONE?
Our soulmate seldom appeal to our personality (our ego). That's why they are called called soulmate and not egomates. ;-) I believe that all of us who long for love have ideal partners we are destined to meet in this life. But sadly, many of us will never bother to woo and win the one who would have suited us the best. You see...if you let your limited aspect of your mind direct your romantic affairs, you were probably too busy falling madly in love with the wrong people to spare him or her much attention. Chances are you won't recognize your meant-to-be-love next time you meet either because ....chances are ...he or she isn't your type.
Soulmate is someone your soul desires (not your ego desire) to be with because that particular association offers enormous scope fro the expression of love. Once we shift our mental focus from our soul and spirit, it is as if our mind goes off to play in a dream world where each even can be seen from many different point of view. The biggest problem in finding your soulmate or the one ...is that when we are identifying with the ego we've invented to represent us, our romantic choices are strongly influenced by whatever preference, aversion, and prejudices we have. Each ego develop a list of specification for the kind of mate it wants, involving the particular physical characteristics it has been conditioned to find attractive, as well as the manner, temperament, social standing, beliefs it associate with as an ideal life partner. We we encounter someone who closely corresponds to your ego's concept of the ideal partner, our false self is thrilled and fancies itself in love.
When we allow our false self...the ego to run our love life, the partner it choose are not likely to be the ones that will make us happy. Our ego is only interested in the dramatic possibilities of relationship, not their potential as opportunities for sharing love. You see..if we get caught up in identification with our ego, we are going to have a hard time recognizing these ideal mates when they come along.
PART II
Individual who attract our ego are seldom the ones our souls deeply desires to be with, and our soulmate are often people who look all wrong to our ego. As long as we continue identifying with false sense of self, we are doomed to pursue one partner after another who fascinates our ego, but has little to offer us at the level of our soul. Unfortunately, most of u are so caught up in ego identification that we have very little awareness of our soul and its desires. We can see that we always seem to fall in love with people who wind up disappointing us, be we have no idea what we'd need to do differently in order to create better outcomes.
Your soulmate are not selected in consultation with your ego. Your false self know nothing whatever about how to recognize an ideal mate. This is probably a very good thing, since your ego is actually dead against you ever finding true love. There is simply no way to make good romantic choices unless we are either in touch with our true self. As long as your false self is running things, you can expect to walk by ideal partners without the least suspicion of all they have to offer. Ego are very prone to instant infatuation with anyone who is especially powerful, good-looking and glamorous. People fall in love at first sight with folks like Brad Pitt and Michelle Pfeiffer everyday, but that doesn't mean that they are these movie stars soulmates--or even that they really love them.
PART III
Fake relationship are all about how love is supposed to be, In pursuing them, we do our best to achieve a union where everything looks perfect, regardless of the way it feels. The ego's fantasy of this fake love involves a partner so obviously desirable that he or she reflects glory on us ever time we are seen together. A courtship during which both parties do a flawless portrayal of people in love, culminates in a fairy-tale perfect wedding. Then the lucky couple goes off to live happily ever after. It will be perfect as long as everyone does their damnedest to keep up appearances.
Unfortunately, concern with the outward appearance of a relationship always comes at the expense of content. It is exhausting to hold a pose for five minutes, much less a lifetime, and however perfect special relationship look from the outside, they leave the people involve feeling empty and alone. Both know they are valued only for the act they can put on, and that any attempt to reveal their true selves will be regarded as breach of contract.
Soul relationship are only achieved only when we forget about the frame and focus on the content...the glorious way it feels to be with someone we truly enjoy. And these soulmate relationship are nothing out of the ordinary. Your friends aren't going to drop dead with envy when you walk into a room on the arm of a man whose chief appear lies is that he understands who you are, shares your enthusiasm, and enjoy hanging out with you. You can finally stop smiling for the camera and be yourself.
Do you begin to see what I mean about real love being too ordinary to compete with our ego's dream of achieving glory through the conquest of a very special partner?
PART IV
The ego is dedicated to make sure you will never find love...why? become the ego will dissolve on contact with love. The ego offer us a substitute for love...call chemistry....it is a exhilarating sense of walking on air, an idealized view of our beloved. It encompass the whole stellation of physical, mental, and emotional experience we associate with falling in love as opposed to simply loving. So when our brain is blissfully surfing on a wave of chemistry---all other things become trivial...like she might not want kids, or she might be a workaholic. Confident that a great love like this must command heaven's blessing and both parties will climb mountains and swim oceans as required....please!!!!!!!!. The bliss that characterizes the early phases deteriorates quickly once it become clear that neither party is going to live up to the other extravagant expectations. Eventually resentment sets in and we don't desire those we resent, no matter how attractive we may once have thought them.Chemistry is an emotion fueled by tension between hope and fear, while love rest upon a calm sense of trust. Chemistry is intensely exciting, while love is peaceful. Chemistry ...being conditional drives us to make a good impression, while love makes us feel safe enough to relax to be ourselves. Chemistry is blind where love gives us insight.
The sense of euphoric invulnerability we experience can rapidly collapse. Discovering faults in our partner that were perfectly obvious to everyone else all along. Qualities once were charming don't look half so endearing anymore. Like I can't believe I've finally found a woman with such exquisite taste and sensitivity...all too soon deteriorates into nothing is ever good enough for her.
