LOVE: YOUR EMBRACE

With extreme passion we made love with great desire
Hands swirling in moments on the bearskin rug, by the fire
Half-eaten strawberries sit by an empty bottle of champagne
Where the two lovers embraced and there we remained
The fire has burned down to a smoldering hot ember
As we made love while staying warm, late in December
Kisses so full of absolute desire and sweet to the taste
We made love at the cabin without any great haste
Slow moving hands moved carefully, in their stride
Moments of passion where heavy breathing could not hide
No rush to be anywhere and nowhere to go
Where kisses were placed gently on your skin in the fire’s glow
Your hands rubbed my shoulders and ran through my dark hair
As I kissed your bear body with skin so soft and so fair
I couldn’t help but stop and watch the light flicker on your face
Trailing kisses down your body without missing a place
Your eyes would close though you desired to watch me instead
As we lay on the fur, naked next to the fire's bed
My hands tugged your hair to pull your head gently back
As I trailed gentle kisses down your neck with great tact
Your nails scratched my shoulder as I gently bit you on the neck
Such a firm yet gentle bite followed by a slow gentle peck
Your hands ran over me dying to touch me more and more
As we lay there softly tantalizing each other on the floor
You pushed my shoulder gently and rolled me to lie down
Then you kissed my neck and started working your way down.
My hands ran through your hair as you kissed my warm chest
There is just something about your kisses that are the best
Your lips rose back up to gently suck on my bottom lip
As your hand started stroking the inside of my smooth hip
There was no doubt what you wanted to find
As you watched me move slowly with you, in perfect time
I felt your leg slide carefully up and across my waist
As you lifted yourself up to look down at my face
You lay down on top of me with a long soulful kiss
Then you gave me something better than I had ever wished
Gently and purposely we came together a little at a time
Until we were completely united with you covering up mine
Moving so slowly to actually feel with each gentle wave
Bodies moving like the ocean on a hot summer day
I pulled you down to kiss me as my hand touched your breast
While your hair tickled my face, I loved you with, all my best
Time would find out that it surely had no given place
When two people are deeply lost in the Lover’s Embrace

LOVE LETTER: LET ME RUB YOUR BACK

My Love,

Do you know how much I love you? Do you know what you mean to this heart? What words could, possibly be said to convince you? Although, words are not the convincer of love, action is. This love deep inside belongs to you, for you are everything this heart has ever desired.

You are everything to this man. When I think of you I daydream of us lying quietly, side-by-side, and I think of rubbing my hand gently across your skin as you lie face down and smile a beautiful smile of contentment. Does this soft touch feel good to you?

Strong fingers slowly trail across your shoulders as I gently press my fingers into your muscles, slowly working the pain out of them. Gently, you moan at how good it feels to be, pampered. It is that sound that pleases my soul like a master, petting his dog for doing a good job.

Your arms, neatly tuck away beneath the pillow as I look at your hair and lean over to smell the warm, sweet scent. Then, I slowly pull away and begin working my hand lower, down your back as you hum a contented sigh of pleasure.

“Does that feel good,” I ask in a deep, but warm voice.

“Really good,” You reply, as you adjust yourself for better comfort by moving your back a little.
As my hand moves slowly down your back, you feel me kiss you softly on your shoulder with a tiny pucker sound. Then I force myself to pull away as my hand reaches your lower back. The need to look at you is overwhelming. The desire to see you is equally met with the fiery passion I feel at you beautiful form.

Feeling the tension in your lower back, I begin rubbing a little harder to work the muscles out causing a stronger moan to emanate from you. Unable to resist the urge, I sit up so I can rub your upper back with my free hand while getting better advantage on your lower back.

No matter how much my, shoulders begin to burn or my, legs begin to ache. As long as massaging your back feels good to you, I will not stop. I would do anything to make you happy and feel good. This is how I feel and this is how I will spend my life. You are everything to me, and although I may not say it often, I love you.

