PERSONAL/ LOVE LETTER: DEAR FUTURE WIFE

Dear Future Wife,

My soul gets restless thinking that I might be alone in this life. My deeper feelings, when I am clear, help me to see that this is not true, that you are there for me if I feel my desire for you and am willing to lose my boundaries, willing to give over to another and not have such a neat existence.

I am ever more in touch with my inner splits that keep us apart. As I acknowledge them, we come closer to being together. Do you see me in your heart also?

You will need me. You will need my vision and love of life. You will be grateful for my hopefulness. Together there will be nothing we can't do or be. We will stand together yet separately and will nourish each other

You will be blond hair, blue eyes, slim. You will slim, dark hair and smart guy like me. You have deep integrity, and spiritual truth. You have a sense of security and knowledge about making and having money, bot for its own sake, but for the joy, love and peace and bounty it can bring the world. You will have high energy level to accomplish tasks and yet be willing to relax and be lazy, to connect with yourself and me and our marriage together. You will have my interest in music, movies, and family. You will dress beautifully, comfortable in casual dress or evening wear and want to enjoy life as I do. Sexuality and sensuality will be embraced by you. You like be slutty with me.

You will see me clearly and know my needs and wants. I will see you and know , really know your need and desires. We will laugh and play.

Everyday I experience more clearly what it will be like being married to you. The sense of well-being and sharing, the love, the growth together. I see us with a warm, loving marriage and mutual respect and love to help our lives develop. How I long to share my life and be with you as your husband.

My task lately has been to rid of old ghosts, Before I can be free to be with you. I need to let go of the past. That is what scares me now. I'm in the abyss. That in-between state of then and now. The major preparation has been to acknowledge how afraid I am to love you in physical bring. You can see how I create distractions not to be with you. My soul longs for and fear the intimacy we can have together.

I have been placing my wish in God's hand , awaiting for fulfillment. I continue to work on the inner surrender and trust need to challenge my "no" to life and convert it to "yes". I commit to more prayer and meditation

Today and yesterday were difficult. It's the feeling that I'll never find you, that God plans for us not to meet--which is absurd since I don't know what God intends. I can only have faith...but today...I felt that I could attach any woman who passed me. I felt so desperate. When I feel that way I want to lay low and hide, You understand of course that I'm not hiding from you. I do so want you in my life. This morning and last night I felt so alone and I do wanted your presence. I need holding and hsaring. You will bring these things and I hate waiting for them. I want you now but know it does no good to demand.

My heart of hearts know I need solid love, friendship and patience as i wait for you. Please come home soon. I expect us to be together by my next birthday, I ask God to grant me this birthday wish. I am nourishing my complete faith that out time has come. I am ready for you. Demanding doesn't work, Faith will bring us together. I gently wait for you. I will lead my life, be open and you will appear before me. So please come home to me and let's start our life together. I believe we will be together soon, I've been preparing for your coming now for many years. I pray that your preparations to be with me and my preparations to be with you coincide soon.

I'm becoming so much of who I am. My love, my need and my desires are all right at the surface. My humor is improving and you should see my watercolors--I am living as fully as I can and await your presence and my new task as husband. I am becoming the man you would want me to be, at least the man I would want to be for you. I am learning to live with me so I can live with you.

I've told you often that I am preparing myself for us to be together. I need to feel my autonomy and zest for life again before we could be together. I have learned much this year that's been vital to our coming together. The most important lesson is to know that if we aren't together for years that I will be just fine. My survival doesn't depend on us being together but it will be a bonus and reward in life. A specialness.

What has kept us apart is my fear. My fear that we will fight, get on each other nerves, feel crowded and demanded of, lose our desire for sex together, and take less of life. But ultimately my fear is of drudgery and hate in marriage, I hope up those marriages that seem that most difficult as what I will get. My "no" still clings to bad marriages including my own, unhappiness, some of my married friends' constant conflict and discontent, not focusing on positive role models, Yes if truth is known, I do no envy these friends whose marriages are difficult and they have no desire to change.

We can meet as part of your search online. You will read my words and will recognize me as I will recognize you and our importance in each other's lives. We will talk. We will feel the attraction. We will met and I will recognize you by your looks and your eyes. Your eyes will reflect a sparkle, a fun, a humor about life and knowing.

Our married life will blend with each other family obligations and we will start our life together. We will  be open to what life will give us and willing to work at loving and living, With this commitment everything will be easy, There will be a tentative and then resounding "yes", Marriage, family, money---"yes". Loving, life tasks- "yes"





 Six Qualities To Look for in a partner:

1- Commitment to personal growth

2- Emotional openness

3- Integrity

4- Maturity and responsibility

5- High self-esteem

6- Positive attitude toward life




Compatibility List :

Physical Style:

Blond, slim, and very attractive

Beautiful leg

Cares about appearance

No drug or alcohol

Exercises regularly

Eats healthfully




Emotional Style:

Always very affectionate

Supportive of me

Expresses feelings easily

Proud of me and show it

Sentimental about special occasions

Has empathy

Committed



Social Style:

Sophisticated

Kind and sensitive

Good sense of humor



Intellectual Style:

Well educated

Enjoys philosophical discussions

Interested in world events

Sexual Style:

     

Enjoy frequent sex

Very sensual

Sensitive

Very  Open




Financial Style:


Financially Responsible

Generous with herself and other

Enjoys good things in life

Hard worker




Personal Growth Style:

Committed to learning about self

Reading books on growth

Enjoys discussing growth




Spiritual Style:

Believes in God

Compassionate toward less fortunate

Optimistic outlook on life