LOVE LETTER: I LONG FOR YOU

Whom someone else dreams of during the night. You are that person someone longs for to be at their side, at all times, caressing their soul with your sincere affection. You are that person whose laughter elicits a particularly vibrant smile; whom others shed a tear for, although you remain perfectly alive. You are that person someone sacrifices thought for; sacrifices their time for. You resemble the “perfect other.” You are sketched in someone’s mind the moment they are alone, and have only you to contemplate.

You are perfect. You are beautiful. You are worthwhile.

But you decide to disregard such truths.

You wince when the opportunity presents itself. You prepare each lonely night, only to disregard such preparations when the situation arises. Sometimes, you are too deceiving in your actions. Sometimes you hesitate to make the first move, or any move, for that matter. You expect others to grasp the initiative, but they expect the same from you. You contemplate, think, ponder, dwell, cry, choke on tears, look in the mirror, stare at your soul. Your body does not move at all. You wonder why your body does not make any moves at all. Are you even alive at all? You conclude that you merely waver in the wind. You hope you stick to something before you get lost. You pray that you stick to something beautiful, something at all. But you are not under another’s jurisdiction. Your body is your own lifeline to this life. Your wonderful thoughts are above the ground, flying high, entangled with the thoughts of others. It is beautiful, yes. But you can feel the ground beneath your feet, somewhere. You learn that you can move your feet. Wander wonderfully.

You tell yourself that tomorrow will be the day, but fail to realize that this very day was once ‘tomorrow’. You allow the days to pass you by, only paying them heed with your senses. You contemplate if you experience them at all. You wonder if others are experiencing this same predicament. You wonder if someone will ever read your mind. You wonder if you’ll ever hear someone’s heartbeat, if you’ll ever embrace more than a body.

There is time! There is no time but now.

Every time you hypothesize about another person, realize that you too are the product of others hypothetical situations. Be more than your imagination! Transcend your thoughts! People are waiting on you to enter their lives just as you are waiting on others to enter your own. No one said it was easy. But everyone is waiting on you to make a move. Don’t be scared. You are capable. You are more than capable.

You are perfection. We are all your reflection.