There are so many ways that I will show you love…So many ways to make you happy and I will never stop trying. You are worth all the pain, all of the trials and all of nights of longing, just to have you with me. You mean the world to me and forever will I love you. We truly are contented lovers.

Always Yours,
Me

JOURNAL : I BROUGHT A CAR TODAY

I went shopping for my dad for a car...and I decided to give him my BMW instead. I decided to buy an Lexus RX 350. Tonight we are celebrate my sister birthday.

POETRY: THE KEY OF MY HEART

your soft tender eyes haunt me,
your gentle seductive voice enchants me
i try to escape that my heart is continually seeking yours.

passion and desire burns deep within my soul for you
it is so intense, i struggle with myself
knowing i should let you go.
 
i fear you will hurt me
yet, i long to be with you
for you are my heart's desire.

wishing you were here with me
to hold me in your gentle arms
and delicatly kiss my tender lips.

if i fully give myself to you,
you have the power to break me
in ways you're not even aware.

my soul is on fire with an intense deep desire for you,
but as of now, i'm unwilling to allow myself to give in completely
i want to run from you and hide for fear of being hurt.

at the same time, i want you to convince me
you'll stay and love me, and i have nothing to fear
do with me what you will, but don't abandon me.

i have been trying to leave,
but at the same time trying to get your attention
so, you won't let me go.


2


Time in small fragments
Capturing moments of
  freedom
Release from capture, in
  the forest of amazement
Vivid colors of a floral
  cascade
In the hidden valley of
  love
Wherein I found my place,
  and was happy
Interludes in this haven
  of caring
In ecstasy with being
  free

Time captured in these
  delightful interludes
Here among the undergrowth
  of sensuous touching
Embracing the dark green
  leaves of a rose
A perfection in pink
  dazzling my mind
In the persuasion of a
  loving entanglement
Among the flowers of
  heavenly blue
Interludes of passion
        with you





3


to touch
your naked, blushing,
body,
look into
your beautiful, passionate
eyes
feel the love
in your exploring lips,
to hear you
cry out
in sensual pleasure
to taste
your warm
skin,
and smell
that haunting
scent
that only you
posses,
could make my body
ache and come forever.
i love you.



4



It is impossible to capture in words
the feelings I have for you
They are the strongest feelings
I have ever had about anything
yet when I try to tell you them
or try to write them to you
the words do not even begin to touch
the depths of my feelings
And though I cannot explain the essence
of  these phenomenal feelings
I can tell you what I feel when I am with you
When I am with you it is as if
I were a bird flying freely in the clear, blue sky
When I am with you it is as if
I were a flower opening up my petals of life
When I am with you it is as if
I were the waves of the ocean crashing strongly
against the shore
When I am with you it is as if
I were the rainbow after the storm
proudly showing my colors
When I am with you it is as if
everything that is beautiful surrounds us
This is just a very small part of how wonderful I feel
when I am with you
Maybe the word "love" was invented to explain
the deep, all-encompassing feelings I have for you
but somehow it is not strong enough
But since it is the best word there is
let me tell you a thousand times
I love you more than "love"





5



I didn't write you
    a love song
       recently
Not because I
    don't love you
On the contrary
   because I love you
          more
The words don't give
       the message
    I want to convey

I didn't write you
    a love song
      yesterday
Or for many days
      gone by
But suddenly the
     words came to me
In a jumble of
       kisses
And thoughts of
        just being
             with you

I didn't write you
    a love song
 Until today
And now I can
      write
  the melody of dreams
Of soon, being in
       an avenue of trees
Arm in arm with
      you
Drifting in the misty
   morning clouds
       of a lover's thoughts
           with you

I wrote you a love song
        today
And it went like this
 -- I have thought
   of you, and us
And each time it
     grows more
          like a dream
The life time of
     a wish
Revealed in a
       single glance
When eyes met,
      lips touched
And we never
    looked back
       in our dream

I wrote you a love song
        today
And suddenly
     I was happy
         again




6

The holder to the key of my heart
Is you.
You are the only person
That my heart opens to.

