To the woman I am destiny to build a life with:
Everyone I've met thus far in my life has played a part in my story. And while some have taken up chapters, most just scribbled notes in the margins.You are the one I want to grace all of the pages I have yet to write.
You expect your late 30s to be a time for starting your life as an adult. You start a career, settle down with the one you love, and look to build a beautiful family together. I wanted that ,I got married and few years later got divorced.
As I began to open the doors to another potential relationship, I forced myself to be extremely selective. Settling for mediocre love isn't something I am willing to do. Not in this life anyway. Needless to say, what I'm looking for today is a lot different than ever before.
I get lonely at times (a lot of times, actually). But you have to reserve that spot for someone special. If you give it away freely, it loses meaning, and you'll never fully appreciate the right person when they do come along. I spend alot of time with my mom and my sister since my dad past away.
Time is so damn important. It's precious and should never be wasted on someone who doesn't really care about you. So I'm hesitant in giving it just to anyone. I love a woman's companionship, but I'm not desperate for attention. While most men find value in making themselves available to any woman that gives them the time of day, I've made myself unavailable to most. Unorthodox, yes... but I value quality over quantity. I am not here to hurt anyone.
What did I learn from all my dating:
-If your interest level is low from the get go, this won't go anywhere. I am not here to chase anyone. “The chase” is a game. Here’s some truth: If a woman wants you, you will know.If a woman wants you, she won’t play games. If a woman wants you, you won’t have to chase her. A woman wants to be pursued, she wants to be courted. What she doesn’t want is
If a woman wants you, she won’t play hard to get…but she won’t be too easy either. She won’t play by bullshit societal dating rules of waiting for you to call, or never sending two texts in a row. If she wants you, you’ll know where you stand. If she’s thinking of you, she’ll call, and if she wants to hang out, she’ll ask. If she wants to kiss you first, she will. Her intentions will show through her actions, and she won’t be afraid to express her feelings or show you she cares.
What happened to the old-fashioned notion that it should be quite simple if two people like one another? The simplicity of elementary notes asking “do you like me, check yes or no,” is long gone. We’ve made things so complex that modern dating just messes with our heads. Unsure if we should call first because we don’t want to seem needy, refusing to use labels, overthinking text messages, and always trying to play it cool? What have we come to?
When someone wants you, man or woman, they will show interest. They will pursue you. I like to be pursued and I PROMISE I WOULD PURSE YOU AS WELL.
So ask yourself before you even sent a message....am i what you want? If i am then show me...give me attention and make things easy and I will do the same. I am not here to play games.
-One of the way to show me that you are serious is actually give me your number. I am not there to go back and forth. I want to actually talk to you and get to know you before we meet.
-Finally, if we do meet. Be ready to commit to a relationship from day one. I am not here to go on hundred dates. I was thinking that I have tried traditional way before and it didn’t work out and I was thinking: ‘Why not have that commitment to actually making a relationship work from the very start?’ I’m not interested in just going on dates looking for things I don’t like about that person. I’m committing to making this relationship absolutely work – like they did in the old days. “It’s traditional, older generations might have only met their partner once or twice before getting relationship.
You think you know people, but it doesn’t matter how long you’ve been with someone for, they can surprise you and not in a good way I was with my ex wife for five years and she turned out to not be capable of treating me right. You just don’t know.
As for the ones who have gotten my time? Some have been kind, others not so much -- yet none have ever made my heart beat the way it once did. I guess I expect to look at someone and just want every piece of them in my life. Their mind, body and soul... their hopes, dreams and fears. I've thought at times, "Maybe it's me. Maybe I just don't have the emotional capacity to feel that strongly for someone again." You start to believe that pain sort of scars you and that everything you're looking for is unrealistic, especially when you're part of a generation whose dating habits consist of swiping on a screen.
Do I find that disappointing? For sure.I have slept with alot of woman, models, average.... black, white, asian, america, french....but none of the last. Each time I hope would be my last.
As the years have passed, I've focused on bettering myself, building a strong career, staying healthy, making more money...all that will serve as the foundation for the life I wish to give my family, And I've lived, hoping one day, someday, something magnificent would happen; something that would make sense of everything I've been through.Time has passed, but I've never lost faith.
It only took one person. One person who read my word and responded to me. I have this dream of meeting you for the first time. You were draped in this beautiful outfit that contoured your body like a glove. And your hair, it fell so elegantly on your shoulders. Everything around you was black and white, and you shined in color.It was magical. In an instant, you changed my life. That feeling I prayed about just sort of happened. It's that feeling we all get once in our life -- if we're lucky. And on that day, I guess luck was on my side.You were this different kind of beautiful, unlike anything I had ever seen. When you smiled and looked my way -- I can't even explain what that did to me.You made my heart beat in a crazy way, like never before.You were beautiful, skinny, and kind. It was like my eyes locked onto a soul that I waited years to find.