Your ego isn't looking for love, but for someone with whom to play out its favorite romantic fantasies. Our ego tents to gravitate toward individual who unconsciously remind us of our earliest caretaker who embody the more frustrating characteristics of our parents because with such people appears to offer opportunities to obtain compensation for all of the disappointment we experience at the hands of our parents.Since your early childhood as so deprived, your ego argues, it is only fair that your new partner give way to you in everything. After all, life owes you a great deal and if you don't get it from your sweetheart...where are you ever going to get it? The correct answer is is nowhere. The kind of selfless care and attention a parent lavishes upon a infant is different from a loving relationship.
Our soulmate seldom appeal to our personality (our ego). That's why they are called called soulmate and not egomates. ;-) I believe that all of us who long for love have ideal partners we are destined to meet in this life. But sadly, many of us will never bother to woo and win the one who would have suited us the best. You see...if you let your limited aspect of your mind direct your romantic affairs, you were probably too busy falling madly in love with the wrong people to spare him or her much attention. Chances are you won't recognize your meant-to-be-love next time you meet either because ....chances are ...he or she isn't your type.
Soulmate is someone your soul desires (not your ego desire) to be with because that particular association offers enormous scope fro the expression of love. Once we shift our mental focus from our soul and spirit, it is as if our mind goes off to play in a dream world where each even can be seen from many different point of view. The biggest problem in finding your soulmate or the one ...is that when we are identifying with the ego we've invented to represent us, our romantic choices are strongly influenced by whatever preference, aversion, and prejudices we have. Each ego develop a list of specification for the kind of mate it wants, involving the particular physical characteristics it has been conditioned to find attractive, as well as the manner, temperament, social standing, beliefs it associate with as an ideal life partner. We we encounter someone who closely corresponds to your ego's concept of the ideal partner, our false self is thrilled and fancies itself in love.
When we allow our false self...the ego to run our love life, the partner it choose are not likely to be the ones that will make us happy. Our ego is only interested in the dramatic possibilities of relationship, not their potential as opportunities for sharing love. You see..if we get caught up in identification with our ego, we are going to have a hard time recognizing these ideal mates when they come along.
PART II
Individual who attract our ego are seldom the ones our souls deeply desires to be with, and our soulmate are often people who look all wrong to our ego. As long as we continue identifying with false sense of self, we are doomed to pursue one partner after another who fascinates our ego, but has little to offer us at the level of our soul. Unfortunately, most of u are so caught up in ego identification that we have very little awareness of our soul and its desires. We can see that we always seem to fall in love with people who wind up disappointing us, be we have no idea what we'd need to do differently in order to create better outcomes.
Your soulmate are not selected in consultation with your ego. Your false self know nothing whatever about how to recognize an ideal mate. This is probably a very good thing, since your ego is actually dead against you ever finding true love. There is simply no way to make good romantic choices unless we are either in touch with our true self. As long as your false self is running things, you can expect to walk by ideal partners without the least suspicion of all they have to offer. Ego are very prone to instant infatuation with anyone who is especially powerful, good-looking and glamorous. People fall in love at first sight with folks like Brad Pitt and Michelle Pfeiffer everyday, but that doesn't mean that they are these movie stars soulmates--or even that they really love them.
PART III
Fake relationship are all about how love is supposed to be, In pursuing them, we do our best to achieve a union where everything looks perfect, regardless of the way it feels. The ego's fantasy of this fake love involves a partner so obviously desirable that he or she reflects glory on us ever time we are seen together. A courtship during which both parties do a flawless portrayal of people in love, culminates in a fairy-tale perfect wedding. Then the lucky couple goes off to live happily ever after. It will be perfect as long as everyone does their damnedest to keep up appearances.
Unfortunately, concern with the outward appearance of a relationship always comes at the expense of content. It is exhausting to hold a pose for five minutes, much less a lifetime, and however perfect special relationship look from the outside, they leave the people involve feeling empty and alone. Both know they are valued only for the act they can put on, and that any attempt to reveal their true selves will be regarded as breach of contract.
Soul relationship are only achieved only when we forget about the frame and focus on the content...the glorious way it feels to be with someone we truly enjoy. And these soulmate relationship are nothing out of the ordinary. Your friends aren't going to drop dead with envy when you walk into a room on the arm of a man whose chief appear lies is that he understands who you are, shares your enthusiasm, and enjoy hanging out with you. You can finally stop smiling for the camera and be yourself.
Do you begin to see what I mean about real love being too ordinary to compete with our ego's dream of achieving glory through the conquest of a very special partner?
PART IV
The ego is dedicated to make sure you will never find love...why? become the ego will dissolve on contact with love. The ego offer us a substitute for love...call chemistry....it is a exhilarating sense of walking on air, an idealized view of our beloved. It encompass the whole stellation of physical, mental, and emotional experience we associate with falling in love as opposed to simply loving. So when our brain is blissfully surfing on a wave of chemistry---all other things become trivial...like she might not want kids, or she might be a workaholic. Confident that a great love like this must command heaven's blessing and both parties will climb mountains and swim oceans as required....please!!!!!!!!. The bliss that characterizes the early phases deteriorates quickly once it become clear that neither party is going to live up to the other extravagant expectations. Eventually resentment sets in and we don't desire those we resent, no matter how attractive we may once have thought them.Chemistry is an emotion fueled by tension between hope and fear, while love rest upon a calm sense of trust. Chemistry is intensely exciting, while love is peaceful. Chemistry ...being conditional drives us to make a good impression, while love makes us feel safe enough to relax to be ourselves. Chemistry is blind where love gives us insight.
