PERSONAL/LOVE LETTER: DEAR SOULMATE

Dear Soulmate,

Are you near me? Do I see you every day or pass by you occasionally? Am I just that one person who stands out from the blur? Do we know each other or haven’t we met? Would you look at me and remember the first time you ever saw me? Would you remember the first words I ever said to you? Would you remember the first time we touched or the colour of my eyes when you first looked into them? Would you think of every possible way to hurt me, and go out of your way to avoid them? If we grew old together, would you look at me and still see the man you fell in love with? Were we to make love, would you remember the first time? Would you remember how I smiled whenever I saw you? Would you wonder what life would be like if I hadn’t met you? Would you remember every moment we spent together? If we were married, would you remember both our vows off by heart? Would you tell me you knew we were meant to be together? Would you be near me when I passed away? Would you miss me if I were to leave you behind? Would you still love me if you knew every detail of my life? Would you love me forever? I would..

Love, Hopeless Romantic

PERSONAL/LOVE LETTER: DEAR SOULMATE

Dear Soulmate,

Would you find the time to tell me that I’m amazing?
Would you hold me close when I needed you?
Would you tell me that you love me when you thought I needed to hear it?
Would you think about me every day?

What if we just spent the day together?
Would you think any differently of me then?
Would you kiss my forehead and stroke my hair?
Would you let me fidget with your hands?
Would you look into my eyes and tell me that you adore me?
Would you want to be with me every waking second of every day?

Would you just.. lay in bed with me all day..

Love, Hopeless Romantic

PERSONAL/ LOVE LETTER: DEAR SOULMATE

Dear Soulmate,

I want your presence in my life.. I want your significance.. I want to fall asleep to your voice and wake up to your texts, your love, someday even your face, features relaxed as you sleep beside me, occupying the space that had once been empty, as my heart had.

I want to be able to call you mine and to be able to call myself yours. I want to know your friends and your family, I want to laugh and joke and be close with them, but I would always be closest to you. I want your sarcasm, your stupid humor, your affection and your liveliness.

I want to be forever beside you, in body, mind and spirit.. I want to be the one you come home to and the one you only leave to visit. I want to be the one you change for.. the one you constantly want to do better for.. the one you want to be enough for, even if I’d always know it was me who would never be enough.

I want to be the waist you wrap your arms around, the lips that touch yours and the perfect filler to the spaces between your fingers. I want to be the one to reassure you, comfort you.. I want to be the one you open up to and trust with your life. I want you to trust me with your heart.. I want you to hand me the razor, tell me where to cut and dare me to hurt you.. I wouldn’t hurt you.

I want to be the one who you adore.. the one that you’d rather die than ever bruise.. the one you want to be with for the rest of your time on this earth. I want to be the person you dedicate your time to and rush to aid. I want to make sacrifices for you.. I want to be there for you and mend your wounds. I want to be the one to whisper sweet nothings to you while you fall asleep.

I want to be the person you feel blessed to have, even though I’d be the one who’s blessed to have you. I want to be the one you call beautiful all the time.. the one you can never hold too tightly and the one you could never bear to lose. I want to be the object of your affection.. your soulmate.. the other half of you.

The only thing standing in the way of this, is that I don’t know who you are.. but I hope you find me soon.. I’ll be waiting.

Love, Hopeless Romantic

PERSONAL/ LOVE LETTER: DEAR SOULMATE

Dear Soulmate,

Your embrace, just a simple touch would be more than enough to save a troubled soul such as mine. I need you,  but can't seem to find you. Wherever you are send me a sign. Drop me a line. Give me a reason to believe I'm fine. They say that one is the loneliest number. It's no wonder,
when I lie myself down and begin to slumber. I sense your presence in the darkest shadows of my dreams. But it seems, no matter how close i feel i get to you, your lightyears away. Some would say try again tomorrow and forget about today. But each passing day I can't seem to find a way to live without you.  

You are the person I wish to meet, fall in love with and live the rest of my life constantly striving to be enough for. The person I hope to spend every night for the rest of my life sleeping beside and every morning making breakfast for. The person I'll have my normally ever after with. The person I dream about, faceless for now, featureless and unidentifiable.. the one whose face will appear on that blank surface as soon as my eyes meet it. It’s all for you, soulmate.

