LOVE LETTER: LETTER FROM THE PAST

I wrote these letter a long long time ago. When I got divorced I deleted every post of my ex. I decided to put old email up again.

My Dearest Darling;

I saw a sunset today, a beautiful sunset. It reminded me of you and of us. Do you recall how we would measure our days by the sunsets we saw? We would always take the time to stop

and watch them, no matter where we were.

Remember the orange and red sunset over the plains of the Serengeti—we held hands like school kids and drew each other close, hearing the lions roar just beyond our fires.  But the ones I recall most fondly were the morning sunrises on Miami Beach. It was always enough to take my breath away, as long as I was there with you, my love. Breathtaking! The simple silent beauty, there is nothing on earth like it and to spend it with you was like gold.

My favorite sunset of all time was on our cruise and we were dining on board, sailing the blue green waters of the Caribbean. From our window table we could faintly see the soft yellow rays of the setting sun. Together we grabbed our champagne glasses and left our dinner to be alone. We watched the most gorgeous sunset of all. I cherish times such as those, my love. Every time I see a sunset, I think of you and remember your beauty and what you mean to me. Each sunrise and sunset brings us closer together. Which sunsets do you recall as your favorite? Which sunrises do you cherish? I count the sunsets until we are together again. 

I love you and miss you.

Forever,

PART 2

My Dearest Darling,

I miss you. Some feelings are expressed so simply. If it was in my power I would be there, be there by your side.  Time that I know cannot be replaced. Like the sands of an hour glass, one grain at a time, it drops away, silently but evermore, never to be found again. I will write you. Be comforted by the fact you will always be in my thoughts… Remember, just a short few weeks ago we celebrated New Year‟s Eve. You looked breathtaking in your shimmering evening gown and I know you loved me in my tux, as we danced around the dance floor. I love dancing with you. As we spiraled the Waltz together, moved to the beat of the Samba and Cha Cha and set the dance floor afire with the closeness of our Tango.

Then the band had to play your favorite song,  and you looked at me, grabbed my hand and the champagne, while we rushed to welcome in the New Year.

We always believed that how you spend New Year‟s Eve is how you spend the rest of the year. I love you my dearest, always remember that. 

Forever,

PART 3

My Dearest Darling,

I awoke this morning to the scent of freshly cut grass hanging in the air and it reminded me of our picnics high on the hill overlooking the river. Remember? On our way there, you always insisted on stopping by the small nearby cemetery and paying respects to the unknown dearly departed. You stopped to pull weeds from around the neglected headstones. You always said it was the least we could do, since no one else seemed to care.

I always loved that about you, the way you cared so much for strangers, little children and those who needed a champion. You were so kind to everyone. I miss that in this world of “me first” or “me only” attitudes. I was always so touched by your sincere caring for those you never knew. Afterwards we spread our blanket under the shadow of the tall oak tree, which overlooked the river and we watched the barges travel by with their long loads, mesmerizing our senses with their rhythmic approach to life.

I recall your hand picked blades of grass from my shirt and gently moved the hair from my forehead. I remember your kiss as we lay on the blanket, the world now filled with only two people, you and me. I miss those wondrous days. Miss you. I must go now.

Forever,

PART 4

My Dearest Darling,

I have tried to recite the poems you loved so much  Remember, „I will take my life into my hands, and I will use it?‟ Remember those words? Sing those words. Sing loud and sing clear, they are almost as understanding as your poetry.

Remember the large butter-like pads of baked garlic, floating in olive oil. We would spread it like butter on fresh Italian bread. So sweet, but I still don't know what their recipe was to make it so fine and wonderful. Remember the pillow-like softness of the gnocchi? The sweet homemade rosemary and basil pesto? The delicious Chianti you love? And the Sangiovese for me. The best! And then we would go dancing at the JW Beach Hotel nearby on the beach. Remember reading  in bed to each other, until we fell fast asleep? Lying so close to you, I could smell  the sweetness of your perfume. I loved touching your hair. I can still feel the softness in my hands.

I remember all of this but most of all, I recall the simple touch, the smile from across the room that you would send to my heart. I was always the touchy feely kind of guy and it pierces my heart to be denied the treasure of your touch. I do miss you so. One takes so many things for granted until they are denied and the desire is heightened. I remember—

Oh, thou hallowed heart rings true,

Thy deep abode in dark so fires my soul

Thru the darkest hours I have yearned of thee,

Must I be gone, to have my heart ring so loud,

Whilst you return to me

Thy arms, eyes, smile and thee

See, I did remember my love. Please  hold it close, save it and we shall cuddle before the fireplace and read 'til dawn. I must go now. Soon, my love, soon.

I love you, my dearest.

Forever,

PART 5

My Dearest Darling,

I recall the yellow cotton dress, do you? Do you remember the first time we ventured to the Long beach? I always hated the beach, too sandy, too windy, too dirty and way too much trouble. You my love, reminded me of the beauty that the beach has to offer. You said the sand was once living shells, or coral or bones pounded by the relentless ocean into tiny particles of pleasure for us to enjoy to squish between our toes.

Remember you said we should treat it with respect as if it were a temple in honor of all those who had gone before. We should remember all of those living organisms that have given their lives to provide the soft, warm sands meant only to give pleasure to the soles of our feet. Your eyes see things so differently than most, and when I think of the beach I think of us, so close and your appreciation of the world so profound, so human and so understanding. I love that about you, among so many other countless things which I adore about you, my love. I am never out of sight of your love or your emotions, for I am always reminded of how you view the world.

PART 6

My Dearest Darling

I heard a laugh the other day and it brought back memories of us. Remember the time we decided to bake a cake and spent all that time waiting for it to rise, only to discover we had

forgotten some key ingredients? Your mother was kind in her suggestion for us to take up skydiving instead. We laughed for years anytime we would order cake for dessert. Your laugh would start from the corner of your lips and spread upward until it reached you eyes, causing them to twinkle. You had different laughs for different times.