If my contact with you
Ever came to an end,
My heart may never
Be opened again.

I knew there was a beautiful princess
For me out there somewhere.
And now that I have found you,
Life without you would be too much to bear.

My heart remains closed and locked
When we're apart.
Because only you... are the true holder
Of the key to my heart.

POETRY: UNTIL THE END OF TIME

In my dream I see a girl,
a girl that I haven't seen before,
but the dream I have seem so real...

The way I touched her body,
the smell of her hair,
the sweet taste of her lips.

But when I awaken,
there's no one there except air.
Why, oh, why do I have these dreams?
Is she the one that I will love forever?

The girl I dream of... Is she real, or is she my imagination?
If this girl is real, would she change the world I live in?
Until then, I will dream of her, for the day I will find her



2


I walk along the beach.
I look back, trace my footprints
until I can no longer see them.
I watch the ocean tides coming in,
they splash, create a sense of chill in the air.
I look up, see flocks of seagulls
lulling their tunes to one another,
their world unknown to us.
I hear the laughter and cries of a child calling his mother,
as he dances and frolics around in his new found playground,
no cares in the world.
I stumble, notice an empty can of soda pop lying on the sand,
likely to be left
by someone who spent their time here
in some way... some days ago.
Lifes beauty, its architecture, serene
and peaceful, yet the more I see of it
the less it seems I know.


3


Every night when
I fall asleep,
I see you.
In all your beauty
And grace
That I love.
You are always there.

When our eyes meet,
My heart screams,
"I love you!"
But the words are
Not necessary
We both feel
Each other's love.

My hands tremble
As I caress
Your lovely face.
Words are whispered, then
We embrace.
My heart repeats,
"I love you!"

I wake up
And I cry,
As I realize
It was only a
Simple dream,
And I must continue
Without you...



4


Souls part, oceans collide,
and my mind contemplates
the gift it has been given:
your presence in my essence.
A great feeling is woven inbetween ourselves,
a feeling that can only be defined
in the look that we give each other.
The look, seeing through the eyes of the other,
to the depths of their being.
A connection beyond love,
riding this wave of something indescribable;
just wanting to remain with this person,
until the end of time



5


I miss you now
I miss your pretty face
I miss your sound of laughter
And your caring, loving grace

I miss the kiss, the quick goodbye
The joke, the talk, the eyes
The cuddle, extra hour in bed
The hugs to ease our cries

I`ll never have the night with friends
And a stocking on the stairs
I`ll miss the coming home from work
Collapsing in our chairs.

I know our hands will never hold
As lovers in the park
And bodies laying in our bed
Caressing in the dark

Will just not happen, not this time
I miss you in my dreams
"If only" is light years away
And "No!" no colour schemes!

The pure and silly laughter
Over others who just don't know
How much we love each other
In warm rain, under clouds, in snow

I miss you only in my thoughts
Because we have no past
We have a present and perhaps?
But nothing allowed to last

But darling, what I can give to you
Is trust and love and care
A hug, a kiss, a hidden smile
A hand run through your hair

Your beauty, love and thoughts for me
Have helped me I can say
But no disruption was the rules
I promised, so that's the way

I miss you precious, each waking hour
Except the times you're near
And on the phone your voice is so
So precious to my ear

I`ll finish now, I've had my say
But what I hope is true ...
Is once we have "one day," then after
I`ll miss you!

PERSONAL : HIGH FIDELITY AND THE REAL EPIPHANY HERE

I re-watch High Fidelity about once a year, just to see how much I’ve changed. I watched my friends marry off, have kids, buy houses, etc., and I didn’t understand. I kept having bad relationships. I kept going with my gut each time: “Maybe this new girl is the one.” Finally, I had the same epiphany that Rob has around the 100-minute mark in High Fidelity: “I’ve come to the conclusion that my guts have shit for brains.” High Fidelity isn’t really about music, and every time I re-watch the film, I’m reminded. “High fidelity” is just another phrase for commitment, and the peace that comes from letting go of the rest of what doesn’t matter. I’m sure there’s some Buddhism in here somewhere. When you commit to somebody — really, really commit to something real and steady, you can get something that transcends the fantasy (even if piles of shoes accumulate in front of every door and half-full glasses of water collect on every flat surface).You get to come home to that person.