The sense of euphoric invulnerability we experience can rapidly collapse. Discovering faults in our partner that were perfectly obvious to everyone else all along. Qualities once were charming don't look half so endearing anymore. Like I can't believe I've finally found a woman with such exquisite taste and sensitivity...all too soon deteriorates into nothing is ever good enough for her.
Your ego isn't looking for love, but for someone with whom to play out its favorite romantic fantasies. Our ego tents to gravitate toward individual who unconsciously remind us of our earliest caretaker who embody the more frustrating characteristics of our parents because with such people appears to offer opportunities to obtain compensation for all of the disappointment we experience at the hands of our parents.Since your early childhood as so deprived, your ego argues, it is only fair that your new partner give way to you in everything. After all, life owes you a great deal and if you don't get it from your sweetheart...where are you ever going to get it? The correct answer is is nowhere. The kind of selfless care and attention a parent lavishes upon a infant is different from a loving relationship.
THOUGHTS/JOURNAL: RATIONALIZE THAT I WAS THE INNOCENT VICTIM
Why do I always have to get mixed up with incredibly stubborn, inflexible woman....maybe because I would have pulverized anyone less tough. I always trying to get the woman in my life to do what I think will be best for both of us....I didn't see how arrogant it is for me to insist on being the one who knows what is best. God gave my partner free will too. They get to have their own point of view and decide for themselves what is best for them.
But if everyone is just going to go their own way, doing their own thing, how do people ever get together? They get together if and when they both want the same things. People properly commit to each other when they both believe that doing so serves their own individual purposes. And they properly stay together just as long as that continues to be true.....I might think that my partner is making a bad decision ....but the point is their decision to make. They shouldn't be tricked, or made to feel like a bad person for not wanting the same thing you do.
Little by little I had began to face the fact that I made most of my partner do something that they didn't think was for their own best interests, just because I had decided that it would be best for both of us. Gradually I came to see that behind my mask of innocence and fragility, I had been shockingly manipulative. Still, it didn't seem all that fair that I was being asked to accept responsibility for such unattractive motives when I had been completely unaware that this was what I had been doing...I was doing this so I could rationalize that I was an innocent victim
POETRY: THE BEAUTY OF YOU AND I
every moment i close my eyes
dreaming of you
is my utmost desire
i always wanted that one morning
i'll open my eyes having you beside me
and dreaming no more
how i wish you are the first light
that shines on me
each time i wake up in the morning
the fragrance of early morning flowers
is but to attest that they too are one
in saying you're my only one
2
If my love for you could be measured by volume,
God's great universe could not hold it all.
If my love for you could be measured in distance,
The farthest star would not be far enough.
If my love for you could be measured in time,
Only God Himself could last longer.
If my love for you could be measured in strength,
Hell's angels could not bring it down.
If my love for you could be measured in desire,
The sun's flames would be only a candle.
My love for you cannot be measured.
My love for you I cannot deny.
I love you that much and with all that I am.
And I will beyond the day that I die.
3
From the bottom of my heart baby
I want you to know....
That I love you more than words can say
or express how I feel for you and you alone!
From the bottom of my heart baby
I say hear and now
Will you marry me?
From the bottom of my heart baby
I know we were meant to be a couple
From day one to now!
I loved you!
From the bottom of my heart baby
To the very edges of the universe1
From the bottom of my heart baby
I thank the Lord for blessing me...
With my very own Angel!
From the bottom of my heart baby
I tell you now, on this very day......
4
A single tear fell upon your cheek,
Removed by stroke of tender touch, sublime,
And touched by love within each other, seek,
To forgive and love until the end of time.
A single kiss upon your eyelid, closed,
Pain unbound - our souls became as one,
Eternal are we... who seek the endless road,
Another day, another dawn... another sun.
5
The words you whisper to me,
are so soft and so dear.
The sound of your voice,
is like sweet thoughts in my ear.
Your scent melts my body,
like ice on a hot day.
Your touch sends chills down my body,
like the first time I met you.
You are everything to me,
my life; my destiny,
and most of all,
you complete me...
6
As a flower in a garden,
At the palace of my heart,
Beneath evening's gentle breeze,
Let you blossom as a queen.
From hands of wild storms,
I'll protect you forever,
In every touch of my poor hand,
Let you feel as cotton leaves.
Lean on me and sleep in my heart,
Endless songs will swing you ever,
In the cradle of your heart,
Let me call you my baby.
Don't cry darling, Oh my heart,
I'll treat you like infant,
I'll feed you all my souls,
And..you will belong to my life.
Oh my dearest sit by me,
Let me eye you forever,
I adore feeling your warm breath,
The fragrant smell of your body,
I am captived by your charm.
Relax beneath the shadow of a tree,
Airing-out your long hair,
Millions of kisses, gift of wind,
Lie in the mood in your rose bed.
Put your cotton hands on my chest,
Feel the breath of my inner drums,
Let it echo ever in your mood,
And.. we will become one.
Every spark of your soft lips,
Flows into a stream of love,
Let us follow, as a river,
Into the deep sea of love.
7
I look
At the wrinkled pillow where you lay
...And the room is darker.
I look
At the back of the chair where you sat
...And the air grows chill.
I look
At the memory
Of the gardenia scent of you,
Of the smile in your eyes
...And am surrounded in light and warmth.