I'm off to dream of you.. to dream the sweet dreams where  I'm snuggled into you and my hand is fit just as snugly in yours. Where you’re stroking my hair softly and whispering things in my ear. Where when I wake up, I'm next to you and you’re sound asleep, one arm casually draped over me and the other slid up under your pillow and when I shuffle closer to you, you hold me like a teddy bear you just can’t sleep without. Where your smile makes me fall so much more in love with you.

I don’t want to wake up.. I don’t want to wake up and know you’re not there. Be there. I love you.

PERSONAL/ LOVE LETTER: DEAR SOULMATE

Dear Soul Mate,

You and I cannot be together right now, and although I am not sure why we can’t, I know it’s right. Maybe I still have some growing up to do first, or maybe you do. We most likely both do. Maybe we both have some life long lessons to learn first. I know it’ll be for the best. When we are finally able to be together, I want to be ready. I want to be ready to give you all the love I can and that you deserve. I don’t know where you are right now… I don’t know if I’ve met you or not. I just know that either way, it’s not our time. Not yet at least.

I think about you at night, I wonder where you are and what you’re like. I wonder if you think about me too, if you wonder how we will finally end up together in this crazy puzzle we like to call life. I wonder if you’re close or if you’re far. If I’ll meet you tomorrow, or if you were in my past just waiting to reappear. I wonder if I’ve met you and just haven’t given you a second look yet. But I will, I know I will see you when I’m ready.

I always imagined you’d be taller than me, maybe not by much, but taller. I think you have dark hair, and a kind smile… I think you’ll have soft eyes, that I can trust. Physically I can’t know too much about you. But I can promise you one thing, that I will love you with all I have.

When I finally am with you, I can breathe a sigh or relief and let go of all the hurt I’ve ever felt because I’ll know it was all worth it.

Love Always, and in the Future,

JOURNAL: MY PROPERTY TAX WENT UP/ SISTER INJURIED

So last Saturday I got my school tax. It was such a huge jump. I did some research and found out they reassess my house and increased over 20%. What a shocker. I am upset and angry about it...but I am going to fight it. She even crack her screen on her cellphone.


On Sunday, my sister fell down and fracture her patella. I took her to Urgent Care center..put ice, got her a cane, crutches...ect. I felt really bad for her...she was in a lot of pain.

PERSONAL/LOVE LETTER: DEAR SOULMATE

Dear Soulmate,

I awaken, and hear you breathe close by.It is wrenching in its beauty, magnificent in it's depth, warm and enticing.  Lips barely parted, caressed by such delicate breath.  What confusion in my mind! Which would I rather be? Lips soothed by the warm balm of your exhale, or a gust of wind, touching two full promises of kisses divine? My God, to be faced with such choices.  Do I enter Heaven orEden?  I suppose I must be satisfied with being me, and wait till morning, when I can touch lips, and feel that breath slide silk down my neck  in your warm caress.'Tis a futile hope, that all my choices were akin to the one that trapezes in my mind. Secure in slumber, I lay still within your arms. My contentment rising without signs of alarm. I am aware of your breathing: peaceful, rhythmic.While my own heart races: out of control, manic. We've been drawn together by an unseen power.We're not sure where we are as moments pass to hours. It's neither here nor there.  It's neither speech nor song. We're somewhere in between the time after dusk, before dawn. I hold my breath knowing that the twilight will occur. Reveling those precious hours when our hearts may stir.  Your eyes softly cast their gaze upon me, keeping Some great mystery.  Can you see my heart beating? I dare not think we're halfway, that it may conclude. I only exalt the time lying next to you. Listening to your voice, watching your eyes take me in. Tasting our soft moments before the day begins.There aren't words to tell you "I Love You". Not enough ways to show you I care, Not enough laughter and good times to wish you, Not enough wonderful moments to share. A million bright mornings would not be too many. Warm evenings forever would still be too few. I need you so much that it seems.There aren't enough days in a lifetime with you.


