PERSONAL/LOVE LETTER: WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME

I am flawed. I am insecure, jealous, possessive, overbearing, needy, and ill tempered. I am awkward a I am imperfect and I am unloveable. But not when you look at me. When you look at me, you see someone different. Someone better. You see someone confident and humble, beautiful and happy. You see someone
happy and cheerful with a million friends and a kickass sense of humor. You see the potential for my future, the things I've learned from my past. You see a realist and a dreamer, someone who is patient and kind and fair. You see someone you love.

And when you look at me, sometimes, just sometimes, I think I could really be that person you see. I think I could really be that. Because it gives me so much hope for myself, for the future, that you could see all that in me. That someone as extraordinary as you could spend so much time loving and caring for someone so mundane as me.

From the moment you began looking my way, it felt like I was basking in a shower of warm, comfortingly cozy sunlight. It was like bathing in affection, adoration, amicability. Love, lust, peacefulness, I felt them all for the first time with you.

I sometimes wish I hadn't made the choice to become involved with you. With someone that I knew would end up hurting me when you left. But then I remember the good times. The breathtaking memories we had, the perfect first kiss, the times you made me feel safe and secure and normal for the first time in my life.


You don't know this, but you saved me. I was floundering in my own despair and my own regrets and sorrows, and you saved me.

So thank you, my love. Thank you for loving me and seeing me and making me be something better.I will never forget you.

LETTER/PERSONAL/ LOVE: SOMEWHERE THERE'S SOMEONE WHO DREAM OF YOUR SMILE

I had always wanted to tell you that I love you but my lips were sealed as my heart didn't allow me to throw my words out ..I wish you could see behind my smile all the hidden feelings.

It is said that the most precious possession that ever comes to a man in life is a woman's heart ..the broken pieces of my heart still love you and will always love you only you, I wont ever tell you that you are the only person I look up to every time I am lonely you are the only best thing that has ever happened to me. Tears words that my heart cant say and my heart has alll those hidden tears deep inside it.

It really hurts when all the best things in life turn into memories which are unforgettable. I know that you never felt the same way for me but I still kept loving you .I kept my eyes closed although everything was so clear.The problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me I can't force myself to stop loving you .Love has no beginning and no ending it is always there but you only need to feel it .The scars you can't see are the hardest to heal to die and part is less evil than to than to part and live..missing you gets easier every
day because even though it's one day further from the last time I saw you , it's one day closer to the next time I will see you, do remember

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worth while.
So when you are lonely, remember it's true Somebody somewhere is thinking of you. love you always ...

PERSONAL/LOVE/ LETTER: LOSING YOU IS LIKE LOSING MYSELF

My love I know I wont ever have the confidence to tell you this but this is true I loved you more than anything, still love you and will always be loving you... I know you are not mine and can never be.I had dream about things which won't ever come true....but now that everything is so clear I still love you like anything because love is eternal, it cares for no beginning and no end.

You have a special place in my heart and no one else can take it I assure you this .. the broken and shattered pieces of my heart still love you. Love is a great feeling those who win in love are the luckiest people alive,but the other name for love is sacrifice and you know you are very lucky because you have someone who loves you like hell and can do anything to get a smile on your face.You mean a lot to me I am sacrificing my love , myself, my feelings for you.

You can't even guess how much I miss you.I have a lot of questions but no one to answer.I am living with this love and will die with this love.I have always been your's only.The tears in my eyes ,the beat of my heart are only taking you're name.

My life has changed. You were like a wonderful heart touching breeze that blew everything away.I am like jotting down my feeling in a paper being damn sure you wont ever read this.In true love the smallest distance is too great, and the greatest distance can be bridged.

True Love burns the brightest, But the brightest flames leave the deepest scars.True love stories never have endings.Time will make you forget me but time will make me love you more than before.If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you, but I did, I do and I will.If in this lifetime, I wont get to have you, I'll make sure that if I meet you in my next life I wont have to think twice on saying that "I waited a lifetime to say I love you..Sometimes I think the heart was made to be broken. Your closing your eyes to me, opened my eyes to you. I don't know how to not love you, I only know how to not let you go.One can not truly experience the beauty of love without enduring the pain that comes with it once it is lost.If I were granted three wishes, they would be You, Me, Us. I can't stop shedding my tears for you because losing you is like losing myself, but still I will be always loving you you're love

LOVE LETTER/PERSONAL/ LOVE: I WANT YOU TO KNOW

I want you to know that I still love you and always will. I thought I could get over you and that my broken heart would heal quickly. I was wrong. I was only strong while you were not near. One look at you and
my heart melts within me. All the buried feelings begin to rise within me and all I want to do is melt within your arms. I now confess that I never stopped loving you. I guess I never will.

