JOURNAL

So what have I been doing the past few weeks?

-throwing stuff i don't need in the house (basement, my clothes, linen closet, computer room.

-throwing stuff at work I didn't use anymore

-organize my external hard drive

-organize my EMR notes for work

-the sink in the kitchen

-organize my Motorla Xoom



I empty and decuttered  my life.

The medical center I am working for was taken over last weekend. I sign the contract. It was stressful.

I had a stupid fight with my sister and mom. I don't know why I get angry. I need to learn to control it.



I haven't been sleeping these past two weeks. Since I been decrease on the med. thoughts of my ex wife are now more common. It bring a lot of sadness. I sense of failure. I don't think she ever loved me....


 I will not die an unlived life.
I will not live in fear
of falling or catching fire.
I choose to inhabit my days,
to allow my living to open me,
to make me less afraid,
more accessible,
to loosen my heart
until it becomes a wing,
a torch, a promise.
I choose to risk my significance;
to live so that which came to me as seed
goes to the next as blossom
and that which came to me as blossom,