2

With heart full of dreams I double-clicked you to life from the kingdom of lust  to the realm of true feelings. With mind full of wishes, I surfed throughout the world and reached your post, your heart where I was struck by your love. Next I downloaded your words into the disk of my heart and your gigabytes of love replaced my megabytes of lust.Being the only hard drive I need  to secure all my dreams...You became the source of my being, my only template of peace.As I processed your vows and installed promises you made. You filled up my mind and my memory to the brim.And all the folders of grudge in the contents of my thoughts,you deleted and sent  to recycle bin of truth.Then you zipped up my fear and backed up my pride with password you logged  into the depth of my being.All the problems of my life you troubleshoot with style and hindrances I've known you let not crush my hope. With dexterity of your hands,  you hit the right key and spot And pushed buttons of romance  to bring me sweet relief.So, you're the network I use  to circulate all my plans for your rich gigabytes of love contain all ingredients I need.

POETRY: IT SEEM LIKE YOU'RE ALWAYS ON MY MIND

It seems like you're always on my mind,
Loving you all the time.
Dreaming of when we will next be together
Seems we always have to wait,
Tomorrow seems far too late.
Though we both have our own past,
I feel that our love will last.
My feelings for you seem so very real
And soon if it all turns out right,
I'll be with you both day & night.
And I'll be close enough to you.
And in the morning when I rise,
I will see the love, the warmth of your eyes,
And know my thoughts and dreams have come true.



 2

The way you touched, the way you kissed,
  that's just one of the the few things that I miss.
The way you hugged, the way you caressed,
  You always had me at my best.
The way you cared, the way we had fun,
  Now I sit and watch the sun.
The way you look, the way you felt,
  just made my heart want to melt.
The way you are, the way I am,
  no one can help us out of this jam.
The way we'd laugh, the way I cried,
  especially when we said good-bye!!


3

When I think of you
I see the water so clear in the river
The sky always so blue with the white clouds
The green grass shimmers in the morning hours
Your love is so soft and gentle
Like a dove that's soaring high
Like a butterfly that sits upon roses
Or as the sun that shines down upon me
As long as you are with me
I could climb any mountain and valley
Cross the sea and the ocean deep
And see everything in the darkness
Your loving voice in my ears
Sounding like music forever
Make my day brighter
And all my fears are gone away
Thanks for being with me
Each day and every time I need you
You are always there beside me
You bring comfort to me in every way


4

All I do is think of you.
When I close my eyes I see you,
Holding your arms out to me
And me, walking into your strong hold.

But then I open my eyes
Realize it's just a figment of my imagination.
I guess when I close my eyes
I see my deepest desires.

Only one thing remains the same...
I love you, and I always see you.

Everytime I close my eyes
I feel your warmth next to me.
Everytime I close my eyes
I feel you breathing behind me.

Everytime I close my eyes
I feel you holding onto me.
Everytime I close my eyes
I feel your gentle kisses on my shoulder.

But when I turn to hug you;
When I open my eyes to see you;
When I'm ready to kiss you,
I feel no one there.  I see no one there.  

And the only thing my lips touch
Is the gentle breeze passing by


5

Can you see the fleeting glances
watching the clock so close
Do you feel my fear of this
if they were to know of us
Will you make the most of this hour
leaving me as satisfied as you
Will you return tomorrow again
to keep your rushed promises
Is there more to this than one hour
of gentleness and passion
Can our true love shine out
beyond time and tests

JOURNAL/LOVE/DATING: THE DATING SCENE ISN'T GOING TO SUCK FOREVER

I am handsome attractive, intelligent, outgoing… and single. In fact, i have been for 2 years- it seemed as though I go on first date after first date and nothing went right. Either the woman wasn’t interested in anything “serious,” or they would just go out and see me as a ATM machine. … and while I  am not against banging out with a hot woman on occasion, I am looking for casual sex anymore. I wanted something more serious, more substantial. Something that had the potential to be long-term. And, frankly, I am tired of long nights at home with only fios.

Nothing worked. Speed-dating was a bust. Online dating didn’t help – the only women interested in me were looking for someone to take the out – and one more night in the bar-scene was going to drive me insane.I feel like I am stuck .Frankly, I am doing everything right… and still getting nowhere. I couldn’t find any reasonable answer for my problem that didn’t involve radically reducing my standards just to find someone to fill the void. I just  the dating scene sucked now, but it wasn’t going to suck forever.

