PERSONAL/ LOVE LETTER: I WILL LOVE YOU ALWAYS WHEN THIS HAIR IS WHITE

I will love you always. When this hair is white, I will still love you. When the smooth softness of youth is replaced by the delicate softness of age, I will still want to touch your skin. When your face is full of the lines of every smile you have ever smiled, of every surprise I have seen flash through your eyes, when every tear you have ever cried has left its mark upon your face,I will treasure you all the more, because I was there to see it all. I will share your life with you, and I will love you until the last breath leaves your body or mine.

SPRITUAL: DESTINY ONLY COMES INTO ACTION WHEN YOU ARE PASSIVE

Imagine you decide to boil some milk on fire. Obviously, after a certain time you must act to remove milk from fire. Now imagine that you just get distracted and forget the boiling etc. The consequence? You are letting the nature to take its course by allowing fire to take milk to the boiling point, consequently milk would spill out and that can have further consequences from most milk going waste to the kitchen in flames.

Quite similarly destiny ONLY comes into action when you are being passive and BECOME inactive. If you act in DUE TIME using your intelligence & will power - destiny or nature will remain inactive. In simple words, when you act, take decisions with responsibility and follow your actions and their consequences - you remain in charge of you rSELF, if you distract and abandon the actions or their consequent reactions & become passive, the destiny takes charge and continue with the course of actions till they reach to the end. Nature only overtakes human actions when humans run away or leave their course open. The course of nature is very NATURAL & it will only follow a natural path.

The nature's path may appear to be brute and unbearable for human beings but nature works by following the mathemetical formulas of nature - which are accurate, precise and incessant. Before the NATURE takes charge - you control your own actions and let the destiny continue to be 'behind' you. IF you do NOT lead your ownself - nature will lead you. You can stay passive but destiny is hyper active phenomenon which is always running behind the scenes.

LOVE/PERSONAL: MY HOPELESS HEART

My Hopeless Heart

Petrified, body trembling uncontrollably as every nerve ending violently pulsates. My heart wants to burst from my body as I stare out the window to the backyard that overlooks a magnificent lake, and was once a beautiful backdrop to a loving home. Frozen in place with the phone to one ear, I listen in disbelief to the cruel words coming from the woman who is my entire world. At this moment, it seems as though she can easily dismiss my life as if it never meant anything to her. Confused and traumatized, I pull the hammer back on the gun and put my finger on the trigger. Gasping for air, I struggle to find each breath as I uncontrollably hyperventilate. My Breathing is so erratic that when I speak saliva spews from my mouth and drools down my chin. I'm losing control of all emotions. I can't think straight, and I don't even know who I am anymore. How did I get here? I'm in utter distress as I put the gun to my head and demand, "Tell me now! Do you
still love me or not?"

LOVE: HOW DO YOU EXPLAIN THIS CRAZY INSANE SOUL AND HEART CONNECTION

When two persons in love once and still is and yet one of them not doing anything to bring the relationship forward because of fear or million reasons created just to give excuse not to be with the person she loved. Yet deep in her heart she does love and miss and think of her true love all the time. Is frustrating to encounter this kind of love , you do not know you are going or coming and you didn't understand why this person love you in her heart and yet wont do anything about it. What she is feeling you feel it too and when she misses you , you miss her too.

The telepathic & soul connection is so strong , you could feel the person evens they are not in the room and you wonder whether you are going crazy and is driving you to despair , you try to tell yourself to forget this love and move on but each time you almost success to do that , she crept back in your dreams unexpectedly and you had visions & hear songs that remind you of the times you both spend together. All these make it impossible to build on a new love or new relationship and you wonder why is this person haunting you day and night. You start to question maybe it was just you who are obsess with this love , then again your instinct telling you that is not the case because you did try your very best to start a new relationship and there are times you never even think of her. She crept back suddenly and at the most intimate times in the night to remind you of her. Is like you are actually sharing one soul , she can feel whatever you think and feel and is like a part of you.

