LOVE: YOU GET EXACTLY THE TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP YOU WANT

 I heard this quote in the movie The Wedding Date,,,“Every woman has the exact love life she wants.”And so I starting thinking...hummmmm... Perhaps this true.

In the movie, Kat (Messing) is flying to London to attend her sister's wedding where Kat's ex-fiance (who dumped her) is going to be the best man. To create the illusion that she's moved on with her life and is unaffected by the break-up, she hires an escort (Mulroney) to pretend to be her new fiance. She found him by reading an interview of him in a magazine.

At one point in the movie, she's talking to Nick (played by Mulroney) about a comment in the interview that she didn't agree with.

She reads the section to him:

"You said (and I quote) , 'I believe every woman has the exact love life she wants'...do you honestly believe that I want to be single and miserable? Do you think I want to be hung up on some guy who led me on for years and then—out of the blue—shattered my heart?"

Nick replies, "First of all, there's no such thing as "out of the blue". And secondly.... yeah, I do."

She's incredulous.

She yells "What??"

Nick says,

"When you're ready to let go, to be un-single and un-miserable....you will. Till then...." and walks away.

There's a HUGE lesson there that most people don't get. Even the ones who SAY theyget it don't really get it. And, just like the case with me several years ago, you can tell they don't get it because they're not living it.

The basic lesson is very simple: you are where you are right now—you've been experiencing what you don't really want to experience—because you made the choice, at some unconscious level, to be there.

Some people will argue that they didn't choose their present circumstances. Or that it's luck. Or "the breaks". Or they say they're on "part of a learning curve" or something. But the truth is that you can look at every area of your life—your marriage, your bank account, your relationship with others, your parenting, your physical health—and the fact remains the same: you are where you are because that's where your opinions, beliefs, and decisions PUT you.

We accept the love we deserve. We as people, man or woman have the power to determine what happyness should look like With that being said – We should be masters at creating the environment We want to be in… If We want to have a healthy love life, We have to create it!! Not only do We create it, 

Kurt Vonnegut once said, "We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful about what we pretend to be." You can't pretend to be someone you're not, because the truth will eventually show through. Some women may think they are one way, when in fact they are another; I know this to be true because I have seen it many times. The same can be said for relationships; some enjoy not settling down and living the single life, some play the waiting game, waiting for Mr. Right to come along, some seem as though they can't survive without a partner and so they hop from relationship to relationship never settling because they can't commit, and then there are the types that once they find true love they grab hold of it and get married. This is why women are so complicated, this is why you can't get certain girls to commit or jump into bed with you. I will speak on behalf of the male species in saying that we typically know what kind of love life we want too, but the difference is that we tend to make our intentions known. But it is, in fact our job as guys to find out what exactly it is that women want

It's all about what the woman needs, and if she just needs a body to make her feel secure and comfortable, then thats all you will ever be, unless you show her otherwise. You show her what she's missing in her love life, and her love life changes... When a woman finds a guy who constantly reminds her of how beautiful she is, who will lie under the stars and listen to her heartbeat, or stay awake just to watch her sleep... who kisses her forehead, who thinks she's just as beautiful without makeup on, one who constantly reminds her of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have her, she has no choice but to change her love life, because once she has that, she won’t ever want to not have it.

To the female cynics out there, you're love life is what you make it, and somewhere inside every woman is the desire to make one lucky man her last great romance."If you'd rather give up then try, then you will never find anything worth fighting for."(I think this was from a Scrubs episode) I thought I had found myself in one woman's last great romance, but as it turns out, she wanted to give up rather then try. But maybe she's got the love life she wants, maybe she's a relationship hopper, and when I thought I had completed my construction, she jumped ship. But thats the problem with relationship hoppers is that sometimes the best thing they've found is staring them right in the face yet they still let go, because thats all they've ever known. It took me awhile to realize that even though it was love, it may not have been everything I wanted..."Sometimes you have to get to know someone really well to realize you're really strangers." (Mary Tyler Moore) I'm at the point where I'm wondering if that made any sense at all or whether it was one long stream of consciousness/diatribe. Who knows..

