You wish you could express her divine perfection, her luring warmth and smooth circumferential allure, her gravitating depth, dark blissful present of breathtaking tightness and revealing magnificence. You wish she could feel your pulling and growling, rampaging wanting, raging seeking, hunger-driven howling, panting and stomping, impatient approaching of fiery thirsty longings. And all it takes is a hint of disclosure, a glimpse of skin, a small define smooth thigh of heaven, and your heart stops, your soul throbs, your mind is on fire full of desire and gratitude that you are a man and she is your suave pleasing marvel of a woman.
You know her. Out of the blue, she can be a mess. A wrong word, a misunderstanding, a bad phone call, a friend who has gone astray, a favorite piece got lost, and she is down, desperate, hopeless, and sad. The world is against her, and she is feeling it every day, your beautiful darling, because for her little things matter, details are important and perfection is found in the tiny not in the seemingly big. But what she doesn’t know is you adore her, you love her, in good and bad times, even in moments you do not grasp, in particular in those, because she is life, she is wonderful, unpredictable, beautiful, and she allows you to cheer her up with a tender kiss on her neck, a steady touch on her back, and a warm enclosing embrace, so you breathe together, to give her rhythm, security, love and protection, and so she is not just wanted but needed by you, too, and this is the greatest gift she can give.
You owe it to yourself. You think about her day and night, you sense her presence, you feel her sensuality, you scent her skin and fragrance, you are aware of her heartbeat, deeply entwined longings, drawing depth, pulling heat, engulfing darkness. So prove your worth and drive her to heavens, take her breath, evaporate her thoughts, conquer her mind with carnal eruptions, imploding desires, raging obsession of feeding addictions. Push her harder, take her longer, be more primal, tougher and love her thorougher. Break through her wantonness into the heart of her cravings and incite a burning stronger than reason, past and future, into a now of unforgettable yearnings, fulfilled dreams of lasting devastating corrupting satisfaction, until she looks at you with unconditional grateful devotion, half asleep, half awake as happy as never.
She cannot love herself as much as you do. And she cannot grasp how beautiful she is without you. She has no knowledge about her strength, she cannot hear her own voice without distortion, feel her smile as unclouded as you see, feel, sense her emotions unabridged rising in her eyes as you can. She is perfect but not for herself. She thinks she is weak because she doesn’t see her strengths, she is confused due to her openness, her empathy, and polite modesty, and all you can do, if she is rambling, sad, beside herself, is be there, be strong, and stop in the right moment along the train of her thoughts her search for clarity and kiss with determination reality back into her life that she is beautiful and no one has the power to change this very fact.
Never give up on your darling. When she runs, run with her. When she screams, take her hands. When she cries, cry with her. And when she flees, flee with her and force the world to follow. Her fear is hope. Her weakness is love. Her dreams are simple, she wants a true heart beating with hers, lips on her lips, arms around her back, a warm chest to rely on, not words. not presents, no gifts, and promises. So kiss when words don’t help and catch her when she falls, run with her when she is forced to run, and when she is exhausted, out of breath, when she sinks to her knees in desperation be the one who helps her to stand up again, be the one who cherishes her needs and she will grant you all you will ever want.
Why are you hard to her when you love her so much? Why do you have sometimes to put your feelings aside and force her to prove herself? Why is patience, steadiness, calmness important? Why regularity, predictability, patterns a must? It is a circle of trust, a structure of faith, a safety net to fall back to. It is not her wanting, her doubting, her rambling you work against. It is her fear to love too deeply, her need to belong which forcefully conquers her heart. It is her selflessness which grows stronger, her defenselessness against your touch, your presence and slow and confident caress which robs her all senses but gives her faith and safety, the certainty to be seen. She is afraid of the intensity. of this connection and that is why she is hiding, eluding, avoiding. She thinks you cannot be true and has reasons in her past to do so. So be strict when she shuns your attempts, bring light when she hides in the dark, and lure her with love and undivided attention back into your arms.
This is what you should do! Put her on a pedestal, crown her day with a kiss, cherish her sweetness and dive into her smoothness. Let her shiver and lose her mind, caress her into blissful insanity, carnal oblivion, merciless convulsion of electrical exhilaration. Be demanding. Drink, eat, devour her inexhaustible beauty, delightful depths, primal sensations, throbbing wants, giving needs, breathtaking longings in your hard manly embrace, ruthless thirst and insatiable hunger for her salacious feminine perfection. Wolf down on your woman and she will scream ‘yes’ for the rest of the night.
she is something. i don’t know what kind of something, but she is something magnetic. something electrifying. something you search for in everyone and find in no one until your eyes lock with hers, until your palms skim her hands, until your fingertips feel their way across every inch of her skin, until your grip becomes tight and she doesn’t flinch away. she is something. something wonderful, magnificent, alluring. a siren’s song, a sultry lullaby that played in the way she walked and you become a sailor in the open seas ready to crash into her. her eyes the color of the water, her voice the sound of long forgotten songs of past generations. she is something. something unreachable. your fingertips are always just tracing the surface, drawn into the feeling of her aura, but always kept at a slight distance. she is something. something unraveling.
she is something
Thursday, January 4, 2018
PERSONAL: I REMEMBER LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY THAT YOU.....
soulmate (n.)
A person with whom you have an immediate connection the moment you meet – a connection so strong that you are drawn to them in a way you have never experienced before. As this connection develops over time, you experience a love so deep, strong and complex, that you begin to doubt that you have ever truly loved anyone prior. Your soulmate understands and connects with you in every way and on every level, which brings a sense of peace, calmness and happiness when you are around them. And when you are not around them, you are all that much more aware of the harshness of life, and how bonding with another person in this way is the most significant and satisfying thing you will experience in your lifetime. You are also all that much aware of the beauty in life, because you have been given a great gift and will always be thankful.
I remember it like it was yesterday, the way you told me you loved me in between our inside jokes and endless laughs. I remember how you laid with me until I fell asleep and told me how you’d never leave. Maybe you meant it, I know I did. I believed you right up until the day you stopped telling me you loved me and you told her she was beautiful. I guess you forgot how much I loved you or maybe you didn’t, maybe you didn’t love me at alL
Falling in love with you is like skipping rocks on a riverbank…except the rocks are stars and everything is so bright like my happiest memory where i bathe in lavender lemonade and lick honey off your gleaming fingertips as you watch me fly with my wings of rose petals. however, my hands cannot withstand the resilient heat, it leaves craters on my heart and degrades my bones until the only thing left of them are the soft bristles of tissue that you use to paint your art yet our glowing youth has each star strapped around my hands with a silk rope that only a hummingbird in a hurricane can untie
THOUGHTS: YOUR BRAIN IS LIKE A GARDEN
I just want to remind people that your brain is really like a garden, don’t plant seeds of negativity because that shit will grow, I’ve been practicing heavily on my own self love lately for a some months now and being positive, I’ve definitely seen an improvement on my mental state. Don’t give up, give it a try, drink water, you can’t feed plants soda or juice, that shit will die, it was made for you. Say one thing you like about yourself every day. Write down some goals. Try to be consistent, if you fuck up, that’s okay, start over. You got it
There are many times when I have to remind myself that people who harm others are coming from a place of profound disconnection. It is not easy to recognize the pain such a person is in, especially because they may not be conscious of it themselves. They may present themselves to the world as just fine. If you believe human beings have a potential for deep connection, wisdom and love; the limitation in those peoples’ lives becomes clearer
What you create is always what serves you most. Now, at times, what serves you most is also in alignment with what you desire from your egoic perspective. At other times, there is something more for you that you can only receive by not getting what you wanted. And so, we suggest that you always see yourselves as master creator beings, and we also suggest that you look around for what it is about your current creation that you can now see is serving you better than what you originally desired.
Your growth is inevitable. You are expanding, and you are becoming every single day. But there are circumstances that will accelerate that growth, and those are always the circumstances that you will create.
And this is so because your primary creation is always you. You are the big prize, and when you look within yourself, and you acknowledge that, well then you can see the bigger picture. Then you can see why you have created what you have created for yourself and why you have not created certain conditions and circumstances that you once desired. Make peace with all of your creations, and know that everything serves your greatest and highest good
There are 5 short mantras or sayings that summarise right thinking:
•This is the way it is, for now.
•This was my destiny, ordained by the universe with compassion and wisdom.
•Everything happens for a reason.
•Everything is as it should be.
•It is what it is.
Remembering these 5 thoughts leads to the development of surrender and submission to the universe.
There are many times when I have to remind myself that people who harm others are coming from a place of profound disconnection. It is not easy to recognize the pain such a person is in, especially because they may not be conscious of it themselves. They may present themselves to the world as just fine. If you believe human beings have a potential for deep connection, wisdom and love; the limitation in those peoples’ lives becomes clearer
What you create is always what serves you most. Now, at times, what serves you most is also in alignment with what you desire from your egoic perspective. At other times, there is something more for you that you can only receive by not getting what you wanted. And so, we suggest that you always see yourselves as master creator beings, and we also suggest that you look around for what it is about your current creation that you can now see is serving you better than what you originally desired.
