PERSONAL/ LETTER: DEAR ....I FEEL LIKE JUST GIVING UP TODAY

Dear……well, you all know who you are;

So many times in life there are people who cut you like a knife with every word or act and continue to do this on a regular basis.  It might be said that the person allowing the cutting needs some professional help for continually letting this behavior go on.  Professional help or a straw that breaks the camel’s back.  That straw has happened!  Take note, the time has come that all of this is going to stop!

I am officially taking back my life.  I no longer will cater to anyone’s whims and needs.  If you can’t reach me on my phone because it’s inconvenient to me, oh well.  I’m not going to be glued to it anymore. 

I do remember all the nice things said to me.  Thanks for that.  It was wonderful hearing what a beautiful, intelligent, wonderful person I was.  I loved hearing about how all the other women were idiots not to realize how fabulous I was.  I believe “soul mate” was a term you used.  Hours of conversation, lengthy e-mails spouting my virtues.  What happened?  One day you’re here and the next day, nothing.  All of the sudden I’m not what you thought.  My interests conflict with your beliefs.  I’m no longer good enough to talk to.  You’re just like all the other women who have talked to me from the dating sites I no longer subscribe to.  Hurtful.  Not honest. 

I’m no longer interested in looking for love.  It’s not out there.   I used to think I was a “good catch”.  I want to be a supportive, loving  partner. I don’t think I’m horrible to look at.  I’m not afraid to work to earn money.  I have a 401K and health insurance. I have a house. I thought someone would be lucky to have me.  But the “someones” that have come forward, seem to only be playing games with my heart. I’m no longer interested in putting effort into relationships of any kind that aren’t in my best interest.You want to be part of my life, act like it.  You want my attention, give me yours.  You want honesty, I expect it too. You want my love, love me too. I’m not trying anymore.

 My heart is hardening.  It’s not what I want.  I have tried so long to keep it open for all possibilities.  But this is what has to be to survive the many individuals who don’t really care about me.  Since my radar for spotting those who don’t really care is faulty, I need to look at people with a more objective eye. I’m not going to trust someone unless that person proves they are trustworthy.  No more benefit of the doubt.  Yes, I am a take care of kind of person.  It’s just that it’s time to take care of myself.

These are the new rules.  If you have a problem with them, I wish you a happy life.  I just won’t be part of it.


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