Some psychic would tell you because of a past life together and the cord is not cut , meaning she still emotionally , spiritually tied to you so you feel her around even when she is not there , you keep wondering and pondering over this even you dint really believe in past life. Then again how people connect together is amazing , you can be seeing someone everyday and there is not any connection at all. You met someone and is like a lighting strike you so hard , you feel you found your other half and connection. What good is this strong love if there is no future unless a miracle happens and finally bring them back together.

When you get frustrated with your strong feelings you will shout into the air and tell her not to think of you anymore or miss you so that your soul can move on and not be in pain. You wonder if one of them truly found another strong love this connection might eventually break away. You cant control how your heart feels for another and you cant tell your heart to try to love someone. Is a natural feelings and is pure from the honest heart. The mind can play tricks and give you a million reasons to stop what you are feeling but deep down you know what is the truth in your heart . You will not able to stop this strong love unless you go for a heart transplant and has someone else heart planted on you then perhaps things might be different because
you have a change of heart and no longer feel the same , by then you believe the soul connection might somehow be broken. There are reports about how heart transplant patient feel differently after getting a
new heart . Chances are our souls are connected to our organs and the most important organ is the heart , when our heart stops , everything dies except the soul.

Changing a new heart would be too drastic just to forget a strong love , so how do you explain this crazy insane soul and heart connection with someone ?

SPIRITUAL/ LOVE: CONTINUE THESE LESSONS WITH THE SAME SOULS

We choose life as thinking, feeling human beings so we can learn to express God's love by the way we think and the way we feel. It's a lesson that takes hundred – sometimes thousands – of lifetimes to learn. We may choose, in-between lifetimes, to continue these lessons with the same souls we've learned with before. That's what makes up "soul mates."

It's a pretty rough when you think of coming together with another soul lifetime after lifetime after lifetime, trying to get 'universal love' right. Because we are thinking, feeling human beings, we have a tendency to let our ideas (or expectations), our feelings (relative to the present relationship or not) and our physical drives (especially sexual ones) be the driving force in our relationships, regardless of what level we may be relating on.

Choosing to respond from a carnal level instead of from a spiritual one incurs karmic debt, which means that we have to be on the receiving end of our carnal response sooner or later. The learning cycle goes on and on and on until we've related enough to know, from our own experience, that responding with love to every person, event and circumstance that comes into our lives is the only way to go.

In themeantime, while we're still learning our lessons on love, we live our lives as thinking, feeling human beings, and each time we meet someone who feels comfortable to us – someone who is so much more
familiar to us than the other people in our lives – we think we must be in love. And we LIKE thinking we're in love, because being in love is a driving force in all of us. How could we ever be in a position to learn the lessons we came here to learn if we aren't?

That's when the fairy tale aspect of the soul mate dilemma comes to light, and we begin to realize that romantic love isn't always the driving force in a soul mate relationship. The goal, we come to understand, is the opportunity to choose and express love and acceptance for each other, even if neither of us is who the other hoped we would be.

That's where the most difficult soul mate relationship lessons come into play. We have to make a choice, and it's no easy choice to make. Do we let the 'love of our life' go, because we love them and want them to be in a relationship where they can be accepted for who they are, or do we stay in the relationship, hoping that something that we do on an emotional, mental or physical level will change them into the person we want them to be?


What's a loving soul mate to do?

THOUGHTS/ LOVE/JOURNAL: SEX MEANS LOVE

Some years ago I met a beautiful German girl. She was captivating and I liked looking at her, but she was drunk and chain smoking - not my type. As we talked to her one the phone though, I felt something about her pulling me in. It didn't make sense, but I went with it anyway. We spent the following week together sharing, holding, looking, talking, touching...and then one evening, for no apparent reason, I said to her, "You know...I'm not in love with you". She looked at me strangely. I had no clue why had I said such a thing. Throughout our relationship however, it became clear why I had said it. I was afraid to love her. I was afraid that loving her would distract me from what I wanted at the time - both in life and in a woman. I had created so much pressure between my fear of settling and my love for her that the truth had literally leapt from my mouth. Do not be so stuck in your search for a "perfect partner" that you confuse settling with love, fear love and miss out on finding a soul mate. Another reason I may fear love, is that I fear loss."What if she's not that into me?" or "What if I scare her away?" This is the essence of life. The pleasure of love is inextricably bound to the pain of losing it. If you want to feel love, you must be brave enough to feel loss. And I guess that is why I usually want someone to surrender to me on the first date. I am afraid of rejection. To most men...sex means love....it means acceptance..it means you love me.