Billions of things are going on in this world. You can think about it all you want, but life is still going to keep on happening

POETRY: IN A DREAM OF US

An awakening of emotion, never lost,
but without life.
Simple feelings, transformed
into burning passion.

Feelings of love, kindled by loving words
from a kind heart...
Tumultuous serenity... fireless flame... feverish chill...
Such a battle against harmony, for they are apart.

Too far for a fingertip's touch,
a kiss... a warm embrace...
Yet their souls know not the distance,
For their love joins them

at the speed of the heart..


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 How will I know I love you,
 How will I know it's true,
 What is love any way,
 Could my love be you?
 
 is it at a certain age,
 or even at a moment?
 
 Is it when you can't stand,
 not seeing someone,
 for even just a day?
 
 Is it when you feel,
 total comfort,
 in just the sound of their voice,
 and what thay say?
 
 When they touch you,
 and a trillion
 chills roll down your spine?
 
 When it seems like they
 can read your mind,
 
 If this is love,
 I think I've found it,
 But I'm still just not,
 quite sure...




3

Come grow with me in the springtime
When life is renewed and love's in full bloom.
Let it be then that our new limbs are combined.

Come grow with me in the summertime
When emotions are heated and love's completed.
Let is be then that our new love's of one mind.

Come grow with me in the autumn-time
When hearts are brilliant and love's resilient.
Let it be, then, that our faith in one another's defined.

Come grow with me in the wintertime
When spirituality reigns and love's serene.
Let it be then that our roots are firmly intertwined.



4

I thought you would like to know
that my thoughts go where you go;
that life is richer, sweeter far
for such a sweetheart as you are;
and how my constant prayer will be
that god will keep you safe for me


5

There are so many questions you'll ask through life,
Most of which will never be answered--
Things like what will I do with my life
And where will I be in 5 years time.
All of these things are what the wisest man will never learn.
His long hours of research will never answer the question.
I've always wondered, who is my soulmate,
The one with whom I'll share my life,
The one I'll wake beside every morning and,
The one I'll lay beside to watch the stars at night?
She will never be able to say
Because it is me who has to search for that soul.
For some people they never find that soul.
They go on through life alone,
With no one to share their thoughts with
And no one whom they can call upon
Whenever they're feeling blue.
So I guess I could consider myself lucky
For I've found that soul I'm destined to meet,
The one whom I could spend forever with,
The one I can say I truly love,
The one whom I'll never let go of,
Because our love is so deep.
That one person out of the many I know
Is the one I will cherish until time is through.
That one person has the soul that will be forever with mine.
And that one person will always have my heart,
No matter what.
So if you've found that I have given this to you,
Then you should know that you are that soul
And you have my heart.


6

Thoughts of a day
 in heaven
On a planet called
 love in memories
We were there in a
 day long embrace
Among the soft soft sheets
 of a sandy place
Blue blue waters surfing
 up the white beach
Mingling with our minds
 wrapped in softness
Caressing the day away
 among sunlight kisses
And night time, too,
 among the moonlight
    passion
How wonderful was that
 time, in endless 
 pleasure of feeling
In love with love, and
 loving each other
Endlessly, completely
 on a white beach
Intermingled with the
 sweet surf of giving
Love in memories
 flooding back
In a dream of us

LOVE LETTER: DEAR SOULMATE

Dear Soulmate,

As the days pass by slowly, my desire to hold you in my arms grows like a volcano just waiting to explode, and shower you with tender loving care. My feelings for you are true, and as deep as the sea. I can only hope you feel the same way, because this was meant to be.Your golden hair threads of endless sunshine.Your eyes,seas of compassion and emotion.Each word you hispher, engraved on my heart,memorized In my soul. a look, a casual gaze, a burned image in my mind, of your smile.More than the moon, stars, sun, and clouds is what you always say.But that can't even begin to measure how I feel for you each day! When you came to my life the eternal snow of my solitude melted in my soul, formed rivers to fecundate the life, My love was a dormant volcano crowned by the long cold of my  nostalgia. It was the quiet night, it was the night without echo, it was the same sadness cohabiting with the solitude. Then you arrived and lit the fire, you gave heat to my soul and flavor to my life then you arrived and moved away the loneliness and banished sadness. Your love is a volcano in eruption. My love was an extinguished volcano but the lavas of your heart flooded my being and lit my soul!

