PERSONAL IN FEAR OF MY OWN STUPIDITY, I DO STILL LOVE HER

My heart hurts and the tears fight like hell to reach the surface. There’s an ache that’s always lurking deep in my soul, stretching across my body, making its presence known.

It comes in waves, the feeling of a broken heart.
Sometimes I’m okay and other times… i can’t fight it.

But here’s the thing,
I know I’ll be okay.

I know one day I’ll wake up and my broken heart won’t be the first thing that comes to mind. One day I’ll have new people in my life that will make all the pain a distant

One day you’ll be a distant memory


A few weeks ago I thought I had found the love of my life. A light I had been searching for in the darkness that was the foundation to my every memory. A warm smile I cherished deeply, and a voice like ambrosia. weeks after, I thought I lost the love of my life. The light dimmed until it was put out. The smile was lost, and the nectar turned to poisonous deceit.And while part of me wishes those bright, warm days had not left in a fleeting instant, the rest of me is aware that I lost more than I gained. The damage she did, the loes she told, managed to break me more than I was, to begin with. I still  text jher every now and then, although we don't see each other But if we did, I’d confess to her and to myself, in fear of my own stupidity, that I do still love her, and that I wish her the best. That I’ll eventually forgive her,

You were over before we began, lost in the depths of your eyes I spun, spun out of control. I cant stop this feeling, why did you walk away? Give me the whole world to take it away. But I promise my love, it can be enough. Im not forcing you to stay.

I won’t give up loving you, I know you forgotten how it feels. I won’t give up loving you, I know, you know how I feel.

You are drifting, drifting away, you know I want you to stay, but you never thought that I could be there when you needed someone the most. I promise my love it can be enough, I’m begging you to stay.

I won’t give up loving you, I know you forgotten how it feels. I won’t give up loving you, I know, you know how I feel.

But I promise my love it can be enough, 
I promise you the world, Just take it and run.

I won’t give up loving you, I know you forgotten how it feels. I won’t give up loving you, I know, you know how I feel



Kiss my thoughts with your thoughts, Let our philosophies collide and make love under the stars we ponder about,
Make me feel like your most breathtaking epiphany,
Love me and protect me like you protect your deepest darkest secrets,

I want all of you,
Every inch of your mind, heart and body.
Your smile is gravity defying, Which makes me feel like I can float in space for eternity.
I won’t settle till I do, For, love you make me feel absolutely electric,
You charge my mind with energies and vibes, Things that I can’t see make me feel so alive.

You’re the brightest constellation in my galaxy,
I can’t believe you exist In my time and space.

But you do.And I am forever grateful to the stars,
Because you’re my one nice thing, So I must have done something right.