8
It's not shiny and new
it doesn't make any noise
it's not even the color blue
It's not gift wrapped in pretty paper
or, tied with a bow...
you can't touch it,
see it or, smell it
...but, you can feel it.
Close your eyes and feel it.
Can you feel my love flowing over you?
Touch me and feel love...
kiss me and drink love...
hold me and hold love.
look into my eyes and see my love for you.
Now open your eyes and see me...
truly see me and all I have to offer you.
My love is yours to rejoice in.
Let my love into your heart,
let it soothe your soul...
caress your dreams to life...
let my love awaken your heart to the beauty of you and I.
8
conversing with the moon one night
i asked of and about you
"more elusive is she than i" said he
"unheard is her heart, yet it sings
and the voice, soft as a breeze
surely you cannot catch her"
and he left
shaking the trees in passing
conversing with the sun one day
i asked of and about you
"more brilliant is she than i" said he
"unseen is her soul
yet happiness abounds there
and her smile chases away clouds
surely you cannot win her"
and he left
raising the temperature in passing
conversing with the sea one afternoon
i asked of and about you
"more fluid is she than i" said she
"unquenched is her love, it surpasses all
surely you cannot satiate her"
and she left
throwing the waves that were her hair about wildly
conversing with an angel in a dream
i asked of and about you
"more in love with you is she than anyone" she said
"it is seen in her eyes, sung in her heart, felt in her soul
all you could ever ask for is there for the taking
surely you must have seen it, heard it, felt it?
the sun, moon and sea have always wanted her...
all she ever wanted was you"
and she left
placing me in my love's arms...
9
Through every breath I take,
It doesn't take the ache,
After every step- I move on,
The face I have, I fall upon,
Your touch upon my heart,
Those feelings will stay- never depart,
The faith within will never go,
Your true love, I know,
Faithful in all ways,
You leave me in such a daze,
Within my life you are so abundant,
I hope and pray you don't become redundant,
Your love, your life, my longing,
That one smile, that amazing beauty,
One day ahead... it will shine.
10
What is it to love, my dear,
what is it to feel, my love,
what is it to see, my sweet,
what others do not?
what is it, my dear,
to wake up and think of someone so dearly
as i would of u?
what is it, my love,
to breathe the air so fresh
knowing that u r breathing it too?
what is it, my sweet,
to say the words so true
when i know that they r meant for u?
what is it, my dear,
that makes me feel so much for u?
why do i see u the way i see u, my dear?
why do i look at u and see what i wish to see?
what is it, my love, to know that u do miss me
in times when i miss u so dearly?
what is it with me, my dear,
to feel so much as this...
what have u done, my love,
to make me a man so deranged?
is it love, my dear,
or is it a passing wind of emotions...
what is it to ride the waves
and see a diving dophin or two...
what is it to fly through the clouds
and emerge the other side looking at mountains so blue...
that is how i feel, my dear,
ever since u smiled to me with those eyes so endearingly
what is it, my dearest,
to be just with u?
to spend the rest of my days
with someone as special as u...
11
As I lie my head down to sleep,
I hope to only have sweet, wonderful dreams of you.
As I slowly close my eyes, I instantly see your face...
so pure...so sweet.
I see your caring smile and beautiful eyes.
I see you giving me the look
that makes me melt like ice cream in the hot July sun.
I notice the way you move, the way you fixed your hair
and the way you look so sweet and caring
among the field of the purest roses.
Then you hold your strong yet gentle arms out,
only to embrace me with all the love and care
one could possibly ever want.
And as I look up, into your beautiful eyes,
Our eyes lock...
And in that moment, that lasted forever it seemed,
I caught a short yet entrancing glimpse of my...
Angel in Disguise.
12
As I stare out of my window into the night,
Thoughts of you linger in my mind
Wondering where you are
Wondering what you are doing
Wondering if you're thinking about me
Longing to be there
Beide you
Inside you- into your mind's inner thoughts
Exploring your dreams
Making them reality
Realizing that my dreams are you
And that yours are of me
Wishing to fly into your room
Like an angel of love
To stroke your hair
To touch your face
To lay beside you
To let you awaken, and find me there
Having you gaze into my eyes
And know that I"ll always be there
In dreams and in reality
To give you happiness
Because I love you
dreaming of you
is my utmost desire
i always wanted that one morning
i'll open my eyes having you beside me
and dreaming no more
how i wish you are the first light
that shines on me
each time i wake up in the morning
the fragrance of early morning flowers
is but to attest that they too are one
in saying you're my only one
2
If my love for you could be measured by volume,
God's great universe could not hold it all.
If my love for you could be measured in distance,
The farthest star would not be far enough.
If my love for you could be measured in time,
Only God Himself could last longer.
If my love for you could be measured in strength,
Hell's angels could not bring it down.
If my love for you could be measured in desire,
The sun's flames would be only a candle.
My love for you cannot be measured.
My love for you I cannot deny.
I love you that much and with all that I am.
And I will beyond the day that I die.
3
From the bottom of my heart baby
I want you to know....
That I love you more than words can say
or express how I feel for you and you alone!
From the bottom of my heart baby
I say hear and now
Will you marry me?
From the bottom of my heart baby
I know we were meant to be a couple
From day one to now!
I loved you!
From the bottom of my heart baby
To the very edges of the universe1
From the bottom of my heart baby
I thank the Lord for blessing me...
