FAN: HER THOUGHTS ABOUT MY BLOG

It must had been really odd for you to received my last email. Did you think that i was just as crazy?!#%} Would you let me know for the same reason why you wanted to screen people. Despite to your silent, i am still expressing how i felt with your writing and who i am for real to you.... Today, i had little more time to read your writing part two....and more i was reading, i can help myself getting excited and fluttered even to think about meeting you. And yet, I'm still unsure if this is real? YOU...... I felt that i was totally captured in your world or you've conquered to my world with your words and faith. And now it doesn't even matter any more who you really are. Because my thoughts has gone and i am totally into your existence and excepting and willing to take you as just who you are. And i wish you can feel the what i feel in my fast beating heart now. I couldn't believe when i read the part that when you traveled thru DC and had those thoughts you had. DO you recall on your writing? Just even knowing you were here some time ago, it spined my head and gave me an such rush today. Are you the one that i was waiting for after you have reopened my hidden existence of who i really am..... and you have me rebirth into the world that where you are exist.... I truly was in a REAL WORLD in your writing. Many things i realized.....the things you and i are like, same things we enjoy doing and simple things it give us joys and put a smile on our face, way we acts and thinks, how we have been with previous lovers and realized we were only with empty fleshes, and with our useful looks how it would be so easier for us to meeting just ones BUT NOT YET we haven't met that special THE ONE, how we value deeply with our family and parent and the luxuries we are able to access but still have the humbleness and compassion for the needs to others, how we connected to God in an such infinite way, and what we are waiting now for that ONE SOUL to complete our path after all that of confusions and frustrations we've gone through with each one of wrong beings.... .................................................. You see, I just couldn't wait until I would come home and write you back again with all that i feel today. So Mr, Doc. Whether it is wrong to you or not, after i believed in what's in your writing, Please consider not to be silent to where i am and to these email. (smile) I never thought that this is possible....falling into someone who i haven't meet and be connected thru writing on just click away. But if your decision is "we are not meant to be" that can perhaps be acceptable too.....but it would be pleasant just knowing that someone is out there that who is like me that i grow to love just by click away and that is powerful.....

Hi again! It was 1:11am when i finished reading your write...one, one, one. strange... First i like to thank you for letting me into your words. Also i am going to try write with your words for you to feel me. Which it was one most profound and fulfilling write that i haven't had read from any man before. And you are one very few human being that i know who are willing to reveal yourself in such an open way and strongly...... In my own believe, you have brought me into your world which it is clearly visionary and you bared me with your healing caress....and comforts. Your world, which where your hunger for complication is exist and where the true nakedness to your searching for the knowledge of the other soul.....And i felt total connection to myself and your word after i read yours. Your word, which it became mine as i felt your thoughts, your mind and soul and your core with the strength for all that of your passion. Then i realized i am very much attracted to your soul and growing of this willingness to learn your pure love and understanding who you are. SO IS IT REALLY YOU THAT I WAS WAITING FOR? MY HIDDEN TRUTH? Because i feel these spiritual bond which I've been longing for....with man that i have never met yet....is this where we harmonized with our soul and become "one" in our journey? The achievement from love, Eros, where the sex that unify us for harmonious? NOW YOUR TURN ANSWER ME.... I read from somewhere before "To invite love you must surrender" So would you surrender yourself to me as i surrender to you? When our time arrive? Are we on the "RIGHT TIME" to find each other? I am not afraid to show my vulnerable side to you and meeting you and feel your soul and your longing.....But i fear the fear of my expression and bareness in this very moment.....and can help to thinking do you also feel this connectedness thru my writing or are you discouraged and disruptive by some inconvenient reason that it didn't fit to your seeks from woman? ...................... Are you with me until i find you? ....................... This is what i wanted to share with you and please be kind and let me know your thoughts......And hope you get this email and my number that i sent to you twice. I do not have access to email from out side once i leave home. I leave home for work 10:15 in the morning and i don't get home tills normally 8 pm. And i never even know or how to or want to playing games.




At very this moments, i am reading first two page of your writing....about the part "cease being strangers to each other"

We are living in the such judgemental world that being an very exceptional individual like you and i could be a very loner most times... I keep on playing by the what people want me to be but not in any unpretentious way....And sometimes, i do feel that i am getting even a further a part from who i really am and struggling in that confusions. But i still do believe and i still do have that little fire in my heart that it will happen someday that my soulmate is going to be walking with me in my very precious present. And we are still burning that passion and hungers continuously....in this journey.....

But in next page was little realistic...talk about what you like and enjoys.... So I feel that i have a chance to also share with you about what i like which it seemed very similar. I love catching a many art performances whether here or NY. Last performances i see was FOSSIE and MARIA PAGE'S Flamenco dance performance. I try to catch some performance at list twice a month. Too bad that if you could be here next weekend, i could invite you to join me for to go see FOREVER SWING. I love dinning out in a fine restaurants, Theaters and good movies, out to dancing tils dawn, working out and of course traveling, cooking(great cook!) drawing and painting, Listening to eclectic choices of music. The variety of jazz, rock, classic, opera,new age jazz, R&B....anything it wakes my soul and capturing with that freedom of sounds. And involving in a seasonal activities, LOVE quite exotic beaches....LOVE blue sky as well as watching the fallen sun behind the burning purple sky. And i love to going out as much as staying home and enjoy BEING.....and DOING things. It would be nice to share that with
we call the soulmate.....

J