Your growth is inevitable. You are expanding, and you are becoming every single day. But there are circumstances that will accelerate that growth, and those are always the circumstances that you will create.
And this is so because your primary creation is always you. You are the big prize, and when you look within yourself, and you acknowledge that, well then you can see the bigger picture. Then you can see why you have created what you have created for yourself and why you have not created certain conditions and circumstances that you once desired. Make peace with all of your creations, and know that everything serves your greatest and highest good
There are 5 short mantras or sayings that summarise right thinking:
•This is the way it is, for now.
•This was my destiny, ordained by the universe with compassion and wisdom.
•Everything happens for a reason.
•Everything is as it should be.
•It is what it is.
Remembering these 5 thoughts leads to the development of surrender and submission to the universe.
STORY: BEING HIS LITTLE CREAMPIE WHORE
He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me as he slid his thick cock deep inside my pussy stretching me to the limit. That initial thrust always takes my breath away and I feel like I’m in heaven.
It had been a few weeks since my last birth control pill and according to the positive ovulation test I took this morning this was the perfect time for us to make a baby. I whispered in his ear that I was ovulating, and I could feel him stretch me even more. It’s amazing how 2 little words can make his thick cock even harder.
In one quick movement he pushed me on all fours and took me from behind. Omg his cock feels amazing. I could tell that his primal need to breed me took over as he pounded my pussy…. Harder than he ever had before. I was beyond dripping wet practically begging him to fill my pussy up. It was the only thing I could think of.
That’s it baby fuck my pussy!! Pound me harder!! I want to feel your cum coating my insides! His pace quickened and I could feel his cock start to swell. I started grinding back into him seconds later I could feel his cock twitching deep inside of me, finally giving me what I longed for. Jet after jet after jet of hot fertile cum flooded my pussy and it’s truly the best feeling ever. Breed me baby…. Because either your dirty little Creampiewhore
It had been a few weeks since my last birth control pill and according to the positive ovulation test I took this morning this was the perfect time for us to make a baby. I whispered in his ear that I was ovulating, and I could feel him stretch me even more. It’s amazing how 2 little words can make his thick cock even harder.
In one quick movement he pushed me on all fours and took me from behind. Omg his cock feels amazing. I could tell that his primal need to breed me took over as he pounded my pussy…. Harder than he ever had before. I was beyond dripping wet practically begging him to fill my pussy up. It was the only thing I could think of.
That’s it baby fuck my pussy!! Pound me harder!! I want to feel your cum coating my insides! His pace quickened and I could feel his cock start to swell. I started grinding back into him seconds later I could feel his cock twitching deep inside of me, finally giving me what I longed for. Jet after jet after jet of hot fertile cum flooded my pussy and it’s truly the best feeling ever. Breed me baby…. Because either your dirty little Creampiewhore
DATING: A SURVEY FOR WOMAN TO DETERMINE IF THEY WANT TO CUCKOLD THEIR PARTNER AND BE A HOTWIFE
Hotwife/Vixen Interest Survey for Women
On a scale of 1 to 10,
with 10 being you are very interested, 5 being neutral and 1 being not at all interested,
please answer these following questions:
Becoming a hotwife?
Caging your husband’s cock?
Having sex with other men while your husband only watches?
Having sex with other men without your husband there?
Having sex with other men and your hushed at the same time?
Having anal sex?
Role playing with your husband?
Having a secrete lover that your husband doesn’t know about?
Having one time sex with men without your husband knowing?
Playing with sex toys?
Playing with bondage?
Going to nude beaches?
Watching your husband have sex with another woman?
Having sex with another woman in front of your husband?
Having sex alone with another woman?
Having your husband film you having sex?
Letting your husband pick men to share you with?
Having a monogamous relationship with your husband?
Going on vacation alone to have sex with other men?
Going on vacation with your husband and having sex with other men?
Going to a female strip club with your husband?
Going to a female strip club without your husband?
Going to a male strip club with your husband
Going to a male strip club without your husband?
Stripping at a bachelor or private party for a group of men?
Serving men during a football game or poker night wearing seductive clothing?
Sending men you meet online sexy photos and videos?
Sharing your messages/conversations with your husband that you have with other men?
Keeping secret you conversations with other men?
Edging your husband husband close to orgasm and then denying him repeatedly?
Ruining your husbands orgasms?
Limiting your husbands orgasms?
Making your husband clean his cum out/off of you?
Making your husband clean another man’s cum out/off of you?
Surprising your husband with a used pussy when you get home?
Making your husband suck another man’s cock in front of you?
Making your husband clean off the cum from another man that just fucked you?
Kissing your husband after another man came in your mouth?
Having your husband lick your clit while another man fucks your pussy?
Having you husband lick your clit while another man fucks your ass?
Having your husband lick your asshole while another man fucks your pussy?
Making your husband were a cock extension when he has sex with you?
Making your husband wear a cock cage in front of other men you are fucking?
Make your husband where a cock cage when he works?
Make you husband wear a cock cage while you watch porn and masturbate?
Make you husband were a gag dildo and you fuck his face?
Trying to stretch your pussy to take a fist?
Trying to stretch your asshole to take a fist?
Wearing an anal plug at home?
Wearing an anal plug out in public?
Having sex in your marital bed with another man?
Having sex only with men that do not know where you live?
Having sex with men you and your husband know personally?
Having sex with your husband’s friends?
Having sex with a coworker?
Having sex with your boss?
Answering the door nude?
Walking around the house daily nude?
Swinging or swapping partners with another couple?
Participating in a gangbang (3 or more men at the same time) with your husband there?
Participating in a gangbang (3 or more men at the same time) without your husband there?
Masturbating alone with toys?
Masturbating alone without toys?
Masturbating in front of your husband?
Masturbating in front of a bull?
Mutual masturbating with your husband or bull?
Sucking cock?
Sucking big cock, 8+ inches
Sucking small cock, less than 5 inches?
Having sex with big cocks?
Having sex with small cocks?
Getting a tattoo?
Getting piercings?
Getting your nipple pierced?
Getting your clit pierced?
Getting your bellybutton pierced?
Getting matching tattoos?
Wearing a hotwife anklet?
Wearing the key to your husband’s cock cage lock?
Squirting?
Letting your husband give you an enema?
Using a sex toy on your husband?
Fucking your husband with a dildo?
Fucking your husband with a strap-on dildo?
Being blindfolded during sex with your husband?
Blindfolding your husband during sex?
Tying your husband to the bed for sex?
Allowing your husband to listen on the phone to you having sex with another man?
Taking photos of you having sex with another man and sending them to your hubsand?
Video taping you having sex with another man and then showing your husband when you return?
Having your husband reclaim you after you have sex with other men?
Going to a sex club and allowing other strangers to watch you have sex with your husband?
Going to a sex club to meet other men to have sex with in front of strangers?
Going to a sex club to only watch others having sex?
Going to a sex club without your husband?
Going to a nude resort on vacation without your husband?
Going on vacation without your husband?
Allowing your husband to go to a sex club without you?
Allowing your husband to go on vacation without you?
100.Flashing your husband in public?
101.Having sex in public places?
102.Going out in a skirt without panties?
103.Having sex in a car or limo?
104.Having sex in the back of a car with a man while your husband drives?
105.Having your husband drive you to meet your date and then having him pick you up?
106.Having your husband thank your bull for fucking you good?
107.Having your husband ask your bulls to cum in you?
108.Always having to ask for permission from your husband before having sex with anyone else?
109.Having the freedom to have sex with anyone you want any time you want without your husband’s permission?
110.Accidentally getting pregnant by another man?
111.Getting pregnant by another man with you husband permission?
112.Having sex with string muscular men?
113.Having sex with men over 50?
114.Having sex with men under 30?
115.Having sex with black men?
116.Having sex for money?
117.Having sex while your husband is hiding in the closet?
118.Having sex while your while your husband is in the guest room?
119.Having your husband bring your drinks while you have sex with another man?
120.Have your husband shave you?
121.Have your husband watch you get ready for a date with another man?
122.Have your husband help you prepare for a date with another man?
123. Have your husband tied up and caged while you have sex with another man in the same room?
124.Have your husband tied up and caged while you have sex with another man in the same an adjoining room where he can only hear the moans?
125.Clean the house naked?
126.Cook naked?
127.Be waiting naked at the door when your husband got home from work?
128.Be waiting naked at the door when your date comes to visit?
129.Give a stranger you met in a bar a blow job or have sex in the bar bathroom?
130.Give a stranger you met in a bar a blow job or have sex with him in the parking lot?