JOURNAL: I FEELING SAD ABOUT MY DATE AGAIN

I was thinking about my date on Sunday again. It just show once again..how people like to play games. She saw my picture...I told her what I was looking for (marriage and kids)  and my approach to dating (if we meet we would be a couple). We even talk for a few weeks to build some sort of bond which I thought we had. I would call her every night. And when she was not feeling well..i sent her things ..sites to look at ...books.....whatever I can to try to make her not feel so sad.

But like always... people say and do something totally different. I felt lead on...it like getting into a relationship with someone and telling them you want kids and that person...never wanted to have kids. I wasted my time... and my heart is broken.I am trying to figure how that lesson of all this

I am not worried...i let the universe take care of things...there is always karma. What you put out is what you will get...so I am not worried about the pain she caused me....i will move on and she has to live with herself. It will come back to her. I would never have done with she did to me. But people are cruel. She did exactly what her ex boyfriend did to her....and then you wonder why people attract the same people over and over again. If you read my blog...you know I believe that relationship are mirror images of who you are.

My heart is too sensitive for this world. Sometimes..i want to just stop my search..because of the constant disappointment. It's hard to find individuals who have a heart...who have compassion....and feel. Each day beckons with determination for me to do my best even though my worst prevails. To be silent when words are all I have. To fill my lungs with sounds of thunderous laughter and to release my tears drop by drop. To feast as a faithful lamb, to find strength in my weakness, to love with no reservation, and to free that which binds my soul – to be less and to be more, to be all and to be nothing, to love and to hate, to pray and to curse and to know the difference.

I do not know how to hate as much as I know how to love.

My heart is full of love. I love. I love. I love. It is in what I do, who I am and goes wherever I go. Inside of me lays something good, something blue and something true. Oh wasted time, wasted days, worry not, for it’s up to fate.

She rules our destiny, decides our rise and our fall. In our days, choices are made and in our choices our lives are shaped. If we could see the path ahead of us, the nature of events as we know them now and how would it have been – Would we make them any different or we would choose the same?

People come and then they leave, careers are driven which in turn drive us, friendships blossom and they die, we have the worst and we have the best. Smiles make our days, sunshine clears the rain and the rain cleanses us too. So when in fact my heart crumbles into millions of tiny pieces, and pain excruciates and carves its name, I know with certainty, that when it rains it rains for me – it clears my sorrows and my troubles too – I start to feel my heart explode with pure and simple love, for although my eyes see only darkness my heart sees only light.

I cannot love any less than I do, I will not have a love one fraction less, for then what am I if not a fool, for believing in the science of life and not the gentle beat of my heart. For me to love is to love with all that I am or not at all, open, raw, without fear, that is me.

POETRY: LET MY WORDS BRING ENCHANTMENT TO YOUR HEART

To me.. you're like a river
   You're something that makes my soul shiver
One look from you, is more precious than gold
   You're in my arms always because
             ...can't let go


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When the day was taking-over from the night
I was there to give all my love to you
When the darkness was giving way to the light
I was there to dedicate myself to you

When the thick cloud was paving way for the cool rain
I was there to share my love with you
When winter snow was bowing down to the summer heat
I was there to appreciate how you love me

When spring rain was surrendering to summer breeze
I was there to surrender all I have to you
When the storm was handing over to the sunshine
I was there to hand over all my love to you

When the winter was saying 'welcome' to the spring
I was there to invite you into my heart
When spring was ushering in summer
I was there to initiate you into my heart

When midnight stars were sharing with morning stars
I was there to share my experience with you
When the green grass was smiling at the roses
I was there to give my entire smile to you


3

Ever since the day I met you,
I could see your beauty
Trapped within your heart,
Because no man did his duty.