Like Santa Claus and the tooth fairy, the soul mate myth dissolves into the realization that it is real people, not fantasy creatures, who satisfy our needs and desires. And if I remain stuck in the idea that every potential mate must meet an idealistic standard, I would miss out on real opportunities to meet real people. Imaginary lovers are always better than real ones. It's because we write all the parts. A type is nothing more than familiarity. Whether the familiar sense of comfort comes from the image in your head or the fact that your ex had red hair and green eyes doesn't mean you can't feel equally comfortable with someone with different characteristics. As the familiarity increases, your new "type" develops.

As Rob said in the movie:" I always had one foot out the door, and that prevented me from doing a lot of things, like thinking about my future and… I guess it made more sense to commit to nothing, keep my options open. And that’s suicide. By tiny, tiny increments" I am going to change my approach from now on..

I do have a great life, a house, a great job..health, my family... it’s all just providing a soundtrack for a pretty good life in high fidelity. but I am ready to share it with someone. That’s the real epiphany here.

POETRY: TASTE YOU UPON MY LIPS

Longing for the clash of traits,
To be under my control.
Under my power.

I long to change your selfishness,
While I relish your surplus of benefactors.
I long to open my heart,
Without worry of any oppressors of love.
Without the threat of losing my trust.
My faith.

My faith in the most powerful force there is.
That force?s false identity is love.
Love is a false identity,
Because love is a word for happiness.
A word for joy.
A word for peace.

While love can bring these ephemeral feelings,
It more often brings hurt, hate and jealousy.
I long for a love,
Where I am safe from hurt, hate and jealousy.
A love like yours.

A love I long for here in my bed,
Every night.
These dragged on twenty-four hours a day,
Seem more like twenty-four years.

How many more
Long, tedious and torturous hours
Must I wait,
Longing for your embrace?
Your sweet embrace.

How many more
Tears shall I spill,
Longing for your tender lips
To press against mine?

How much more
Must my heart bleed,
Longing for you?


2

Her lips touch mine only as a hopeful memory
Unrealized moments, long forgotten
A hint of sensual awareness playing in the neural net.

Tides of reckless recollection gambol about
As I, in my folly, remain as but an archetype on the wheel of love
A lover caught in the paradigm of romance
Spinning upon the carousel of life.

She comes to me daily, a wraith in my thoughts
Her beauty amplified by the Goddess,
Her song, a melody of her mystery.
O Daughter of Gaia, encircle me with your femininity
Even as you enchant me with your vibrancy.

She arrived in my world with a question,
Inquisitive and curious
A fragrant blossom taking root in the parklands of my being
Greeting my consciousness with her goodness.

Truly a daughter of  angelic origin,
She inhabits that region within
Where the spark that is love gets ignited
And once lit remains
As a beacon, a reminder, a guide
An illumination of the capability of the spirit.

I sense her certitude as she questions what is
Her competence matched by her beauty.
Partake of the reservoir of the Goddess within
Know that you are loved even as you embody love.
For you are a gift
Presented to those in your sphere as a reminder
Of the sanctity of a woman.

A memory of hope traverses my anima
And passes through me with a sigh
For I remember.


3

My love,
Oh, how I love thee,
No words can describe my love for you,
No song can be as beautiful as our love for each other,
I would sail across oceans to see you,
I would fly across the world to kiss you,
I would walk over lands to be with you forever,
My Love!