Now I am feeling lost and confused. Within my heart I want you so badly. All I think about is you and being able to hold you, love you, touch you, and be with you. I am consumed by my desire for you and I feel lost without you. I know that I cannot force you to be with me or to want to be with me. It must be your decision. I would not want you any other way. I want you to want me, to be with me because you want to be with me, to love me because it makes you happy to love me, to come to me because you desire to be close to me.

I thought that missing you would get easier everyday. It has not. In fact, now that I have seen you again, touched you again, made love to you again, it has gotten more difficult being without you. My whole being aches for you and I cannot force myself to stop loving you. In fact, I don't want to stop loving you.

Alas, it might very well be my fate to go on living without you. I will not beg you to come back. If love cannot lead you back to me then I guess we will stay apart, but I truly hope that you will love me as much as I love you and want me with the same burning desire that I want you.

I still love you and I don't want to stop. I want you.

LOVE LETTER/PERSONAL/LOVE: MY HEART YEARNING FOR YOU

My heart is broken. That is such a cliche to say that but it is. I have never loved anyone like I love you.

My heart is yearning for you, for some recognition, for just a glimpse that you still love me that i haven't ruined things forever, that we can get back what we had. Love me, Love me, Love me. If I wish it deeply enough will it come true again. You said for as long as I wanted you you would love me, you said you couldn't say it enough but in the space of an afternoon you lost it. So was it even love? Did you know me? Did you really know me until that day?

I keep thinking about your eyes, how they used to look at me, how I could hardly look you back at it was too much, your eyes were amazing. I think about how you came up and hugged me in the kitchen, you were
so strong and I was so weak. How when I kissed you I felt complete.

I'M so angry with you, for not being able to understand, for making me wait, for not seeming to care anymore. Today I couldn't stop crying. This feeling that I have lost you is too overwhelming, I want to run
from it, hide from it but I cant.

When I wake for a second, everything is Ok, I still have you and then after that second I know the truth again, that I let you down, that I let myself down and it hurts too much. I cant stand it. I wonder if you will ever read this and if you do that you will know that it is me, that what we had was amazing, that for a while it was real. I thought I had found my soulmate in you, a poetic soul I could relate to on every level but it was a dillusion. I thought I dreamt you in to my life, I wanted you so much before I met you and now I have lost you. Everything is empty without you, you bought light in to everything in my life and now its dark and i am lost.

POETRY:MY LOVE FOR YOU IS RELENTLESS

My love for you is relentless,
As your sweet sonnets fall upon my soul
Whispering a quiet melody
My spirit aching for more

My desires for you are relentless
Your breath flows like fire upon my skin
Capturing my deepest fantasies
While my mind plays charades with my soul
My need for you is relentless
As our spirits collide in passion
Your soul passing through mine
Reaching every corner of my inner being

My beating heart is relentless
Pounding like thunder upon an ocean
You capture my heart within your soul
It cascades your silhouette

Our desire relishes in sweetness
Our hearts singing a sighing rhapsody
Allowing our passion to rage on
Leaving us relentless...

GOD: DEAR GOD

Dear God,

Are the desires of my heart aligned with yours? Are the things I want the things you want for me? This cry pierces the depths of my being, the core of my soul, the deepest, darkest corners of my heart.

Where would I be without you? I am nothing and no one, so will you make me something? Will you open my heart to the things you desire of me? Will you teach me your ways and how to walk in them?

Hear my cries Father, please, hear them from the depths of my heart. A heart that is hungry for you.

POETRY: I AM WITH YOU, NOW YOU'RE MINE

She whimpered in a passionate sigh,

Her one true love was gone.

She watched in horror as they buried him,

And let out a mournful cry.



She'd never felt such a sense of loneliness,

Or such a sense of pain.

Her heart and soul were torn apart,

But remained a love untamed.



Although their love would last forever,

Her sorrow would not pass,

She knew that he'd be gone forever,

But their memories will last.



And with a shaky hand,

She placed a rose beside his name,

And looked into the heavens,

And shouted out in vain.



After all he gave to her,

One thing she held on high.

His true undying love for her,

And that would never die.









