Saturday, August 11, 2012
STORY:SATURDAY WOULD PASS INTO SUNDAY
The perfect day….hummmm….it would have to be either spring or fall when the nights are cool and the days warm….I think it would begin when I was aroused from a sound sleep and glancing down I find My morning erection is being tended to by a set of tender hands and a warm mouth….I would allow her to feed until she was rewarded with My creamy gift….after that it would be a shower and I would be off to the golf course relaxed and ready….on the drive back home it would begin to rain…one of those warm rains with the thunder way off in the distance…I would find My pet waiting on the deck by the pool in nothing but a light sheer robe and with a drink in her hand…now, there in the rain it would be My turn to dine…and it would be her flesh I feasted upon as we were bathed in the rain…she would scream with delight as My mouth took her and when she begged for release I would allow it again and again…a quick nap and she and I would be off…dining, maybe dancing at a club where I would show her off to all there…it would be clear to all who she belonged to and her attention and devotion would be displayed in her submission….on the drive back home the play would begin there in the car….it would build the desire and the yearning so that when Wwe arrived back home there would be no doubt what was going to happen…the play would be long and intense…there would be silk ropes, candles, blades, a crop, and flogger…then when both were exhausted she would be released from her bindings and sleep would overtake us…Saturday would pass into Sunday and in the morning there would be the start of another perfect day.
POETRY: I KNOW SURRENDER ALL RESISTANCE...ENVELOPS MY LOVE
It is a presence which no one sees
A silent breeze that flows through you
Where it comes from, you do not know
Where it is going, you will never know
Who will it flow through?
When will it stop?
Wait, when did it start?
You do not know their answers
And no one around you does, either
When you feel something flow through you
Do not ask these questions
Just stop and savor the moment
Of a silent breeze flowing through you
It may go away...
But will always manage to blow back your way
PART 2
As I survey the sunbeams that dance across the sea,
I close my eyes and see you walking next to me.
As I watch the white sweeping tide,
the churning emotion in my soul, I can no longer hide.
Because if you were with me on that moistened beach,
it is for your tender hand I would softly reach.
And as we would walk amidst the ocean's roar,
my heart would confess it is you I adore.
But unlike the water's edge which does ebb and flow,
my dream and hope would be for our love to always grow.
PART 3
The wild flame of your lovely eyes
has not still extinguished, my love, has not still extinguished!
In nights without stars, they glisten as two Venus'
in the immensity of the night, lighting my destiny
Although with the implacable passing of time,
the brightness of the fire of your lovely eyes,
it was tinged of sadness and the wild thing became fondness,
they still smile with sweetness, every time they meet with mine
My love, the wild fire of your pretty eyes,
they still warm my heartbroken being in the cold mornings
when the morning nostalgia rides hopelessly
looking for restless souls as mine.
My love, the wild fire of your beautiful eyes
a long time ago they found for chance
the hidden fire of my sad sad eyes
and they melted in love fire for an eternity.
The wild fire of your lovely eyes
has not still extinguished, my love, has not still extinguished!
PART 4
Your bright smile
A million pixels wide
Caught up
In your synaptic trap
I acquiesce
Mindful machinations, yes
Worn thin by your duplicity
Your fiery fingers
Trace hidden skid marks
On my naked soul
Incinerating my world.
With an impish grin
Your hidden agenda
Two fold, perhaps
Head long in pursuit
My defenses ebbed
To an all time low
I now surrender all resistence
Sadness, paramount
Envelops my soul
PART 5
Lying next to beauty with the moonlight on her skin
I was lost inside a lover as the walls were caving in
The moment that we started was the night I felt your kiss
We held on tight together, falling drunken through the mist
You swore our love was ancient, like the scrolls enduring time
Then ripped out all the pages where we suffer for these crimes
Your treasures laid before me, though we struggled for relief
I cherished every moment, of those nights I was your thief
It was nearly late September by the time my tongue confessed
I'd been haunted by a spirit that you never could possess
For what became thereafter, left my heart a raided tomb
And the emptiest of chambers in these walls still long for you
PART 6
I feel the cold winter wind upon my skin but still,
something warms me to my very soul.
I feel I am floating on a cloud amongst all the stars;
this cloud is made of silk, and stretches to blanket eternity.
Something magical must be holding me in this splendor.
I feel mesmerized by eyes that reach deep into my soul.
I cannot look away, for as I hold this vision
my soul flies to a place only felt by angels.
I feel I am drowning in an ocean with waves
crashing all around me. I do not panic
for the ocean becomes a place of peace,
a place of serenity. I know I must be dreaming,
all of these sensations I feel are impossible.
But then again, I have never known a love
as soft and warm as I feel when I am with you.
PART 7
When we make love, the world stops turning.
When we make love, I can feel your desire burning.
Our two bodies become one.
When we make love, we forget about the moon and we forget about the sun.
Our two bodies entangle like two vines.
Love is all we have on our minds.
Your heart beats fast as the pace goes from slow to fast.
We forget about our future and we forget about our past.
I can see the love in your eyes and I can feel the love in your heart.
Nothing can come between us. No one can keep us apart.
Our desire for each other is like a fire out of control.
I want your entire bsdy; I want your heart and your soul.
When we make love, the stars shine bright.
When we make love, we forget if its day or night.
I do not want this love to ever end.
You're my lover, my soul mate and my friend.
No other love could ever take your place.
When we make love I can feel the love and see the love in your face.
This love is real. This love is true.
And every night we make love, I thank God for you
A silent breeze that flows through you
Where it comes from, you do not know
Where it is going, you will never know
Who will it flow through?
When will it stop?
Wait, when did it start?
You do not know their answers
And no one around you does, either
When you feel something flow through you
Do not ask these questions
Just stop and savor the moment
Of a silent breeze flowing through you
It may go away...
But will always manage to blow back your way
PART 2
As I survey the sunbeams that dance across the sea,
I close my eyes and see you walking next to me.
As I watch the white sweeping tide,
the churning emotion in my soul, I can no longer hide.
Because if you were with me on that moistened beach,
it is for your tender hand I would softly reach.
And as we would walk amidst the ocean's roar,
my heart would confess it is you I adore.
But unlike the water's edge which does ebb and flow,
my dream and hope would be for our love to always grow.
PART 3
The wild flame of your lovely eyes
has not still extinguished, my love, has not still extinguished!
In nights without stars, they glisten as two Venus'
in the immensity of the night, lighting my destiny
Although with the implacable passing of time,
the brightness of the fire of your lovely eyes,
it was tinged of sadness and the wild thing became fondness,
they still smile with sweetness, every time they meet with mine
My love, the wild fire of your pretty eyes,
they still warm my heartbroken being in the cold mornings
when the morning nostalgia rides hopelessly
looking for restless souls as mine.
My love, the wild fire of your beautiful eyes
a long time ago they found for chance
the hidden fire of my sad sad eyes
and they melted in love fire for an eternity.
The wild fire of your lovely eyes
has not still extinguished, my love, has not still extinguished!
PART 4
Your bright smile
A million pixels wide
Caught up
In your synaptic trap
I acquiesce
Mindful machinations, yes
Worn thin by your duplicity
Your fiery fingers
Trace hidden skid marks
On my naked soul
Incinerating my world.
With an impish grin
Your hidden agenda
Two fold, perhaps
Head long in pursuit
My defenses ebbed
To an all time low
I now surrender all resistence
Sadness, paramount
Envelops my soul
PART 5
Lying next to beauty with the moonlight on her skin
I was lost inside a lover as the walls were caving in
The moment that we started was the night I felt your kiss
We held on tight together, falling drunken through the mist
You swore our love was ancient, like the scrolls enduring time
Then ripped out all the pages where we suffer for these crimes
Your treasures laid before me, though we struggled for relief
I cherished every moment, of those nights I was your thief
It was nearly late September by the time my tongue confessed
I'd been haunted by a spirit that you never could possess
For what became thereafter, left my heart a raided tomb
And the emptiest of chambers in these walls still long for you
PART 6
I feel the cold winter wind upon my skin but still,
something warms me to my very soul.
I feel I am floating on a cloud amongst all the stars;
this cloud is made of silk, and stretches to blanket eternity.
Something magical must be holding me in this splendor.
I feel mesmerized by eyes that reach deep into my soul.
I cannot look away, for as I hold this vision
my soul flies to a place only felt by angels.
