Dear God, I am hurting terribly right now. It’s so hard for me to remember ever being happy, and when I do, it hurts even more because of what I’ve lost. I am desperate to go back to the way things used to be. If there is still hope for this relationship, please give me guidance as to what to do to reach out to my ex. If all attempts to reconnect with my ex fails, give me the strength I need to accept the finality of the breakup and the reality of my broken heart.
My friends and family mean well, but they don’t seem to know how to help me. They tell me that things aren’t that bad, that I should get up, go out, get even and enjoy myself. They tell me to look at all of the good things I still have in my life. They say that I’ll find someone else to love some day. But someday won’t help me today because my heart and spirit are crushed from loss and loneliness.
Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again. I come to You bereft in spirit with a heart that is breaking. My mind is in turmoil and I just do not understand all the turmoil that seems to be hitting me from all sides. You know God exactly the pain that is in my heart and the sadness and grief that I am going through and I come to You, my God, seeking Your blessed peace in my heart. Heal my hurting heart and bind up the lacerations that have penetrated so deeply into my soul – for You alone are my hope. Bind up my fragmented heart I pray as You. I give You my fragmented heart and pray for Your blessed peace – Your perfect peace – Your gracious peace that passes all human comprehension.
Please give me the strength to get through each day as my heart slowly heals. Carry me in your arms of love. Give me a personal sign of your presence. Restore my ability to smile. Give me back my energy. Clear the fog from my mind. Bring vitality back to my body. Help me to regain interest in life. Show me how to reach out for help when I need it. This is the hardest thing I’ve had to do, and I can’t possibly do it without your help. Help me to grow and gain wisdom from this experience. But most of all, help me not to give up on myself, on You or on love. I believe that You have created me to love and to be loved. Give me your courage to open my heart to the possibility of loving again, loving faithfully and joyfully and fully
How could she have done this to me? How could she forget her promises? How could she throwme away How could she break my heart? Was it my fault? Tell me where I have gone wrong. Show me my sins, flash them before me so I may know. For I do not understand how all these things can be happening right now. I do not understand how something so good can suddenly end up the way it is today. How can she suddenly say she want to try anymore? It seemed not so long ago when we see each other on the weekends.. Now I don’t know anymore. I know nothing anymore. I am so broken deep within me. I do not know if I can still piece together every shattered part of me.
My mom and my sister say that it will heal in time. They say I should busy myself with this and that, But I don’t know . Are these the things that can make me believe in love once again? Are these the things that can relieve this pain I feel in my heart? Do I not deserve true love? Do I not deserve loyalty, sincerity and respect? I built my whole world around her, and she took it all away. I built my self esteem upon her admiration, and she trampled upon it as though it were trash. How can I ever build my world again? How can I ever be happy once more?
Please help me God, I really don’t know what to do. Only your embrace can soothe my pain. I have given everything I could , and there is nothing more I can give. I kneel before you now, crushed and broken, empty and afraid to be alone. Hide me under your wings, hold me in your loving arms. Say unto me again how much you love me. Say unto me that you have called me yours and you will never ever let me go. Help me to let go of my pain, teach me to forgive those who do not even ask my forgiveness. This burden is something I shouldn’t carry in my heart. This trouble is not something I should trade away my peace for. I know that I have been done wrong, the things that have happened had been so unfair. Sometimes life’s like that. Many things in this life really seem so unfair. But let me not continue being unfair to myself. Let me not punish myself anymore for the things others have done.
I offer unto you my wounded heart, my broken heart. Let me not lose hope. Let me not cast away everything that’s good and beautiful in this life. I know that there is so much more in store for me. I know how much love I can still give away because it is you who fills me with everything that I’ll ever need. You are the one who loves me truly, eternally, unconditionally. You are the one who has always been there for me and always will be there for me. You are my one true love. You are my forever. You are my strength and my peace and my joy. Surely in your presence God, I do not need anything more.
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