PART II



as your eyes shine innocently

they are my guiding light,

through the lonely days without you,

only if I could hold your hand,

my heart would be content for eternity.



your hair is all over,

gently caressing the roses,

I wish to be near them everyday,

intoxicating my sense of smell,

wandering away in



your sweet lips murmuring away,

what secrets only known to you,

yearning for their gentle words,

to fill this heart with comforting words,

to hold you close to my heart,

feel the warmth from yours to mine.



you make me shudder at every word you say,

how could I have missed you all this time?

only a divine plan it could be,

if there is a life,

it could be only with you.





PART III



To love again

How that would feel?

The tense song sung only for thee

To hold such... unheld hopes

Of a warm touch found wanting of warmth

From a cold, harsh world of yesterday

To the sunny path that leads to your heart



To love again

To hold true that which was lost

To place thee above... even sight

To wish a oneness never felt

To wake in the morning with eyes met

And to know tomorrow will find those eyes

Knowing that those eyes seek only yours

And will find a loving smile... as a frame



To love again

To know the need to be

And to be half... only whole with you

Yet, I love the feeling of incompleteness

For my half knows his better

And my mistakes find their perfection

In the eyes of thee

Whom I wish...



To love again







PART IV



My heart is racing, time is timid.

Lightened sky, darkened hall,

Frightening noise, deadly fall.

Racing toward the misty grove

What I feel is you should know.

Heart is racing, eyes on fire.

All I have is this desire.

Feeling lonely in this place,

Seeing starlight on your face.

Simple image, one desire.

I wish to be your one desire.

Running through the darkened woods,

Seeing faces in the hoods.

Catching breath, there is no time.

I am with you, now you're mine.







PART V



Innocence is a fleeting thing.

We only grasp it for a moment, then it is gone.

Our first love is innocent.

It is the first time we experience the feeling,

so it is at its purest.

We know not of the pain, the heartache,

or the ecstasy that accompanies it.

We know only love, so it is the emotion at its purest.

If only we knew to grasp that feeling

with all of our strength, and never let it go.



Falling in love is a double-edged sword.

We grow addicted to the feeling,

so we feel the need to search for it.

We abandon the person we fell in love with

to search for the feeling.

That is where the pain and hurt

that accompanies love comes in.

After we spend time trying to fall in love again,

we realize what we lost.

Unfortunately, that can never, ever be regained,

and we are left with the empty shell

of something that once was,

and we spend the rest of our lives

trying to fill that shell, but it never happens.

We have lost our innocence,

we have lost love in its purest, most basic state.

We regret that forever.

Though we may fall in love again,

it is never with that same fervor or abandon.

We never again cast ourselves blindly into love's arms.

We may fall in love again,

but it is always with a slight reservation,

that cautious look behind the shoulder,

or glimpse ahead into the chasm

that we are about to throw ourselves into.

It is never blind again, only that first "innocent" time,

for after, we know of the pain that can accompany love.

We never want to feel that wrenching pain again,

and we are scarred forever,

Our heart wears a black band which may never be removed.

We have lost our innocence.

JOURNAL: How Close Are We to New Great Depression? Posted By: Catherine Boyle

How Close Are We to New Great Depression?



Posted By: Catherine Boyle





The risk of a new depression — a sustained, severe recession — has

struck fear into the heart of markets and driven monetary policy in

developed economies since the current financial crisis began.



"We're in a very unfortunate position to be here," Richard Duncan,

author of The New Depression, warned on CNBC's "Squawk Box Europe"

Monday.



"When we broke the link between money and gold, this removed all

constraints on credit creation. This explosion of credit created the

world we live in, but it now seems that credit cannot expand any

further because the private sector is incapable of repaying the debt

it has already, and if credit begins to contract, there's a very real

danger that we will collapse into a new Great Depression," he argued.



"If this credit bubble pops, the depression could be so severe that I

don't think our civilization could survive it."



The explosion in cheap credit has been widely blamed for the global

financial crisis, but the debate about how to fix the problem

continues.



In the past few years, central banks including the U.S. Federal

Reserve , the European Central Bank and the Bank of England have

pumped liquidity into their financial systems through a number of

ways, including quantitative easing and the ECB's long-term

refinancing operation (LTRO).



"We could keep deferring the depression, but that could just encourage

the bad guys. If you do this, you possibly do more harm than good,"

Roger Nightingale, economist and strategist at RND Associates, told

CNBC Monday.



"You can defer, but not prevent."



Nightingale argued that previous credit booms, for example in Japan in

the 1980s, have led to sustained recessions.



"When you throw money into the system at a rate much in excess of the

requirements of the real economy, you're trying to get people to

borrow and spend, but the good guys out there won't because they're

too cautious. It's the bad guys who come in, the malefactors," he

said.