I feel I am drowning in an ocean with waves
crashing all around me. I do not panic
for the ocean becomes a place of peace,
a place of serenity. I know I must be dreaming,
all of these sensations I feel are impossible.
But then again, I have never known a love
as soft and warm as I feel when I am with you.
PART 7
When we make love, the world stops turning.
When we make love, I can feel your desire burning.
Our two bodies become one.
When we make love, we forget about the moon and we forget about the sun.
Our two bodies entangle like two vines.
Love is all we have on our minds.
Your heart beats fast as the pace goes from slow to fast.
We forget about our future and we forget about our past.
I can see the love in your eyes and I can feel the love in your heart.
Nothing can come between us. No one can keep us apart.
Our desire for each other is like a fire out of control.
I want your entire bsdy; I want your heart and your soul.
When we make love, the stars shine bright.
When we make love, we forget if its day or night.
I do not want this love to ever end.
You're my lover, my soul mate and my friend.
No other love could ever take your place.
When we make love I can feel the love and see the love in your face.
This love is real. This love is true.
And every night we make love, I thank God for you
JOURNAL: SOMETIMES I FEEL MY LIFE IS POINTLESS
“Your outlook on life is a direct reflection on how much you like yourself.” ~ Lululemon
“My existence on this Earth is pointless.”
That thought crossed my mind every night before I fell asleep.
It had been several months since I graduated from high school and I had no idea what I was going to do with my life. My future plans were falling to pieces, and everyone around me kept telling me that I needed to start accomplishing things that I had not yet accomplished.
I was not where I thought I should be in life. Everyone had expectations that I hadn’t met. I became too focused on becoming a version of myself that everyone else wanted, and I constantly compared myself to other people who had already taken the dive into the next chapter of their life.
I was relentlessly questioned and judged for my slower progression in life, which convinced me that no one supported me or believed in me. I wondered why I even bothered to exist if I was getting nowhere and disappointing everyone. I began to blame everyone but myself for the state of misery I had fallen into.
My self-esteem began to suffer as the months went by. I felt inferior to everyone and it made me hate myself. I still did not know what I wanted to do with my life—and I was starting to not even care.
But several months and hundreds of needless self insults later, I decided to block out the negativity, both from myself and other people. I silenced the voice in my head that told me I wasn’t good enough and asked myself what would really make me happy.
I’ve always been very creative and expressive. I used to sing, act, and dance when I was younger. But my favorite thing has always been writing.
Some of the happiest moments in my life came from opportunities to express myself or put my heart and soul out for everyone to see. Every path I tried to take always led me back to writing.
I got to a point where I realized that I was only trying to pursue other paths because I thought that’s what other people would accept. I was afraid that if I let my imagination soar to all the different possibilities, people would tear me down or tell me to be “realistic.”
The bottom line is that I became paralyzed with this fear of not being accepted. I was afraid to be different or go my own way and pursue what truly made me happy. I put myself in a box.
One day, I decided that enough was enough. I spent an entire year of my life trying to be “realistic” and conform to the expectations of other people. I realized that you can’t please everyone anyway, so trying will definitely not lead to contentment.
Real happiness comes from being content with and proud of yourself.
I finally decided that I was going to devote my time to learning about writing and working on my writing skills. I am happy with that decision and I feel better about myself because I made it for me.
I have learned a few things about choosing the right path for yourself, focusing on what will make you happy. If you’ve been struggling to make that choice, I recommend:
Drop your worries.
Worry puts a burden on your mind, body, and spirit. They can keep you up all night if you let them. Find comfort in the fact that everything happens for a reason and everything will fall into place at the right time.
During my period of low self-esteem and extreme uncertainty, I relentlessly questioned every aspect of my life. I would go to bed frustrated and upset as I told myself I wasn’t good enough, and that I wished I was like everyone else my age.
By constantly bashing yourself and worrying about every single thing that happens to you, you’re missing out on happiness that you could’ve had all along.
Do not try to please or impress anyone but yourself.
The need to impress, please, and compare ourselves to other people all the time is one of the most common causes of self-loathing. As long as you’re trying to please other people and live up to their expectations, you will not be pleasing yourself.
What I’ve learned is that happiness does not come from pleasing other people. Happiness comes from feeling content with your own life and goals.
Embrace your unique qualities and talents.
Everyone is different. Figure out what you’re good at and what sets you apart from everyone else. Your mission is to create a reason for being here.
Believe in your path.
When you start to figure out what you want in life, there will be obstacles. Do not let anyone or anything discourage you from continuing on. Believe in yourself and believe in your decisions.
Stay positive and keep moving forward.
Take your time.
Life does not come with a rulebook or deadlines for accomplishing certain things. I used to always think that I needed to be at the same level as everyone else my age. Life is not a race or a contest.
Have faith in the fact that you are exactly where you need to be at this very moment in time and as long as you’re content, don’t let anyone convince you that you’re not where you need to be. You be the judge of what you want to change in your life and then do it for you.
Surround yourself with positivity.
Try to limit the amount of time you spend with people who nay-say, judge, or ridicule. Choose to completely surround yourself with positive, inspiring influences. You will feel much happier and better about yourself if you do.
Make a list of sayings or quotes that make you feel encouraged or inspired and keep it where you can see it each day. Try putting the list under your pillow or on your refrigerator door.
The most important thing to remember is that you are worth it, you can go another day, and you can be happy. Life will not throw you anything you cannot handle or overcome.
Once you start to accept and love yourself and your desired path, the smoke will clear and you will breathe easy again. Be kind to yourself and life will be a whole lot brighter.
“My existence on this Earth is pointless.”
That thought crossed my mind every night before I fell asleep.
It had been several months since I graduated from high school and I had no idea what I was going to do with my life. My future plans were falling to pieces, and everyone around me kept telling me that I needed to start accomplishing things that I had not yet accomplished.
I was not where I thought I should be in life. Everyone had expectations that I hadn’t met. I became too focused on becoming a version of myself that everyone else wanted, and I constantly compared myself to other people who had already taken the dive into the next chapter of their life.
I was relentlessly questioned and judged for my slower progression in life, which convinced me that no one supported me or believed in me. I wondered why I even bothered to exist if I was getting nowhere and disappointing everyone. I began to blame everyone but myself for the state of misery I had fallen into.
My self-esteem began to suffer as the months went by. I felt inferior to everyone and it made me hate myself. I still did not know what I wanted to do with my life—and I was starting to not even care.
But several months and hundreds of needless self insults later, I decided to block out the negativity, both from myself and other people. I silenced the voice in my head that told me I wasn’t good enough and asked myself what would really make me happy.
I’ve always been very creative and expressive. I used to sing, act, and dance when I was younger. But my favorite thing has always been writing.
Some of the happiest moments in my life came from opportunities to express myself or put my heart and soul out for everyone to see. Every path I tried to take always led me back to writing.
I got to a point where I realized that I was only trying to pursue other paths because I thought that’s what other people would accept. I was afraid that if I let my imagination soar to all the different possibilities, people would tear me down or tell me to be “realistic.”
The bottom line is that I became paralyzed with this fear of not being accepted. I was afraid to be different or go my own way and pursue what truly made me happy. I put myself in a box.
One day, I decided that enough was enough. I spent an entire year of my life trying to be “realistic” and conform to the expectations of other people. I realized that you can’t please everyone anyway, so trying will definitely not lead to contentment.
Real happiness comes from being content with and proud of yourself.
I finally decided that I was going to devote my time to learning about writing and working on my writing skills. I am happy with that decision and I feel better about myself because I made it for me.
I have learned a few things about choosing the right path for yourself, focusing on what will make you happy. If you’ve been struggling to make that choice, I recommend:
Drop your worries.
Worry puts a burden on your mind, body, and spirit. They can keep you up all night if you let them. Find comfort in the fact that everything happens for a reason and everything will fall into place at the right time.
During my period of low self-esteem and extreme uncertainty, I relentlessly questioned every aspect of my life. I would go to bed frustrated and upset as I told myself I wasn’t good enough, and that I wished I was like everyone else my age.
By constantly bashing yourself and worrying about every single thing that happens to you, you’re missing out on happiness that you could’ve had all along.
Do not try to please or impress anyone but yourself.
The need to impress, please, and compare ourselves to other people all the time is one of the most common causes of self-loathing. As long as you’re trying to please other people and live up to their expectations, you will not be pleasing yourself.
What I’ve learned is that happiness does not come from pleasing other people. Happiness comes from feeling content with your own life and goals.