With my very own Angel!
From the bottom of my heart baby
I tell you now, on this very day......
4
A single tear fell upon your cheek,
Removed by stroke of tender touch, sublime,
And touched by love within each other, seek,
To forgive and love until the end of time.
A single kiss upon your eyelid, closed,
Pain unbound - our souls became as one,
Eternal are we... who seek the endless road,
Another day, another dawn... another sun.
5
The words you whisper to me,
are so soft and so dear.
The sound of your voice,
is like sweet thoughts in my ear.
Your scent melts my body,
like ice on a hot day.
Your touch sends chills down my body,
like the first time I met you.
You are everything to me,
my life; my destiny,
and most of all,
you complete me...
6
As a flower in a garden,
At the palace of my heart,
Beneath evening's gentle breeze,
Let you blossom as a queen.
From hands of wild storms,
I'll protect you forever,
In every touch of my poor hand,
Let you feel as cotton leaves.
Lean on me and sleep in my heart,
Endless songs will swing you ever,
In the cradle of your heart,
Let me call you my baby.
Don't cry darling, Oh my heart,
I'll treat you like infant,
I'll feed you all my souls,
And..you will belong to my life.
Oh my dearest sit by me,
Let me eye you forever,
I adore feeling your warm breath,
The fragrant smell of your body,
I am captived by your charm.
Relax beneath the shadow of a tree,
Airing-out your long hair,
Millions of kisses, gift of wind,
Lie in the mood in your rose bed.
Put your cotton hands on my chest,
Feel the breath of my inner drums,
Let it echo ever in your mood,
And.. we will become one.
Every spark of your soft lips,
Flows into a stream of love,
Let us follow, as a river,
Into the deep sea of love.
7
I look
At the wrinkled pillow where you lay
...And the room is darker.
I look
At the back of the chair where you sat
...And the air grows chill.
I look
At the memory
Of the gardenia scent of you,
Of the smile in your eyes
...And am surrounded in light and warmth.
8
It's not shiny and new
it doesn't make any noise
it's not even the color blue
It's not gift wrapped in pretty paper
or, tied with a bow...
you can't touch it,
see it or, smell it
...but, you can feel it.
Close your eyes and feel it.
Can you feel my love flowing over you?
Touch me and feel love...
kiss me and drink love...
hold me and hold love.
look into my eyes and see my love for you.
Now open your eyes and see me...
truly see me and all I have to offer you.
My love is yours to rejoice in.
Let my love into your heart,
let it soothe your soul...
caress your dreams to life...
let my love awaken your heart to the beauty of you and I.
8
conversing with the moon one night
i asked of and about you
"more elusive is she than i" said he
"unheard is her heart, yet it sings
and the voice, soft as a breeze
surely you cannot catch her"
and he left
shaking the trees in passing
conversing with the sun one day
i asked of and about you
"more brilliant is she than i" said he
"unseen is her soul
yet happiness abounds there
and her smile chases away clouds
surely you cannot win her"
and he left
raising the temperature in passing
conversing with the sea one afternoon
i asked of and about you
"more fluid is she than i" said she
"unquenched is her love, it surpasses all
surely you cannot satiate her"
and she left
throwing the waves that were her hair about wildly
conversing with an angel in a dream
i asked of and about you
"more in love with you is she than anyone" she said
"it is seen in her eyes, sung in her heart, felt in her soul
all you could ever ask for is there for the taking
surely you must have seen it, heard it, felt it?
the sun, moon and sea have always wanted her...
all she ever wanted was you"
and she left
placing me in my love's arms...
9
Through every breath I take,
It doesn't take the ache,
After every step- I move on,
The face I have, I fall upon,
Your touch upon my heart,
Those feelings will stay- never depart,
The faith within will never go,
Your true love, I know,
Faithful in all ways,
You leave me in such a daze,
Within my life you are so abundant,
I hope and pray you don't become redundant,
Your love, your life, my longing,
That one smile, that amazing beauty,
One day ahead... it will shine.
10
What is it to love, my dear,
what is it to feel, my love,
what is it to see, my sweet,
what others do not?
what is it, my dear,
to wake up and think of someone so dearly
as i would of u?
what is it, my love,
to breathe the air so fresh
knowing that u r breathing it too?
what is it, my sweet,
to say the words so true
when i know that they r meant for u?
what is it, my dear,
that makes me feel so much for u?
why do i see u the way i see u, my dear?
why do i look at u and see what i wish to see?
what is it, my love, to know that u do miss me
in times when i miss u so dearly?
what is it with me, my dear,
to feel so much as this...
what have u done, my love,
to make me a man so deranged?
is it love, my dear,
or is it a passing wind of emotions...
what is it to ride the waves
and see a diving dophin or two...
what is it to fly through the clouds
and emerge the other side looking at mountains so blue...
that is how i feel, my dear,
ever since u smiled to me with those eyes so endearingly
what is it, my dearest,
to be just with u?
to spend the rest of my days
with someone as special as u...
11
As I lie my head down to sleep,
I hope to only have sweet, wonderful dreams of you.
As I slowly close my eyes, I instantly see your face...
so pure...so sweet.
I see your caring smile and beautiful eyes.
I see you giving me the look
that makes me melt like ice cream in the hot July sun.
I notice the way you move, the way you fixed your hair
and the way you look so sweet and caring
among the field of the purest roses.
