There is no word that really express God except the word I. The ony God that I have ever revealed itself is the one that come through that still small voice which is uttered within me. But there is nothing within me but me, I am the only being that I am, and if I hear a still voice, it must come from within the depths of my soul. It cannot be what I call the human self, it must come from the self of me that I recognize to be divine. If I am God...then...I want a million dollars now. But the soul whisper back...You are God. You don't need anything. You do not want anything. You are all that you need. We cannot be that I that is God and still be interested in name, fame or fortune. Most people have to die in order that the I which is his or her true identity is finally revealed in all it purity, completeness. Do you want to die before you realize you are God? If I am God, then every word that I say would heal the sick, raise the dead, and open the eyes of the blind, but it does not. Why? Because it is not coming from the depths of my soul. No one can ever define God for us, however, because I is indefinable. We do not know what we are: we are a mystery even to ourselves...aren't we? There is an I within us that has never been known to anybody. That is why the book Conversation with God is so amazing. It gives us a view of that part of us.
When I look in the mirror...I know that I am not inside this body. I am that which govern this body. I am that which moves around it, and is identified by this body, but I am not this body. If we are honest...really honest...we will have to admit that nobody knows us expect ourselves, and perhaps more than 99% of us do not understand or know even ourselves. There is an area of our being that is not known ---not to my mother, my dad, my sis, my friends...and all my ex-girlfriend i ever had. It is a secret place in us, the real, true individuality of us that nobody can quite preceive or understand, and that we keep hidden from the world.
Am I not now the person that I always was, but unable to show outwardly what is inside because I did not know how to reach it? Is not this what I have always longed for? Is not this what I have always visioned, but could nto break through. I came to this world looking for God .....looking for love,....this hunger was all locked up inside of me. That is one way I know that I am the same I that I was when I came into this world, the I that was born at a level that was seeking God-realization, and it had to break through the shell and find itself. This I cannot prove to you. You will have to take my word for it, or doubt it until you have an experience of your own that show you that this I fo which you have been aware since you were born really existed before you came forth this experience. It is your unfolding consciousness that has brought you into this blog this particular phase of experience sufficiently developed to open yourself to me.
Every experience of your childhood, the good as well as the bad, and every experience in your home life have been necessary to bring you to this unfoldment. We must learn to live with this I in the midst of us, learn to look for It for all inspiration. If we need anything....we must turn inward..within, the I will appear outwardly as the form necessary to our unfoldment at any moment. My true identity was never born and it will never die. It was present when I was conceived in my mother's womb, and it will be present and looking on when I pass from this scene, when my body seem to remain here as I progress onward. That I is the I of me which was born, that I is the I of me which was a child, that I is the I of me now...and I is that I fo me in my ongoing. That is my true identity and that is the I that is looking out through my eyes.
The question is why did i choose to come here? Why was I sent. Were we sent into expression here? Did we choose to come into expression. I personally think we are here for a specific purpose and that purpose is being worked out, there is no way that I can convey it to you so that you believe it. It is up to you to arrive at that conviction within yourself.
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