LOVE/ PERSONAL/ THOUGHTS: THE UNEXPECTED MEETING

The unexpected meeting of a woman who I believe to be my true soulmate made me challenge my entire belief principles. I first knew that there was something extraordinary at play when I first looked into her eyes. For what seemed like ages we were locked in a fathomless stare, searching through blurred past memories for answers or clues that would explain the spiritual experience we were having. It was like I had found someone that I'd lost and my soul was rejoicing by doing somersaults and happy dances inside me. I noticed the expression of astonishment on her face as she met my gaze with equal intensity. Unashamedly and without conscience, I allowed my secret passion for the stranger to overwhelm me. Our subsequent meetings only served to intensify the emotions. The energy flying about the room we inhabited was palpable and we feared our blatant attraction was transparent to others. When we were together in a room full of people it felt like we were connected by a cord that was pulling us together like a magnetic force. It seemed like she was the only one in the room and I was always aware of her presence, even if she was out of sight. I had a need to be with her at all times and to divulge all my dark secrets, which I did without regret. In only a short period she knew more about me than anyone in the world.

The moment our eyes met it happened... leaping heart, weak knees and a raw, enigmatic physical attraction. Her eyes were not windows to her soul but mirrors, reflecting my own soul back and sending shivers of joy down my spine. I was not prepared for the mysterious and breathtaking occurrences that transpired as we became more acquainted. I was swept away in a torrent so tumultuous that I feared I may have lost my mind. It was a total spiritual and physical awakening, like the fog had lifted and I was experiencing an old life through the eyes of a child. Everything had new meaning. The simple beauty of nature had me gasping in awe, every song had a meaning and life seemed so abundant. Physically I experienced amazing natural highs, a heightened sense of awareness and limitless creative and physical energy that I could not expend. I survived on very little sleep and I glowed with happiness. I couldn't stop dancing. When I left her I felt a smouldering, physical ache deep within my core and a longing that couldn't be satisfied. Our union was motivated by a strong urge to fulfill a purposeful mission together. That very duty compelled us to create a spiritual embassy that has touched the lives of many others. We are well aware that our meeting was instrumental to our success and that we could never have achieved our dreams singlehandedly or with anyone else.

REVIEW: THE CURIOUS CASE OF BENJAMIN BUTTON

In the movie, 'The Curious Case of Benjamin Button', Daisy and Benjamin immediately recognise their soul mate connection when they first meet, but their life circumstances are less than ideal. The immediate and burgeoning love that they have for each other overcomes great odds, but finally ends in heartbreak because Benjamin is experiencing life backwards. He is growing younger as time elapses and Daisy is growing old. Although separated through the years, they stay friends throughout their lives, reuniting as lovers when they
simultaneously reach an age that allows them to create a love child. Sadly they part when the fear of physical regression overcomes Benjamin, who does not want to be a burden to his family

Though this example of a painful soul mate journey is fictitious, it is not unlike real life sagas told throughout history about couples not able to fully consummate their soul mate relationship due to life's complications. Tortured accounts of unfulfilled love between real-life soul mates could be due to the amount of unresolved karma perpetuated over the times spent apart during various incarnations. Individuals who are fortunate enough to meet their soul partner in life may need to balance negative karma before they can experience bliss together. This is due to our innate and known propensity to be corruptible and to err in the face of divine opportunity. In a nutshell, we can make some very bad decisions. The process of nurturing true and pure love with a soul partner therefore requires sacrifice of ego and communion with God to ready the soul for ultimate wholeness. For the soul mate partnership to be truly productive the individuals must have already attained some spiritual mastery during their journeys so that their eventual union will not be tainted.

JOURNAL: Congress Presses New York Fed for More Details on Rate-Rigging Scandal By BEN PROTESS

Congress Presses New York Fed for More Details on Rate-Rigging Scandal



By BEN PROTESS

Congress widened its inquiry into the interest-rate manipulation

scandal, pressing the Federal Reserve Bank of New York to further

disclose its knowledge of the multiyear scheme.



