LETTERS: DEAR SOULMATE

 Dear Soulmate,

To say that one waits a lifetime for his soulmate to come around is a paradox. People eventually get sick of waiting, take a chance on someone, and by the art of commitment become soulmates, which takes a lifetime to perfect

What is pathetic?

Is it believing in happy endings? Is it having your hope renewed after watching all those movies? Or is it simply hoping, even believing, within the depths of your heart -- that part you desperately try to hide and uselessly hope did not exist -- that one day love will happen to you?

Honestly, pathetic does not seem to capture the misery of waiting and hoping that it's the next person you bump into; that all the heartache and the embarrassment and the loneliness will be worth it soon.

Maybe that's what our parents and teachers should've taught us from the very beginning: how to deal with lost hopes and false expectations and realize that those movies always lie. Even when the story resembles your own, it's all still a lie because in the end, the girl will ultimately find her guy, and in rare cases where she doesn't, she is happy with it (unless of course it's a horror movie and the girl dies). They should teach us how to cope with the reality that we don't have either ending; that sometimes all you have is you and your misery and the mundaneness of a life that you will probably have for a long time, if not for always.

The worst part is even after all this, I still don't have the strength to stop waiting and hoping. Some people are born to be happy. I am born to wait.


Love,
your Soulmate




Dear Soulmate

I am traumatized by many heartaches so whoever you are please be careful and tender with my heart. I only want nothing but true love. So please just love me right and fair. That’s all I ask of you.  I don’t want tears. I only want happiness being in love with you.

Is that too much to ask? I hope it’s not because you’re my only hope. And if ever we do meet and be together promise me a love that’s only love and nothing else. Love is all I want so please give me only love. Thank you and see you soon…

Every happy day is a hard day for me. I can only think of the time when I can share my life with you. I don't spoil many people and it's been a while since I let someone spoil me. I wish so bad that you were here. I wish so bad to make you laugh, to kiss you, hug you, make fun of you, fight with you, make up with you... I wish I could give you all of these poems that I been writing, but I can't, I don't know you. I just know that you are alive somewhere and that you belong to me. I'm not like every other man and I can't settle just for a good woman. I need you. I need you to hold me and love me. I need you to challenge me and disagree with me. I need you to love me for who I am, not for an idea of who you want me to be, but for who I really am. I can't wait to have you in my life and share amazing moments. I want to offer you all of me and treat you like a king. I want us to make each other happy. I want to make love to you. I want to unleash all of the man that I am, but just to you and only you. I'm waiting for you. I already feel like I love you. Maybe because I know how much I will. But I'm tired. I'm tired of dramatic and painful relationships, and I'm tired of shallow and circumstancial relationships. You know who I am, right? You know I'm not perfect right? You know I'm wonderfully imperfect, right? Please come to my arms, they ache with nothingness, emptiness, purposeless. They long to hold you.



Dear Soulmate,

Where are you?? It seems as if I have been searching for you my entire adult life. I am writing this so you will know that I am not giving up on my search for you. I know you wont give up on me either. Sometimes I wonder if we may have already met, maybe in passing. We might have even had a moment of recognition and realization, but we were so busy in our daily lives that it became a passing thought. A look and smile and nothing more. Other times I feel you are probably out there just wondering when I will drop into your life.

No one seems to believe in us anymore. No one believes in true love anymore, especially that magical kind-of love that you and I share. You know my heart has some bruises around it too, but the wounds don't penetrate deep enough to still my heart, for it beats to love you. Please be patient with me though when we meet because it may take me some time to completely open up to you. You and I both know it will be worth while in the end. I have had some disappointments in love as I am sure you have too. Finding you has been a long, hard road. I have taken several paths and wrong turns. There have been many ups and downs. I have met some wonderful people though along the way to finding you. I have made a lot of friends. I have met a lot of great individuals and then some not so great. We both know that for the majority most people are decent. I am glad you have been so dedicated in your search for me, as I have been with you. I am also glad that your belief in "true love" has never wavered. I know you have a lot of faith in God, as I do. Because God is Love.

I have to tell you something, and I know you will understand, as you may have faced the same on your journey to finding me. I did get married, and yes divorced. I guess along the way to finding you I got sidetracked, and being immature, I married out of desperation. The search for you has been long, and I wasn't sure that I would ever find you, so I settled {for a moment}. I know you mirror me and you take commitment to heart. I tried to make the most of my mistake and really stick it out, but in the end I couldn't give up on you. I will give my ex the respect and dignity she deserves though just us together wasn't good. I know you believe in marriage though and take those vows seriously, as I did and do. You know I did try my very best as I will with you. I know in my heart though that with us it wont be quite as hard, marriage is hard work but your heart has to be in it. With us it is true and pure and we will fight to keep our relationship deep and we will have a wonderful partnership. You will be my best friend and I will be yours. We will have the same beliefs and a great love of life. I believe my failed marriage was a life test and there were lessons to be learned and I have learned, as I know you have too, if you found yourself where I was.

I really miss you, can't wait to see you and find you. I can't wait for the opportunity to look into your eyes, feel safe in your arms and know I have finally, FINALLY found you. Until that day just know I am searching for you as you are me and I will never give up on you, us or true love.

-Waiting