Your laugh with me came from the depths of your soul, seasoned with sweetness and tempered with respect and trust. I miss that laugh so much my love. I still remember your laugh from that evening. Laugh today. Laugh tomorrow. Laugh until you cry. Laugh as if we are together for I miss you so. Always remember…

Must go my darling.

Forever,

PART 7

My Dearest Darling,

I saw a bird, a large white bird soaring overhead today and it reminded me of the seagulls we used to feed on the beach. Whenever I touch my braceket you gave me, not only does it remind me of you but reaffirms this magical connection between us.We were determined that no one would separate us, ever, and we held our hands clasped so tightly together no one could pull us apart. You always said how a couple spends their time is how they spend the rest of their lives. We spent ours together! I always tell everyone it was the happiest day of my life.

Do you recall, we recited verses to each other quoting from your old friend, Elizabeth Barrett Browning? (I left out the first line which you hated so, thinking it overused.)

I love thee to the depth and breadth and height

My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight

For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

I love thee to the level of everyday's

Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.

I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;

I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I love thee with a passion put to use

In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose

With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath,

Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose,

I shall but love thee better after death.

I can't believe I remembered the whole sonnet! 

Oh god, do I love your smile

Forever,

PART 8

My Dearest Darling,

I miss you. I understand now the true meaning of the word yearn. My heart has ached for you as it has at no other time before. My hands and mind and all of my senses reach for you, reach for you to be there. I look to see you, touch you, and feel you but only with my mind. It is a feeling like no other. I yearn for you, I ache for you, I hunger and thirst for you with every molecule of my being. I can manage no other time. It is only with my memories that I will be able to quench my thirst for you. Dante‟s inferno is a mere candle to my flame, my desire for you. If only just to see you. I can wait no longer or else I surely shall die. I can no longer endure this pain. Remember my love, I am always here, always here for you.

My dearest, I never tire of saying those words, my dearest, I love touching you and holding you. I have touched this card  this card you gave me for my birthday , closer than anything before and .... you touch this same cardl the connected energy, generated by feelings of love and desire.  I miss you and love you more than

PART 9

Dearest 

 I sometimes feel I can express myself with words  than with spoken words. I recall the life we were starting together, life filled with love, joy, tenderness and giving. Remember  our lovemaking to the sound of rain. 

I can still feel your touch even though you are not with me right now; the mere scent of a flower reminds me of the sweet smell of your perfume. I miss your touch. I miss your laugh, the crinkle of your nose when something strikes your funny bone. I yearn to hold you and never let you go

We were two new souls, both born of desperation and of love, clinging to one another .I miss you and need

you.

Forever,

LOVE LETTER: DEAR SOULMATE

Dear Soulmate,

I have always loved you. Many may find this strange. But those who have experienced it will understand completely.

You see, I’ve always loved you. Always. Way before I knew you, before you even thought of me and before I even thought of you, I already knew you. And when I saw you for the very first time, I recognized you instantly. I puzzled for a while, questioning where I’d saw your face and slowly it came to me. You were with me all along.Every small footstep, each long and winding road, every mountain I struggled to climb, was synchronized with each path you were taking.

Though at the time my mind was not alert and I did not pay attention, as I was concentrating on surviving each day—I can see now that nothing was ever in vain.I will never forget the first words you spoke to me and how your voice resonated deeply inside my chest.. I thought my heart would break through to get to you, but we’d only just met—have patience, sweet organ, I know you’ve been waiting a life time, but, please, beat slowly and keep me calm.

I knew in an instant that I loved you.I didn’t know whether you drank tea with no sugar, whether you liked honey on your toast or whether you talked sometimes in your sleep.Neither did I know if this connection would last a moment nor a lifetime, but I did not care, I submerged in how it felt to be in your company, familiar, yet with so much to learn and unravel.

My imagination is wild, but I never dared to believe in someone such as you.Our electricity connected and you turned me on. I saw myself for the first time when I looked into your eyes. And you saw us. You had strengths where I had weaknesses and your weaknesses built up my assets. You knew me better than I knew myself. You never faltered, you had faith allowed me beyond your surface. You cracked your heart wide open and you allowed me to freely step in.

We are one and the same, although, so entirely different.When our fingers met we made our first love right there, without a care for the world, that continued around us.You touched me in places I never knew existed, I surrendered to your love and I allowed myself to fall.I gave you everything and you gave me myself in return.

You held out a mirror and I was no longer afraid to look, I could not see me without knowing you first.Our fragmented pieces smoothly slid firm into place.You fearlessly drove and you never once doubted our love. You ran through each bone in my body and then printed your name on my heart. My veins pulsed wildly when you tenderly showed me your love. You gave me it all. And I loved you more. I had no choice. There is no reason nor no explanation for love. You were always the one and I have always loved you. I waited and you waited and we finally arrived together.

LOVE LETTER: DEAR BABY

Dear Baby,

I had a dream last night, and what a lovely dream it was. It left me feeling happy in a

metaphorical land of 'us'. It left me filled with moments to be cherished of hearts

were merging into one This has always been my dream for the two of us.....soaring through 

the sky. Those moments where I was staring down on you are  now etched into my soul.And as I awake, 

jubilant and blissfully contented securely wrapped in the pure essence of your beauty. 

Images of your smile and the sunshine it brings Joyously float through my heart as the majesty of your soul warms my heart

For all that I have to give is for the love of you. My one and only true love. You have 

my heart and I have yours.