Embrace your unique qualities and talents.
Everyone is different. Figure out what you’re good at and what sets you apart from everyone else. Your mission is to create a reason for being here.
Believe in your path.
When you start to figure out what you want in life, there will be obstacles. Do not let anyone or anything discourage you from continuing on. Believe in yourself and believe in your decisions.
Stay positive and keep moving forward.
Take your time.
Life does not come with a rulebook or deadlines for accomplishing certain things. I used to always think that I needed to be at the same level as everyone else my age. Life is not a race or a contest.
Have faith in the fact that you are exactly where you need to be at this very moment in time and as long as you’re content, don’t let anyone convince you that you’re not where you need to be. You be the judge of what you want to change in your life and then do it for you.
Surround yourself with positivity.
Try to limit the amount of time you spend with people who nay-say, judge, or ridicule. Choose to completely surround yourself with positive, inspiring influences. You will feel much happier and better about yourself if you do.
Make a list of sayings or quotes that make you feel encouraged or inspired and keep it where you can see it each day. Try putting the list under your pillow or on your refrigerator door.
The most important thing to remember is that you are worth it, you can go another day, and you can be happy. Life will not throw you anything you cannot handle or overcome.
Once you start to accept and love yourself and your desired path, the smoke will clear and you will breathe easy again. Be kind to yourself and life will be a whole lot brighter.
Friday, August 10, 2012
THOUGHTS: DON'T FEEL ALONE
Right now, there are people all over the world who are just like you. They’re lonely. They’re missing somebody. They’re in love with someone they probably shouldn’t be in love with. They have secrets you wouldn’t believe. They wish and they dream and they hope, and they look out the window whenever they’re in the car or on a bus or a train and they watch the people on the streets and wonder what they’ve been through. They wonder if there are people out there like them. They’re like you, and you could tell them everything and they would understand.
And right now, they’re sitting here reading these words, and I’m writing this for you so you don’t feel alone anymore.
And right now, they’re sitting here reading these words, and I’m writing this for you so you don’t feel alone anymore.
POETRY: YOU TOUCHED ME LAST NIGHT
Oh, kiss
You are lingering
Like the perfume of blossoms
On a summer evening
Lips so soft
And so sweet
Journey's end
When lovers meet
Pretty gleaming
Of eyes and smile
Senses reeling
All the while
Love is told
With a kiss
But none so great
Such as this
PART II
Does the wind need to blow
for its existence to show?
so is my love for you...
Silent, but all aglow.
Do we need to see the stars every night
to prove that they are still there?
So is my love for you...
Invisible, yet all bare.
Do we need to check whether the trees are green
or the sky still blue?
So is my love for you...
Colourful, just out of view.
Do we need to breathe
to confirm if we aren't in the grave?
So is my love for you...
Free to go, yet your slave.
Do we need to count the days
to know the existence of time?
So is my love for you...
Timeless, yet my misfortune,
for you... worth less than a dime
PART III
you touched me last night
and i felt it deep within,
as my heart skipped a beat,
my thoughts wandered thin.
till there was only you
; as far as i could see,
your blue eyes looking into mine,
it's where i wanted to be.
you touched me last night
not with your hand or your soft lips,
you touched me with your heart,
far better than any kiss
PART III
Sometimes at night you close your eyes and?
You dream of places far away.
You dream of goals unachieved.
Sometimes at night you close your eyes and...
You imagine things yet to be discovered.
You imagine flying through outer space.
Sometimes at night you close your eyes and...
You see yourself as a child again.
You see the time you?ve let pass you by.
Sometimes at night you close your eyes and...
You wish you could be on top of the world.
You wish you could sleep.
Sometimes at night I close my eyes and...
I dream of being wrapped up in your arms.
I imagine feeling your lips against mine.
I see you looking at me from across the room.
I wish you were lying here with me.
Sometimes at night I close my eyes and see only you.
PART VI
When we're alone, my love, just you and I -
As when we first played court in darkened lanes,
We talked together of each other's lives
And deeply gazed into those love filled eyes.
For now we've been together silver years,
The lines have deepened with the tolls of time,
Yet, I know that you'll be ever mine
Through times of happiness and times of tears.
Our fledglings now have flown our nest;
The time is ours to fill just as we feel ?
As once gain we find our lives alone,
Renew the deepest feelings not yet lost.
Make love to me with skillful, practiced zeal,
Then say to me, "My love is yours to own."
You are lingering
Like the perfume of blossoms
On a summer evening
Lips so soft
And so sweet
Journey's end
When lovers meet
Pretty gleaming
Of eyes and smile
Senses reeling
All the while
Love is told
With a kiss
But none so great
Such as this
PART II
Does the wind need to blow
for its existence to show?
so is my love for you...
Silent, but all aglow.
Do we need to see the stars every night
to prove that they are still there?
So is my love for you...
Invisible, yet all bare.
Do we need to check whether the trees are green
or the sky still blue?
So is my love for you...
Colourful, just out of view.
Do we need to breathe
to confirm if we aren't in the grave?
So is my love for you...
Free to go, yet your slave.
Do we need to count the days
to know the existence of time?
So is my love for you...
Timeless, yet my misfortune,
for you... worth less than a dime
PART III
you touched me last night
and i felt it deep within,
as my heart skipped a beat,
my thoughts wandered thin.
till there was only you
; as far as i could see,
your blue eyes looking into mine,
it's where i wanted to be.
you touched me last night
not with your hand or your soft lips,
you touched me with your heart,
far better than any kiss
PART III
Sometimes at night you close your eyes and?
You dream of places far away.
You dream of goals unachieved.
Sometimes at night you close your eyes and...
You imagine things yet to be discovered.
You imagine flying through outer space.
Sometimes at night you close your eyes and...
You see yourself as a child again.
You see the time you?ve let pass you by.
Sometimes at night you close your eyes and...
You wish you could be on top of the world.
You wish you could sleep.
Sometimes at night I close my eyes and...
I dream of being wrapped up in your arms.
I imagine feeling your lips against mine.
I see you looking at me from across the room.
I wish you were lying here with me.
Sometimes at night I close my eyes and see only you.
PART VI
When we're alone, my love, just you and I -
As when we first played court in darkened lanes,
We talked together of each other's lives
And deeply gazed into those love filled eyes.
For now we've been together silver years,
The lines have deepened with the tolls of time,
Yet, I know that you'll be ever mine
Through times of happiness and times of tears.
Our fledglings now have flown our nest;
The time is ours to fill just as we feel ?
As once gain we find our lives alone,
Renew the deepest feelings not yet lost.
Make love to me with skillful, practiced zeal,
Then say to me, "My love is yours to own."
POETRY: I WOULD NEVER LOVE ANYONE BUT YOU
An island
in an ocean deep blue
White surf cascading
over crisp coral outcrops
Along an endless beach
of hot golden sands
With you in the heat
of a tropical day
Sultry eyes
of sapphire brilliance
Skin soft and pure,
provoking me
There we danced
the day away
Cooling our blistering feet
in the cool blue waters
Splashing in the sea,
in gleeful play
Dancing the time away
until the dusk,
dark night
In the cool breeze
of a simple fan
and dim lantern light,
delight
To the strains
of distant music
Lying
in the mellowing day
gone
In softness and passion
Caressing
the late hours away
In love
with the night's dark
Until dawn awakens
slowly
another day
in love's play
PART II
Is it because of your sensitive smile
or maybe your dancing eyes,
the way you express yourself,
perhaps your smooth skin?
It could be the air around you,
the honesty I feel,
the worries you share,
the questions you ask.
It could be all of these,
or none at all.
The emotions I feel, come from within.
Is it because we share the same sign,
or ever since I looked at you
I desired you to be mine?
Have you ever heard of a lost soul,
a feeling so uncontrolled?
Why is it when I think of you
I find myself on another planet,
suspended in air, lost at sea?
All of these feelings are combined inside me.
This is for you always
remember me
you are a symbol.
PART III
My lover held me in
her arms. Her arms
surrounded my body
with her love.
She asked me if I was
in love with her? "I
told her I would never
love anyone but you".
My love said, "I wouldn't
love anyone but you,
'cause you are the love,
lover of my life. You
are my heart and soul.
You are the Queen of
my heart, the love of
my soul, and you are
the faith of my spirit.
You are my first love,
you are the love of my
heart you will always and
forevermore, be my first
true love.
LOVER'S FOR ETERNITY
&
FOREVERMORE
PART IV
My love you is my heart and soul.
