Long ago I once believed my soulmate would glance at me and that would be it. I made the mistake like many others before me for settling, and my heart paid the price. I do know what it is to have loved and lost, but never let it make me bitter rather it made me consciously want to keep my innocent heart and naive trust for the one person I meet who does see me for who I am, the one that will grow into the powerhouse of a companion for life, one that would never abandon or abuse the woman that looks at me longingly after so many years of companionship. Living in NY is difficult, many people are accustomed to having their guard up constantly, they seem to believe that if by certain number of dates they don't "chemisty" its headed south...Last time I checked, love wasn't a game, nor would I ever want to have it if it was, to me as I mature, its become something deeper than that as you yourself have come to discover. Its more of a rite of passage that one alone will never be able to travel, but truly love is the union of two souls that grow interwined together to become one, they fuse each other.
Today I feel so sad... felt that emptyness, but also there is something that was possibly missed, Many are the days I wonder if I'll ever meet the individual that will walk with me deep n thought and know that perhaps we are thinking the same thing. Often in life we pass by the beauty of things because we covet what is not ours only to realize it down the road after time has passed we unfortunately cannot appreciate it enough. I would hope its not the case, but I myself do it too. Remember not everything is picture perfect. Behind those couples who display their closeness and affection at times are the shadows that they hide from each other, when those shadows grow large enough to reveal themselves, the relationship dies. Movies tend to glorify the message as well, and they to end, happy endings are not always long term and love is a work in progress, the ultimate love is not when it is in the height of bliss, but rather in its perseverence through life's most difficult circumstances.
Love is not a dance on roses, it is hard work, but work you should enjoy. Love is like a flower, if you take care and nourish it, the flower will grow strong and beautiful. But if you forget to water the flower it will slowly start to loose leaf by leaf until it is completely dried out and impossible to bring back to life.
It is frightening to give yourself completely to someone and previous experiences do affect the way we act in new relationships. I am extremely emotional and yes I am scared to get my heart broken, but I rather take the chance than not to experience love. I am not perfect,I may not have all the traits you are looking for, and you might not have all the things I am looking for, but if you love someone you need to accept that persons faults and start loving them instead. I believe most problems and arguments is caused due to lack of communication. Being open and a hundred procent honest with one another is everything in a relationship. We might not agree on everything, but we need to listen, respect and try to understand eachother without judging or trying to change the views of another. However, by having a calm conversation we might open each others eyes and mind to grow in the way we think and see the issue from another point of view that was not obvious before.
I am ready to meet you and see if you are my soulmate.....
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