LETTER: DEAR SOULMATE

Dear Soul mate,

Today i was thinking, and wondering who you are. Sometimes i just get into these moods where i just wish i knew you, and you knew me...because its these times where i wish i just had your shoulder to cry on. Life's hard and i guess ill just have to suck it up and get over it one day but i always have this fantasy in my mind that I'd be perfectly content if i was just with you. life would be worth while that way. one day when you meet me...you'll find all these scars I've gotten along the way...from some tough relationships, to family issues and stress. i hope your waiting for me, because I've been waiting on you since the moment i understood that God had u in mind for me. even though your a mystery to me, i know you'll be better and far beyond higher then my expectations. honestly I've been looking for you for forever and I'm actually pretty discouraged right now. no one comes close to my standards and I'm not meaning to sound stuck up I'm just afraid maybe I'm being too picky. Ive been hurt thousands of times...and I'm sick of it. please don't be offended if it takes me a while to fully trust you, its not that you've ever done anything to make me feel that way...its just what my past experiences have proven to me as sad as it is to say. i hope your life is wonderful and that life gives you everything you've ever wanted. i hope all dreams and ambitions come true. i hope you know that wherever you are someone loves you more than life itself. and that no matter what you've done he'll never stop. one thing this guy has that you'll never find in someone else is, a space in her heart that only you can fill, and love that can never fade away. Ive thought about you constantly and wondered if you'd ever even wanna know me someday. not that its your fault but sometimes i get mad that its taking us this long just to find each other. and i know I'm on God's time schedule not my own but I'm very impatient and you'll learn that quickly. my family is a wreck. and when we meet you'll know all about it when the time is right...i don't wanna scare you away with all that yet though. haha. i know you'll be the woman i always wanted and more. you'll make me happier than anyone ever could and i can't wait to meet you. so when your down and you feel lonely and upset and lost...just know that I'm praying for you and love you every moment and every day. I'll always be out here loving you. just keep that in mind. please wait for me though. never give up, I'll always be waiting for you. forever.

love always,
your soulmate.




PART 2

Dear Soulmate, I have always loved you.

Many may find this strange.But those who have experienced it will understand completely.You see, I’ve always loved you.Always.Way before I knew you, before you even thought of me and before I even thought of you, I already knew you. And when I saw you for the very first time, I recognized you instantly.I puzzled for a while, questioning where I’d saw your face and slowly it came to me.You were with me all along.Every small footstep, each long and winding road, every mountain I struggled to climb, was synchronized with each path you were taking.Though at the time my mind was not alert and I did not pay attention, as I was concentrating on surviving each day—I can see now that nothing was ever in vain.I will never forget the first words you spoke to me and how your voice resonated deeply inside my chest.

I thought my heart would break through to get to you, but we’d only just met—have patience, sweet organ, I know you’ve been waiting a life time, but, please, beat slowly and keep me calm.I knew in an instant that I loved you.I didn’t know whether you drank tea with no sugar, whether you liked honey on your toast or whether you talked sometimes in your sleep.Neither did I know if this connection would last a moment nor a lifetime, but I did not care, I submerged in how it felt to be in your company, familiar, yet with so much to learn and unravel.

My imagination is wild, but I never dared to believe in someone such as you.Our electricity connected and you turned me on.I saw myself for the first time when I looked into your eyes. And you saw us.You had strengths where I had weaknesses and your weaknesses built up my assets.You knew me better than I knew myself. You never faltered, you had faith allowed me beyond your surface.You cracked your heart wide open and you allowed me to freely step in.We are one and the same, although, so entirely different.When our fingers met we made our first love right there, without a care for the world, that continued around us.

You touched me in places I never knew existed, I surrendered to your love and I allowed myself to fall.I gave you everything and you gave me myself in return.You held out a mirror and I was no longer afraid to look, I could not see me without knowing you first.Our fragmented pieces smoothly slid firm into place.You fearlessly drove and you never once doubted our love.You ran through each bone in my body and then printed your name on my heart.My veins pulsed wildly when you tenderly showed me your love.You gave me it all.

And I loved you more.

I had no choice.

There is no reason nor no explanation for love.


You were always the one and I have always loved you.

I waited and you waited and we finally arrived together.




PART 3



Dear Soulmate

To be someones mate is to be there exact pair. Two things that undeniably go together. Two things that were made to be with one another. Even the naked eye pairs them with no other information than a look.  

You are my soul mate. The way I was drawn to you from the very start is unexplainable. The feeling I get from simply hearing your voice. The way every nerve in my body stands at reacts to your touch. The comments of admiration we get from complete strangers about how in love we are. The seamless life we have built together. The ease in which you fit into my family and I fit into yours. The moments that we spend laughing over funny accents. The way you make me feel truly alive. The habits we have formed. The meals we have cooked. The tears we have shared. The way I see forever in your eyes. The countless conversations. The open hearts and vulnerability. The fact that I miss you before you ever say goodbye. The nights ended in each others arms. The mornings began tangled in sheets. These are all mere things that alone may not mean much, but it is in their entirety that our profound love can begin to be explained.




PART 4

Dear Soulmate,

I want to start by saying how much you mean to me. You are so caring and loving and there is not a person like you under this sky. You are my one and only, unique and special. No one understands me as you do, not a single person. I never thought this was even possible; that I could meet someone who knows what I am thinking, someone that, despite all of our differences, is always there by my side through ups and downs, someone that I never imagined I could love so much as I love you.

You encourage me to do better, to be better. You lift my soul and I thank you for that. You make me feel like I don’t have to face all the obstacles of the world alone. Simply your presence makes me happy, makes my life better. Being with you makes me realize how lucky I am to have you. Sometimes I wonder how did I even get so lucky. I know a thousand people who spend their lives looking for their “soulmate” to fill that empty space. I can’t believe I already found you without even looking for you!! I’ve been blessed with you!

I want you to know that I will always be here for you, just as you are always here for me. I want you to know that if life takes us apart one day, you were a light in the darkness. If I ever have to leave you or vice-versa, I will always be waiting for you, waiting to see you again. You are someone worth waiting for. I don’t know if you remember how we met, but it was magic. We connected instantly, do you remember? We understood each other perfectly.

