JOURNAL

Sometimes I wish I wasn't so romantic, it seems easier, and less pain. I wish I could be like some others and just walk around with a checklist looking for similar, settle on love to make sure same goals, have house, make a kid, and be content with the achievements of the partnership. I wish I could settle with love, marry who my parents wanted me to and forget about what my heart aches for. It isnt always easy believing in soulmates, wanting more, being a modern day romantic, looking to art and music for hope. There are many out there, just trying to blend while secretly searching for others like us.  Oh to conform or not to conform

I am going to Florida for a few days. This is the first vacation this year. I been so stressed out with my Dad being ill the first few months and changes in the jobs...property taxes going up..and feeling so alone. I really don't have the energy to go through another relationship that doesn't go anywhere. I can't wait for this day to be over and then go to the drug dinner and vacation tomorrow.