You are my air I breathe.
My heart skips a beat when I see you.
You are the earth I walk on underneath my feet.
You are my everything.
You are my beautiful queen of mine.
My love for you is stronger than my faith in myself.
No one or no thing can take you away from me.
My love you lives inside my heart and soul.
I can't stop thinking about you.
Till the moment I wake up.
Till the second I fall asleep.
You are my everything.
I can't and will not live without you, my love.
You will always be with me.
I will never forget you.
Even in death I will be with you.
For all the rest of time.
I can get lost in your beauty.
From you georgeous body, to your sparkling eyes.
From your long silky hair, to your smooth as silk skin.
You are my perfect breathtaking angel.
An angel sent from heaven to be with this more than lucky boy.
Everything about you is perfect.
Your compassion and gentle spirit is to die for.
My love you are my everything
And always will be for all the rest of time.
It kills me inside to be away from you, my love.
I can't live without being with you.
You are my irresistable angelic queen.
So live on beautiful queen of mine.
May you live in tranquility and harmony.
May you go through no more hardships
In your life than you have already gone though
in an ocean deep blue
White surf cascading
over crisp coral outcrops
Along an endless beach
of hot golden sands
With you in the heat
of a tropical day
Sultry eyes
of sapphire brilliance
Skin soft and pure,
provoking me
There we danced
the day away
Cooling our blistering feet
in the cool blue waters
Splashing in the sea,
in gleeful play
Dancing the time away
until the dusk,
dark night
In the cool breeze
of a simple fan
and dim lantern light,
delight
To the strains
of distant music
Lying
in the mellowing day
gone
In softness and passion
Caressing
the late hours away
In love
with the night's dark
Until dawn awakens
slowly
another day
in love's play
PART II
Is it because of your sensitive smile
or maybe your dancing eyes,
the way you express yourself,
perhaps your smooth skin?
It could be the air around you,
the honesty I feel,
the worries you share,
the questions you ask.
It could be all of these,
or none at all.
The emotions I feel, come from within.
Is it because we share the same sign,
or ever since I looked at you
I desired you to be mine?
Have you ever heard of a lost soul,
a feeling so uncontrolled?
Why is it when I think of you
I find myself on another planet,
suspended in air, lost at sea?
All of these feelings are combined inside me.
This is for you always
remember me
you are a symbol.
PART III
My lover held me in
her arms. Her arms
surrounded my body
with her love.
She asked me if I was
in love with her? "I
told her I would never
love anyone but you".
My love said, "I wouldn't
love anyone but you,
'cause you are the love,
lover of my life. You
are my heart and soul.
You are the Queen of
my heart, the love of
my soul, and you are
the faith of my spirit.
You are my first love,
you are the love of my
heart you will always and
forevermore, be my first
true love.
LOVER'S FOR ETERNITY
&
FOREVERMORE
PART IV
My love you is my heart and soul.
You are my air I breathe.
My heart skips a beat when I see you.
You are the earth I walk on underneath my feet.
You are my everything.
You are my beautiful queen of mine.
My love for you is stronger than my faith in myself.
No one or no thing can take you away from me.
My love you lives inside my heart and soul.
I can't stop thinking about you.
Till the moment I wake up.
Till the second I fall asleep.
You are my everything.
I can't and will not live without you, my love.
You will always be with me.
I will never forget you.
Even in death I will be with you.
For all the rest of time.
I can get lost in your beauty.
From you georgeous body, to your sparkling eyes.
From your long silky hair, to your smooth as silk skin.
You are my perfect breathtaking angel.
An angel sent from heaven to be with this more than lucky boy.
Everything about you is perfect.
Your compassion and gentle spirit is to die for.
My love you are my everything
And always will be for all the rest of time.
It kills me inside to be away from you, my love.
I can't live without being with you.
You are my irresistable angelic queen.
So live on beautiful queen of mine.
May you live in tranquility and harmony.
May you go through no more hardships
In your life than you have already gone though
POETRY : WITH ALL MY SOUL
I visit you in the night
in your dreams, in your heart
and whisper to you of a love
that we both know is right.
Carrying you up through the clouds
and settling among the stars,
you and I know where we are.
Here is heaven as our playground;
the angels stand guard over us
as we love our lives away.
Sun never sets, skies always blue!
I then bring you back down,
put you to rest in your bed
as you go off into another dream.
I quietly leave like smoke
through the open window
just to enter again
and start the dream over...
PART II
There are so many things I want to say
Things like, I love you more and more
But the only thing that comes out is
Tu eres mi amor
You have beautiful hazel eyes
Unto your soul they're a door
So I can speak to your heart and say
Tu eres mi amor
You are so sweet
Even unto the core
Like a honeycomb
Tu eres mi amor
PART III
Sometimes life doesn?t go quite as we would have wished,
And many of our goals are less than accomplished.
But we must keep out heads held high and just believe.
Just when I thought no one cared, you were there for me.
Yet, we have never met, I have yet to see your face.
I?m sure your eyes do sparkle and your features full of grace.
I often dream of the day I come in contact with you,
It will be like a feeling that never before I knew.
The first time I see your face, there is no mistake.
I feel so alive I tingle all over, my senses come awake.
I become so overwhelmed I can feel the tears building up.
I hug you tightly and sense your joy just as much.
This embrace lasts but a few seconds, but forever in my mind.
We talk a while, I come to know you're one of a kind.
The longer I spend with you, the clearer it becomes,
You?re the one I've always wanted, you are the one.
Then comes the dreaded time when we must part.
You come empty-handed, but you leave with my heart.
We both grew silent, at the time we should say goodbye.
Our bodies come closer together, your lips touch mine.
I feel as though I've come to another world.
My life has taken meaning from this pretty young girl.
My voice then shudders as I stutter out goodnight.
I just stand there watching until you're out of sight.
I sit down and just wonder if all this could be real.
Is this girl an angel? Does she feel the way I feel??
If she does, then this thing we have will always be.
In this one day I have fallen in love, as anyone can see
PART IV
i want you to know i'm forever yours
forever in your heart
until the end we shall be
i swear you this, eternally
i want you to know you are forever mine
forever in my heart
no love can be stronger
and no love can last longer
PART V
As the sun peacefully sleeps
And the moon up high shines,
I write this poem
And make these rhymes...
Trying to find the way
To tell you a few things
Like the happiness and joy
That your life brings...
The feeling I found
When I found you
The words you say
The things you do...
Sometimes I wish I was a bird
To fly all the way there
and softly whisper in your ear
How much I really care...
The moon is no longer shining
And the sun is awaking
With you inside my heart
I lie here thinking,
If you'd still be here with me
As I reach out to hold you
If you'd still call out my name
When there's nothing left to do...
To the heavens above
I ask sincerely
With all my soul
I pray honestly
That you'll always stay here
That you never have to go
That you truly believe me
When I say I love you so...
in your dreams, in your heart
and whisper to you of a love
that we both know is right.
Carrying you up through the clouds
and settling among the stars,
you and I know where we are.
Here is heaven as our playground;
the angels stand guard over us
as we love our lives away.
Sun never sets, skies always blue!
I then bring you back down,
put you to rest in your bed
as you go off into another dream.
I quietly leave like smoke
through the open window
just to enter again
and start the dream over...
PART II
There are so many things I want to say
Things like, I love you more and more
But the only thing that comes out is
Tu eres mi amor
You have beautiful hazel eyes
Unto your soul they're a door
So I can speak to your heart and say
Tu eres mi amor
You are so sweet
Even unto the core
Like a honeycomb
Tu eres mi amor
PART III
Sometimes life doesn?t go quite as we would have wished,
And many of our goals are less than accomplished.
But we must keep out heads held high and just believe.
Just when I thought no one cared, you were there for me.
Yet, we have never met, I have yet to see your face.
I?m sure your eyes do sparkle and your features full of grace.
I often dream of the day I come in contact with you,
It will be like a feeling that never before I knew.
The first time I see your face, there is no mistake.
I feel so alive I tingle all over, my senses come awake.
I become so overwhelmed I can feel the tears building up.
I hug you tightly and sense your joy just as much.
This embrace lasts but a few seconds, but forever in my mind.
We talk a while, I come to know you're one of a kind.
The longer I spend with you, the clearer it becomes,
You?re the one I've always wanted, you are the one.
Then comes the dreaded time when we must part.
You come empty-handed, but you leave with my heart.