131.Let another man finger you in a public place?
132.Dance with hot men at clubs?
133.Flirt with hot men at bars?
134.Go on vacations with other men without your husband?
135.Have one man fuck you in the ass while another man fucks your pussy?
136.Have one man fuck your ass while another fucks your pussy and another fucks your mouth?
137.Continue living a hotwife lifestyle if you become pregnant?
138.Stop living the hotwife lifestyle if you became pregnant?
139.Only have sex with your husband?
140. Allowing your husband to lick your pussy anytime he wants?
141.Allowing your husband to fuck your pussy anytime he wants?
142.Allowing your husband to fuck your ass anytime he wants?
143.Giving your husband a blow job anytime her wants?
144.Making your husband lick your pussy anytime you want?
145. Making your husband fuck you whenever you demand?
146.Get massages from your husband?
147.Get massages from other men?
148.Get massages from women?
149.Let other women give your husband full body massages?
150.Suck a cock after it’s been in your pussy?
151.Suck a cock after it was in your ass?
152.Be treated like a Princess in public but a whore in the bed?
153.Rough sex?
154.Talking dirty during sex?
155.Telling your husband about other men you have fucked during sex?
156.Using a cock cage on your husband to get things that you want sexually?
157.Using a cock cage to get your husband to reach goals..like weight loss…
158.Vacations were only you and your husband have sex together?
159.Sex with bulls/other men on average of about once per week?
160.Sex with bulls/other men on average of about once every two weeks?
161.Sex with bulls/other men on average of about once per month?
162.Sex with bulls/other men on average of about once every two or three months?
163.Sex with bulls/other men on average of about once or twice per year?
164.Having your husband surprise you by planning sexual adventures/nights which include other men?
165.Having sex in a pool?
166.Having sex in a hot tub?
167.Having sex in a shower?
168.Having sex on a boat?
169.Having sex in a plane?
170.Keeping secrets from your husband?
171.Using floggers/whips/paddles?
172.Having your husband use flogger or spank you when you are bad?
173.Using a flogger or spanking your husband if he is bad
174.Wearing a ball gage while you have sex?
175.Making your husband wear a ball gag?
176.Making your husband cum inside is cage?
177.Play with hot wax?
178.Explore robe bondage?
179.Share your sex life relationship on a Tumblr blog, but hid your identities?
180.Shop at a adult book store with your husband?
181.Shop at an adult book store alone?
182.Shop at an adult book store with a man other than your husband?
183.Go to a bar with your husband but pretend you don’t know him and flirt with others while he watches?
184.Drive around in a car naked?
185.Be driven in a car naked?
186.Grow old with your husband?
187.Divorce you husband when he gets too old?
188.Have an open relationship where husband and wife can have sex with others?
189.Never allowing your husband to have sex with any other woman?
190.Allowing your husband to have sex with another woman only with your permission and by your rules?
191.Setting up rules for being a hotwife?
192.Setting up punishments for breaking the rules?
193.Sharing all of your personal communication outlets and passwords with your husband including phone messages and all social media messaging?
194.Having all of your husband’s communication and social media passwords?
195.Allowing your husband to make all the rules?
196.Playing the dominant role and having your husband play a submissive role all of the time?
197.Playing the dominant role and having your husband play a submissive role most of the time?
198.Playing the submissive role and having your husband play a dominant role all of the time?
199.Playing the submissive role and having your husband play a dominant role most of the time?
200.Alternating about 50/50 between playing the submissive role and dominant roles with our husband?
201.Have your bulls be dominant?
202.Have your bulls be submissive?
203.Becoming friends with your bulls?
204.Have the same bulls long term rather than many strangers?
205.Have the bull always wear condoms?
206.Have the bulls not wear condoms?
207.Allowing the husband to stop a date or sex at anytime for any reason without getting mad?
208.Allowing your husband to decide he wants you to stop being a hotwife and live a monogamous traditional lifestyle?
209.Having kids with your husband?
210.Being wealthy?
211.Always telling the truth?
212.Always getting the truth from your husband?
213.Trying new sex positions?
214.Trying new sex techniques?
215.Watching porn with your husband?
216.Watching porn alone?
217.Privacy while talking to other en on the phone?
218.Privacy while on the computer chatting with other men?
219.Fulfilling your husbands fantasies?
220.Fulfilling your fantasies?
221.Sharing your fantasies with your husband?
222.Hearing your husband’s fantasies?
223.Having a fit muscular husband?
224.Using nipple clamps during sex?
225.Having your husband use a pussy pump on you?
226.Using a penis pump on your husband?
227.Using a sex swing with your husband?
228.Using a sex swing with other men?
229.Role playing with your husband (doctor/patient, student/teacher, master/slave)
230.Playing sex games with your husband?
231.Playing sex games with others?
232.Hiding your sexual activities from friends and family?
233.Having similar interests are your husband?
234.You husband having similar interests as you?
235.Sacrificing to give you husband pleasure?
236.You husband sacrificing to give you pleasure?
237.Sleeping naked in bed with your husband nightly?
238.Having your husband wake you up in the middle of the night for sex?
239.Waking your husband up in the middle of the night for sex?
240.Knowing where your husband is all the time?
241.Spending nights in bed alone without your husband?
242.Always sleeping with your husband?
243.Always sleeping with someone?
244.Never sleeping alone?
245.Showing public displays of affection?
246.Having sex while having your period?
247.Playfully humiliating your husband when having sex alone with him?
248.Playfully humiliating your husband with having sex with another man in front of you husband?
On a scale of 1 to 10,
with 10 being you are most important and 1 being not important at all,
please answer these following questions:
How important is:
Trust in your marriage?
Sex in your marriage?
Honesty in your marriage?
Wealth in your marriage?
Health in your marriage?
Kids in your marriage?
Having time to spend with your friends?
Having time alone?
Having time to spend with family?
Sharing home chores?
Shopping together?
Working together?
Both having jobs?
Being a housewife?
How many kids do you want to have?
How would you feel if you had no kids with your husband?
Can you accept being a stepmother and treat your husbands kids as your own?
How would you feel about becoming pregnant by a man other than your husband?
At what age do you want to retire?
Where would you like to live when you retire?
What is an ideal sized home for you and your husband?
A. very small, 1 bedroom, 1 bathroom, living room, kitchen, laundry room
B. small - 2 bedroom, living room, kitchen, laundry room
C. medium - 2-3 bedrooms, living room, dining room, kitchen, laundry room, game room
D. large -3-4 bedrooms, living room, dining room, kitchen, laundry room, game room, garage, big yard
E. very big - 3-4 bedrooms, living room, dining room, kitchen, laundry room, game room, large yard, garage, pool
Explain why that is your ideal home size:
Would you rather go to the movies or watch a movie at home?
Who do you prefer does the:
(husband, wife, both equally, husband most of the time, wife most of the time)
Laundry
Cooking
Cleaning
Making the bed
Yard work
Gardening
Driving
Shopping
Dishes
Banking/accounting
Work - earring money
Initiating sex
Ironing
Decorating
Planning vacations
Deciding where to spend money
How many times a month would be an ideal number of time to have sex?
Do you think men or women desire sex more?
What are your true feelings about the hotwife or vixen lifestyle?
Do you feel you that a hotwife or vixen lifestyle is right for you? Explain
How important is your partners appearance?
How important is your husband’s physical appearance?
Are you interested in becoming a hotwife/vixen?
Why or why not:
What rules would you like to have if living a non traditional marriage?
Is your husband’s cock enough to keep you totally satisfied?
What more could your husband do to keep you sexually satisfied?
On a scale of 1 to 10,
with 10 being you are very interested, 5 being neutral and 1 being not at all interested,
please answer these following questions:
Becoming a hotwife?
Caging your husband’s cock?
Having sex with other men while your husband only watches?
Having sex with other men without your husband there?
Having sex with other men and your hushed at the same time?
Having anal sex?
Role playing with your husband?
Having a secrete lover that your husband doesn’t know about?
Having one time sex with men without your husband knowing?
Playing with sex toys?
Playing with bondage?
Going to nude beaches?
Watching your husband have sex with another woman?
Having sex with another woman in front of your husband?
Having sex alone with another woman?
Having your husband film you having sex?
Letting your husband pick men to share you with?
Having a monogamous relationship with your husband?
Going on vacation alone to have sex with other men?
Going on vacation with your husband and having sex with other men?
Going to a female strip club with your husband?
Going to a female strip club without your husband?
Going to a male strip club with your husband
Going to a male strip club without your husband?
Stripping at a bachelor or private party for a group of men?
Serving men during a football game or poker night wearing seductive clothing?
Sending men you meet online sexy photos and videos?
Sharing your messages/conversations with your husband that you have with other men?
Keeping secret you conversations with other men?
Edging your husband husband close to orgasm and then denying him repeatedly?