I have begin to realize is that there isn’t an expiration date on romance – some nebulous point in time that, if crossed, makes me unlovable and condemns you to die alone, unmourned and unloved. The constant feeling that time is running out is cultural; The cold hard truth is: sometimes it takes a while to find your emotional feet, as it were. Some people are socially gifted; they have a natural grasp on social dynamics and are able to charm others or find a relationship as easily as ordering a sandwich at Subway. Others have a harder time. 

All of us change and grow over time; I am not the same person as I was in my 20, and the things that we thought and assumed about our futures are often laughably wrong. If you had told my 20-year old self what my life would be like or how many men I’ve dated or slept with in my 30s, he would have laughed in my face. As far I was concerned back then, that I would get by on whatever dregs of a relationship I could scrape together and just learn to live with it. I didn’t start to get the confidence, experience or skill that lead to where I am today. Furthermore, age ultimately has no bearing on the validity of one’s relationship, nor does it indicate some fundamental flaw for having waited for so long . Finding love for the first time in your 40s isn’t any more or less valid than in your teens or 20s; in fact, it can be all the sweeter for finding it after having looked for so long. Many of our early relationships fail because, frankly, we don’t have the maturity or life experience necessary for a long-term commitment; starting a relationship later in life can actually put you in a better position to make it work.

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JOURNAL: A TIME COMES IN YOUR LIFE

A time comes in your life when you finally get…when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out…ENOUGH1 Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.

This is your awakening.

You realize it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over the next horizon.

You realize that in the real world there aren’t always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you…and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are…and that’s OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.

You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself…and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

Your stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you – or didn’t do for you – and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.

You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and everything isn’t always about you.

So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself…and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.

You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties…and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.

You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with.

You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for you next fix.

You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.

You learn that you don’t know everything, it’s not you job to save the world and that you can’t teach a pig to sing. You learn the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.

Then you learn about love. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You learn that alone does not mean lonely.

You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs.

You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drinking more water, and take more time to exercise.

You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you deserve, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen.

More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it’s OK to risk asking for help.

You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms.

You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.

You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people…and you lean not to always take it personally.

You learn that nobody’s punishing you and everything isn’t always somebody’s fault. It’s just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.

You lean that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.

You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.

Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than you heart’s desire.

You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.

You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.

Finally, with courage in you heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.

PERSONAL/LOVE LETTER: MY DEAR WIFE

My dear wife,

I have no idea who you are or where you are. But I think about you a lot. What our life may be like. How the decisions I make today will affect our lives together. Will we be totally different personalities or will we have all of our interests be the same?

I pray for you a lot. I pray that you make strong decisions that you won't regret. I pray that you have a whole bunch of patience because you'll need it for the rest of your life when you meet me. Maybe you're the calm and collected to my crazy. Or maybe you'll just make me even more crazy, though I don't know if that's possible.

I hope you know that I'll support you in life. I want your journey to be our journey and mine ours too. I hope you know that when your days don't go as planned, I'll always be there for you, I'll be your number one fan and I know you'll be mine.

While I enjoy being single, I can't wait to meet you and start our lives together. I can't wait to find the one I was meant to be with - that is if you believe in soul mates. You may even roll your eyes when I say that.

If I were to tell you one thing though, it's be persistent. I'll be hard to win over, careful to trust, hesitant to ever say "yes" to a date. But make me believe there's no other option for me. Make me realize that this will be the best decision of my life.

Because I won't realize it then. I won't realize how much I love you when you're standing right there in front of me.

But, know this, I do love you.

And I can't wait to meet you.

Love,

PERSONAL/ LOVE LETTER: MY PRINCESS

My Princess,

You are Not alone in this World. If ever you think you are, close your eyes and surrender all of yourself to Me.Because I love you,  I will never force you to be with me but know I will always desire that you draw close to me. Please give me, a chance to love you the way you long to be loved. I am the lover of your soul. Won't you open your heart and let me embrace you? I want to steal your heart from the worries of this world and have you experience my love in a way that will make your heart dance today. Take a deep breath and get so lost in me that nothing can separate us. Come away with me my beloved and I will complete you today in every way.