We both grew silent, at the time we should say goodbye.
Our bodies come closer together, your lips touch mine.
I feel as though I've come to another world.
My life has taken meaning from this pretty young girl.
My voice then shudders as I stutter out goodnight.
I just stand there watching until you're out of sight.
I sit down and just wonder if all this could be real.
Is this girl an angel? Does she feel the way I feel??
If she does, then this thing we have will always be.
In this one day I have fallen in love, as anyone can see
PART IV
i want you to know i'm forever yours
forever in your heart
until the end we shall be
i swear you this, eternally
i want you to know you are forever mine
forever in my heart
no love can be stronger
and no love can last longer
PART V
As the sun peacefully sleeps
And the moon up high shines,
I write this poem
And make these rhymes...
Trying to find the way
To tell you a few things
Like the happiness and joy
That your life brings...
The feeling I found
When I found you
The words you say
The things you do...
Sometimes I wish I was a bird
To fly all the way there
and softly whisper in your ear
How much I really care...
The moon is no longer shining
And the sun is awaking
With you inside my heart
I lie here thinking,
If you'd still be here with me
As I reach out to hold you
If you'd still call out my name
When there's nothing left to do...
To the heavens above
I ask sincerely
With all my soul
I pray honestly
That you'll always stay here
That you never have to go
That you truly believe me
When I say I love you so...
WHOEVER YOU ARE READING THIS
Whoever you are reading this, i do. i love you. “Always remember this: somewhere, someone is happy…simply because you exist.” You. Yes, you. I am writing this for you. I know you are reading this. And I want you to know I am writing this for you. No one else will understand. No one else knows. They think that this is for them. But it’s not. I am writing this for you. I want you to know, life…it’s hard. Every day can be a challenge. It can be a challenge to get up in the morning. To get yourself out of bed. To put on that smile. But I want you to know, that smile is what keeps me going some days. You need to remember, even through the tough times, you are amazing. You really are. You should be happy. You are gorgeous. I know that the weather might not be perfect. You might have to turn your back to the wind or feel the cold nipping at your nose. But you know what, at least you are there to feel it. At least you can enjoy the sun’s warm rays on your face. Or that cold February wind biting at your cheeks. You know what that means? You are alive. Everything
POETRY: I LOVE
Every time you smile, you blow my sadness away!
Every time your hands caress me, my body trembles!
Every time you whisper my name, I fly away!
Every time you breath, you set free the passion inside of me!
You're like the wind that drags and leaves
You're the melody that sings inside of me every moment of my life!
You're the oxygen that I breath during my wildest dreams!
You're everything that I hoped to meet!
But when you're sad...
I want to be there to blow your sadness away!
When you cry...
I want to be the tears that grow in your eyes!
When you have a nightmare....
I want to be there to hug you during the night!
When you feel frightened...
I want to be at your side to fight against your fears!
And all this because I love you!
I am not whole
but only half of one,
the other lies in her bed
waiting for me
I am not whole
but only a shadow,
her kisses bring me
fully to life
I am not whole
but only a song,
her heart contains the ears
to hear me truly
I am not whole
but only a bright dream,
in her sleep I always
come back to her
I am not whole
but wholly in love,
my other half is so in love
with me
Neither the mountains nor the valley knows...
nor...
the serene, silent lake that flows...
nor...
the cloudless, clear blue sky,
can make me behold the scene
more than the 'one' that catches my eye..
Even the sunlight appears so dim...
for all that shines out is but just, 'her"
beauty of nature can never be held
in eyes or heart if her love is not felt
I love her more than she would ever know
one look in my eyes... enough to show
the beauty of her soul lies within
it's just her... her... and only her
...Sweet memories sometimes conflict
In our minds when experiences resemble one another
But so vivid is the night when two hearts clicked
And were ordained by the astral angels that assembled.
The night was mundane
Except that the silver moon was absent
But the countless stars winessed the mandate
Along with the women who roast corn by the roadside.
Just on a routinely mooching
Even thinking that we knew love
Palms fused before the envious munchers
God! The spell fell over us and our heads were lost.
Our bodies felt so weak
And we lost knowledge of our own fingers
The magic union vision now falls upon at work
And since my love for thee, remains wonderous.
Just how long can this path be?
Life without you, this journey alone, slowly dissolving me.
My distressed face looks to the left,
and then sadly stares to my right,
but still your presence, your soft touch,
lost in mine eyes sight.
My tears fall, as my only companion,
as you were my love's first start.
Separation releasing love's purest desire of my heart.
And where each teardrop softly falls onto the ground,
a beautiful flower can now be found.
Each tear in love throughout these lonely, lonely days,
is falling from my tender heart like sprinkling drops of rain.
One flower then turns into two and as the days continue on,
this path I travel is now becoming a garden of you.
And though I feel O so sad,
each flower represents such a sweet and special memory of you
I have and have had.
Truth is, now my heart and spirit are comforted the most,
when I lie down in memory's garden of you,
embracing each special memory ever so close,
because my dearest love I will always love you the most.
When Aphrodite and Venus look down from above,
They see a Grand creature ,the girl that I love.
Your eyes are like Diamonds, yet blue and so deep,
Your lips red like rubies, and wine that is sweet.
Your caress has a Magic, that makes my heart soar
You are a perfection; even Gods do adore.
Your soft kisses so gentle, most truly divine.
It leaves on my lips, a taste sweeter than wine.
When I look in your eyes, I see to your soul,
A beauty so rare, a delight to behold.
A heart which is pure, holding much love
You are a true angel, a gift from above.
God answered my prayers when you he did make,
I offer my heart for you to please take,
And pray that my life can be spent loving you,
I offer a love, both pure and most true.
Please say to me darling, our lives we can share,
Our love is forever, with each other to care.
Our hearts beat as one, and our souls shall unite
A love that is perfect, a feeling so right.
When death makes us part, In heaven I?ll wait
Till you do arrive at God?s pearly gate.
Then when you do join me, we just begin
To share our true love, a love without end.
When that special someone, comes into your life
Shaded memories of loneliness come to pass
Gone are the tears,
Grey skies and fears
of being all alone.
Love and sunshine are here at last.
Lust filled eyes,
That hypnotize!
Sweetest taste,
That your lips create!
Body warmth that's so divine,
I want us to be together till the end of time!
And when the day of commitment appears,
Then there shall be no more tears.
A gentle Kiss, the slightest touch,
A fleeting glance, a look of lust,
A surge of passion, a warm embrace,
A flickering candle, a lighted face,
A heartfelt laugh, a melting smile,
A quiet word, a heart gone wild,
The little gestures, the smallest things,
My love for you, all these bring,
Came into my life, was all you did,
A world much brighter, a life more lived,
A feeling content, a heart at peace,
Of chains break free, a love released,
A thankful line, a grateful word,
To let you know, love's been heard
Love is like wine, like sunshine
Just kiss me one time and you will find out
That whole world is love line.
When the love thunderstorm consumes our hearts
And your body becomes just a small piece of ice in my hands
Nothing else will exist except us
And our endless happiness.
Fascinated by your love, my heart is going to knock
In the rhythm of bursting fire
To join with yours it will burn with desire.
When our hearts become one on the moonlight
The pieces of ecstasy and extreme love will warm us forever
And nothing will be able to spoil
The moments we spent together.
You sometimes ask why
Why I know we will make it
Here is one reason
One night while you were sleeping
I awoke and lay watching
And in an instant before my eyes
Your beauty took my breath away...
I see your beauty every day
But something, this time
Seemed to touch my soul
A feeling like never before
It was as if I saw an angel
And everything was clear
How blessed my life was
To be able to share the start
Of a new day with you...
As I watched you sleep
I could feel it in my heart
This is what life was meant to be
Together we could handle anything
I knew then that if you could make
Me feel this way while you slept
Without even saying a word
Your voice would move me
To move mountains if you ask...
People say they've seen angels
I thought how blessed these people are
Then one night I saw an angel
And she woke up next to me....
Every time your hands caress me, my body trembles!
Every time you whisper my name, I fly away!
Every time you breath, you set free the passion inside of me!
You're like the wind that drags and leaves
You're the melody that sings inside of me every moment of my life!
You're the oxygen that I breath during my wildest dreams!
You're everything that I hoped to meet!
But when you're sad...
I want to be there to blow your sadness away!
When you cry...
I want to be the tears that grow in your eyes!
When you have a nightmare....
I want to be there to hug you during the night!