Ruining your husbands orgasms?
Limiting your husbands orgasms?
Making your husband clean his cum out/off of you?
Making your husband clean another man’s cum out/off of you?
Surprising your husband with a used pussy when you get home?
Making your husband suck another man’s cock in front of you?
Making your husband clean off the cum from another man that just fucked you?
Kissing your husband after another man came in your mouth?
Having your husband lick your clit while another man fucks your pussy?
Having you husband lick your clit while another man fucks your ass?
Having your husband lick your asshole while another man fucks your pussy?
Making your husband were a cock extension when he has sex with you?
Making your husband wear a cock cage in front of other men you are fucking?
Make your husband where a cock cage when he works?
Make you husband wear a cock cage while you watch porn and masturbate?
Make you husband were a gag dildo and you fuck his face?
Trying to stretch your pussy to take a fist?
Trying to stretch your asshole to take a fist?
Wearing an anal plug at home?
Wearing an anal plug out in public?
Having sex in your marital bed with another man?
Having sex only with men that do not know where you live?
Having sex with men you and your husband know personally?
Having sex with your husband’s friends?
Having sex with a coworker?
Having sex with your boss?
Answering the door nude?
Walking around the house daily nude?
Swinging or swapping partners with another couple?
Participating in a gangbang (3 or more men at the same time) with your husband there?
Participating in a gangbang (3 or more men at the same time) without your husband there?
Masturbating alone with toys?
Masturbating alone without toys?
Masturbating in front of your husband?
Masturbating in front of a bull?
Mutual masturbating with your husband or bull?
Sucking cock?
Sucking big cock, 8+ inches
Sucking small cock, less than 5 inches?
Having sex with big cocks?
Having sex with small cocks?
Getting a tattoo?
Getting piercings?
Getting your nipple pierced?
Getting your clit pierced?
Getting your bellybutton pierced?
Getting matching tattoos?
Wearing a hotwife anklet?
Wearing the key to your husband’s cock cage lock?
Squirting?
Letting your husband give you an enema?
Using a sex toy on your husband?
Fucking your husband with a dildo?
Fucking your husband with a strap-on dildo?
Being blindfolded during sex with your husband?
Blindfolding your husband during sex?
Tying your husband to the bed for sex?
Allowing your husband to listen on the phone to you having sex with another man?
Taking photos of you having sex with another man and sending them to your hubsand?
Video taping you having sex with another man and then showing your husband when you return?
Having your husband reclaim you after you have sex with other men?
Going to a sex club and allowing other strangers to watch you have sex with your husband?
Going to a sex club to meet other men to have sex with in front of strangers?
Going to a sex club to only watch others having sex?
Going to a sex club without your husband?
Going to a nude resort on vacation without your husband?
Going on vacation without your husband?
Allowing your husband to go to a sex club without you?
Allowing your husband to go on vacation without you?
100.Flashing your husband in public?
101.Having sex in public places?
102.Going out in a skirt without panties?
103.Having sex in a car or limo?
104.Having sex in the back of a car with a man while your husband drives?
105.Having your husband drive you to meet your date and then having him pick you up?
106.Having your husband thank your bull for fucking you good?
107.Having your husband ask your bulls to cum in you?
108.Always having to ask for permission from your husband before having sex with anyone else?
109.Having the freedom to have sex with anyone you want any time you want without your husband’s permission?
110.Accidentally getting pregnant by another man?
111.Getting pregnant by another man with you husband permission?
112.Having sex with string muscular men?
113.Having sex with men over 50?
114.Having sex with men under 30?
115.Having sex with black men?
116.Having sex for money?
117.Having sex while your husband is hiding in the closet?
118.Having sex while your while your husband is in the guest room?
119.Having your husband bring your drinks while you have sex with another man?
120.Have your husband shave you?
121.Have your husband watch you get ready for a date with another man?
122.Have your husband help you prepare for a date with another man?
123. Have your husband tied up and caged while you have sex with another man in the same room?
124.Have your husband tied up and caged while you have sex with another man in the same an adjoining room where he can only hear the moans?
125.Clean the house naked?
126.Cook naked?
127.Be waiting naked at the door when your husband got home from work?
128.Be waiting naked at the door when your date comes to visit?
129.Give a stranger you met in a bar a blow job or have sex in the bar bathroom?
130.Give a stranger you met in a bar a blow job or have sex with him in the parking lot?
131.Let another man finger you in a public place?
132.Dance with hot men at clubs?
133.Flirt with hot men at bars?
134.Go on vacations with other men without your husband?
135.Have one man fuck you in the ass while another man fucks your pussy?
136.Have one man fuck your ass while another fucks your pussy and another fucks your mouth?
137.Continue living a hotwife lifestyle if you become pregnant?
138.Stop living the hotwife lifestyle if you became pregnant?
139.Only have sex with your husband?
140. Allowing your husband to lick your pussy anytime he wants?
141.Allowing your husband to fuck your pussy anytime he wants?
142.Allowing your husband to fuck your ass anytime he wants?
143.Giving your husband a blow job anytime her wants?
144.Making your husband lick your pussy anytime you want?
145. Making your husband fuck you whenever you demand?
146.Get massages from your husband?
147.Get massages from other men?
148.Get massages from women?
149.Let other women give your husband full body massages?
150.Suck a cock after it’s been in your pussy?
151.Suck a cock after it was in your ass?
152.Be treated like a Princess in public but a whore in the bed?
153.Rough sex?
154.Talking dirty during sex?
155.Telling your husband about other men you have fucked during sex?
156.Using a cock cage on your husband to get things that you want sexually?
157.Using a cock cage to get your husband to reach goals..like weight loss…
158.Vacations were only you and your husband have sex together?
159.Sex with bulls/other men on average of about once per week?
160.Sex with bulls/other men on average of about once every two weeks?
161.Sex with bulls/other men on average of about once per month?
162.Sex with bulls/other men on average of about once every two or three months?
163.Sex with bulls/other men on average of about once or twice per year?
164.Having your husband surprise you by planning sexual adventures/nights which include other men?
165.Having sex in a pool?
166.Having sex in a hot tub?
167.Having sex in a shower?
168.Having sex on a boat?
169.Having sex in a plane?
170.Keeping secrets from your husband?
171.Using floggers/whips/paddles?
172.Having your husband use flogger or spank you when you are bad?
173.Using a flogger or spanking your husband if he is bad
174.Wearing a ball gage while you have sex?
175.Making your husband wear a ball gag?
176.Making your husband cum inside is cage?
177.Play with hot wax?
178.Explore robe bondage?
179.Share your sex life relationship on a Tumblr blog, but hid your identities?
180.Shop at a adult book store with your husband?
181.Shop at an adult book store alone?
182.Shop at an adult book store with a man other than your husband?
183.Go to a bar with your husband but pretend you don’t know him and flirt with others while he watches?
184.Drive around in a car naked?
185.Be driven in a car naked?
186.Grow old with your husband?
187.Divorce you husband when he gets too old?
188.Have an open relationship where husband and wife can have sex with others?
189.Never allowing your husband to have sex with any other woman?
190.Allowing your husband to have sex with another woman only with your permission and by your rules?
191.Setting up rules for being a hotwife?
192.Setting up punishments for breaking the rules?
193.Sharing all of your personal communication outlets and passwords with your husband including phone messages and all social media messaging?
194.Having all of your husband’s communication and social media passwords?
195.Allowing your husband to make all the rules?
196.Playing the dominant role and having your husband play a submissive role all of the time?
197.Playing the dominant role and having your husband play a submissive role most of the time?
198.Playing the submissive role and having your husband play a dominant role all of the time?
199.Playing the submissive role and having your husband play a dominant role most of the time?
200.Alternating about 50/50 between playing the submissive role and dominant roles with our husband?
201.Have your bulls be dominant?
202.Have your bulls be submissive?
203.Becoming friends with your bulls?
204.Have the same bulls long term rather than many strangers?
205.Have the bull always wear condoms?
206.Have the bulls not wear condoms?
207.Allowing the husband to stop a date or sex at anytime for any reason without getting mad?
208.Allowing your husband to decide he wants you to stop being a hotwife and live a monogamous traditional lifestyle?
209.Having kids with your husband?
210.Being wealthy?
211.Always telling the truth?
212.Always getting the truth from your husband?
213.Trying new sex positions?
214.Trying new sex techniques?
215.Watching porn with your husband?
216.Watching porn alone?
217.Privacy while talking to other en on the phone?
218.Privacy while on the computer chatting with other men?
219.Fulfilling your husbands fantasies?
220.Fulfilling your fantasies?
221.Sharing your fantasies with your husband?
222.Hearing your husband’s fantasies?
223.Having a fit muscular husband?
224.Using nipple clamps during sex?
225.Having your husband use a pussy pump on you?
226.Using a penis pump on your husband?