No man has showed you,
Just how much a woman's worth.
You should've been treated as a queen
Since the blessing of your birth.

They've taken you for granted,
Hurting you deep inside.
They never cared if what they did
Made you start to cry.

They didn't show respect
For the beauty inside of you,
And made you think less of yourself
Than you ever used to.

They didn't understand
The pain within your heart.
Oh, how much you must have hurt,
While you're soul was torn apart.

But I've seen that pain,
And I share the tears you cry.
I've been there just like you,
When you really just want to die.

I've looked into your eyes,
And seen inside your soul.
I've seen such beauty there,
Within the things it holds.

I know how wonderful you are,
And I can't wish for anything more
Than just to hold you in my arms,
And stop our hearts from being sore.

You'll never have to worry
About having your heart scarred again.
I'd never hurt you like that;
I've seen that horrible pain.

I'll treat you like the queen
That I know you are inside.
Never will you hurt;
Sad tears you'll never cry.

I'll commit myself to you,
As you've never seen before,
Because I'm a real man,
And I could not ask for more.

It would be the biggest honor
To be able to feel your love,
To hold you close to me,
What more could I dream of?



4


Let my words bring enchantment to your heart
And bring forth magic from the dark
Words I place adrift in the wind
Do with moonbeams blend
Upon your heart descend

Incense and candles burn within
The words I cast upon the breeze
Let love?s potency begin
Its luring flight
Upon the edge of night

Your heart you cannot defend
Against my magic blend
Of shadows and moonbeams bent
Of love?s peppermint scent
From within your sleep

Into my arms you leap
Within your dream you speak my name
If only your racing heart to tame
And to quench our kisses flame
Hot the night becomes

For one that enchantment overcomes
But the spell will soon be broken
Once you have from sleep awoken
You notice on the sun?s first rays
The scent of peppermint stays

And remember



5


Honey, Come a little closer,
let me whisper in your ear.
Let me tell it to you softly,
so that no one else will hear.
What I have to say is private,
and is just between us two,
just want you, to know how much,
I love the things you do



6

Your name, like silk upon my lips,
your vision- all that's on my mind.
asking a relentless question,
with no answer there to find.

ah, but my heart does pulse,
and keep a stately time.
with the syllables of your name,
mouthed by a talkative mime.

And as I stroll through my thoughts,
one thing I do keep near.
it's the gentle caress of your words,
as you say, "I Love You Dear"

JOURNAL: ROBIN WILLIAM

Robin William died today..at age 63. I watched him in Happy Days and Mork and Mindy. I meet him once when I lived in Upper West Side. He was in Barnes and Nobles on 66 Street. I thought he was rude...totally ignored me. I guess he had demons inside that I didn't know about.

JOURNAL

The infinite possibilities each day holds should stagger the mind. The sheer number of experiences I could have is uncountable, breathtaking,. We live trapped in loops, reliving a few days over and over, and we envision only a handful of paths laid out before us. We see the same things every day, we respond the same way, we think the same thoughts, each day a slight variation on the last, every moment smoothly following the gentle curves of societal norms. We act like if we just get through today, tomorrow our dreams will come back to us. / B: And no, I don't have all the answers. I don't know how to jolt myself into seeing what each moment could become. But I do know one thing: the solution doesn't involve watering down my every little idea and creative impulse for the sake of some day easing my fit into a mold. It doesn't involve tempering my life to better fit someone's expectations. It doesn't involve constantly holding back for fear of shaking things up. / This is very important, so I want to say it as clearly as I can:
FUCK.
THAT.
SHIT.

ARTICLE: Wall Street Criminals Are Still a Protected Class in America Written by: Matt Taylor

It's becoming a sort of ritual for the US government to cut a deal with the Wall Street bankers who caused the 2008 financial crisis. Last October, we saw JP Morgan get slapped with a $13 billion settlement for hawking shady mortgages to investors. Citigroup was charged $7 billion in a similar agreement reached this July. Usually, the settlements consist of large sums of money that can be trumpeted in splashy newspaper headlines and tough, self-congratulatory statements from Attorney General Eric Holder, who fancies himself a hero. But set against the backdrop of an ongoing War on Drugs that essentially criminalizes African American and Hispanic youth in many American cities, the federal government's stubborn refusal to criminally prosecute the white guys who sent the economy into a tailspin is a testament to just how heinous our legal system has become.