Then you hold your strong yet gentle arms out,
only to embrace me with all the love and care
one could possibly ever want.
And as I look up, into your beautiful eyes,
Our eyes lock...
And in that moment, that lasted forever it seemed,
I caught a short yet entrancing glimpse of my...
Angel in Disguise.
12
As I stare out of my window into the night,
Thoughts of you linger in my mind
Wondering where you are
Wondering what you are doing
Wondering if you're thinking about me
Longing to be there
Beide you
Inside you- into your mind's inner thoughts
Exploring your dreams
Making them reality
Realizing that my dreams are you
And that yours are of me
Wishing to fly into your room
Like an angel of love
To stroke your hair
To touch your face
To lay beside you
To let you awaken, and find me there
Having you gaze into my eyes
And know that I"ll always be there
In dreams and in reality
To give you happiness
Because I love you
LOVE LETTER/SPIRITUAL: THE ONLY WAY TWO PEOPLE CAN EVER REALLY MEET IS IN THE HEART
There is no way two people can understand each other if they use their mind. It's impossible. Nor is it ever possible to link on the emotional level. because that level, while it give interesting texture to the current world..that level is based in ego. The only way two people can ever really meet is in the heart. So no mater how much acceptance or how many agreement a couple makes, they still will not be satisfied. They will not be happy, because they are still alone. And they are not meant to be alone. Until they learn to love with the heart, to communicate with the heart---until then they will always be unhappy. They will feel alone. A part of them will still be looking for the unnamed thing that will finally make them happy.Without understanding what they are feeling...they feel it pressing them and pushing them to reach for something they cannot name. People cannot settle for life without love. but all they know in life without love. They have no idea how to get that love.
It is the belief in love that surpasses every other thing in life. It is a desire for love before which all else pales. it is the assumption of love--the knowing it is there. It is awakening to your first breath being a prayer for love---that this day will be the day you truly experience love. It is falling asleep in gratitude for every gilded moment in which love shone upon you. Love in one moment can do more than thousands of prayers. Love can heal you. It can lift you. I can take the blinders of ego from your eyes. As you make your choice for love, suddenly it will be obvious what does not fit. For though you may not know where love take you, you know you will be home.
Only in relationship can we see ourselves and this includes me. Thus, in my relationship with you...I come to know myself. As long as you believe you are still searching for love, than you will continue to search. Stop and believe and I will manifest before you.The moment you say yes to love...the moment you allow the warm sun of my love to thaw the frozen core of fear within you, it will be obvious. It will be obvious from the moment that you have been playing in the shadows. Now, my beloved one, I am turning your precious eyes homeward. I am calling to you and you cannot resist because love is your nature.
I want you to realize that I have never ever doubted, even for an instant, that your heart was mine. I have loved. I have waited. I have watched as you grew into a beautiful woman for this was our plan.I say this to you to express my total love for you. I promise you that in one moment of connection with you, if you are present...all or your doubt and all of fear will fall away.
It is the belief in love that surpasses every other thing in life. It is a desire for love before which all else pales. it is the assumption of love--the knowing it is there. It is awakening to your first breath being a prayer for love---that this day will be the day you truly experience love. It is falling asleep in gratitude for every gilded moment in which love shone upon you. Love in one moment can do more than thousands of prayers. Love can heal you. It can lift you. I can take the blinders of ego from your eyes. As you make your choice for love, suddenly it will be obvious what does not fit. For though you may not know where love take you, you know you will be home.
Only in relationship can we see ourselves and this includes me. Thus, in my relationship with you...I come to know myself. As long as you believe you are still searching for love, than you will continue to search. Stop and believe and I will manifest before you.The moment you say yes to love...the moment you allow the warm sun of my love to thaw the frozen core of fear within you, it will be obvious. It will be obvious from the moment that you have been playing in the shadows. Now, my beloved one, I am turning your precious eyes homeward. I am calling to you and you cannot resist because love is your nature.
I want you to realize that I have never ever doubted, even for an instant, that your heart was mine. I have loved. I have waited. I have watched as you grew into a beautiful woman for this was our plan.I say this to you to express my total love for you. I promise you that in one moment of connection with you, if you are present...all or your doubt and all of fear will fall away.
SPIRITUAL: SPIRITUALITY ISN'T ABOUT BEING PERFECT
I have met alot of people who expect perfectionism in oneself or another. I consider that as a disease...Spirituality isn't about being perfect. You are no perfect and either am I...the point is to find a person who will disappoint you in ways that are tolerable, because everyone will disappoint you somehow. Accept that...people are imperfect. We all make mistakes. But it is in choosing wisely the person you give your heart to that you can find somebody who will disappoint you in ways you can live with. You can't deal with adultery, but you can life with occasional bouts of self-absorption. Know you baseline and stick to it. I always fell for highly intelligent, beautiful, extremely sensitive woman with a predilection toward being strong and masculine. But as I evolve, I have skipped entirely this form of poison that attract me. The pull may still be strong,,,but it is less so.
SPIRITUAL: PUTTING YOURSELF IN ANOTHER'S SHOES
When I pass the homeless in the street asking for money...i usually give it. The ability to put yourself in another's shoes and in doing so, lose your identification with small self, with all the sense of entitlement and self-absorption that leaves us all so isolated and lonely, is a relief. In the lack of identification with self, you become more sensitive to, and compassionate with, what is happening with other people, whether they are your lover or a perfect stranger. Compassion is the highest form of love because you are not getting the high associated with romantic love or support that comes with love of friends and family. There is no quid pro quo. You are able to show up and be loving.