I know we have had difficult times, conflicts and problems, but above it all our chemistry has always been stronger than anything. I want you to be happy, truly happy. I want you to grow personally and professionally. I want your dreams to come true, and do you know why? Because they are my dreams too. I feel what you feel, and when you are happy I am happy and when you cry my heart breaks into pieces; I just can't see you like that. I want you to know that you don’t have to stick with me your whole life. I want you to fly wherever you want to. I will always be your soulmate even if we are miles apart. If one day you get tired of me, I will also understand and let you be. I want you to be YOU, because that’s what I love about you, your whole person, your virtues and flaws. I love you as you are and I don’t want you to change anything about you.

I know friends come and go, but you, you will stay in my heart forever and no one will ever replace you.

With love,

Your Soulmate




PART 5


A message in a digital bottle:

Dear Soulmate,

I’m not quite sure I believe you exist. But the “Can you hear me now?” guy switched from Verizon to Sprint and now I guess anything is possible.

Which Chipotle are you reading this from? Oh, you already had Chipotle today? Twice, really?

You’re at home now eating cookie dough and listening to jazz? Cool. I’m actually glad you’re reading this. You see, I’ve had my fair share of awkward first dates and Tinder matches gone wrong. One time I even went out with a girl whose favorite food was candy corn. Favorite food, not even favorite candy. WTF? I was terrified. I didn’t date for a month after that one, and still haven’t fully recovered. The point is, I’m glad you’re finding this letter now, so we don’t have to waste our time.

We don’t have to stressfully search for a trendy first date spot and participate in dull small talk and try to pinpoint mutual friends and pretend to like each other, then the check comes and it’s like ugh awkward, but I pay, and then it’s time to go home and we get separate Uber Pools, but end up in the same car... It’s just no good.

FYI:I don’t like candy corn, but I can eat almond joys until I throw up. Not apologizing.

A little more about me: When I was little I thought I lived next to The White House, but it turns out I just lived next to a white house (who knew?) If someone called me right now and asked if I wanted to watch Spy Kids I honestly probably would. I think I owe Costco for a lot of my happiness. Also, I strongly believe French toast tastes better in stick form. Um, I’m 5’7” but my heart is 7’5”. 
And what about you?

Who are you? Have we met? Are we friends? Sh*t, is this Katie from 5th grade? Sorry again for starting that rumor about your dad being Guy Fieri (but it was hilarious.)

I guess I already know everything about you, though. You like the Obamas. And potato chips. You’re weird. You enjoy going out, but also sometimes avoiding human contact at all costs. You’d watch Spy Kids with me (What the f*ck. Were those movies even that good? I can’t remember.) Kindness is an innate quality of yours, but let’s be honest when it’s just us hanging out watching Spy Kids we’ll talk sh*t about things. You think I’m funny, but you’ll also tell me when I’m being an idiot or watching too much Spy Kids. Do you like shaved ice or crushed? Waking up early or sleeping in? Hash browns or curly fries? Did you answer, “I love both?” Of course you did.

Where’s your favorite vacation spot? Do you like drinking? How many times have you read the Harry Potter books? Pop-Tarts or Toaster Strudels? Do you play an instrument? Not a deal-breaker, but we could start a band and tour and I bet someone would make a cool movie about it (Ryan Gosling would play me.)

What seat do you choose on an airplane? For God’s sake please don’t say the middle. If you were any kind of sandwich what would you be? I’d be a deluxe grilled cheese — comforting, reliable, not trying to be anything I’m not, and it’s like, “Whoa this was already amazing, and NOW THERE’S BACON ON IT.” I don’t keep kosher.

I’m not really in a rush to meet you tbh. Life is good and there’s a lot of new standup on Netflix. It’s just nice to know that you’re out there.

Anyways, I’m sure you have to get back to napping or maybe you’re going to a concert or a basketball game or perhaps you’re on your way to a brewery. No, probably just napping. Hmm yeah, that seems right.

OH, PS, I haven’t updated my LinkedIn in a while so don’t judge me on that.

See you around? 

LETTER: I PRAY FOR YOU

A love so strong, so deep, so passionate...everybody has love, without this love there would be no life. Every day you think of your love, with a heart so small and its love so big. You only have one choice, to love the one you are with. Day after day you sit and dream of all the wonderful things you have to give, but nothing comes closer to your love, the one of your dreams, the one that loves you through and through. Through thick and thin they will always be there, to guide and protect, your love, your hero, your soulmate, your forever-burning light. Your love is your life,your path to an everlasting eternity.

At the closing of the day,
A prayer for love this night I say.
A prayer for love that echoes deep,
Just a little prayer before I sleep.
"Stars above, I pray to you,
And listen close I beg you to,
That ever should I hope to find,
A love of heart, soul, and mind,
That should these things ever come to me,
Let them all treasured be.
Let nothing tear apart,
A love that should bind each heart.
And further stars, let me ask of thee,
Let this love in no question be.
For such so strong both hearts should know,
And from them both should it never go.
Let this love be as the sand and sea,
Forever in a perfect harmony.
Come this love however it may,
Darkness of night, light of day,
Right next door, or from afar,
Let me know, I pray little star.
And while I dream of the one I love,
And while you sparkle high above,
Never from me should you dismiss,
The memories of his gentle kiss.
And while I dream of someone far away,
Stars above, this I say,
Even should I die before I should wake,
Never from me this love do take.
For nothing more precious to me could you give,
Even if in heaven should I live.
So if this love, should it be real,
Keep is strong by strength of will.
And if this love, should it be illusion,
Let it go, with all due confusion.
So stars above, I pray to you,
Listen to all I've asked you to.
And when on the morrow comes the day,
I'll pray to the sun, come whatever may.
But tonight is for the moon and each star,
And little prayers said for a love afar