When you feel frightened...
I want to be at your side to fight against your fears!
And all this because I love you!
I am not whole
but only half of one,
the other lies in her bed
waiting for me
I am not whole
but only a shadow,
her kisses bring me
fully to life
I am not whole
but only a song,
her heart contains the ears
to hear me truly
I am not whole
but only a bright dream,
in her sleep I always
come back to her
I am not whole
but wholly in love,
my other half is so in love
with me
Neither the mountains nor the valley knows...
nor...
the serene, silent lake that flows...
nor...
the cloudless, clear blue sky,
can make me behold the scene
more than the 'one' that catches my eye..
Even the sunlight appears so dim...
for all that shines out is but just, 'her"
beauty of nature can never be held
in eyes or heart if her love is not felt
I love her more than she would ever know
one look in my eyes... enough to show
the beauty of her soul lies within
it's just her... her... and only her
...Sweet memories sometimes conflict
In our minds when experiences resemble one another
But so vivid is the night when two hearts clicked
And were ordained by the astral angels that assembled.
The night was mundane
Except that the silver moon was absent
But the countless stars winessed the mandate
Along with the women who roast corn by the roadside.
Just on a routinely mooching
Even thinking that we knew love
Palms fused before the envious munchers
God! The spell fell over us and our heads were lost.
Our bodies felt so weak
And we lost knowledge of our own fingers
The magic union vision now falls upon at work
And since my love for thee, remains wonderous.
Just how long can this path be?
Life without you, this journey alone, slowly dissolving me.
My distressed face looks to the left,
and then sadly stares to my right,
but still your presence, your soft touch,
lost in mine eyes sight.
My tears fall, as my only companion,
as you were my love's first start.
Separation releasing love's purest desire of my heart.
And where each teardrop softly falls onto the ground,
a beautiful flower can now be found.
Each tear in love throughout these lonely, lonely days,
is falling from my tender heart like sprinkling drops of rain.
One flower then turns into two and as the days continue on,
this path I travel is now becoming a garden of you.
And though I feel O so sad,
each flower represents such a sweet and special memory of you
I have and have had.
Truth is, now my heart and spirit are comforted the most,
when I lie down in memory's garden of you,
embracing each special memory ever so close,
because my dearest love I will always love you the most.
When Aphrodite and Venus look down from above,
They see a Grand creature ,the girl that I love.
Your eyes are like Diamonds, yet blue and so deep,
Your lips red like rubies, and wine that is sweet.
Your caress has a Magic, that makes my heart soar
You are a perfection; even Gods do adore.
Your soft kisses so gentle, most truly divine.
It leaves on my lips, a taste sweeter than wine.
When I look in your eyes, I see to your soul,
A beauty so rare, a delight to behold.
A heart which is pure, holding much love
You are a true angel, a gift from above.
God answered my prayers when you he did make,
I offer my heart for you to please take,
And pray that my life can be spent loving you,
I offer a love, both pure and most true.
Please say to me darling, our lives we can share,
Our love is forever, with each other to care.
Our hearts beat as one, and our souls shall unite
A love that is perfect, a feeling so right.
When death makes us part, In heaven I?ll wait
Till you do arrive at God?s pearly gate.
Then when you do join me, we just begin
To share our true love, a love without end.
When that special someone, comes into your life
Shaded memories of loneliness come to pass
Gone are the tears,
Grey skies and fears
of being all alone.
Love and sunshine are here at last.
Lust filled eyes,
That hypnotize!
Sweetest taste,
That your lips create!
Body warmth that's so divine,
I want us to be together till the end of time!
And when the day of commitment appears,
Then there shall be no more tears.
A gentle Kiss, the slightest touch,
A fleeting glance, a look of lust,
A surge of passion, a warm embrace,
A flickering candle, a lighted face,
A heartfelt laugh, a melting smile,
A quiet word, a heart gone wild,
The little gestures, the smallest things,
My love for you, all these bring,
Came into my life, was all you did,
A world much brighter, a life more lived,
A feeling content, a heart at peace,
Of chains break free, a love released,
A thankful line, a grateful word,
To let you know, love's been heard
Love is like wine, like sunshine
Just kiss me one time and you will find out
That whole world is love line.
When the love thunderstorm consumes our hearts
And your body becomes just a small piece of ice in my hands
Nothing else will exist except us
And our endless happiness.
Fascinated by your love, my heart is going to knock
In the rhythm of bursting fire
To join with yours it will burn with desire.
When our hearts become one on the moonlight
The pieces of ecstasy and extreme love will warm us forever
And nothing will be able to spoil
The moments we spent together.
You sometimes ask why
Why I know we will make it
Here is one reason
One night while you were sleeping
I awoke and lay watching
And in an instant before my eyes
Your beauty took my breath away...
I see your beauty every day
But something, this time
Seemed to touch my soul
A feeling like never before
It was as if I saw an angel
And everything was clear
How blessed my life was
To be able to share the start
Of a new day with you...
As I watched you sleep
I could feel it in my heart
This is what life was meant to be
Together we could handle anything
I knew then that if you could make
Me feel this way while you slept
Without even saying a word
Your voice would move me
To move mountains if you ask...
People say they've seen angels
I thought how blessed these people are
Then one night I saw an angel
And she woke up next to me....
SPIRITUAL/ LOVE: DESTINY'S CHOICE
I can’t control my destiny, I trust my soul, and my only goal is just to be. There’s only now, there’s only here. Give in to love or live in fear. No other path, no other way. No day but today.
People with rational attitude tend to believe that they can govern their lives, that they have a choice to change their ways. They may be right.
But I believe that the universe is merely an entertainment show, for which the climax has already been planned. The show is conceived by GOD for his own entertainment. He appointed Destiny as the 'DIRECTOR' of the show and like an ideal 'PRODUCER' does not interfere in the affairs of Destiny. Now Destiny has planned things in a different way. It does not want its characters (i.e. US) to act. It expects them to be natural and therefore it decided to inform us on the spur of the moment about what to do and not give us the details of our role before-hand. That is why no one can say what they will become or what they will do in future. We can't predict anything for ourselves, can we?
So this Destiny, which governs our life, decides to bring together two people living their separate lives at different places totally unprepared to meet each other. None of the two people, had thought till the day before they finally met each other, that they would meet someone with whom they would be bound for a long, long time. But they met. Destiny chooses a less frequented, pathetically developed chat site as a platform to arrange the meeting.
Two complete strangers ended up falling in love with each other. One thing they had in common amongst them was the feeling of selflessness and concern for the comfort of the other. Strangers, just a couple of years before and today bound together with a bond that is as strong as any blood-relation. Was it planned by them, I guess not.
Two lives changed forever. Two people going through phases of joys and sorrows of their togetherness, going out of the way to meet each other, doing all they can, to hold on to each other. Two people, who were strangers just a couple of years ago.
So the two meet each other. They start of, pretending to be someone else. Their objective was to conceal their true self and have fun. Fun, probably that's what they had in mind at that time. But the fun continues beyond its expected time frame. Destiny had sown the seeds of love in their hearts. Fun-chat turned into a more focused information-seeking conversation, as a decision was to be made. It was no longer an out-of-mind-out-of-sight experience. Thoughts lingered even long after the conversation was over. There was a desire to have more of the time of togetherness. They migrated from 'internet chat' to 'telephonic conversation' and finally to 'face-to-face interaction'. But the decision was already made, what was left was for the both of them to come to terms with the Destiny's WILL.
Finally, one takes the initiative, and breaks the ice. In spite of the initial holding-back decisions and skeptical thoughts they make the decision - one that was already made for them. And two chat pals became Lovers. A story every one would love to be a part of, but a very few destined to be.
People with rational attitude tend to believe that they can govern their lives, that they have a choice to change their ways. They may be right.
But I believe that the universe is merely an entertainment show, for which the climax has already been planned. The show is conceived by GOD for his own entertainment. He appointed Destiny as the 'DIRECTOR' of the show and like an ideal 'PRODUCER' does not interfere in the affairs of Destiny. Now Destiny has planned things in a different way. It does not want its characters (i.e. US) to act. It expects them to be natural and therefore it decided to inform us on the spur of the moment about what to do and not give us the details of our role before-hand. That is why no one can say what they will become or what they will do in future. We can't predict anything for ourselves, can we?