Saying I love you with words might not be enough but still I will confess to you. I wanna be with you. Don’t forget there’s a person who will protect you. After I met you, I found something to do It is to make you smile all day, every single day. 

Love,

LOVE LETTER/PERSONAL: DEAR SOULMATE

Dear Soulmate

When it comes to you and I, let us adventure. Let us read. Let us travel. Let us pause to look at libraries, oceans, caterpillars and sports stadiums with equal passion and awe. Let us laugh for hours about you tube videos, memes and inappropriate typos in textersations. Let us lose ourselves in the throb of live music and the energy of the crowd. Let us stay up too late watching "just one more episode." Let us make french fry runs at 1am. Let us quote movies quotes heavyweights and harry potter. Let us paint the door blue and the ceiling gray. Let us take naps, oh yes please abundant naps. Let us push each other forward and let us keep each other young. Let us talk deep and let us talk shallow and let us realize the import of both. Let us keep each other's questions, doubts and worries safe. Let us ramble and let us be silent. Let us be the same and yet let us be different. Let us go out of our way to serve both friends and strangers. Let us be passionate about the human race. Let us pause to kiss unabashedly on street corners with wind in our hair and the sun in our eyes. Let us sail, fly, land and anchor. Let us drive out of our way on road trips to quirky cafes, legendary landmarks and Bigfoot Museums, and let us wear plaid and coonskin caps. Let us be fiercely independent, and yet let us place a hand always on the small of the back in a crowd, with every finger firmly saying safe, mine, don't worry, I'm here, I've got you.

PERSONAL/ LOVE LETTER: DEAR SOULMATE..WE ARE ONE

Dear Soulmate,

Sometimes the only thing you can even think of is love it just rolls off the tip of your tongue, and makes your ears tickle. Your heart beats, the whole world revolves around the simple idea  of finding someone who loves you so unconditionally it hurts. It hurts them because they cannot think of not having you around it hurts you because your dream has come true. This hurt though is such an exhilarating and wonderful hurt that it makes you cry tears of overwhelming joy. Joy overcomes your whole being, lets you truly see why you're living. It creates love inside that makes you cherish and care for everything just a little bit more.  It makes you breathe a little deeper and opens your eyes to see what feeds your heart. You realize it is the simple things in life you love their laugh, the twinkle in their eye, the way they cut loose and bring out every emotion in your soul. Your mind snatches a picture of time, in all its purities and flaws  you truly see that loving yourself is where it all begins. To find that special thing, a key that opens your heart, mind, and soul  you must love yourself and unlock the doors within your heart to also let the light of joy and heartache into your heart. Love is such a powerful thing to lift you up where your wings spread  so you can fly forever, but then cuts you off and lets you fall. Loving means to get up, dust off, smile, and say to yourself  Not only will I fly again, but I will soar higher than ever.?

Your gaze gives me chills.Your name leaves me short of breath.Your touch skips a beat of my heart.Your kiss sends me flying.Every moment with you makes all my dreams become reality.Every dance with you makes me love you even  more. Upon hearing your name I have to take a moment to catch my breath and wipe the wide grin off my face. I think about you day and night. Wondering if your feelings are still the same when I look at the stars, or see the beach.I can't help but long for your touch and your gentle kiss. Thinking about the future and all I see is you.I long to wake up in your arms and welcome you home from work.Dreams right now, yes, they are but you can make one come true with just a few words.Just a note or something to tell me what you feel That's all I ask for?Until then... I'll just bask here in my dream world, but I would sure like for you, my Princess, to awake me from this dream world and make it all a reality.The way my mind works it thinks about you then I sleep, then think about you, then sleep, then think about you. As I believe we are, we are destined to be together forever. My heart knows no tommorrow unless you are there waiting  for me in the future. With every kiss I believe we are destined... to see our future. With... every look & every... time I think about. You... I know that I'm a little bit... Happier than I've seen before. I know that we are together when we are not because of the ways . I see us look at each other, through the stars. I feel that we are connected cosmically, through the souls of our future lives.  Through our eternal love,  I am eternally missing you always...we are one.