SPIRITUAL/LOVE: THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOUR SOUL AND YOUR EGO
The difference between your soul and that of our ego is that your soul believe love is real and fear is not, while ego believes that fear is real and love is not. When you allow your ego to direct your search for love, you are actually asking the only thing in the universe that doesn't know what love is, to find it for you.
What is the ego?
God is love.We want to forget that we are GOD for a while, so that we could play at being creators ourselves. And since everything that God creates is a perfect reflection of divine love, the only way we could generate an experience that would be our uniquely our own was to make up an imperfect world where love's opposite--fear would appear to rule. Thus fear is our own original contribution to an otherwise loving universe.
The ego's problem is that any experience of love, however attenuated, threatens to trigger our memory of reality, and spoil the game we game to play. Its job is to make sure that doesn't happen. We compare the ego to the weight belt a scuba diver dons to counteract her natural buoyancy. If a diver took off her weight belt, we would quickly bob back up to the surface. If you and I released identification with our ego, we would quickly bob back into reality, where it would be apparent that love is everywhere. The fact is that whenever we genuinely care for anyone, we do bob back to reality, although briefly. That's why being in love is so heavenly.
Our ego knows perfectly well that love is the only thing we really want or need. This leave us with no alternative but to become embroiled in our search for the one. When your ego offers to help you find love, it doesn't mean real love---the unconditional kind that fills you, and those around you. To find that kind of love would meant the death of your ego and you will only relate only with your soul. No, the kind of love your ego has in mind for you is something quite different.
You see, the human romantic dilemma isn't that true love is so very hard to fin, but that it is too ordinary to withstand comparison with the exotic illusions our ego offers in its place. Infatuation ravishes our senses, and seems to promise gratification beyond our wildest dreams. Unfortunately, when we mistake it for the genuine article, we slowly starve for love even as we seem to gorge ourselves on it. Real love is actually characterized by simple virtues...like patience, forgiveness, tolerance, humor, gentleness, empathy, tact, honesty, and practical support.
Most woman I think met alot of nice guys with a great sense of humor,,...but think because of looks or whatever that this person is not my type. Nice feel awfully good, but it is of no use whatsoever to our ego in its quest for glory. He's a nice guy but I'm not attracted to him.Beside don't you think he's kind of boring? For the ego, boring is a code word meaning--not likely to betray, frustrate, or neglect me as I once thought my parents did. Oh, and I love when people say, "You can't control your heart, can you? The problem isn't the heart, but the misplaced allegiance to the ego. When we identify with our ego's point of view, we think it is ours. We imagine that in pusuing the partners who attract it, we are doing what we want. What they don't get is that you might met someone who appeals to your ego and takes you to expensive restaurants dinner and trendy parties....they might look fabulous together...but that is where it ends. At the end of the relationship most woman who were madly in love with that type of guy only a few hours earlier,,, will find themselves longing for the moment when he is gone. They will realize that all the rich, handsome, sophisticated guys they were dating was a indication of how shallow they were. Their relationship were all about romantic fantasy and looking good in public. Not of these men they dated was anyone they could confide in. All they wanted was a beautiful woman they could show off.
You see...you have to pay more attention to the way being with a man feel than to your ego's idea about how an ideal relationship is suppose to look. I can only tell you from my experience that being someone who is your soulmate makes you like yourself when you are with them. When I tried being myself with other woman, I always picked up a kind of subtle disapproval, so I'd go back to trying to be what I thought they wanted. I figured the only way to win the prize (PUSSY AND LOVE) was to play the game, and do whatever was necessary to make her like me.
When you are with someone who like you...they accept you completely and that acceptance will encourage you to come out of hiding. The strange thing is that you will have no idea how much of yourself you were hiding. That person will give you something that you never knew you could have...and that is being cherished.
What is the ego?
God is love.We want to forget that we are GOD for a while, so that we could play at being creators ourselves. And since everything that God creates is a perfect reflection of divine love, the only way we could generate an experience that would be our uniquely our own was to make up an imperfect world where love's opposite--fear would appear to rule. Thus fear is our own original contribution to an otherwise loving universe.
The ego's problem is that any experience of love, however attenuated, threatens to trigger our memory of reality, and spoil the game we game to play. Its job is to make sure that doesn't happen. We compare the ego to the weight belt a scuba diver dons to counteract her natural buoyancy. If a diver took off her weight belt, we would quickly bob back up to the surface. If you and I released identification with our ego, we would quickly bob back into reality, where it would be apparent that love is everywhere. The fact is that whenever we genuinely care for anyone, we do bob back to reality, although briefly. That's why being in love is so heavenly.
Our ego knows perfectly well that love is the only thing we really want or need. This leave us with no alternative but to become embroiled in our search for the one. When your ego offers to help you find love, it doesn't mean real love---the unconditional kind that fills you, and those around you. To find that kind of love would meant the death of your ego and you will only relate only with your soul. No, the kind of love your ego has in mind for you is something quite different.
You see, the human romantic dilemma isn't that true love is so very hard to fin, but that it is too ordinary to withstand comparison with the exotic illusions our ego offers in its place. Infatuation ravishes our senses, and seems to promise gratification beyond our wildest dreams. Unfortunately, when we mistake it for the genuine article, we slowly starve for love even as we seem to gorge ourselves on it. Real love is actually characterized by simple virtues...like patience, forgiveness, tolerance, humor, gentleness, empathy, tact, honesty, and practical support.