Star-Cross'd-Lovers

Star-Cross'd-Lovers                  
I was born to love you;
You were born to love me.
We must have loved each other in heaven,
For destiny chose us to be... Star-Cross'd-Lovers


4

How come every time I close my eyes
  you're all I see
Why is is that when I'm not around you 
  you're all I think about
I don't understand why when I take a shower
  I still only smell you
Am I supposed to always 
  taste you upon my lips
Why do I dream about you holding me in your arms
  before I even touch you
When someone whispers I can't help but
  stop and hope to hear your sweet voice again

If it's just me well I guess I will have to live with it 
but I am beginning to think my senses 
are leaning towards you...

POETRY: THE DEEPEST LOVE

The deepest love always
comes from the heart.
My deepest love is
the love I have for you.
Our love is perfect and right
it comes from deep inside our hearts.
My love for you will stay strong
as long as it's the deepest love from my heart.
Love from the bottom of our hearts,
is the only way to make
our relationship worthwhile.
The deepest love
is my only way to show
how I really feel about you.
It comes from the
deepest part of my heart.


2


Love starts within and expands outward;
There is no end to where love goes.
Time doesn't measure how far love will progress,
Just the heart's need of it.

The mind keeps love alive
With all the imagination in its soul which love holds.
That look we treasure, the passion we build on,
Leave none to fill.

When bodies touch and the need is filling,
That passion lingers on for infinity.
Love is like a rushing river, it runs long and deep,
Feeds its tributaries and we grow strong because of it.

That devotion, with all of its rewards is but a sample
Of all that is rich in the seductiveness of oneself.
Love that is true doesn't care about the negative
Only the positive

And enjoys the wonders of all of it,
And shines with the warmth of that love.


3

It is impossible to capture in words
  the feelings I have for you
I now have the strongest feelings
  that I have ever had about anyone
Yet, when I try to tell you them
  or try to write them down for you

The words do not even begin to touch
  the depths of my feelings for you
And though I cannot explain
  the essence of these phenomenally feelings
I can tell you what I feel like
  when I am with you...

When I am with you it is as if:
    I were a bird
       Flying freely in the clear blue sky
    I were a flower
       Opening up my petals of life

When I am with you it is as if:
   I were the waves of the sea
       Crashing strongly against the shore
   I were the rainbow after the storm
       Proudly showing my colors so pure and vividly

When I am with you it is as if
Everything that's beautiful surrounds us...

This is just a small part
  of how wonderful I feel when I am with you
Maybe the word "Love" was invented
  to explain the deep heart felt
  all-encompassing feelings we feel and enjoy

But, somehow, it is not strong enough
Yet, since it is the BEST word there is
Let me tell YOU a thousand times that
I Love YOU more than LOVE!!!!!



4

On a day such as this when sunshine begins to rise upon us
And the night-time of enchanting stars leave, for a time faded,
I fumble in the hue of morning, outstretch my hand to touch you
I am taken in by this moment in time with thoughts of just you and me
And the love that willingly seeded itself inside both of us
Bound together, it is a love full of song for one another to nurture
We encircle each other's world through each day's passing
There it can still be found sharing the same existence 
within our hearts
Within a halo of unity it gathers all the precious things 
only life can bring
As we greet each day, together hand in hand, 
bringing with it a soft freshness
Awakening us to find reasons anew 
to fall in love all over again and again
As the summer's warm afternoon sun shifts aimlessly among the clouds
The air vividly wisps by our shoulders 
with its gentle voice of touch
Singing to you and me, a love song of joy 
emitting all the scents of life
Often it is love that helps us 
recognize the abundance of compassion that we possess
Bringing forth forgotten feelings 
that in time may become lost in a hidden cascade
Reacquainting wisdom to the mind 
to open our hearts for the other to find shelter
As the day slowly unfolds all of its passion for life 
within one another's eyes
Blossomed, it has become the seed to grow 
and become an unconditional love
For it to unfold into our arms 
for what is now caring giving loving and needing
The essence of what true love is 
in sharing a lifetime with the one who holds your soul
To be awakened with the sun arising 
and to gaze at the enchanting stars approaching
To dream and be loved  
be loved and to dream with the other one that is your heart