LOVE: A STORY THAT HAS NO BEGINNING

How do you start a story that has no beginning? How far back do you go when everything has been a part of this moment? Do you start with the first time you fell in love and your heart was broken? Do you start with the fears of abandonment when you first learned of your parents pending divorce? Or do you start with the phone call that scared and excited you with equal intensity at the same time?

You wonder if he is the one and wonder again if you dare to hope that there can be a One. The pain of the past has left you with scars that are obvious to your friends you have been asked why you are alone so many times that you have considered finding someone just to quiet the noise-makers but you can't betray your heart. You know that you are waiting for the real thing. Have you waited so long that you might let it slip between your fingers when it comes? Will you be able to know the truth about your heart and let yourself trust again?

You have just gotten off the phone with someone who has you asking yourself these questions. How could he invade you this way? You were happy for the most part. Turning down men has become a past time for you. Your beauty has become a yoke around your neck attracting every type of man who wants your body and forgets to look into your soul. You could curse the very thing that women hate you for your natural beauty and thin figure. Alex has you questioning everything all over again. How do you guard against this man who has touched you from the inside and left your heart exposed? Do you run and hide or run to him? You have no doubt that he can satisfy you in a physical way. His voice and manners on the phone are enough to make you melt with desire and passion you have never been so touched without meeting someone first In fact you have never been touched this way by anyone ever.

You are wondering how to stop your racing heart from the avalanche of emotions that are rushing through your mind and body. You hate the loss of control and fear the outcome of something that has this much energy. Can you trust a man with so much power over you? You have given up on this feeling after a married man lied to you and stole your heart two years ago. You never thought you would allow someone to touch you so deeply again, Again? How can you say 'again' when this is a new depth but you make a mental note that you didn't plan to ever let this happen? His voice echoes in your mind with the words "you don't get to choose who you fall in love with. Love isn't a decision or a choice, as much as it is an event. That is why it is called falling love, and not walking into love."

You wonder how there can be such an internal conflict that on one side screams for you to run to him and on the other warns you to stay away. Which can be telling the truth? Your day is full of him you have not been able to get much done. You are scared to death of meeting him and you are not sure if you are afraid, that maybe it isn't real or if it truly is. The though of love being real scares you more than if it were not. You don't want to give you heart again but do you have a choice?

Can you find love with a man with this much passion and think that it can last for the rest of your life? This is what fantasies are made of can real life offer the same?

Your phone wakes you up you had dozed off to sleep without realizing it your sleep was interrupted by your new imaginary lover Yes, imaginary because you have not had the nerve to meet him in person it is him on the phone. He sings into the phone to you: "Unbreak my heart make it last me forever Unbreak my heart I will love you forever I love you." You smile as you realize that you will meet him you do love him he is the one who will "Unbreak Your Heart". You say, " Yes."