Sunday, July 8, 2012

JOURNAL: MY LOVE IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH

My love is not good enough.Anyone I've loved .. or even wanted to love .. has made that perfectly clear. Nobody wants me. Nobody wants to touch me. Nobody .. my love isn't wanted. I'm not wanted. Oh of course, I've heard people say that someone will ..... but it never happens. Watch others find someone. Watch them cheat, be abusive, and they get another chance. And then another. And another. I can't even find someone to hold. Can't find my first, ever, kiss. Nobody will try ... which says so much more than any cliche about waiting.

It started to look like some sick stage play, where i was forced to see girl after girl stand before me and come up with yet another excuse or situation that got in the way of dating her. It started to feel like I was selected as the experiment, like everybody except me has agreed to leave me out.

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