227.Using a sex swing with your husband?
228.Using a sex swing with other men?
229.Role playing with your husband (doctor/patient, student/teacher, master/slave)
230.Playing sex games with your husband?
231.Playing sex games with others?
232.Hiding your sexual activities from friends and family?
233.Having similar interests are your husband?
234.You husband having similar interests as you?
235.Sacrificing to give you husband pleasure?
236.You husband sacrificing to give you pleasure?
237.Sleeping naked in bed with your husband nightly?
238.Having your husband wake you up in the middle of the night for sex?
239.Waking your husband up in the middle of the night for sex?
240.Knowing where your husband is all the time?
241.Spending nights in bed alone without your husband?
242.Always sleeping with your husband?
243.Always sleeping with someone?
244.Never sleeping alone?
245.Showing public displays of affection?
246.Having sex while having your period?
247.Playfully humiliating your husband when having sex alone with him?
248.Playfully humiliating your husband with having sex with another man in front of you husband?
On a scale of 1 to 10,
with 10 being you are most important and 1 being not important at all,
please answer these following questions:
How important is:
Trust in your marriage?
Sex in your marriage?
Honesty in your marriage?
Wealth in your marriage?
Health in your marriage?
Kids in your marriage?
Having time to spend with your friends?
Having time alone?
Having time to spend with family?
Sharing home chores?
Shopping together?
Working together?
Both having jobs?
Being a housewife?
How many kids do you want to have?
How would you feel if you had no kids with your husband?
Can you accept being a stepmother and treat your husbands kids as your own?
How would you feel about becoming pregnant by a man other than your husband?
At what age do you want to retire?
Where would you like to live when you retire?
What is an ideal sized home for you and your husband?
A. very small, 1 bedroom, 1 bathroom, living room, kitchen, laundry room
B. small - 2 bedroom, living room, kitchen, laundry room
C. medium - 2-3 bedrooms, living room, dining room, kitchen, laundry room, game room
D. large -3-4 bedrooms, living room, dining room, kitchen, laundry room, game room, garage, big yard
E. very big - 3-4 bedrooms, living room, dining room, kitchen, laundry room, game room, large yard, garage, pool
Explain why that is your ideal home size:
Would you rather go to the movies or watch a movie at home?
Who do you prefer does the:
(husband, wife, both equally, husband most of the time, wife most of the time)
Laundry
Cooking
Cleaning
Making the bed
Yard work
Gardening
Driving
Shopping
Dishes
Banking/accounting
Work - earring money
Initiating sex
Ironing
Decorating
Planning vacations
Deciding where to spend money
How many times a month would be an ideal number of time to have sex?
Do you think men or women desire sex more?
What are your true feelings about the hotwife or vixen lifestyle?
Do you feel you that a hotwife or vixen lifestyle is right for you? Explain
How important is your partners appearance?
How important is your husband’s physical appearance?
Are you interested in becoming a hotwife/vixen?
Why or why not:
What rules would you like to have if living a non traditional marriage?
Is your husband’s cock enough to keep you totally satisfied?
What more could your husband do to keep you sexually satisfied?
Wednesday, January 3, 2018
POETRY: MY HEART WAS LOST AND NOW IT'S FOUND
Please, please pardon me
can you tell me if you see
My years of pointless time
all spent just trying to find
Love's meaning, life's desire
A love to set my soul on fire
I lived this life in such loss
paid a cold and tragic cost
A heart alone will truly cry
if left too long will surely die
My life alone, in dark's abound
waiting for my heart to be found
on that fateful day and by chance
in love's glimmer I felt romance
stunned by the very sight of you
and love's meaning I finally knew
you touched the very soul of me
this sweet love has set me free
from a life with no possibility
Love echoes this heart of mine
your touch is so tender, so kind
Like the sweetness of a new day
this light of love shows my way
in your kiss a rapture all complete
gentle loving made it all so sweet
no questions of how it could seem
for fear I'll awake from this dream
Now in love's bright and joyful sound
my heart was lost and now it's found
can you tell me if you see
My years of pointless time
all spent just trying to find
Love's meaning, life's desire
A love to set my soul on fire
I lived this life in such loss
paid a cold and tragic cost
A heart alone will truly cry
if left too long will surely die
My life alone, in dark's abound
waiting for my heart to be found
on that fateful day and by chance
in love's glimmer I felt romance
stunned by the very sight of you
and love's meaning I finally knew
you touched the very soul of me
this sweet love has set me free
from a life with no possibility
Love echoes this heart of mine
your touch is so tender, so kind
Like the sweetness of a new day
this light of love shows my way
in your kiss a rapture all complete
gentle loving made it all so sweet
no questions of how it could seem
for fear I'll awake from this dream
Now in love's bright and joyful sound
my heart was lost and now it's found
PART 2
In the canyons of
my loving
Echoes resound in
the chasms of
a deathly gloom
Emptiness here in the
dust of a thousand
kisses
You gone in the
mirage of a forgotten
happiness
Desolate here in my
loneliness
And in the distance --
Rivers of longing
Hope in a shimmering
illusion
Reaching out through
the dusty storms
of our parting
Grasping at the distant
dream
And hoping, hoping
the river is reality
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PART 3
You drive me insane
For being away for so long.
You make me have lonely nights
Without knowing when it would end.
You make my heart skip a beat
Everytime I see your face.
You swiftly set my heart ablaze
Everytime I hear your voice.
You send chills all through my veins
Whenever you're around.
You break down all my defenses
Making me lose my senses.
Flowing out of my body is
This river of joy.
Coming out of my spirit
Is this ocean of peace.
You keep me in suspense
Knowing I always want you.
You'll never be a stranger to me
Because forever, you're mine.
For being away for so long.
You make me have lonely nights
Without knowing when it would end.
You make my heart skip a beat
Everytime I see your face.
You swiftly set my heart ablaze
Everytime I hear your voice.
You send chills all through my veins
Whenever you're around.
You break down all my defenses
Making me lose my senses.
Flowing out of my body is
This river of joy.
Coming out of my spirit
Is this ocean of peace.
You keep me in suspense
Knowing I always want you.
You'll never be a stranger to me
Because forever, you're mine.
PART 4
What makes me so sure that my search for finding the one
is accomplished?
What feeling makes this so sure,
and what love makes this heart complete?
What tears shed makes her worth all the hurt,
guilt,and pain?
What joy given and received makes her
the holder of my heart?
What thought indulged makes her vulnerable to my flesh,
the desire of my heart?
What need makes her the blood that flows through my veins,
the air that I breathe?
And what memory keeps her constantly on my mind?
But what feeling is this that I question
for the first time?
is accomplished?
What feeling makes this so sure,
and what love makes this heart complete?
What tears shed makes her worth all the hurt,
guilt,and pain?
What joy given and received makes her
the holder of my heart?
What thought indulged makes her vulnerable to my flesh,
the desire of my heart?
What need makes her the blood that flows through my veins,
the air that I breathe?
And what memory keeps her constantly on my mind?
But what feeling is this that I question
for the first time?
Wednesday, December 27, 2017
THOUGHTS: THERE ARE TIMES IN LIFE.....................
I miss you, my lover, more than my next breath. I am constantly thinking of you and my heart sighs and my body aches to be with you. Your words echo in my mind and I hold your promises as a bouquet of flowers that perfumes my soul. Where this path of love we have both embarked on will lead I do not know but I do know there is no one whose hand I would rather hold while walking it. Keep me safe in your heart, do not forget about me but keep me in every poem, in every song, in every dream, in every ray of moonlight, in every jasmine flower, as I do
PART 2
We are all here on this planet, as it were, as tourists. None of us can live here forever. The longest we might live is a hundred years. So while we are here we should try to have a good heart and to make something positive and useful of our lives. Whether we live just a few years or a whole century, it would be truly regrettable and sad if we were to spend that time aggravating the problems that afflict other people, animals, and the environment. The most important things is to be a good human being
PART 3
There are times in life, when you feel like you’re as close to magic as possible.
These moments emerge out of nowhere,
Only to engulf you thoroughly.
A window shattering wind blows,
Over a dull grey sky,
But it’ that makes your heart fly.
Amidst chaos and cheer,
Unable to distinguish confusion from fear,
You find that sliver of glitter,
To light up your day.
between words and actions,
You’re stuck, for you have to make a choice,
But each choice opens an endless door of opportunities,
Exactly halving the possibilities.
Warmth by words and hugs,
Cannot be matched,
For these carve out a special corner for themselves.
With every note, beat and crescendo,
The music seeps deeper into our veins,
Breaking free from the chains,
Of stress and anxiety,
To give birth to a smile at the end.
With independence at the midnight hour,
When we took up the reins of power,
It wasn’t just liberation,
It was then that a magical bird of independence had flown.
With every up and down,
High and low,
We realise that life isn’t perfect,
But to cherish a brush with magic, we sure do know.