The latest settlement is with Charlotte, North Carolina-based Bank of America, which has apparently caved to Holder's demand that they pay between $16 and 17 billion—the "largest single federal settlement in the history of corporate America," as the New York Times reports. Tack on the $45.87 billion the bank had already shelled out in various other suits since the crash, and it almost starts to seem like all is right with the world, or at least some small measure of justice is being done.

But don't let the flashy numbers fool you. For one thing, BofA is paying for the crimes of some of its subsidiary banks like Merrill Lynch and Countrywide that were absorbed during the panic. And as ThinkProgress has already pointed out, the numbers are misleading because only a chunk of the total settlement has to be paid in actual cash; the rest can come in the form of breaks to consumers that will ultimately benefit the bankers. And the huge fees that do get paid to the Feds are tax-deductible, ensuring there isn't so much as a taste of actual pain for the bad guys.

Letting bankers do their thing without the threat of punishment is now almost as engrained in our culture as going easy on renegade cops. We learned this week that prosecutors probing the systematic beatings of mentally ill patients at NYC's Rikers Island, the second largest jail in the country, are declining to pursue a case against the prison guards responsible. Apparently the Bronx district attorney had such a heavy caseload over the past couple of years that it was impossible to make the sadists pay. What kinds of cases was he working on instead? Surely some of them were the kinds of low-level marijuana and other "Broken Windows" (or quality-of-life) offenses that the authorities insist represent an existential threat to the national fabric. In reality, they speak to two different criminal justice systems—one for the rich, and one for everyone else.

On Thursday, the New York Daily News reported that the death of Eric Garner, whose videotaped death via police chokehold has sparked an uproar in recent weeks, was the direct result of a crackdown on illegal cigarette sales ordered by NYPD brass. So selling a few untaxed cigarettes is now officially worse than causing the economy to run off a cliff—and screwing over countless homeowners along the way.

“The DOJ [Department of Justice] can be counted on to brag that the settlement dollar amount with Bank of America sets yet another record and claim, again, that this shows DOJ is tough on Wall Street," Dennis Kelleher, the President and CEO of Better Markets, a financial reform advocacy group, said in a statement. "But, unlike other recent settlements, will DOJ provide the public with the key information on investor losses, Bank of America profits, the names of involved executives, specific laws broken and the actual systemic illegal schemes and activities? In short, is DOJ willing to actually inform the American people about such important and grave matters?"

For a while, at least, the White House could cite the specter of weak financial markets as an excuse for not aggresively going after Wall Street banks. But the US economy is growing pretty rapidly at the moment, and the banks are doing great. Is there really any danger at this point in setting the precedent that some financial "innovation" is beyond the pale?

The corruption at play is also pretty blatant when you glance at the Wall Street Journal's nifty breakdown of which banks have paid how much for their naughty behavior since the crash. Goldman Sachs—the company that fell in love with Barack Obama harder than any other back in 2008—is at the bottom of the list. In their case, the settlements haven't even reached $1 billion, though that's partially a function of the bank not having its own consumer mortgage shop. But even if the bankers paid exactly as much as they destroyed/ruined (not to mention the trillions in bailout money and loans they were gifted from the Feds), it still wouldn't be justice, per se. These men should be doing time for breaking the law and screwing people over. As long as they can just write a check—and the profits from breaking the law exceed the fines—why not keep the party going?

"Given the enormity of what went on in the mortgage market, and the thorough involvement of Merrill Lynch, Countrywide, and Bank of America itself, it's not as big as it sounds," former North Carolina Congressman Brad Miller, who worked extensively on financial regulation in Washington and has since joined a law firm involved in litigation against those very banks, told me of the settlement. "We will be paying the price for not having held them accountable for a very long time. Having been treated as delicately as fine China has only made them feel entitled to do anything they want."

