Tuesday, February 18, 2014

JOURNAL:

I haven't been happy for a while now. Maybe it is the snow....not getting enough light. Maybe it's that I am getting older and I am still alone in an empty house. It also the new management that took over the medical center. My job isn't stable anymore....I am constantly worried and stressed out.

I listen to songs from my childhood and I wish I can go back and be taken care of again. I feel like crying sometimes. I get home and watch some movie on cable..under the cover and wait till I am tired and go to sleep.

I got that surgery done on my front tooth. It wasn't a root fracture..it was a crown fracture...it a long process for the bone graft and then the implant.

Why do I feel that this life is too much for me?

Why do I keep trying to find my soulmate? I should just give up and accept that I will be alone....Alone without kids of my own..in this house...watching movies and let time pass me by. I don't even know why I joined E-harmony yesterday. My mom encouraged me.

Please God help me

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