PART 4
When someone tells you, ‘I love you,’ and then you feel, ‘Oh, I must be worthy after all,’ that’s an illusion. That’s not true. Or someone says, ‘I hate you,’ and you think, 'Oh, God, I knew it; I’m not very worthy,’ that’s not true either. Neither one of these thoughts hold any intrinsic reality. They are an overlay. When someone says, 'I love you,’ he is telling you about himself, not you. When someone says, 'I hate you,’ she is telling you about herself, not you. World views are self views-literally
PART 5
Have you met someone in your life and say to yourself:
“I love this person.
I want to be with this person.
I won’t stop praying for this person.
I would love to share everything with this person.
I choose this person.
I am blessed to have this person.
I want to spend the rest of my life with this person”
That’s love.
That’s decision.
That’s commitment.
PART 6
My promise to you isn’t that you will not fall, But rather that when you do I’ll help pick you up.
My promise to you isn’t a lifetime of happiness, but a world full of colour, and a paintbrush to cover the grey.
My promise to you isn’t that you’ll never feel sad, but that when you do I’ll do everything in my power not to make you laugh for a second, but to make you feel okay again for as long as possible.
My promise to you isn’t a love where nothing goes wrong, but a love that has enough trust and respect to not let arguments cause earthquakes.
My promise to you is that on days when the colors go away, I make you breakfast and we go for a walk and go to sleep early so that maybe tomorrow is a little bit better.
My promise to you is to do everything in my power to help you feel the tiniest bit better when the world feels like it’s falling down.
I know I cannot cure you and make it all go away,
but I promise I’ll do my best to make sure it doesn’t always stay.
PART 7
It’s not about looking into someone’s eyes in the middle of a storm and them having the power to make it stop.
It’s about being able to look into someone’s eyes and know that their gaze will never waver whether the world is falling apart around you or you’re in the middle of the beach on a sunny day.
It’s about knowing that they can’t stop the tidal waves from coming- but that they’ll do everything they can to help you board up the windows for when they do.
It’s about facing monsters that you can’t see- that you didn’t even know existed, for someone that’s been facing them alone their whole life.
This is what Love is.
This is what Love should be.
A million little moments where someone stays.
PART 8
Have you ever tracked a shooting star across the sky?
Burdened it with your hopes and dreams?
Imbued it with meaning,
Watched as it came to rest before the constellation Apus-the bird of paradise
That lie between her eyes amidst the galaxy that is her beautiful mind
And remarked the Daedal canvass sky- stained violet and blue by the inks with which you write her odes?
Marvelled at the endless possibilities and gaudy clockwork/design
Or tried to count the near infinite aspirations that glow bright against the cosmos?
Around these orbit dreams like planets around a star
But the line that separates them is blurred
For she truly believes she can do anything her heart desires
And believe me, she is not wrong
PART 9
Tell me what happens the first time you see a woman naked.’
‘The first time you see a woman naked will not be like you imagined. There will be no love, no trust, no intimacy. You won’t even be in the same room as her.
You won’t get to smile as she undresses you and you undress her. You won’t get to calm her nerves with nerves of your own. You won’t get to kiss her, feeling her lips and the edge of her tongue. You won’t get to brush your fingers over the lace of her bra or count her ribs or feel her heartbeat.
The first time you see a woman naked you will be sitting in front of a computer screen watching someone play at intimacy and perform at sex. She will contort her body to please everyone in the room but her. You will watch this woman who is not a woman, pixelated and filtered and customized. She will come ready-made, like an order at a restaurant. The man on the screen will be bigger than you, rougher than you. He will teach you how to talk to her. He will teach you where to put your hands and he will teach you what you’re supposed to like. He will teach you to take what is yours.
You must unlearn this. You must unlearn this twisted sense of love. You must unlearn the definition of pleasure and intimacy you are being taught. Kill this idea of love, this idea of entitlement, this way of scarring one another
PART 10
All you want is to be happy. All your desires, whatever they may be, are longing for happiness. Basically, you wish yourself well…desire by itself is not wrong. It is life itself, the urge to grow in knowledge and experience. It is choices you make that are wrong. To imagine that some little thing-food, sex, power, fame-will make you happy is to decieve oneself. Only something as vast and deep as your real self can make you truly and lastingly happy
PART 11
This sounds like wishful thinking, but it’s true. When it comes to how I experience life (my happiness and general mood) the state of my mind is more influential than the state of my circumstances. The world holds no inherent meaning beyond my perception of it. Nobody’s perception of reality is objectively true; everyone’s point-of-view is merely an interpretation. If 100 people sat where I am sitting now, each 100 people would have a different interpretation of their surroundings based on their points-of-view and past experiences. The world is a blank canvas. My perception creates the picture.
When I perceive imperfection in another person or see a flaw in my life, do these flaws actually reside in the person and my circumstances, or does the flaw reside in my perception? My thoughts are so fundamental to my interpretation of life that I rarely notice how every day I am painting the canvas of my experience through the lens of my perception. Every thought is another brush stroke. Each subconscious judgement is another color. Soon I am looking at a painting (my experience of life) and have forgotten that I created it.
The kindest thing I can do for myself is remembering to slow down and observe my thinking mind – each inhale and exhale of thought – instead of giving it free reign to shape my experience of life without supervision. This is the point of meditation. My mind has the power to perceive both heaven and hell in each passing moment. Heaven is the state of unbiased and non-attached awareness. Hell is the hurricane of mental chaos. Regardless of what is happening in my life, I have the power to choose my point-of-view. My thoughts may seem insignificant compared to the big bad world, but the state of the world – with all its monsters, demons, angels, and lovers – does not impact my emotions as much as the state of my mind.
Logic does not help here. Only awareness. Because the world is an unfair place, seeing life from a happy perspective is not always rational. There are a million good reasons to be unhappy and blame others. But when I shift my focus from my circumstances to my awareness, I remember that peace-of-mind is always a choice.
PART 12
Maybe the problem with love these days is that someone says they love you, and you just wonder how long for.
PART 13
Miss someone until they come back, or until you come back, until their absence in your life becomes something to be avoided at all costs. Miss them until you don’t have to anymore, until you’re reunited in your favorite booth in your favorite restaurant ordering your favorite meal, miss them until it feels like you never left. Or miss them until you can’t anymore, until the things you miss are identified and cataloged as things and not a person, until you figure out that easy company and long talks and unblinking, all-knowing eye contact will find you again the way they found you the first time. Miss someone until you don’t
PART 14
When love shows up,we hold on to it so tight.
It is something we can’t really let go of without a fight.
How it colours everything with beautiful delight.
For we claim to hold it forever if we do right.
But when love told us to let go,we couldn’t help but cry.
So when ‘love’ finds us again we grip our hearts so tight.
While our minds pray for ‘forever’ this time.
For we find solace in believing that this ‘love’,won’t end in a goodbye
PART 15
When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground, it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall, it makes a noise. But as for your heart when that breaks it is completely silent. You would think as it is so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it is silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain. If there is a noise it is internal. It screams and no one can hear it but you. It screams so loud your ears ring and your head aches. It trashes around in your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea, it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That is what it looks like and that is what it sounds like a trashing, panicking, trapped great, big beast roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions. But that is the thing about love, no one is untouchable
PART 2
We are all here on this planet, as it were, as tourists. None of us can live here forever. The longest we might live is a hundred years. So while we are here we should try to have a good heart and to make something positive and useful of our lives. Whether we live just a few years or a whole century, it would be truly regrettable and sad if we were to spend that time aggravating the problems that afflict other people, animals, and the environment. The most important things is to be a good human being
PART 3
There are times in life, when you feel like you’re as close to magic as possible.
These moments emerge out of nowhere,
Only to engulf you thoroughly.
A window shattering wind blows,
Over a dull grey sky,
But it’ that makes your heart fly.
Amidst chaos and cheer,
Unable to distinguish confusion from fear,
You find that sliver of glitter,
To light up your day.
between words and actions,
You’re stuck, for you have to make a choice,
But each choice opens an endless door of opportunities,
Exactly halving the possibilities.
Warmth by words and hugs,
Cannot be matched,
For these carve out a special corner for themselves.
With every note, beat and crescendo,
The music seeps deeper into our veins,
Breaking free from the chains,
Of stress and anxiety,
To give birth to a smile at the end.
With independence at the midnight hour,
When we took up the reins of power,
It wasn’t just liberation,
It was then that a magical bird of independence had flown.
With every up and down,
High and low,
We realise that life isn’t perfect,
But to cherish a brush with magic, we sure do know.