On Monday, the oversight panel of the House Financial Services

Committee sent a letter to the New York Fed seeking volumes of records

about the London interbank offer rate, or Libor, a measure of how much

banks charge each other for loans. Lawmakers are demanding that the

New York Fed detail its communications with employees from all 16

banks that help set the interest rate, which affects the trillions of

dollars in mortgages and other loans.



The letter follows a Congressional request that the New York Fed turn

over transcripts from phone calls its officials had with just one

bank: Barclays.



In June, the British bank became the first to settle accusations that

it tried to manipulate Libor for its own benefit. Authorities around

the globe are investigating more than 10 other big banks for their

role in rigging the interest rate.



The initial transcripts released this month showed that the New York

Fed learned about wrongdoing at Barclays in 2008. That revelation

called into question whether the New York Fed pursued the matter

fully.



"We know that we're not posting um, an honest" rate, a Barclays

employee told a New York Fed official in April 2008, according to

transcripts. At the time, because high borrowing costs were a sign of

poor health, banks were submitting artificially low rates to project a

better image of their finances.



The transcript, among other documents, only fed the firestorm over

what regulators might have known about the rate-rigging scandal. The

New York Fed and other authorities are under scrutiny for failing to

thwart the illegal activities that, at Barclays, continued to 2009.



"There are still many outstanding questions that merit further

investigation," Representative Randy Neugebauer, the chairman of the

House Financial Services Subcommittee on Oversight and Investigations,

wrote in the letter on Monday.



The latest request is likely to produce reams of memos and e-mails.

The subcommittee is demanding "all communications and documents"

between the New York Fed and the 16 banks over a five-year span, from

2007 to 2012. The New York Fed, which has until Sept. 1 to provide the

documents, must also turn over its internal documents and any

correspondence with authorities in the United States and abroad.



The New York Fed has defended its actions, saying it briefed

regulators about the broad problems with Libor.



But lawmakers have questioned why the New York Fed, despite its

awareness of misconduct at Barclays, did not refer the illegal acts to

regulators or the Justice Department. Instead, the New York Fed

circulated in June 2008 a plan to fix Libor, producing a six-point

plan to revamp the rate-setting process.



"As you know, the role of government is to ensure that our markets are

run with the highest standards of honesty, integrity and

transparency," Mr. Neugebauer wrote. "Therefore, any admission of

market manipulation -- regardless of the degree -- should be swiftly

and vigorously investigated."

JOURNAL: Wealthy Stash $21 Trillion in 'Pirate Banking' System Posted By: Robert Frank

Wealthy Stash $21 Trillion in 'Pirate Banking' System



Posted By: Robert Frank | CNBC Reporter & Editor



There are two banking systems for the wealthy. Private banks. And

"pirate" banks.



"Pirate banks" form a large and fast-growing virtual banking system

that has helped the wealthy hide more than $21 trillion offshore,

according to a new report from the left-leaning Tax Justice Network

USA.



That hidden wealth is costing governments $280 billion a year in lost

tax revenue, the report says.



The report says much of that wealth is held by fewer than 10 million

of the global super-wealthy and is handled by the world's 50 largest

banks. Today's "pirate banking" clients include everyone from

"30-year-old Chinese real-estate speculators and Silicon Valley

software tycoons to Dubai oil sheks, Russian presidents, mineral-rich

African dictators and Mexican drug lords," the report said.



"The 'pirate banking' system now launders, shelters, manages and, if

necessary, re-domiciles the riches of many of the world's worst

villains, as well as the tangible and intangible assets and

liabilities of many of our wealthiest individuals," said the report.



The report was written by James Henry, a former economist for McKinsey & Co.



Of course, determining how much wealth is hidden overseas is an

imprecise science. And many conservative groups contest the estimate.



The problem, says Dan Mitchell, a senior fellow at the Cato Institute,

is that the estimate is based on a series of assumptions aimed at

making people "believe that much of cross-border investing is all

about tax evasion and that all this money should go to government, and

that this would be a good thing." The real problem facing governments,

Mitchell says, is spending not revenues.