LOVE: APPROACHING HER FOR THE FIRST TIME

Unable to decipher the visions, the thoughts churning in my head,The cataclysm is silencing, deafening... I find myself speechless...caught in a whirlwind approaching the eye of the storm,I see her there, the peace I'm looking for...wanting to join her in that place, seeking to escape.I'm trapped in self-doubt, entrenched in a shroud of fear  Fear of the unknown,  Fear of endlessly being lost in my own captivity,  Fear of the rejection yet, it arises in me- a tumultuous upheaval burning in me- an eternal flame

I close my eyes and feel her touch,The warmth extends to the very tips,To every fraction of my body,Calming the rising tides.  I know not of words that are right,  I know not of actions that please,  I know only of the feeling I feel in me,And care not for the pleasure of the audience

They see what they want, through their tainted lenses,And I have amused them far too long
They see not what I see- when she sees right through me,They see not the indivisible connection that draws me near I cut the strings that dictate my life,Cynically forcing my every move No longer a marionette for these puppeteers.

For it lives within me,   It moves to the rhythm of my heartbeat,  It pumps and pulses through my veins,  It takes me whole...  It needs not approval nor permission,  It knows not of limitations and boundaries  It has no words to complete it's definition...indescribable, unparallel

That word, that term, that rises up from the hearts of young lovers to the tips of their tongues
Passing through their lips to the heart of another, that word, that term, so miniscule, so undeserving, un-triumphant in its attempt to describe that that is beyond all words...yet, its pacification somehow temporarily subdues.

But the grandeur, the complexity, the effortless epitome of a never-ending, ecstatic paradise
In all it's glory and pain, in all it's bitter sweet existence...It is the one thing that drives us all,
We except its occasional pangs because we are blinded by it's beauty,We are deaf to any defamations, we are caught within that which does not bare a name.

I, too, am entrapped- yet, with a challenging grin intrepidly I dive into it, prepared to sacrifice all else. Embracing it.... as I embrace her fall victim too it.... as I fall into her.Lost in it.... as I get lost in her, I mock the viewers, I mock the world

I laugh as they crumble in disbelief,
Shocked that I am self-moving,
  That I can breathe,
  That I can feel...
  That I am human.

No longer this masquerade. I pull her close, indulging in a kiss,m elting into her as the curtains close

LETTER: MY LOVE, WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?

My love, where have you been? Why did you hold back the light and ignore the cry of my heart? Where you aren't, darkness is. Where you aren't, emptiness abides--Only love could fill the vacuum your absence brings. For years I've seen many gray clouds, not only at the sky, but also in my mind. My eyes have seen people tread lustful ways -- They chase dark shades and shun bright lights. Oh, I beseech thee, dearly beloved, Draw close to me and in my heart sink. Let the shining light of your love Forever be my guide. You found a way to touch my soul; You slipped into my heart. I don't know how you did it. Were you there from the start? I had felt the darkness envelope me, an endless night prevailed,Then I saw your smile before me and dawn broke again. I could not explain what had transpired, I just know I saw you and my heart opened up again.

I long to hold you, touch you. You are always on my mind. To feel your body close to me, your spirit entwined with mine. Yet I must wait, Wait awhile for you. If you knew how I feel for you, You would think me a fool. So, I will wait patiently as time slips slowly by. Someday I will hold you close to me, feel your spirit meld with mine. If you were a teardrop in my eye,For fear of losing you. I would never cry. And if the golden sun should cease to shine its light, Just one smile from you would make my whole world bright. When leaves have fallen from the trees and the sky is filled with storm, Just the thought of your gentle touch is enough to keep me warm. If only i had the courage to speak these words to you. Every one is from the heart and couldn't be more true

LOVE LETTER: WHEN YOU BECOME MINE

There is a moment I like to call “when she becomes yours.” How does another person become “yours”?

When you become mine there  will be millions of inside jokes that only both of us will understand, and for some reason, these jokes never stop. Instead, they get funnier by each day, morphing into new ones.When you become mine...my day will starts and ends with you, not only by texting or talking on the phone, but simply the fact that I think of you when I go to bed, and when I wake up. When you become mine your silly faces are more attractive to you than any other supermodel’s professional picture. When you become mine...the thought of you calms me. When I lose faith in humanity, you are the “safety.” I think of you and remind myself that people like you still exist. When you are mine...even  the good times that you share with friends are so much fun that I want you to be part of it, too, When you are mine...I realize that I like you for your imperfections, and that other girls’ imperfections, are just.. well, that is why I am not with them, and I am with you. Your imperfections are sexy, interesting, captivating and entertaining. When you become mine, 
others look or seem less attractive to me, when your  sneeze is annoying to others, but is cute to me, or the way you puts her feet under my legs to keep them warm when we’re cuddled up watching a movie on the couch.

When someone becomes yours, there are no problems or arguments; there are only discussions. There is no need to explain the love, you just feel it. When someone becomes yours, their worries, sadness and happiness all become yours.When someone is yours, the joy that comes with sharing the positive results of life becomes even more enigmatic.When someone becomes yours, there is no you and I; it’s us. We present ourselves to the world together. Dynamics change, and our love for each other grows. We don’t need to say anything; we understand. We don’t need to understand anything; we can just feel.When someone is yours, you are that someone’s; you can never feel lonely ever again.

Open your heart to me; open your mind to me.  Let's embrace each other, and let the world unfold in front of us.

LOVE LETTER: I LONG FOR YOU

Whom someone else dreams of during the night. You are that person someone longs for to be at their side, at all times, caressing their soul with your sincere affection. You are that person whose laughter elicits a particularly vibrant smile; whom others shed a tear for, although you remain perfectly alive. You are that person someone sacrifices thought for; sacrifices their time for. You resemble the “perfect other.” You are sketched in someone’s mind the moment they are alone, and have only you to contemplate.

You are perfect. You are beautiful. You are worthwhile.

But you decide to disregard such truths.