"When the central banks realize what is going on and raise interest

rates, it flings the world economy into depression."



The ideas of Milton Friedman, the Nobel Prize-winning economist who

argued that monetary policy should constantly expand, informed some of

the Fed's response to the crisis.



"Policymakers really believe that if we allow credit to contract, we

will reach a new Depression," Duncan said.



"The increase in government debt is making total debt grow, otherwise

we would already have collapsed in to a debt-deflation death spiral.

This creates great perils, but also tremendous opportunities."



Duncan argues that governments in the developed world should borrow

"massive" amounts of money at the current low interest rates to invest

in new technologies like renewable energy and genetic engineering.



"Even if this is wasted, at least we could enjoy this civilization for

another ten years before it collapses," he said.



His views counter those of economists who believe that governments

should focus on cutting their debt, particularly where repayments on

that debt are threatening to reach unsustainable levels, like in

Greece.

JOURNAL: The Market Has Spoken, and It Is Rigged By SIMON JOHNSON

The Market Has Spoken, and It Is Rigged



By SIMON JOHNSON

Simon Johnson is the Ronald A. Kurtz Professor of Entrepreneurship at

the M.I.T. Sloan School of Management and co-author of "White House

Burning: The Founding Fathers, Our National Debt, and Why It Matters

to You."



In the aftermath of the Barclays rate-fixing scandal, the most

surprising reaction has been from people in the financial sector who

fully understand the awfulness of what has happened. Rather than

seeing this as an issue of law and order, some well-informed people

have been drawn toward arguments that excuse or justify the behavior

of the Barclays employees.



This is a big mistake, in terms of the economics at stake and the

likely political impact.



The behavior at Barclays has all the hallmarks of fraud - intentional

deception for personal gain, causing significant damage to others.



The Commodity Futures Trading Commission nailed the detailed mechanics

of this deception in plain English in its Order Instituting

Proceedings (which is also a settlement and series of admissions by

Barclays). Most of the compelling quotes from traders involved in this

scandal come from the commission's order, but too few commentators

seem to have read the full document. Please look at it now, if you

have not done so already.



The commission's order portrays a wide-ranging conspiracy (or perhaps

a set of conspiracies) to rig markets, including, but not limited to,

any securities for which the price is linked to a particular set of

short-term interest rates.



The collective term for these rates is the London Interbank Offered

Rate, known as Libor, but the use of this nomenclature sometimes hides

the fact that there is a separate Libor daily for each of 10

currencies at 15 maturities, from overnight to 12 months, according to

the British Bankers Association. The notional size of the derivatives

involved is on the order of $360 trillion.



Barclays could not have manipulated those rates by themselves - and

that is not what the C.F.T.C. found or the basis of the Barclays

settlement. Rather, some Barclays employees colluded with people at

other banks in a way that, over a period of years, moved Libor rates

up and down, depending on what would favor the trading positions of

the people and organizations involved.



Each Libor "panel" of banks involves seven to 18 banks. Participating

banks submit the rate at which they can supposedly borrow at a

particular maturity and in a specified currency, and an average is

calculated (taking out high and low values). No one bank is likely to

be able to move the calculated Libor rates by itself.



Once the global financial crisis began to bite, there appears to have

been a more systematic manipulation of Libor reporting by Barclays

management in a particular direction - downward, to make it seem that

the bank was healthier and therefore able to borrow from other banks

at a cheaper rate.



George Osborne, Britain's chancellor of the Exchequer (the equivalent

position to the secretary of the Treasury) and a Conservative Party

member, said recently, "Fraud is a crime in ordinary business; why

shouldn't it be so in banking?" The answer, of course, is that fraud

is not allowed in any well-run country.



Anyone who takes personal responsibility seriously should want all

those involved to be held accountable - to the full extent of the law

in all jurisdictions. Anything that lets individuals escape

consequences will further undermine the legitimacy that underpins all

markets. Bankers should be leading the charge to clean up their

industry.



Nevertheless, five arguments put forward in the last 10 days, singly

or collectively, attempt to provide some sort of cover for what

happened at Barclays. None of these arguments have any merit.



First, it is argued that this kind of cheating around Libor has been

going on for a long time. This may be true, but it is a sad and lame

excuse that is unlikely to get anyone off. The bigger question must

be: Is the financial sector crooked at its core? Statements about a

pattern of behavior only strengthen the case that incentives, culture

and organizations are all badly broken at the heart of the world's

financial system.