I felt something so deep within me, and I immediately knew that this broken road filled with pain and uncertainty led me to you. And while I didn't know how or even why at that point, I knew I had to clear space in my mind for you to stay. In whichever capacity destiny had planned.
I drove home that evening with this overwhelming desire to learn everything about you. I wasn't sure if or when I'd see you again, but I was determined to find a way.
Somehow I knew that it would take time and patience; both of which I already knew you were worth. And both of which I was prepared to give. So I waited. I spent months uncovering bits and pieces of you, in an ever-so-subtle way. Naturally, you've shared. And slowly but surely, two people, strangers in the not-so-distant past, became connected in this crazy world. You've occupied my thoughts, been inspiration behind my words, and have given me hope to believe that, one day, I'll love again -- deeper than I have ever loved before.
I think so highly of you. I admire your drive, your passion and your dedication to everything that you love. I adore your innocence and commend the respect you have for yourself. But what captures my attention more than anything else is your simplicity. You're such a beautiful person. You were kind to me. Behind everything the eye can see, behind all the glitz and the glamour, is a woman with worries and fears. Someone who loves and desires to be loved in return.
So carefully I've listened to everything you've shared with me. And believe me, I've remembered it all. And I believe so deeply in those dreams of yours. So much, in fact, that I dream even bigger for you. You're something real. And I'm grateful that you've trusted me enough to give me even the smallest glimpse inside your world. I'm attracted to everything you've exposed me to. Those big, beautiful eyes; so captivating. Your laugh; innocent enough to bring a smile to the angriest of people. That walk; striking and canny. Your voice; how it giggles when we speak. Your intelligence; and how you try to impress me with all you know. But what I adore the most, what draws me in more than anything else, is that incredible smile. My God, you take my breath away.
I talk about you to everyone. Like you're poetry to a world still learning the alphabet. And if I had one wish, I'd allow you to see how beautiful you are through my eyes. Hearing your name or seeing it pop up on my phone brings this excitement. A feeling I deliberately waited for; and at times, feared I would never feel again. So I savor every moment of this feeling because I've learned in my life how quickly things can change.
Sure, I'm certain you're aware of my interest, I've made it rather obvious. But what I actually feel for you I've kept a deep secret -- until now, of course. Why did I decide to put this out there? Because I wanted the entire world to know how amazing I think you are. Sure, there are countless men who I'm certain appreciate your obvious outer beauty. But I cannot imagine there being another man in this world who sees your inner beauty the way I do. It pains me to see you be treated any less than amazing.
Truthfully speaking, I don't have a world to promise you. Just my company to explore it with. What I can give you, though, is a piece of your soul that you never knew was missing and every reason to never stop smiling. I've allowed my actions to speak louder than any word could. All in hopes that it becomes clear to you there's a man out there who just wants one thing: to make you happy. Believe me, there's no time too long that will keep me from showing you what you truly deserve... even if that's my only purpose in your life. If you find interest in me, I'd be honored. And if you don't, that's OK, too.
I believe in energy. And I believe that we're gravitated toward those whose energies we're meant to share. Clearly, I feel yours. And I don't think I met you just to meet you. That's always been reason enough for me to entertain the idea of there one day being a "you and me."
Maybe this story has more chapters -- or maybe this is the end. Either way, there's something you should know. You've changed my life. In an instant, you unknowingly touched my heart, grabbed a piece of my soul, directed it at you, and gave me every reason to never look back. In perfect harmony, I've released the deepest of my emotions in the smallest of doses. But this... this is me opening up in ways I never have before. I wish I could explain how it all happened, but I can't. It just happened, exactly the way they describe in books and movies. The only difference is that this is real. Just you and me. And a beautiful story that's waiting to be written. I wasn't looking for you; you kind of just appeared.
And I don't know if it makes me believe in coincidence, fate or sheer blind luck, but it definitely makes me believe in something. You've made me feel what pain and heartache once threatened to take away. So for that, I'm thankful. And that has always been reason enough to pursue you in ways I have never pursued a woman: with deliberate care and a subtle persistence. And while I may have the attention of people from all over the world, it's only yours that I want.
So for now, I'll watch you from a distance and continue to be your biggest fan. But trust me, I'll come for you, when the time is right, to uncover everything. Your hopes, your dreams, your biggest fears. What makes you laugh and what makes you cry.And I'll leave more than flowers on your doorstep or kisses on your forehead. I'll leave my fingerprints on your soul and pull you close enough to touch your heart. All so I can wipe away your tears and wash away the insecurities that have been left by those who have failed to love you correctly. Because like a crisp, blue summer sky, you're the beautiful sight I want to get lost in day after day after day.
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