He bemoaned the fact that as recently as the 1990s, being "tough on crime" (both street crime and white-collar crime like the Enron mess) was mainstream.

"Now being tough on crime when the crime in question is securities fraud is seen as left-wing," Miller said.

JOURNAL: I WENT ON A DATE TODAY.

Am I doomed to be alone because I dare to be myself?  I don’t want someone I can’t be myself with, much as I admit that sometimes I have thrown myself at someone almost in the hopes of repelling them, because I didn’t believe they could see and love the real me and also because I wanted to test them.

Much as I know there is nothing wrong with me, I guess I always thought I had to be perfect and have my life figured out before someone decent expressed an interest. I guess I’m only human.

I see a habitual pattern repeated, that of getting really excited about someone possibly before I know them well enough and then beginning to have all sorts of expectations. Tons of if/then statements for how we should interact, for how i can know she likes me, for me to think I’ve got it under control, even though I don’t.Nobody does.And all my vain attempts at control actually squish the delicate flower that was forming. Maybe the girl for you is not the person you thought it was going to be, that maybe your dream come true won’t look exactly as you thought it would

The last time I got involved with somebody, I analyzed whether she would call back or not, whether she liked me. This time, I’m going to look into myself and explore my reactions with curiosity.

I want to find love where I am right now.Even if it brings me elsewhere, because a life without love without the daring of really caring for another person would get pretty shallow and stupid after a while, I don’t want to be in a relationship only because I think it would make me happy, but also because being connected intimately to another human would add serious depth to my life.

I need to take off the walls around my heart, but know who I am and have enough respect for myself to have boundaries without having walls, to let everything happen in its proper time instead of trying to seek certainty from some future event,  I need to feel safe in my love for myself above all.And I need to recognize that I am not in control, I am just a broken human wanting love like everyone, and despite my best efforts I might lose or get hurt, and even more astonishing I could even win, and my life will take its course.I’m tempted to be single forever, until I figure everything out and know exactly what I want, but staying in my cave is not really going to help me figure it out. And I also tend to believe love can change and grow with you, it doesn’t have to hold you back. In fact, it could be your greatest catalyst for growth.Things are not always as they seem…And we become free when we let things be, we are in control when we accept ourselves as we are, we progress when we are content where we are.

I went on a date today....I talk to this girl for few weeks, and I left not knowing she wanted me or not. She seem so quiet.... I know I wanted her...maybe I am wrong....maybe she will be mine

POETRY: HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME

A millennium from now in the great darkness
terrible in its size and crushing weightlessness,
one last star, as dim as were my hopes before you,
hangs on fighting the inevitable
and, as it shivers in the absolute cold,
it twinkles in the numbing vastness.

So, from a distance one would think it magical
if there were any witnesses left to wish upon it.
 
Then... the next beginning of the end starts
with an analog fluidity and completes with a binary finality.  

Darkness  
Nothingness

The Universe... all we are has ceased to exist
and
finally
...I don?t love you anymore.


2


Some folks they get a flood of love
Some others live in drought
What causes these inequities?
How does this come about?
Some check off lovers
From long lists
Some wonder what
They've missed
Their lives a lonely labyrinth
Of happiness dismissed.

Some folks they get a flood of love
Some others live in drought
What makes the one "the in crowd"
While the other's crowded out?
Some helm the yacht "Companionship"
While some the boat have left
Some cry "Titanic" tears each night
As if they were bereft.

Some folks they get a flood of love
Some others live in drought
Some bask in smooth security
While some are thrashed by doubt
Some pause to pray
Most every day
That eyes that often rained,
Will someday know
A flood of love
To wash away the pain.




3


There are times... when I awaken and realize
what a tender part of my dreams you have been....
I know that my thoughts are only reflecting
the loving hopes of my heart..
because whenever they wander... they always take me to you!

Every once in a while I start feeling a little lost,
especially when I start wondering where we're going.
And every now and then... I need something from you
that I don't always get...
I'd like for us to
talk a little more...
touch a little more...