Second, it is also asserted that "everyone does it." This is not any

kind of defense - try it next time you are accused of fraud. But the

perception that many people could be involved is part of the reason

why this scandal has legs. A broad range of involvement across the

financial sector is consistent with what is in the C.F.T.C. order -

although the full scope of the conspiracies has not yet been made

clear.



There are three United States banks involved in Libor panels: JPMorgan

Chase, Bank of America and Citigroup. Are they also implicated in some

aspect of rigging interest rates and therefore securities prices?



Barclays was the first to settle with the C.F.T.C., presumably

enabling investigators to gain better access to information about who

else is involved. It would not be a surprise if bigger fish are still

to come.



Third, Libor-rigging is defended as a "victimless crime." This is

untrue. Traders at Barclays and other banks gained from this series of

manipulations, so someone else lost. That may have been investors, who

received lower returns than they would have otherwise. Or it may have

been borrowers, who paid higher interest rate and related costs than

would have been necessary in an honest market. Other losers are

presumably everyone who was effectively overcharged by all the

intermediaries involved in crooked behavior. Some local governments

have also lost heavily, at a time when these losses put pressure on

essential services and will tend to increase taxes.



Honest people in the financial sector should be up in arms about the

behavior of Barclays and other megabanks.



Fourth, some contend that it is the regulators' responsibility and

fault that there was cheating on Libor. It is certainly the case that

there was regulatory capture at work -- that is, officials in Britain,

the United States and perhaps elsewhere should have been paying closer

attention. I made exactly this point on National Public Radio's "All

Things Considered" last Saturday.



The mystique of the financial sector wowed many people - including

many prominent policy intellectuals, Democratic and Republican - in

the years before 2008. But who does the capturing in regulatory

capture? Big banks work long and hard and lobby at many levels to push

regulators toward paying less attention.



Fifth, the weakest argument is, "It was only a few basis points, here

and there" (where a basis point is a hundredth of a percentage point,

i.e., 0.01 percent). Either the Libor reporting process and,

consequently, the pricing of derivatives has been corrupted by a

criminal conspiracy, or it has not. There is no "just a little" in

this context for the enormous global securities market.



Robert E. Diamond Jr., who resigned last week as chief executive of

Barclays, reportedly said, "On the majority of days, no requests were

made at all" to cheat on Libor. The Economist, which does not make a

general habit of criticizing prominent people in the financial sector,

observed, "This was rather like an adulterer saying that he was

faithful on most days."



Mr. Diamond has fallen. Who is next? How will this play in American

politics? There is still time for politicians on the right and on the

left of the political spectrum to get ahead of the issue. Digging in

around specious arguments in favor of price-fixing cartels is not the

way to go.



Power corrupts, and financial market power has completely corrupted

financial markets. Barclays and the other global megabanks involved in

fixing Libor have brought their own industry very low - completely

destroying the legitimacy on which sensible financial intermediation

needs to be based.



Who trusts a banker at this point? The collateral damage is enormous.

Who in their right mind would buy a complex derivative product from

Barclays or anyone else implicated in this growing scandal?

SURRENDER/SUBMISSIVE/LOVE: BEING SUBMISSIVE IS NOT ABOUT PLAYING DUMB

I'm not encouraging women to play dumb, be in a 'housewife' role, or be helpless and have no opinions. Being submissive to a man is not about that at all. I'm also not encouraging women to be submissive all the time – being submissive is just another role than a woman can take up every now and then in her relationship.
The reason I'm talking about being submissive is because it can bring more passion, strength and life to a relationship, and awaken the most masculine yet tender character in a man. Submission is almost never about admitting you're 'wrong', 'incapable' or 'weaker' than a man. Being submissive just allows for a man to feel more like a man around you.The problem with this is that, in the face of conflict in a relationship (there always IS conflict and always will be, it's natural and good) women use these steel masks to cover up their
vulnerabilities and argue at the same level with their man.

Most men don't want to be with a woman who doesn't respect a man's opinion, walks all over his ego, criticizes him, blames him, points the finger, demands things that are unreasonable, acts manipulative and deceiving, uses sex to get what she wants, etc. Instead, in the face of conflict, a woman can decide to open up to her man and remove the mask.Let him in and let him be the protector and the leader. Men are becoming more feminine, and part of this is because they no longer have as much of a masculine role anymore.

The truth is,we are built naturally stronger than women. And, we operate differently to women mentally too (think about a woman's handbag, and how she magically fits in the contents of an entire HOUSE in it; versus a man who only carries a wallet with a few cards and some money; men are much simpler and women are much more complex and thoughtful creatures). Deep down, all women have vulnerabilities and deep fears and feelings of uncertainty, especially in the face of violence.