The Tax Justice Network used data from the World Bank and

International Monetary Fund, the United Nations, central banks and

national accounts to model capital flows for 139 countries. It

supplemented this with other data on transfer prices and reserve

currencies, along with consulting firm research on offshoring.



All that data-crunching resulted in the estimate that the world's

wealthy have between $21 trillion and $32 trillion stashed offshore,

and that the world's top 50 banks collectively manage more than $12

trillion of that money. Smaller banks, investment banks, insurance

companies, hedge funds and independent money managers oversaw the

rest.



The $21 trillion to $32 trillion estimate does not include real

estate, yachts, thoroughbreds or gold bricks, which could also

increase the number.



The report says that traditional offshore havens like Switzerland and

Singapore hold substantial amounts. But much of the offshore fortune

is held in a "virtual country" – a network of complicated cross-border

entities designed to shelter wealth.



An asset may be "owned by an anonymous offshore company in one

jurisdiction, which is in turn owned by a trust in another

jurisdiction, whose trustees are in yet another jurisdiction," the

report said.

LOVE: I SEEM TO HAVE LOVED YOU IN NUMBERLESS FORMS

I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times... In life after life, in age after age, forever.
My spellbound heart has made and remade the necklace of songs, That you take as a gift, wear round your neck in your many forms, In life after life, in age after age, forever.

Whenever I hear old chronicles of love, it's age old pain, It's ancient tale of being apart or together. As I stare on and on into the past, in the end you emerge, Clad in the light of a pole-star, piercing the darkness of time. You become an image of what is remembered forever.

You and I have floated here on the stream that brings from the fount. At the heart of time, love of one for another. We have played along side millions of lovers, Shared in the same shy sweetness of meeting, the distressful tears of farewell, Old love but in shapes that renew and renew forever.

Today it is heaped at your feet, it has found its end in you The love of all man's days both past and forever:
Universal joy, universal sorrow, universal life. The memories of all loves merging with this one love of ours -
And the songs of every poet past and forever

COMMITMENT: PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE BEHAVIOR OF THE COMMITMENT PHOBIC

Sometimes when I want more from a relationship that person wants to flee. Some people call this type of person a commitment phobic. However it goes deeper than that. An emotionally distant person will often ACTUALLY want to commit or move closer to a person yet the fear on intimacy frightens them so much that it actually cripples them. Hence the passive aggressive behavior, ambiguous behaivor that’s all to common with this personality type.

The emotionally distant partner will use ANY excuse or tactic they can to create avoidance of either you or the relationship/friendship if the “pressure” gets to be too much. For them “pressure” usually will only have to involve either asking them to do something that involves the giving up more time and feelings than they choose. Or asking them to express their emotions. And last but not least, asking for a deeper commitment from them on all levels. The emotionally distant partner is VERY ambiguous, so trying to pin them down to commit to a date, appointment, meeting, etc. is often met with excuses and distance. This leaves the unsuspecting party hurt and confused. How could we go from having such a great time and talking everyday to them just disappearing? And to add insult to injury the wounded party usually isn’t aware of this trait until they are already emotionally invested in this person. This person has issues of their own and you just happen to be in their path/life.

Dealing with an emotionally distant partner can be torturous if you had started to develop feelings for this person. Nothing is wore than caring for someone AND actually knowing that they have feelings for you, yet they are not capable of showing it. So that brings us to the question “what can I do about it?” ” What can I do if I’m already emotionally tied to someone who is not capable of “giving” more?”

The first thing you need to do is recognize the warning signs and traits of this personality type. This will not only help you decide if you need to move forward without the. It will also help you spot this behavior in future mates.

1. They are emotionless when you are showing “deep” emotions.

2. They “clam” up when any type of intimacy is initiated. This person will talk the talk when it comes to relationships/friendships, but they can never seem to walk the walk.

3 They freak out at the mere mention of expressing emotions or spending more time together. Yes they will hang out with you, talk on the phone, even date. Some will even go as far as getting into a relationship but they ultimately aren’t capable of giving back. They show their displeasure by distancing themselves., not answering the phone, or giving you the silent treatment for days, sometimes weeks.