You wince when the opportunity presents itself. You prepare each lonely night, only to disregard such preparations when the situation arises. Sometimes, you are too deceiving in your actions. Sometimes you hesitate to make the first move, or any move, for that matter. You expect others to grasp the initiative, but they expect the same from you. You contemplate, think, ponder, dwell, cry, choke on tears, look in the mirror, stare at your soul. Your body does not move at all. You wonder why your body does not make any moves at all. Are you even alive at all? You conclude that you merely waver in the wind. You hope you stick to something before you get lost. You pray that you stick to something beautiful, something at all. But you are not under another’s jurisdiction. Your body is your own lifeline to this life. Your wonderful thoughts are above the ground, flying high, entangled with the thoughts of others. It is beautiful, yes. But you can feel the ground beneath your feet, somewhere. You learn that you can move your feet. Wander wonderfully.

You tell yourself that tomorrow will be the day, but fail to realize that this very day was once ‘tomorrow’. You allow the days to pass you by, only paying them heed with your senses. You contemplate if you experience them at all. You wonder if others are experiencing this same predicament. You wonder if someone will ever read your mind. You wonder if you’ll ever hear someone’s heartbeat, if you’ll ever embrace more than a body.

There is time! There is no time but now.

Every time you hypothesize about another person, realize that you too are the product of others hypothetical situations. Be more than your imagination! Transcend your thoughts! People are waiting on you to enter their lives just as you are waiting on others to enter your own. No one said it was easy. But everyone is waiting on you to make a move. Don’t be scared. You are capable. You are more than capable.

You are perfection. We are all your reflection.

LOVE LETTER: ALL I WANT IS YOU

Why must I feel this way? I am a man of many torments,some of which I cannot describe. There are certain things missing, such as my love. Without her I am not who I am  supposed to be. Every day I question, does she feel the same as I? Does she love me as much as I love her? And with every thought I die! I have died so many times, that I don't know if I die again, if that will be the final.Sometimes I feel as if that would be the best thing. I would miss everyone, but this pain I would not. Just as long as I may take the love I have. I would be in a better place. My heart stays with her, and she shall keep it. I no longer  have any use for it. I love her! And my heart is a symbol of that, so that she may never forget me, and forever know, I will always be with her!


All I want is... to love you for the rest of my life... waking up every morning nestled in your arms... snuggling you tight as I close my drowsy eyes for the night... throughout the day thoughts of you dance in my mind... bringing a smile to my face... warming my heart... anticipating your arrival home... waiting to embrace you... All I want is... to share everything with you... our hopes... dreams...our future... sharing... the little things... things that make us laugh... and the not so little things that we can't help but to worry about... All I want is... to continue giving you my complete love... and nothing less... being your sanctuary from the storm... a place you can come to for comfort and acceptance... being a good listener... hopefully always using discernment... knowing there will be times when I just need to remain silent... but too knowing the things left unspoken can still be understood...All I want is... to raise our children... fulfill our dreams... watch as our life unfolds... spoil our grandchildren... and grow old together...All I want is..You

LOVE LETTER: MY LOVE IS YOUR MEDICINE

Love is the medicine that heals the broken soul. I am a doctor...let my love inside,  let it flow and make you whole. Let it inside, to heal, guide, and protect your mind will rejoice, your heart won't object. Don't keep it to yourself, not sharing it, ashamed for anyone knows- a lonely heart can't be tamed. When the night falls darker than ever before...my love will find you and let you cry no more When the storm rages, bringing unwelcome fears.. call on my love to dry the thundering tears You ask me how I know and all these things I'm sure of because I have faith and hope in everlasting love.

My love, on this trek to your heart I have sojourned with many lonely souls but none could rival the intense desire I have burning within my heart to be by your side. Not one among the lot comprehended my sequestered heart as it remained hidden from sight only craving the nearness of your own. As I traversed the many expanses to your heart I found myself in a hermetic trance removed from this cold world as your luminous splendor guided my way. Had it not been for your marvelous light I fear I would have fallen as every expanse became more treacherous and each river raged in horrific fury. Remaining undaunted in my quest as passion raged from the depths of my very existence, I pressed on knowing in my heart this life as brief as it is would not present itself to me in this fashion again. Hold fast, my love, as I withstand this iniquitous world and combat my way to the throne of your heart for I know therein I shall possess my rightful placeas our love is never meant
to be denied

PERSONAL/ LOVE LETTER: I WANT TO BE LOVED

I used to want to be admired. Well, now I want to be loved. If we were a couple .....there are couple of acitivies that I want to experience.We would exercise together ...there is nothing like going for a great bike ride together or for a quick run before bedtime. We would notes to each other.Give each other small inexpensive presents. Cook together – cooking together is very fun Its about the small sacrifices. ” Igloo time – for five minutes every day , we hide under the blanket and make it like an igloo , we just talk about our high and lows of the day ”.Relax together – we cant just want to kick back our shoes and relax in front of the TV watching our favorite show. I would let you have the last bite of anything food We will dance– anywhere we can , we will hold one and other and move to some sound of music . doesn’t have to be a public place, as long as we both do it . its magical.I would take random pictures of you when you are not looking  - show you that I don’t take you for granted, send you random pictures of you every now and then with a simple text message that says ” i’m so lucky. Prepare your toothbrush. And finally just be there for you because sometimes you just need to be there and hold hands  to say all you ever need

I would spend the rest of my life falling as far and deep and hard as my heart will let me go in love with you. Now my heart is desperate in my chest, like a bird crashing into a window over and over again, confused that it can't get to what it sees and wants, and willing to kill itself in the attempt to remedy thatI will never break your heart. I will never hurt you. I might mess up, I might not be perfect, but I'll never hurt you, You have my word.If you will love me I cannot promise you that I will not hurt you. I cannot promise you that I will not make you cry and that I’ll never break your heart. But if you will love me, I will bare my whole self naked before you, and I will reveal to you my soul. If you will love me, you can be certain that it is I that you will love, not a mask that fools you and gives you only what your eyes desire to see. If you will love me, you can be certain that you will love the depths of me, all of me that is in me, and I in turn will love you with all of me, with all my soul, with all my mind, with all my spirit, with all my flaws and beauty, and with all my very heart.