PART 4
When someone tells you, ‘I love you,’ and then you feel, ‘Oh, I must be worthy after all,’ that’s an illusion. That’s not true. Or someone says, ‘I hate you,’ and you think, 'Oh, God, I knew it; I’m not very worthy,’ that’s not true either. Neither one of these thoughts hold any intrinsic reality. They are an overlay. When someone says, 'I love you,’ he is telling you about himself, not you. When someone says, 'I hate you,’ she is telling you about herself, not you. World views are self views-literally
PART 5
Have you met someone in your life and say to yourself:
“I love this person.
I want to be with this person.
I won’t stop praying for this person.
I would love to share everything with this person.
I choose this person.
I am blessed to have this person.
I want to spend the rest of my life with this person”
That’s love.
That’s decision.
That’s commitment.
PART 6
My promise to you isn’t that you will not fall, But rather that when you do I’ll help pick you up.
My promise to you isn’t a lifetime of happiness, but a world full of colour, and a paintbrush to cover the grey.
My promise to you isn’t that you’ll never feel sad, but that when you do I’ll do everything in my power not to make you laugh for a second, but to make you feel okay again for as long as possible.
My promise to you isn’t a love where nothing goes wrong, but a love that has enough trust and respect to not let arguments cause earthquakes.
My promise to you is that on days when the colors go away, I make you breakfast and we go for a walk and go to sleep early so that maybe tomorrow is a little bit better.
My promise to you is to do everything in my power to help you feel the tiniest bit better when the world feels like it’s falling down.
I know I cannot cure you and make it all go away,
but I promise I’ll do my best to make sure it doesn’t always stay.
PART 7
It’s not about looking into someone’s eyes in the middle of a storm and them having the power to make it stop.
It’s about being able to look into someone’s eyes and know that their gaze will never waver whether the world is falling apart around you or you’re in the middle of the beach on a sunny day.
It’s about knowing that they can’t stop the tidal waves from coming- but that they’ll do everything they can to help you board up the windows for when they do.
It’s about facing monsters that you can’t see- that you didn’t even know existed, for someone that’s been facing them alone their whole life.
This is what Love is.
This is what Love should be.
A million little moments where someone stays.
PART 8
Have you ever tracked a shooting star across the sky?
Burdened it with your hopes and dreams?
Imbued it with meaning,
Watched as it came to rest before the constellation Apus-the bird of paradise
That lie between her eyes amidst the galaxy that is her beautiful mind
And remarked the Daedal canvass sky- stained violet and blue by the inks with which you write her odes?
Marvelled at the endless possibilities and gaudy clockwork/design
Or tried to count the near infinite aspirations that glow bright against the cosmos?
Around these orbit dreams like planets around a star
But the line that separates them is blurred
For she truly believes she can do anything her heart desires
And believe me, she is not wrong
PART 9
Tell me what happens the first time you see a woman naked.’
‘The first time you see a woman naked will not be like you imagined. There will be no love, no trust, no intimacy. You won’t even be in the same room as her.
You won’t get to smile as she undresses you and you undress her. You won’t get to calm her nerves with nerves of your own. You won’t get to kiss her, feeling her lips and the edge of her tongue. You won’t get to brush your fingers over the lace of her bra or count her ribs or feel her heartbeat.
The first time you see a woman naked you will be sitting in front of a computer screen watching someone play at intimacy and perform at sex. She will contort her body to please everyone in the room but her. You will watch this woman who is not a woman, pixelated and filtered and customized. She will come ready-made, like an order at a restaurant. The man on the screen will be bigger than you, rougher than you. He will teach you how to talk to her. He will teach you where to put your hands and he will teach you what you’re supposed to like. He will teach you to take what is yours.
You must unlearn this. You must unlearn this twisted sense of love. You must unlearn the definition of pleasure and intimacy you are being taught. Kill this idea of love, this idea of entitlement, this way of scarring one another
PART 10
All you want is to be happy. All your desires, whatever they may be, are longing for happiness. Basically, you wish yourself well…desire by itself is not wrong. It is life itself, the urge to grow in knowledge and experience. It is choices you make that are wrong. To imagine that some little thing-food, sex, power, fame-will make you happy is to decieve oneself. Only something as vast and deep as your real self can make you truly and lastingly happy
PART 11
This sounds like wishful thinking, but it’s true. When it comes to how I experience life (my happiness and general mood) the state of my mind is more influential than the state of my circumstances. The world holds no inherent meaning beyond my perception of it. Nobody’s perception of reality is objectively true; everyone’s point-of-view is merely an interpretation. If 100 people sat where I am sitting now, each 100 people would have a different interpretation of their surroundings based on their points-of-view and past experiences. The world is a blank canvas. My perception creates the picture.
When I perceive imperfection in another person or see a flaw in my life, do these flaws actually reside in the person and my circumstances, or does the flaw reside in my perception? My thoughts are so fundamental to my interpretation of life that I rarely notice how every day I am painting the canvas of my experience through the lens of my perception. Every thought is another brush stroke. Each subconscious judgement is another color. Soon I am looking at a painting (my experience of life) and have forgotten that I created it.
The kindest thing I can do for myself is remembering to slow down and observe my thinking mind – each inhale and exhale of thought – instead of giving it free reign to shape my experience of life without supervision. This is the point of meditation. My mind has the power to perceive both heaven and hell in each passing moment. Heaven is the state of unbiased and non-attached awareness. Hell is the hurricane of mental chaos. Regardless of what is happening in my life, I have the power to choose my point-of-view. My thoughts may seem insignificant compared to the big bad world, but the state of the world – with all its monsters, demons, angels, and lovers – does not impact my emotions as much as the state of my mind.
Logic does not help here. Only awareness. Because the world is an unfair place, seeing life from a happy perspective is not always rational. There are a million good reasons to be unhappy and blame others. But when I shift my focus from my circumstances to my awareness, I remember that peace-of-mind is always a choice.
PART 12
Maybe the problem with love these days is that someone says they love you, and you just wonder how long for.
PART 13
Miss someone until they come back, or until you come back, until their absence in your life becomes something to be avoided at all costs. Miss them until you don’t have to anymore, until you’re reunited in your favorite booth in your favorite restaurant ordering your favorite meal, miss them until it feels like you never left. Or miss them until you can’t anymore, until the things you miss are identified and cataloged as things and not a person, until you figure out that easy company and long talks and unblinking, all-knowing eye contact will find you again the way they found you the first time. Miss someone until you don’t
PART 14
When love shows up,we hold on to it so tight.
It is something we can’t really let go of without a fight.
How it colours everything with beautiful delight.
For we claim to hold it forever if we do right.
But when love told us to let go,we couldn’t help but cry.
So when ‘love’ finds us again we grip our hearts so tight.
While our minds pray for ‘forever’ this time.
For we find solace in believing that this ‘love’,won’t end in a goodbye
PART 15
When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground, it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall, it makes a noise. But as for your heart when that breaks it is completely silent. You would think as it is so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it is silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain. If there is a noise it is internal. It screams and no one can hear it but you. It screams so loud your ears ring and your head aches. It trashes around in your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea, it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That is what it looks like and that is what it sounds like a trashing, panicking, trapped great, big beast roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions. But that is the thing about love, no one is untouchable
Tuesday, December 19, 2017
DATING: DON'T GET INVOLVED WITH A WOMAN WHO IS STILL IN LOVE WITH HER EX BOYFRIEND.
Would you really want a woman laying next to you, knowing that in her heart, it feels like she's laying next to the wrong guy?
The answer is NO.
You are putting yourself in a position of disadvantage were you have to “earn her” as if she had more value than you.
This could very well be why she’s not being very respectful with you. You are also coming from a place of scarcity where you fear losing her to her ex. This is also playing against you.
So first of all, please think about all of the things that YOU are currently doing wrong which are putting you in a position of disadvantage: Giving her more value than you give to yourself, being fearful, accepting being disrespected
If you want to take care of this I want you to stop looking at the “her and her ex” situation completely and to put all of your attention to yourself: You need to work on yourself in order to take care of this situation. You need to see yourself having more value to your eyes than her. How to accomplish this? In the short term: give yourself priority, exercise, do things with her that YOU want to do, take care of your self image by being clean and wearing clothes that you like how they look on you, catch up with people that care about you, make a list of all the things you rock at. You can see where I’m going, we’re giving your self-esteem a boost. You MUST do these things if you want a permanent solution. You want to be the best version of yourself, which also includes being her man and a great partner, not her fearful (probably pleasing) boyfriend. Again, be the best man you can be.
I think if your girl was given a do over in life, she would chose her ex over you in a heart beat. The disrespect she's shown you is staggering. Sucking his dick....want to fuck him more than she want to fuck you.....You need to smell the coffee like I did in the past relationship, you know what took place there. Do you think she thought much of your feelings when she guided him inside of her? I can't imagine she felt any guilt as she climbed and top of him to give him a sexy show while she rode him cowgirl style. You may or may not have crossed her mind when she was performing oral pleasure for him. And I'm positive it wasn't you're name she was calling when he was behind her using doggie style to help achieve joy. She sounds like a little vixen. If you can accept her duality, then don't worry about it. I'm not that kind of man. I'd leave her to pursue her ex.