A man wants you to show him this!! Show him he is your man, and you are his woman! Being submissive is also about trusting your man enough to let him show you the way sometimes. And, asking him for help. Or asking him for his opinion, or asking him for solutions. Most men who are in touch with their masculinity at their core would jump at the chance to help a woman with something – really! It makes him feel needed, and
useful. Not to mention manly.Give him trust where you know it is deserved, and do it without question. The masculine energy wants to be trusted.

Have you seen men with their little girls/daughters? They don't want to let ANYTHING hurt their little girl! The same goes with their wife or girlfriend, if only she could show a little innocence and submission like a child might – looking up to him as the leader. No masculine man wants to fail at leadership.

To be submissive, a woman has to be ok with being uncertain. She has to let her guard down, peel off the mask and look of 'steel' and be free. Just look to your man as a possible source of strength for you when you might need it. Like he is the rock to your 'ocean of emotion' This is incredibly strong from a woman's part. A lot of people think that by not trusting people, they are being strong, independent and smart. But, where does a lack of trust get you really? It gets you a whole world of pain, that's what it does. You walk around, holding yourselves back, not able to be free and to let go, and to fully enjoy what life has to offer, and not able to give people a chance to show their better side (often if you trust someone, they want to please MORE, as I was saying above about not trusting a man and how this can sometimes push him to betrayal).

The happiness and freedom you are able to experience in your life now, and in the future is in DIRECT PROPORTION to the level of UNCERTAINTY you can comfortably handle. The same goes with your intimate relationship! The quality of your relationship with your man is in direct proportion to the level of uncertainty that you can handle.

Part of knowing how to be submissive, and knowing that it doesn't mean you are inferior is understanding that by surrendering to a man's leadership and strength at times, you allow your relationship to flow, be real and just be free. Without so much pent up anger and negative association that plagues many modern marriages and relationships. If your man isn't being made to feel like a man around you, he'll be attracted to some other woman who DOES make him feel that way. Trust me.

SEX/ LOVE: THE IMPORTANCE OF SEX

Many men are living with a deep sense of loneliness that is quite foreign to most woman And making love is the purest salve for that loneliness. A man really does feel isolated, even with his wife. But in making love, there is one other person in this world that you can be completely vulnerable with and be totally accepted and non-judged. It is a solace that goes very deep into the heart of a man.Fulfilling sex gives him confidence. What happens in the bedroom really does affect how I feel the next day at the office.Sex is a release of a day-to-day pressures and seems to make everything else better.

A man can't just turn off the physical and emotional importance of sex, which is why its lack can be compared to the emotional pain you'd feel if your husband simply stopped talking to you. If you view sex as a purely physical need, it might indeed seem comparable to sleep. But once you realize that your man is actually saying, "This is essential to my feeling of being loved and desired by you, and is critical to counteract my stress, my fears, and my loneliness," well… that suddenly puts it in a different category. So  how might you respond?

First, know that you're responding to a tender heart hiding behind all that testosterone. If responding physically seems out of the question, let your words be heart words—reassuring, affirming, adoring. Do everything in your power—using words and actions your man understands—to keep those pangs of personal rejection from striking the man you love. Leave him in no doubt that you love to love him.

FROM A FAN

 I'm on all fours, with my eyes closed. I feel your hands, stroking, caressing & kissing me all over my body. You push between my shoulder blades, so I drop down onto my forearms & my ass is sticking straight up. You grab my left wrist then my right wrist & maneuvered them behind my back. I can feel your warmth around me & I can hear your heart thumping in your chest.

I spread my legs a little wider for you...then feel your throbbing head against my tight pussy & it gets wet with anticipation. You grind into my tight hole slowly, agonizingly pleasurably, one inch at a time. I hear you hear groan & every movement is a groan of pleasure. I match your groans, as you grind your cock harder into my pussy.

It's rough. It's sexy ... it's AMAZING.

You make it all the way inside me & I feel so full, my pussy is dripping. You slow dance with me, while your cock is still buried deep inside. I groan even louder & you slide it out, then rapidly back in. I gasp, as its so intense & so good, it's a hard pussy pounding. And I take it, because I'm a slut. I love how hard your fucking me, sliding it in and out, smacking my ass as you do it. My only purpose in life is pleasuring your rock hard cock, getting stretched out & pounded. It's incredible!!!

You stops abruptly pulling out, again I gasp, because I want you back inside.I moan & plead because I WANT YOU SO BADLY!!!