4. They are never there when you REALLY need them. Oh sure they have came through for you on several occasions, even when you have been in a pinch, but this is not the norm. As a matter of fact they will “conveniently” position themselves to always be unavailable/busy. This way they don’t look like the bad guy if they tell you no, or you simply won’t ask them in the first place.

5.The emotionally distant partner can sometimes be a serial cheater, or they are sure to involve themselves with people who are “unavailable” such as someone who is married, in another state, or who works long hours at their job. This way there is ALWAYS an excuse why they can’t give more of themselves. If the person suddenly becomes “available” such as moving to their town, gets a divorce, or takes a vacation from their job. they become distant or disappear altogether.

LOVE YOURSELF FIRST! NOTHING/NO ONE is worth your peace of and and happiness. People don’t change over night . And it’s not your place nor your job to fix them. Sometimes relationships are like glass, you can cut yourself trying to put the pieces back together. It ‘s better to just walk away.

LOVE/DATING: THE PROBLEM WITH SINGLE MOM

Most single mothers don't feel bound by men who are playing surrogate father to their children---offspring that they have sired from someone else. There's always a possibility that the father still will be involved, and if the split was amicable or not, that's something to contend with. At brass tacks, you are still a provider, one in which whatever contributions you make isn't valued enough.

Sex? Many men don't receive the affection they'd like, simply because honey is too exhausted from juggling work, kids, and who knows what else. This includes addictions they are nursing after binging. And usually single moms are in financial stress to even dire straits. They bitch about not having enough CS from their ex-spouse or any at all, yet with their own spending habits usually aren't disciplined, always in debt or having nothing to show for it at the end of the month.

There are compromises that you are going to make that are far more of a price if you had simply dated someone else that was childless. If the kids don't like you or never get attached despite their tolerance of you---you are still not their real father, no matter how bad he was (or how bad SHE paints him, which is fairly common), it still won't last. You will never be completely viewed as an equal partner, but an on-call babysitter. Single moms use their condition as a rationalization to be selfish about the things they do in daily life

THOUGHTS: THE SHAME

Do you ever have the following thoughts over and over: "I am defective", "I am stupid", "I am unlovable" and " I am bad"?  The child receiving emotional abuse receives one or more deficiency messages from the shaming parents, such as:

1. "You are no good" which tells the child she is bad.
2. "You are not good enough" which tells the child she would be acceptable if she would do a little more; however, no matter what the child does, she never receives parental approval.
3. "You don't belong" which tells the child that she is not a member of the family because she is different in some unacceptable way.
4. "You are not lovable" which tells the child that she is not worthy of being loved and grows up believing no one could ever love her.
5. "You should not exist" which tells the child that she is nothing and not worthy of living, and grows up experiencing an inner sense of emptiness.

As a result of these shaming messages, a shame-based person internalizes a negative core belief which states, "I am bad regardless what I do, even if what I do appears good." 
Consequently, the shamed-base person reacts to the inner felt defectiveness in a number of dysfunctional ways, such as:

1. Paralysis in which the individual is unable to start or complete a project.
2. Escapism in which the individual wants to withdraw from others.
3. Perfectionism in which the individual believes she will be acceptable only if she never makes a mistake.
4. Criticism in which the individual becomes highly critical of herself and others.

JOURNAL/LOVE: I DESIRE TO BE LOVED BUT I RESIST IT

I desire to be loved but I resist it. I resist it because the experience of being loved requires surrender. It’s painful. When someone tells me they love me my first response is one of two polar extremes, both of which are forms of refusal. I don’t believe them because the tape plays that if they really knew me they wouldn’t love me . . . so their love for me is based upon ignorance. Or I don’t believe them because I’m confident they love me because of what I’m able to do for them to merit their expression of love . . . so their love for me is based upon my performance.

Either way, I’m refusing the pain of surrender in exchange for the perceived security of control. If I can decide what is and is not lovable about me, I’m in control. If I can do enough to earn your love for me, I’m in control.

The most powerful force on the planet is love. In its purest form (where I’m both known and loved), love is also the most resisted force even while it is the most desired.