So this Destiny, which governs our life, decides to bring together two people living their separate lives at different places totally unprepared to meet each other. None of the two people, had thought till the day before they finally met each other, that they would meet someone with whom they would be bound for a long, long time. But they met. Destiny chooses a less frequented, pathetically developed chat site as a platform to arrange the meeting.
Two complete strangers ended up falling in love with each other. One thing they had in common amongst them was the feeling of selflessness and concern for the comfort of the other. Strangers, just a couple of years before and today bound together with a bond that is as strong as any blood-relation. Was it planned by them, I guess not.
Two lives changed forever. Two people going through phases of joys and sorrows of their togetherness, going out of the way to meet each other, doing all they can, to hold on to each other. Two people, who were strangers just a couple of years ago.
So the two meet each other. They start of, pretending to be someone else. Their objective was to conceal their true self and have fun. Fun, probably that's what they had in mind at that time. But the fun continues beyond its expected time frame. Destiny had sown the seeds of love in their hearts. Fun-chat turned into a more focused information-seeking conversation, as a decision was to be made. It was no longer an out-of-mind-out-of-sight experience. Thoughts lingered even long after the conversation was over. There was a desire to have more of the time of togetherness. They migrated from 'internet chat' to 'telephonic conversation' and finally to 'face-to-face interaction'. But the decision was already made, what was left was for the both of them to come to terms with the Destiny's WILL.
Finally, one takes the initiative, and breaks the ice. In spite of the initial holding-back decisions and skeptical thoughts they make the decision - one that was already made for them. And two chat pals became Lovers. A story every one would love to be a part of, but a very few destined to be.
SPIRITUAL/ LOVE/ DATING: THE URGE FOR ONENESS
It is one of the urges of our nature to reconnect with Source, with Oneness. The closest we can identify this urge as in daily life is the complete connection with another human being. To be able to connect with another human being at this level, both parties have to have a very similar vibrational signature. When we meet another human being with whom we have a similar vibrational signature, we resonate with them. This often is called finding our twin soul, soul mate of twin flame.
It just so happens that when we do find someone like that we stop looking, and therefore the belief that there can only be one soul mate on Earth was conceived. But, fortunately, there are many other people on Earth with whom we can resonate at a vibrational level. And it so happens that if we change signatures through our soul journey work, if our soulmate doesn't do it too, we will eventually become dissatisfied and move on. This doesn't mean that our soul mate was not the "true one". It just means they are no longer vibrationally similar to the level we need for the connection.
Once you enter Oneness, and make it the center of your attention, the urge to connect with another human being at this level passes. This results in the ability to achieve just that, to find and connect, or reconnect, with a soul mate in total freedom and with no expectations or ego getting in the way.
It just so happens that when we do find someone like that we stop looking, and therefore the belief that there can only be one soul mate on Earth was conceived. But, fortunately, there are many other people on Earth with whom we can resonate at a vibrational level. And it so happens that if we change signatures through our soul journey work, if our soulmate doesn't do it too, we will eventually become dissatisfied and move on. This doesn't mean that our soul mate was not the "true one". It just means they are no longer vibrationally similar to the level we need for the connection.
Once you enter Oneness, and make it the center of your attention, the urge to connect with another human being at this level passes. This results in the ability to achieve just that, to find and connect, or reconnect, with a soul mate in total freedom and with no expectations or ego getting in the way.
DATING/ LOVE/ SEX: SEX LEADS US HOME
Being intimate is to be close... to be sharing in a deep and meaningful understanding. Yet, how can one achieve this close... deep.... meaningful... understanding of another until they first have this understanding... and closeness... and tenderness... and lovingness... with themselves?
In your world it is often times spoke of as the giving of one's self to another. Yet how can one give... what one knows not? And if one knows not who they are, or what they are, could they truly give that to another... or share that with another... or even truly understand another... until they first achieve this with themselves?
The design... and division into male and female forms... was to make the access to these connections a most joyful experience. For in truth it is.
The act of connecting, and experiencing the connection with another is truly a most joyous and pleasurable experience. And yet, although this was the design... It is surrounded with much guilt... much shame... and oft times brings sorrow and pain instead of the joy it was meant to. Yet, if intimacy was truly understood, with the Self first, and then the sharing with another, this act could bring forth much joy and pleasure instead of guilt, shame, and pain. And in that joy of joining with another, can be reached the joining to All That Is. This then would be using the physical intimacy wisely on the spiritual path.
If sexual intimacy can help lead us home... if we have a partner... and we know Self... what if there is no partner, or no other? There are a lot of people who live alone today. The intimate experiencing of this connection was meant to be quite pleasurable and bring much joy when chose to be experienced in the physical. There are many, who for many different reasons, choose aloneness - as opposed to relationships. Intimacy is something that is inborn in us... for us to seek... and we seek it in many ways... and it can be done through sexual relationships, as well as, many other types of relationships... because intimacy covers a lot of territory. Isn't it like love then? We all seek love.
Very much so. Look to the newborn babe. There is the desire to be touched, to touch, to be close, to feel the warmth of another. This then is natural for the human being. Sex, as you look upon it, is only one way to express this desire for closeness, to touch, to be touched, to experience the warmth of another. But in many ways this particular area, which involve particular parts of the body, has been altered due to that which has been "added to".
"[When] sex is done right, at its deepest level it is about intimacy. It is about one human being connecting with another human being they love. It is a beautiful physical manifestation of two people being connected in a truly vulnerable, intimate manner because they love each other profoundly. It is bodies connecting and souls connecting. It is beautiful and rich and fulfilling and spiritual and amazing. Many people never get to this point in their sex lives because it requires incredible communication, trust, vulnerability, and connection
In your world it is often times spoke of as the giving of one's self to another. Yet how can one give... what one knows not? And if one knows not who they are, or what they are, could they truly give that to another... or share that with another... or even truly understand another... until they first achieve this with themselves?
The design... and division into male and female forms... was to make the access to these connections a most joyful experience. For in truth it is.
The act of connecting, and experiencing the connection with another is truly a most joyous and pleasurable experience. And yet, although this was the design... It is surrounded with much guilt... much shame... and oft times brings sorrow and pain instead of the joy it was meant to. Yet, if intimacy was truly understood, with the Self first, and then the sharing with another, this act could bring forth much joy and pleasure instead of guilt, shame, and pain. And in that joy of joining with another, can be reached the joining to All That Is. This then would be using the physical intimacy wisely on the spiritual path.
If sexual intimacy can help lead us home... if we have a partner... and we know Self... what if there is no partner, or no other? There are a lot of people who live alone today. The intimate experiencing of this connection was meant to be quite pleasurable and bring much joy when chose to be experienced in the physical. There are many, who for many different reasons, choose aloneness - as opposed to relationships. Intimacy is something that is inborn in us... for us to seek... and we seek it in many ways... and it can be done through sexual relationships, as well as, many other types of relationships... because intimacy covers a lot of territory. Isn't it like love then? We all seek love.
Very much so. Look to the newborn babe. There is the desire to be touched, to touch, to be close, to feel the warmth of another. This then is natural for the human being. Sex, as you look upon it, is only one way to express this desire for closeness, to touch, to be touched, to experience the warmth of another. But in many ways this particular area, which involve particular parts of the body, has been altered due to that which has been "added to".
"[When] sex is done right, at its deepest level it is about intimacy. It is about one human being connecting with another human being they love. It is a beautiful physical manifestation of two people being connected in a truly vulnerable, intimate manner because they love each other profoundly. It is bodies connecting and souls connecting. It is beautiful and rich and fulfilling and spiritual and amazing. Many people never get to this point in their sex lives because it requires incredible communication, trust, vulnerability, and connection
PERSONAL/ LOVE LETTER: YOU SLIP INTO MY DREAMS
Dear Future Love,
You make my head feel like a busy, New York City street the second your name lights up on my cell phone.
It doesn't happen often, and it hadn't happened for a year and a half until recently, but when it does i don't know how to feel.
You were my first love, and first loves are hard to forget. I truly believe that the first person you fall in love with will always have a piece of your heart. It's never whole again- no matter how much you move on, how many more people you fall in love with, or how much you give to the next person- there's something special about the first time you give your heart away. Or maybe it's because your first love usually ends up in your first real heartbreak and you never quite get all of the pieces back.
I don't know what kept me with you for all of those years. I was young, naive, and immature i guess. But i loved you. Oh man, did I love you. I think i would have fought to be with you until i couldn't go on. I would have been content being with you and only you forever and ever. But you didn't feel the same. And to fight any longer would be foolish. You gave up on me not once, but twice, and it broke me down more and more. You treated me terrible in those last few months, as if I were a stranger you never even cared about. You left me a ghost. You left me broken. You left me.