Most woman I think met alot of nice guys with a great sense of humor,,...but think because of looks or whatever that this person is not my type. Nice feel awfully good, but it is of no use whatsoever to our ego in its quest for glory. He's a nice guy but I'm not attracted to him.Beside don't you think he's kind of boring? For the ego, boring is a code word meaning--not likely to betray, frustrate, or neglect me as I once thought my parents did. Oh, and I love when people say, "You can't control your heart, can you? The problem isn't the heart, but the misplaced allegiance to the ego. When we identify with our ego's point of view, we think it is ours. We imagine that in pusuing the partners who attract it, we are doing what we want. What they don't get is that you might met someone who appeals to your ego and takes you to expensive restaurants dinner and trendy parties....they might look fabulous together...but that is where it ends. At the end of the relationship most woman who were madly in love with that type of guy only a few hours earlier,,, will find themselves longing for the moment when he is gone. They will realize that all the rich, handsome, sophisticated guys they were dating was a indication of how shallow they were. Their relationship were all about romantic fantasy and looking good in public. Not of these men they dated was anyone they could confide in. All they wanted was a beautiful woman they could show off.
You see...you have to pay more attention to the way being with a man feel than to your ego's idea about how an ideal relationship is suppose to look. I can only tell you from my experience that being someone who is your soulmate makes you like yourself when you are with them. When I tried being myself with other woman, I always picked up a kind of subtle disapproval, so I'd go back to trying to be what I thought they wanted. I figured the only way to win the prize (PUSSY AND LOVE) was to play the game, and do whatever was necessary to make her like me.
When you are with someone who like you...they accept you completely and that acceptance will encourage you to come out of hiding. The strange thing is that you will have no idea how much of yourself you were hiding. That person will give you something that you never knew you could have...and that is being cherished.
LOVE: THE LOVE THAT IS THE HARDEST TO WIN IS NOT THE KIND THAT IS MOST WORTH HAVING....TRUST ME
I have learned that the more difficult it is to please a lover----the less we can count upon her to be considerate, faithful, and honest. Many of us go through life unconsciously believing that the love that is the hardest to win must be the kind that is most worth having. The worse we are treated, the more we try to please. Well that is not me. In the grip of this kind of insanity, individuals who would make wonderful partners don't even register on the radar. I like woman who give things easily...their heart, their pussy. Love and pussy isn't something that someone should earn....but should be given.
It is so funny to see so many woman praying to God to send them a good, kind man who would not be abusive, and when they met that person...they feel they are not ready to settle yet. At some level, these woman think that they are owed a little bit or romance and excitement...and to met a man who wasn't exciting...just kind and loving and dependable is boring to them. So most woman go after tough guys who are emotionally unavailable and will keep them off balance. There idea of a good time is to pick some attractive loser and go through all the game-playing and melodrama they have to go with a guy who won't be honest with them.
It is so funny to see so many woman praying to God to send them a good, kind man who would not be abusive, and when they met that person...they feel they are not ready to settle yet. At some level, these woman think that they are owed a little bit or romance and excitement...and to met a man who wasn't exciting...just kind and loving and dependable is boring to them. So most woman go after tough guys who are emotionally unavailable and will keep them off balance. There idea of a good time is to pick some attractive loser and go through all the game-playing and melodrama they have to go with a guy who won't be honest with them.
SPIRITUAL/ LOVE: GOD'S WILL FOR US IS ACTUALLY OUR OWN TRUE WILL FOR OURSELVES
The problem is that the you that thinks, speaks, and acts to create the future of your choice is not necessarily you at all. It may well be the false self that is controlled by the ego. We need to understand that each of us has two wills, one that our true self shares with the universe and all other beings, and a split-off individual will that is under the sway of our ego.
When we allow the ego to interpret what we see, we seem to look out upon a frightening,meaningless world where nothing we achieve ever satisfies us for long. However, we can instead choose to surrender to our higher power and make the happy discovery that God's will for us is actually our own true will for ourselves. Your ego, on other hand, wills that you perpetually seek for love, but never find it.
The moment you stop trying to control everything and entrust your safety and happiness to a loving and supportive universe, you'll automatically suspend the fearful, ego-generated thinking that has been holding you back. Because God wills for you what you truly will for yourself, you can safety replace all your positive affirmations with a single all-purpose prayer...Not my will, but thine be done. Simply give up on trying to do things your way...which is to say, your ego's way---and follow the instruction of your divine guide to the fulfillment God wills for you.
When we allow the ego to interpret what we see, we seem to look out upon a frightening,meaningless world where nothing we achieve ever satisfies us for long. However, we can instead choose to surrender to our higher power and make the happy discovery that God's will for us is actually our own true will for ourselves. Your ego, on other hand, wills that you perpetually seek for love, but never find it.
The moment you stop trying to control everything and entrust your safety and happiness to a loving and supportive universe, you'll automatically suspend the fearful, ego-generated thinking that has been holding you back. Because God wills for you what you truly will for yourself, you can safety replace all your positive affirmations with a single all-purpose prayer...Not my will, but thine be done. Simply give up on trying to do things your way...which is to say, your ego's way---and follow the instruction of your divine guide to the fulfillment God wills for you.
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