SPIRITUAL/LOVE/SEX: SEX AND THE SPIRIT

A woman's heart and genitals are usually deeply connected. When a woman's heart is truly open to you, so are her genitals (or "coochie," as a friend calls it), and when she opens herself sexually to you, she also opens herself emotionally. For most women, emotional, sexual, and spiritual openness are all part of the same ritual of trust, openness, and love. In fact, for many women, their deepest sexual experiences are their deepest spiritual experiences.A woman learns to surrender sexually, her emotions open and she feels the undercurrent of love -- yours and hers. No matter what you say you're feeling on the surface, deep down you want to give and receive total love, and guess what -- so does she. Shit, she can feel your heart buried deep beneath the
anger and shame. She can feel her own heart deep underneath her own resistance

When a man is making love he can imagine and intend that his love reach the woman's heart. A woman can imagine and invite her man's essence up to her heart and beyond. I believe that the energy exchange takes place without our conscious volition, but with intention it is much more of a factor. This intentional sexual energetic adds a powerful dimension to making love. One way to do this is to circulate your life force around the "micro-cosmic orbit". This is accomplished as he sends desire / love / power / energy out of his genitals and she breathes the energy into her and pulls it as light or sensation or intention up to her heart or to the crown (top) of her head. She then cycles the energy back to his heart or crown and he brings it down to
his genitals in the same fashion. It continues to be sent around this circle while building in intensity. This can happen with or without a lot of physical movement and with or without the man's erection.

When a man notices a beautiful woman he has a choice of how he directs the energy in his body. He can feel desire in his mind or in his genitals. He can make a mental judgment or critique of her looks or how she puts her energy out. He can go through a quick mental exercise of assessing the likelihood of interacting with her in various ways and his chances with her. He can perhaps judge himself for his lustful thoughts.

A man who goes around feeling lust for random women will be constantly reinforced by what he does not have. It is much better to feel each passing beauty as just that. Allow yourself to be blessed and let it pass. Depending on the proximity and the level of desire the woman can sense the man's attention. She will likely feel it either as an undesirable "taking" or something sweet depending on the quality of the man's intent.

When a beautiful woman turns your head and transmuting that feeling into an appreciation for her as a creation of God. Breathe with the feelings in your body at the sight of her form as if it were elixir, as a desert traveler coming across a spring of water.

The feeling that is alive in the moment for you can be circulated in your body energetically to nourish your cells. If you feel energy in your genitals first then pull the sensation with your breath up to your heart. Breathe in the aliveness and optimism you feel and collect it with the breath at your heart. Feel gratitude to God for your life and for the beauty of women. This isn't something you think so much as it is a sensation and an emotion. Allow the feeling to glow outward from your heart as if it were a warm, soft, conscious light. Let your skin tingle as your body fills with optimism and light. Perhaps you may generate a feeling of love for all beings.

Do not let yourself imagine taking away from her in any way. But, rather take your own feeling as confirmation that you are alive and well and let it feed you as a moment of appreciation that such beings
inhabit our world. You may even develop a little message to think to yourself such as "I would protect and serve her were she ever indanger" or "God has truly blessed this world", for example.

SUBMISSION/ SEX/: SUBMIT TO YOUR MAN BY ORAL SEX AND SEX

Men love sex.. and it's not JUST because it feels good. Although, this is definitely a part of why men love oral sex so much, too. At first instance, most women think that men love it because they don't have to do anything themselves, and can just sit back wait for thewoman to do all the work. Without being crass, as this is not my intention, if it was because they don't have to do anything themselves, then why don't men get their pet dog to do it for them?

Indeed, if you ask a man why he wants oral sex so much, he probably won't always be able to articulate exactly why he does. Men aren't always as good as women are at decoding and expressing their own feelings and needs.

To put it simply, and generally, the basic reason why men love being given oral sex is because it is one of the ultimate feminine acts of love. Let me explain why below.



Submission

The first reason is submission. In order for you to give your man oralsex , you have to be vulnerable to him, and you have to submit to him. This is one quick way for a man to feel more like a man; having a woman give him oral sex.

The visual aspect of submission is also a factor. For example, if a woman kneels before a man, this indicates that she is completely submitting to him, and giving him power/letting him dominate. Of course, the act of giving a man a blow job is a feminine act (if she cares about him), as a woman has to (at least to large extent) be in her feminine (although not always, as some women are closed when they do it, and do it out of obligation) in order to actually give him oral sex. It is possible to shut down and remove yourself from the
experience and not be fully present with your man when you are doing it.