It took so long for me to get back on my own two feet and finally feel anything again. And as everyone would tell me, time did heal. But no one ever really listens to that phrase...time heals. But healing doesn't make it go away, it just makes it bearable. It's like a scar. There's the initial wound and it hurts like hell, almost to the point where you think you'd rather just be dead at this point, and then slowly but surely your cut closes up and then there is the scab. You pick at it a few times and it hurts all over again. And eventually you have a scar, and it fades and fades, but it's never gone. There's always something to remind you.
And then i met her, She showed me what it was like to truly be loved and she gave me everything you never even thought to give. Everything that hurt finally went away with a flash of her smile and with the touch of her hand I felt like I had found my real forever. A month into the relationship I could see myself with her fifty years down the road. I had never loved someone this way before, not even you. Months in though, little fights started poisoning our relationship but we worked at them. I still love her with my whole heart and i still fall asleep next to her but every now and then you slip into my dreams, out of nowhere, just like in real life and in my dreams I miss you.
You make my head feel like a busy, New York City street the second your name lights up on my cell phone.
It doesn't happen often, and it hadn't happened for a year and a half until recently, but when it does i don't know how to feel.
You were my first love, and first loves are hard to forget. I truly believe that the first person you fall in love with will always have a piece of your heart. It's never whole again- no matter how much you move on, how many more people you fall in love with, or how much you give to the next person- there's something special about the first time you give your heart away. Or maybe it's because your first love usually ends up in your first real heartbreak and you never quite get all of the pieces back.
I don't know what kept me with you for all of those years. I was young, naive, and immature i guess. But i loved you. Oh man, did I love you. I think i would have fought to be with you until i couldn't go on. I would have been content being with you and only you forever and ever. But you didn't feel the same. And to fight any longer would be foolish. You gave up on me not once, but twice, and it broke me down more and more. You treated me terrible in those last few months, as if I were a stranger you never even cared about. You left me a ghost. You left me broken. You left me.
It took so long for me to get back on my own two feet and finally feel anything again. And as everyone would tell me, time did heal. But no one ever really listens to that phrase...time heals. But healing doesn't make it go away, it just makes it bearable. It's like a scar. There's the initial wound and it hurts like hell, almost to the point where you think you'd rather just be dead at this point, and then slowly but surely your cut closes up and then there is the scab. You pick at it a few times and it hurts all over again. And eventually you have a scar, and it fades and fades, but it's never gone. There's always something to remind you.
And then i met her, She showed me what it was like to truly be loved and she gave me everything you never even thought to give. Everything that hurt finally went away with a flash of her smile and with the touch of her hand I felt like I had found my real forever. A month into the relationship I could see myself with her fifty years down the road. I had never loved someone this way before, not even you. Months in though, little fights started poisoning our relationship but we worked at them. I still love her with my whole heart and i still fall asleep next to her but every now and then you slip into my dreams, out of nowhere, just like in real life and in my dreams I miss you.
JOURNAL: MY EX- STRANGER
Have you ever met someone who can light up your whole day? Someone who suddenly appears out of nowhere but made you smile every time you see each other? Maybe you met that person in your town, at work, at the store or through a friend. But you find out that they’re not from here. They live far away, and in a few days they are going back home. The last day before leaving, you decide to meet up for a little while. But you missed one other, so you have to go back home with an empty heart and a question constantly ringing in your head. Will you ever meet again? You have not a name, a phone number or Facebook. What are the odds that you will ever meet again? Very very minimal.
So you can imagine my surprise when she appeared around the corner, just like she used to. With smiling lips and sparkling eyes. She said she couldn’t leave without knowing my name. That she had been driving for hours to find me. We said that we would see each other tomorrow again. She seemed happy about that, and I can’t wait. She is so beautiful. My ex-stranger.
So you can imagine my surprise when she appeared around the corner, just like she used to. With smiling lips and sparkling eyes. She said she couldn’t leave without knowing my name. That she had been driving for hours to find me. We said that we would see each other tomorrow again. She seemed happy about that, and I can’t wait. She is so beautiful. My ex-stranger.
THOUGHTS: TREAT LIKE YOUR TIME LIKE YOU'RE ON A DIET
As the 80/20 rule reminds us, our time is best spent on the few things that have the most impact on our lives.
At work, this might mean focusing on the tasks that you are best at and only you can handle, delegating the rest (you can prioritize your email according to your wheelhouse as well).
At home, embrace messy organization (e.g., forget about organizing the silverware drawer) in favor of more life-enhancing activities: cooking healthy meals, exercising, spending time with your family, etc.
Another example: reading or watching the news may be a waste of your time, unless your work requires it. But even then, you can make better use of your time by reading only the news relevant to you, e.g., by filtering your RSS feeds.
You can and should prioritize what you eat, read, watch, work on, etc. according to how positive an impact it has on your life. One way to prioritize is to treat your time like you're on a diet: Make a list of the five main goals you want to focus on for the year, and spend 95% of your time on tasks that contribute to them.
Quantity: To take this a step further, delegate your time according to how many ways you benefit from the activity or how many different areas of your life it affects. For example, scrubbing the floors gives you a cleaner floor and a healthier household perhaps, but it's not very enjoyable and there aren't that many other benefits you can reap from it. Let's say this task only has one reward.
Reading, on the other hand, has the potential to benefit you in several ways. One, it's enjoyable and relaxing. If you read a book that also stimulates your mind and teaches you something—as opposed to a book that just whiles away the time—that's another benefit. Even better, if what you learn from the book helps you make money in some way (e.g., enhances your profession) or save time and make you more productive, then it's a long-lasting benefit. That's three possible different ways one activity can reward you.
Another example might be taking cooking classes with a friend or your partner: You spend quality time with people you love, learn new skills, and probably end up saving money and eating healthier by cooking more at home.
Blogging is one last example I'll offer: If you enjoy writing, you're doing something you love. Writing about a topic regularly also increases your knowledge and expertise. Your blog could help you earn some spare change through advertising or affiliate links. And, finally, you can use your blog to build a valuable network, make new friends, and also possibly protect yourself against unemployment.
Spending more time where it matters most may seem painfully obvious, but it's easy to forget and fritter away your time on things like running errands or watching silly YouTube videos instead of on the activities that enhance multiple areas of your life.
At work, this might mean focusing on the tasks that you are best at and only you can handle, delegating the rest (you can prioritize your email according to your wheelhouse as well).
At home, embrace messy organization (e.g., forget about organizing the silverware drawer) in favor of more life-enhancing activities: cooking healthy meals, exercising, spending time with your family, etc.
Another example: reading or watching the news may be a waste of your time, unless your work requires it. But even then, you can make better use of your time by reading only the news relevant to you, e.g., by filtering your RSS feeds.
You can and should prioritize what you eat, read, watch, work on, etc. according to how positive an impact it has on your life. One way to prioritize is to treat your time like you're on a diet: Make a list of the five main goals you want to focus on for the year, and spend 95% of your time on tasks that contribute to them.
Quantity: To take this a step further, delegate your time according to how many ways you benefit from the activity or how many different areas of your life it affects. For example, scrubbing the floors gives you a cleaner floor and a healthier household perhaps, but it's not very enjoyable and there aren't that many other benefits you can reap from it. Let's say this task only has one reward.
Reading, on the other hand, has the potential to benefit you in several ways. One, it's enjoyable and relaxing. If you read a book that also stimulates your mind and teaches you something—as opposed to a book that just whiles away the time—that's another benefit. Even better, if what you learn from the book helps you make money in some way (e.g., enhances your profession) or save time and make you more productive, then it's a long-lasting benefit. That's three possible different ways one activity can reward you.
Another example might be taking cooking classes with a friend or your partner: You spend quality time with people you love, learn new skills, and probably end up saving money and eating healthier by cooking more at home.
Blogging is one last example I'll offer: If you enjoy writing, you're doing something you love. Writing about a topic regularly also increases your knowledge and expertise. Your blog could help you earn some spare change through advertising or affiliate links. And, finally, you can use your blog to build a valuable network, make new friends, and also possibly protect yourself against unemployment.
Spending more time where it matters most may seem painfully obvious, but it's easy to forget and fritter away your time on things like running errands or watching silly YouTube videos instead of on the activities that enhance multiple areas of your life.
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