LOVE LETTER: MY HEART WILL START BEATING

Dear Soulmate

Once I get to see you, everything will get back to it's original place.My heart will start beating again,  my hopes will rise to the top,  my dreams will once again come true...once I see, touch and feel you. Once more, just once more will be good enough for me to survive and wake up from this terrible dream ...of not having you. I'm still asleep. My wake up call will be your soft and tender lips touching mine without worries or problems.  But again, every time I remember that this is not a dream, that this is reality, it makes me feel stronger, gives me the strength to proceed with my desires of having you once and for all. From my big broken heart, these words...I say: love will touch some minds

Will touch all the heart beats from that woman I must have...or else this poor heart of mine will just brake and fall apart....I shall proceed with my demands of loving you day and night, rain or sunshine, and never be apart from that lonely heart of yours because I'm the only one that will ever bring that glow to those sweet and tender lips of yours.If you think I'm making all this up, you are completely wrong, because this lonely heart of mine desires you and nothing more...If you ever see me crying, please don't ask me why, just go and say, baby, I love you and you are my only one.   The love we share, is like trees to air. Without one-another, there would be no other. Without you, I could not exist. I'll love you forever, that's what I insist.Feel The love whispered through my breath and my gentle touch that took away pain. Let me kiss your lips  and bring warmth to your heart. Let me falter so I can look into your healing eyes. Let me hold your hand and wrap you in my arms. Smile  and melt my heart. Kiss me and take away my breath. Dance with me and forever play our song. ...Is a journey to find inner peace,only in tranquility- can we be free;Others notice our outward space, focusing inward, radiating harmony.What is beautiful about another? A sound, look, touch drawn asunder; A feeling of contentment to the soul, where beauty resides, on the whole. The eyes, a window, to that place,  surrounded by your living vestige face; Encompassing all that is thought, in a harboring body, beauty is caught;The simple pleasures we perceive,allow us all to believe;There is beauty in all we say and do,there is beauty in me and beauty in you.


How do i tell you in a few words i love you. Where do i begin to tell you how beautiful you are you have shown me your love so true  no matter where you are, i'll never be too far. When you awake and don't see me all you have to do is look in the mirror with sleepy eyes it's hard to see my love for you will reflect, nothing could be clearer. I found in you a lady who loves me without a doubt by your side is where i want a lifetime to spend our love has planted its seed and begun to sprout thru thick and thin i'm here till the end. The most beautiful rainbow couldn't compare you must have been sent to me from above. I see your beauty from within your heart, dear. I promise to shower you with all of my love . When i tell you you're beautiful, it's my heart's reflection your love has shown me the true meaning of forever with just a whisper you have my complete attention nobody has loved me like you have...never. Each day i awake and find you're not here. I close my eyes and picture the night before. I see my lady i will have a lifetime of love to share seeing you there is like opening heaven's door. These are my thoughts as i imagine our beautiful scene together we sit on the rocks near the creek before me is a beauty and love i have never felt or seen. I reach my hand out and place it tenderly on your cheek. Seeing myself in those beautiful eyes. My baby blues tell you i love you with all my heart as i look up i see a pair of doves fly by like the air between their wings, we'll never part reaching down i pick a beautiful purple flower. This flower was born from nature's care  it needs the sun and sprinkles from a shower  nature's true beauty is the only way our love could compare. Our love flows steadily like the rambling stream  with each sunrise our love will begin forever you are in my heart and dreams my eyes open... i fall in love with you all over again

LOVE LETTER: DEAR SOULMATE

Dear Soulmate,

As the days pass by slowly, my desire to hold you in my arms grows like a volcano just waiting to explode, and shower you with tender loving care. My feelings for you are true, and as deep as the sea. I can only hope you feel the same way, because this was meant to be.Your golden hair threads of endless sunshine.Your eyes,seas of compassion and emotion.Each word you hispher, engraved on my heart,memorized In my soul. a look, a casual gaze, a burned image in my mind, of your smile.More than the moon, stars, sun, and clouds is what you always say.But that can't even begin to measure how I feel for you each day! When you came to my life the eternal snow of my solitude melted in my soul, formed rivers to fecundate the life, My love was a dormant volcano crowned by the long cold of my  nostalgia. It was the quiet night, it was the night without echo, it was the same sadness cohabiting with the solitude. Then you arrived and lit the fire, you gave heat to my soul and flavor to my life then you arrived and moved away the loneliness and banished sadness. Your love is a volcano in eruption. My love was an extinguished volcano but the lavas of your heart flooded my being and lit my soul!

LOVE LETTER:DEAR SOULMATE

Dear Soulmate,

Just confide in me your deepest feelings, tell me your fantasies, and they shall all be fulfilled. I will do anything it takes to make you happy because that is the only thing that matters to me anymore. You are perfect in my eyes, and there is absolutely nothing that I would ever change about you. I know that no one can be perfect but you, In my eyes, are as perfect as anyone could be. It leaves me amazed, yet blessed, to have found someone as special as you are.

I'm going to be sitting here waiting; waiting for your phone call and then waiting for the day I will actually see you. A little distance between us is going to drive me crazy, but I know it'll all work out just fine. Till then, I will just be waiting for the day when we will actually be together.

How are you, my dear, are you tired, are you ok? I always ask you lots of questions, not because I just am curious, but because every question comes from inside my heart. We are so far apart from each other, and I try so much to be with you. This is difficult, but nothing on earth can make me lose my true love for you…

...I don't really know when I first started to love you. Maybe it started with sending texts back and forth every day, opening with a "good morning" or ending with a "good night" with a lot of feeling. Then, one day, I found myself loving you and couldn't stop that feeling. Just knowing you more and more each day, and seeing how you understood everything I did, I started to love you more and more. Every time you say "Hi," you brighten my life.