Vulnerability



In order to give a man oral sex, a woman has to be vulnerable to him. In fact, she has to open to him and be comfortable with being vulnerable to him. Of course, some women engage in oral sex out of obligation, or feel that they have to in order to please their man, so they do it.

In other words, their heart is not in it. If a woman's heart is not in it, and she's doing it on autopilot, then she is not fully vulnerable to him, and the man will sense this, although he will most likely not want to accept that she is doing it out of obligation.

The concept of vulnerability goes hand-in-hand with the idea of trust. The masculine energy/men has a real need to be trusted. And of course, if you are comfortable being fully vulnerable to him, then this indicates that you are trusting of him. The act of being given oral sex is a symbol of admiration...



Admiration

Another reason is that the act of being given oral sex is a symbol of admiration for the man. Without being rude or unnecessarily graphic, a man's penis is as close to the heart of his manhood as you can get. Men subconsciously or consciously see it as part of what makes them a man. If a woman rejects this part of him, it leads him to think that she is not attracted to him, or that she doesn't love him.


Perceived Love

Women often perceive love in different things than what men do (obviously). A woman may perceive love in a man taking the time to listen to her, buy her gifts, take her out, commit to her, protect her, talk to her, put her first, hug her, caress her, call her, write her letters, making the first move, being the rock and the leader in
the relationship, complimenting her, etc. Whilst many of these things are important to men too, men also perceive great love in being given oral sex and having sex in general. They are not so much talkers like women are, and perceive that a woman loves him if she does have sex with him regularly. (Not always – but
I'm not condoning casual sex here – I'm referring to those in a relationship).

There are many ways to express love. In this respect, men speak a different language of love, and it is no use telling a man you love him, and admire him (which is always fantastic, by the way!) if you will not open up to him sexually. If a man loves a woman, he craves for her to be open to him/accept him, not only sexually, but
emotionally, mentally and spiritually as well.

The important thing to take out of this point is that by giving your man oral sex, you are giving him love in the way that he understands it and can receive it. In order to truly give to someone, you have to understand how they perceive love, and being taken care of. It's the same in an intimate relationship.

Although you may not always perceive love in being given oral sex by him (at least not as much as he perceives love in being given oral sex), he perceives love. This is sometimes very difficult for women to relate to, which is why I am writing this post. It's very easy for a woman to consider a man insensitive, sleazy or selfish if he is regularly asking for sex.

And, it is often that women exclaim in confusion: 'Why is it all about the sex?!!" It isn't. It's about how men perceive love, acceptance and admiration. For many years now, men have been encouraged to reject the
'ungentlemanly' side of themselves which breaks the rules, and wants to engage in passionate sex with a woman.

A lot of men are afraid to 'hurt' their woman, and fear asking for ex, for fear of rejection. This leads to a painful contradiction for a man. He fears rejection if he asks, yet he feels rejection anyway, when you don't want to have sex with him. To a man, if a woman wants to have sex with him regularly, it means she loves him and is attracted to him. It's important women understand that the masculine energy perceives importance and significance in a woman being very sexually attracted to him.

Connection

We have already established that men don't talk as much as women do in order to connect with other human beings. But why do men perceive so much connection in sex? The reason is because – men don't generally
communicate to other men the way women communicate with other women (and men). It's hard for a man to go to his guy friends to talk, to connect and to feel loved.

The masculine energy is all about getting things done, moving on to the next challenge, putting an end to things – and letting go. The feminine energy doesn't let go, it holds on. This holding on entails the emotional side of things. We are much more emotional creatures, and simply don't need sex to feel regularly connected to other human beings. (Not that men cannot connect with others through talking too).

The difference is that men do. This is one of the primary ways in which men can feel connected to, and loved by their woman. Some women are uncomfortable with the idea of giving their man a blow-job, because they dislike being vulnerable (not that they consciously use these words).

They hate being asked for it, and they unfortunately start to make their man feel bad about his need for sex, and because the man loves the woman, he slowly rejects the intensely sexual part of himself in order to feel more loved and accepted by her, and in order not to hurt' her.

The reality is that the masculine energy is very much driven by sex. This doesn't have to mean that men always just want to have sex, no, no! Sexual energy can be used in many other ways to benefit an intimate relationship.


Living in your Feminine

To put it very simply, if a woman lives mainly in her feminine, and appreciates and chooses to understand rather than reject the masculine energy – she will have no trouble understanding and even appreciating, loving and enjoying the fact that her man gets a lot of his needs met through sex.