Just an occasional thing... that you're still happy with me.
I'm not asking for too much....
just enough to know, from time to time,
that I make a difference.  For just knowing that...
makes all the difference in the world to me.

I hope you'll think, just for a moment,
how much you mean to me!
And when you continue on with the things
you need to be doing in your life,
smile a smile for me and remember
that I'll be thinking of you still
And always....




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Sweet are the words
           that have fallen from these lips
            but cherish more, now, you see,
            the thoughts I hold within me
        trusting... caring... sharing messages
             from my mind~~~~never slip
          for words that have such meaning
       can cause us to have different readings
         on what we feel........ what we say
               or to say what we feel
                but to know another
            knows these words are for real

POETRY: YOU ARE A PIECE OF HEAVEN TO ME

What is it about you that I like so much
Is it your heavenly smile, or is it your luscious lips
Is it your sense of style, or is it the way you look
Is it the way you talk, or is it the things you say
Is it your  hair, or is it the color of it
Is it your mysterious eyes, or is it the way you look at me with them
Is it the way you walk, or is it the way you move
It is definitely all of these things that drive me to the point
  of insanity,
You are a piece of heaven to me, one so unreachable yet beautiful


2

Wherever she is, I want her to know this
I want her, my life, yes the true source that courses through my veins
To know, that I already love her.
I want her to know, that yes, I?ve been waiting,
sometimes impatiently...nonetheless I?m still waiting
I want her to know that, life has taught me that lesson
that most never learn...that painful session in which
you learn how to hold on to those that mean the most to
you.
Yes, tell her that I?ve learned over time and through others
That love only comes around when love
assumes that you?re not ready.
So tell her, my love, my reason for being
That I am not ready and then again
I am.
Tell her wherever she?s at, that I?ll never
hide or confide what I feel from her
Tell her that I will forever
hold her kisses true to my heart
Tell her that my soul aches to hear her wisdom
Aches to experience her emotional misunderstanding of
what she?ll assume I am
Tell her please
Tell her that I?m almost
Ready
Ready
Ready
To
Be
Loved



3

You asked for the moon
I got it for you
You asked for the stars
I flew high and brought them for you
Everything you ever demanded
I did all for love

When you were hungry
I fed you with my hand
When you were cold
I clothed you with myself
When you had no place to live
I gave you my own shelter

In the summer time
I lay myself down for you
In the winter time
I gave you all within me
In every season
I gave everything you wanted

I treated you like a king
By laying food on your table
I helped you in all your endeavors
By solving all your problems
Despite...you scandalize and criticize me
And think all is well to blackmail me

Now that fortune smiles on you
You just say I?m up to no good
Sweet memories of the past
No longer appeal to you
Shameless lover you now seem to me
I never knew you were such an ingrate.


4


For one moment in your arms,
I would wait a thousand years,
I would live my life in dusk
if you found the sun severe.

If you wished things to never change,
I'd freeze this place in time.
To tell the world of how I feel,
there's no mountain I won't climb.

I will plant a bed of roses
if ever you are tired,
And I would write a hundred songs
for you if you desired.

To bring to you some happiness
I would swim the greatest sea,
I would give up everything
just to have you here with me.

To hear your laughter echoing
there's nothing I wouldn't do,
And I can promise you right now
that I always will love you.



5

Come lie with me by the stream.
Share your hopes and dreams.
Show me excitement like I've never known.
Lie with me by the stream 
 and tell me I am your own.
Your heart is thoughtful and sweet.
Lie with me by the still waters, 
 and I'll show you my love runs deep.
Lie with me by the peaceful stream called life.
Lie with me and take away the strife.
I cannot compare you with any other, my sweet.
I cannot express my love for you, 
 nor can anyone compete. 
Lie with me by the stream of desire.
Set my heart free and my soul afire.
Lie with me by the stream forever.
Lie with me and leave me never.
The stream will overflow with passion.
Lie with me by the stream 
 and I will show you my love and compassion.
This stream runs deep; this srream runs fast.
Lie with me by the stream, 
 and I will show you my love is everlasting.