Do you ever wonder if your girlfriend’s still in love with her ex? Do you catch her staring at an old picture of her ex when she thinks you aren’t looking? Or Checking him out on his facebook. It’s not always easy to decipher the thoughts that run on a girl’s mind. But if you ever do get a nagging thought at the back of your mind, and wonder if your girlfriend’s not over her ex yet, chances are, you’re probably right!
Girls are subtle. And you won’t always notice the signs immediately if your girl is still lost in thoughts about her ex. But I did notice when I was with one who was still in love with her ex boyfriend.Sometimes, you may just find her being distant and aloof. Or she may want a lot of space to herself. She may appear sad and bored when she’s with you, and even keep her distance from you now and then. She doesn't like to have sex with you or doesn't want to do anything for you. All she does is order you around.
Should you put up with it? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#1 She’s distant and confused. Your girlfriend gets distant and aloof now and then, and even if you ask her what’s wrong, she tells you it’s nothing, or tells you that it’s something she has to deal with herself.
#2 Those good old memories. Your girlfriend talks about her ex boyfriend’s memories like they’re still fresh in her head. She remembers him fondly, and speaks of him as if he was her best friend.
#3 She compares all the time. Does your girlfriend ever compare you to her ex boyfriend, and show you in negative light? Of course, she may do this only when she’s pissed off with you. But yet, if your girlfriend compares you to her ex for the silliest reasons, or when you’re late or forget to do something, it only means she’s mentally evaluating who’s the better boyfriend. But seriously, if she has no thoughts of ever dumping you and getting back with her ex, why the comparisons in the first place, right?!
#4 She’s in touch with him. She doesn't change her number or email. Exes stay as exes for a reason. And exes never make good friends. Of course, it is definitely possible for exes to stay friends, but it’s not likely.
#5 She still remembers the events. When a relationship breaks down and the ex lovers go their separate ways, one of the first things they need to do is erase their love slates clean. But if your girlfriend still remembers *their song* and hums nostalgically, or points out every single place she and her ex used to hang out at, each time both of you pass by it, it only means she’s still hanging on to the thoughts of her ex and keeping it alive. For what? Well, you know…
#6 She gets irritated. Your girlfriend’s supposedly in a relationship with you, and supposedly, she’s happy with you. But does she get irritated or annoyed when she hears that her ex is dating some other girl? She may not tell it to your face, but if you read her expressions, she may seem distracted or angry, or she may get unnaturally quiet all of a sudden.
#7 You’re the rebound guy! Your girlfriend may be using you as a rebound guy, either to get over her ex or to make him jealous. This is something that happens frequently
#8 She loves talking about her ex.
#9 She wants to be his friend. Your girlfriend and her ex boyfriend have broken up, and they’ve moved on too. And now, all of a sudden, she confesses to you that she wants to be friends with her ex because she’s finally over him and doesn’t think of him in that way anymore.Which is all bullshit
#10 She likes you, but loves him Your girlfriend tells you she loves you, but she also mentions that she thinks of her ex now and then. If your girlfriend ever says this to you, that’s probably because you’re being a doormat and letting her walk all over you. You’re probably a really nice guy, but the fact that she can tell you something like this just shows how easy she’s taking this relationship with you.
#11 She’s moody.
Is it time to break up with your girlfriend?
There’s a threshold up to which you can bear her antics and her sickeningly fond reminders of her ex. And this threshold is different for each guy. If your girlfriend pines about her ex often, or gives you any reason to doubt her, move oN
The answer is NO.
You are putting yourself in a position of disadvantage were you have to “earn her” as if she had more value than you.
This could very well be why she’s not being very respectful with you. You are also coming from a place of scarcity where you fear losing her to her ex. This is also playing against you.
So first of all, please think about all of the things that YOU are currently doing wrong which are putting you in a position of disadvantage: Giving her more value than you give to yourself, being fearful, accepting being disrespected
If you want to take care of this I want you to stop looking at the “her and her ex” situation completely and to put all of your attention to yourself: You need to work on yourself in order to take care of this situation. You need to see yourself having more value to your eyes than her. How to accomplish this? In the short term: give yourself priority, exercise, do things with her that YOU want to do, take care of your self image by being clean and wearing clothes that you like how they look on you, catch up with people that care about you, make a list of all the things you rock at. You can see where I’m going, we’re giving your self-esteem a boost. You MUST do these things if you want a permanent solution. You want to be the best version of yourself, which also includes being her man and a great partner, not her fearful (probably pleasing) boyfriend. Again, be the best man you can be.
I think if your girl was given a do over in life, she would chose her ex over you in a heart beat. The disrespect she's shown you is staggering. Sucking his dick....want to fuck him more than she want to fuck you.....You need to smell the coffee like I did in the past relationship, you know what took place there. Do you think she thought much of your feelings when she guided him inside of her? I can't imagine she felt any guilt as she climbed and top of him to give him a sexy show while she rode him cowgirl style. You may or may not have crossed her mind when she was performing oral pleasure for him. And I'm positive it wasn't you're name she was calling when he was behind her using doggie style to help achieve joy. She sounds like a little vixen. If you can accept her duality, then don't worry about it. I'm not that kind of man. I'd leave her to pursue her ex.
Do you ever wonder if your girlfriend’s still in love with her ex? Do you catch her staring at an old picture of her ex when she thinks you aren’t looking? Or Checking him out on his facebook. It’s not always easy to decipher the thoughts that run on a girl’s mind. But if you ever do get a nagging thought at the back of your mind, and wonder if your girlfriend’s not over her ex yet, chances are, you’re probably right!
Girls are subtle. And you won’t always notice the signs immediately if your girl is still lost in thoughts about her ex. But I did notice when I was with one who was still in love with her ex boyfriend.Sometimes, you may just find her being distant and aloof. Or she may want a lot of space to herself. She may appear sad and bored when she’s with you, and even keep her distance from you now and then. She doesn't like to have sex with you or doesn't want to do anything for you. All she does is order you around.
Should you put up with it? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#1 She’s distant and confused. Your girlfriend gets distant and aloof now and then, and even if you ask her what’s wrong, she tells you it’s nothing, or tells you that it’s something she has to deal with herself.
#2 Those good old memories. Your girlfriend talks about her ex boyfriend’s memories like they’re still fresh in her head. She remembers him fondly, and speaks of him as if he was her best friend.
#3 She compares all the time. Does your girlfriend ever compare you to her ex boyfriend, and show you in negative light? Of course, she may do this only when she’s pissed off with you. But yet, if your girlfriend compares you to her ex for the silliest reasons, or when you’re late or forget to do something, it only means she’s mentally evaluating who’s the better boyfriend. But seriously, if she has no thoughts of ever dumping you and getting back with her ex, why the comparisons in the first place, right?!
#4 She’s in touch with him. She doesn't change her number or email. Exes stay as exes for a reason. And exes never make good friends. Of course, it is definitely possible for exes to stay friends, but it’s not likely.
#5 She still remembers the events. When a relationship breaks down and the ex lovers go their separate ways, one of the first things they need to do is erase their love slates clean. But if your girlfriend still remembers *their song* and hums nostalgically, or points out every single place she and her ex used to hang out at, each time both of you pass by it, it only means she’s still hanging on to the thoughts of her ex and keeping it alive. For what? Well, you know…
#6 She gets irritated. Your girlfriend’s supposedly in a relationship with you, and supposedly, she’s happy with you. But does she get irritated or annoyed when she hears that her ex is dating some other girl? She may not tell it to your face, but if you read her expressions, she may seem distracted or angry, or she may get unnaturally quiet all of a sudden.
#7 You’re the rebound guy! Your girlfriend may be using you as a rebound guy, either to get over her ex or to make him jealous. This is something that happens frequently
#8 She loves talking about her ex.
#9 She wants to be his friend. Your girlfriend and her ex boyfriend have broken up, and they’ve moved on too. And now, all of a sudden, she confesses to you that she wants to be friends with her ex because she’s finally over him and doesn’t think of him in that way anymore.Which is all bullshit
#10 She likes you, but loves him Your girlfriend tells you she loves you, but she also mentions that she thinks of her ex now and then. If your girlfriend ever says this to you, that’s probably because you’re being a doormat and letting her walk all over you. You’re probably a really nice guy, but the fact that she can tell you something like this just shows how easy she’s taking this relationship with you.
#11 She’s moody.
Is it time to break up with your girlfriend?
There’s a threshold up to which you can bear her antics and her sickeningly fond reminders of her ex. And this threshold is different for each guy. If your girlfriend pines about her ex often, or gives you any reason to doubt her, move oN
THAT IS WHAT I WOULD DO
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