Every night when I close my eyes, thoughts of you fill me with joy. Every morning when I open my eyes, you're the first thought on my mind. I am certain that I am in love with you. I want to hold you, kiss you and to feel your body near me. If you'll be mine, you'll make me the happiest woman in the world. If you turn me away, I don't know if I can take it. But either way, you'll always be the greatest love I've ever had

I remember we talked for hours about anything and everything. I never expected we would say we loved each other even before we met in person. Now don't get me wrong--I believe in love at first sight, but I thought I would be the last person to be bitten by that bug.

For just one look into your eyes makes everything in the world and in my life seem to glow. You make me want to see the sunrise every day, to know it's another day where I could have you by my side. Your touch will forever caress me with tenderness, and your kisses will keep the flame in my heart alive. You stole my heart and made it skip a beat. You have been the highlight of my life ever since then. When I sleep, I dream of you. When I work, we work together. When your heart beats, mine beats with yours. I feel warm all over, and my heart skips a beat whether we're on the phone. I have the same dream we both want, and that is for both of us to fall in love with our best friend.

You've changed my life so completely. What would I ever do without you? I don't even want to think about it, and I pray that I never have to. The more I get to know you, the more I want to know, and the more I can't wait for each new day, just to be with you, just to see the smile on your face. Every day I love you more, and every day I realize to a greater extent how much this relationship means to me, how much you mean to me. You are everything to me

I wonder if you know how much I look forward to the simple things we share, like our talk fest over dinner at the end of a long workday. It's a great stress reliever to tell you all the day's events and listen to you analyze why this happened, or why that person behaved the way they did, and then speculate together on how tomorrow will line up. On the weekends, I enjoy relaxing with you and just watching a movie, critiquing every aspect of the production like professional movie critics, making judgments on everything from the casting choices to the quality of the screenplay.

I can't even imagine my life now without all the things we enjoy together--our passionate lovemaking, luxurious bubble baths, and lazy sleep-ins on Sunday morning. Through the days and through the nights, thank you for always being there; I'll always be there for you. I want you to know how much I truly love and appreciate you, Sweetheart. You mean everything to me.
I am forever yours.

I am so grateful that you are in my life. Your tender caring and gentle ways, your strength, and your love for life have influenced every part of who I am, even down to the colors that I like--remember how I used to hate red before you came along? You've encouraged me to do things that I may never have had the courage to try without you--things like scuba diving, rock climbing, even sky diving. You've also helped me to appreciate things that I had always taken slightly for granted to a greater extent--things like the importance of families and patriotism. You've also helped me gain an interest in preserving and enjoying the natural beauty around us.

My beautiful love, you are my sunrise and sunset. You are my world and you have been since the first time I saw you from afar. My heart leaped in my chest and the vision of you made me catch my breath. Your hair was lightly blowing in the breeze, and the sun was bouncing off your face, making your eyes sparkle like stars in the midnight sky. I felt love the first time I looked at you, and my world became a beautiful place to live in. I often ask myself, what in the world would I do without you now? I hope to never find out the answer to that question


I always thought that dreams were just dreams, but you made them all come true and even better, you built new dreams with me! I cannot thank you enough for being more than perfect because you showed me that even all the things that seem wrong are actually opportunities to work at them together and bring us closer together. No matter how far you are and no matter what you do, I always want you to know how much you mean to me, and how much I truly love you and how much I will always be yours forever.

I love you so much and wish I could be there to hug and kiss you all day and all night long, but for now, this love letter will have to be my message. Please know that you are a big part of me and I think of you all the time. I love you, and I've loved you before I was born, because I believe I was made for you, and will be yours for all eternity

LOVE LETTER: LET ME RUB YOUR BACK

My Love,

Do you know how much I love you? Do you know what you mean to this heart? What words could, possibly be said to convince you? Although, words are not the convincer of love, action is. This love deep inside belongs to you, for you are everything this heart has ever desired.

You are everything to this man. When I think of you I daydream of us lying quietly, side-by-side, and I think of rubbing my hand gently across your skin as you lie face down and smile a beautiful smile of contentment. Does this soft touch feel good to you?

Strong fingers slowly trail across your shoulders as I gently press my fingers into your muscles, slowly working the pain out of them. Gently, you moan at how good it feels to be, pampered. It is that sound that pleases my soul like a master, petting his dog for doing a good job.

Your arms, neatly tuck away beneath the pillow as I look at your hair and lean over to smell the warm, sweet scent. Then, I slowly pull away and begin working my hand lower, down your back as you hum a contented sigh of pleasure.

“Does that feel good,” I ask in a deep, but warm voice.

“Really good,” You reply, as you adjust yourself for better comfort by moving your back a little.
As my hand moves slowly down your back, you feel me kiss you softly on your shoulder with a tiny pucker sound. Then I force myself to pull away as my hand reaches your lower back. The need to look at you is overwhelming. The desire to see you is equally met with the fiery passion I feel at you beautiful form.

Feeling the tension in your lower back, I begin rubbing a little harder to work the muscles out causing a stronger moan to emanate from you. Unable to resist the urge, I sit up so I can rub your upper back with my free hand while getting better advantage on your lower back.

No matter how much my, shoulders begin to burn or my, legs begin to ache. As long as massaging your back feels good to you, I will not stop. I would do anything to make you happy and feel good. This is how I feel and this is how I will spend my life. You are everything to me, and although I may not say it often, I love you.

There are so many ways that I will show you love…So many ways to make you happy and I will never stop trying. You are worth all the pain, all of the trials and all of nights of longing, just to have you with me. You mean the world to me and forever will I love you. We truly are contented lovers.

Always Yours,
Me