POETRY: YOUR SWEETNESS

As I search into the black I find it is true-love I lack

I read and search and try to find this mystery of long ago

While I sleep all I can see is my future life of misery

I feel as though my life is pitched across this land, too and fro

Yes, I can tell and I can feel my pain and hurt will only grow

But I'll be strong, and won't let go.


While I ponder in a daze, I find my mind caught in a maze

And my love with her it stays, though it may not always show

Anxiously I hold her hand, and to her I make a stand

And our love it once was grand, grand enough it's that I know

For our love can only feel that which we alone can know

That love as graceful as a doe.



While I wonder every night, I can sense her mind at fright

Holds me deep within my bed as I crawl forever low

So as I rest I lay awoken, by my mind which is outspoken

Now I must explain to her why our love just cannot flow

Why my new found love to her will not, cannot, should not flow

I must say it now before I go.



I remain a plain lone-ranger, always love is growing stranger

I must go to her and say exactly what this love can tow

But you see I just cannot, for it is true-love I sought

and its boundaries I know not, but it will forever grow

But I hang on to see the end because I sense our love can grow!

Here I stay, I will not go.



And while I love her with my mind, I know she is a special find

And my heart with love is lined, not the blackness of a crow

As I lay here rest uneasy! Knowing that this love will grow

It will find its path herein and forever this I know

For I love her, now I'll go.


2

There is no begining, no end. 
There is only the moment. 
Here hope has existence, 
peace has meaning, 
and love fills 
my very heart and soul.

3

Love hath no face: good or bad,
It dares not reason with us.
It cares not whether we are happy or sad,
It feels no pain when we fuss.
Yet, we try harder and harder to obtain it,
To feel some of its unreflecting kindess;
When we have it, our hearts are warmly lit,
When we don't, we long for its kind kiss.
So, what it is that keeps us away,
Is it youth, is it beauty;
Is it the fear it may not stay 
Or, fear that it won't find me?
I know not what love is for he, or she
But I do know what it is for me...
Lost

4

Last night I took a walk
Long, long after dark
I sat by the shore and thought of you.
I felt that you were beside me
Sharing this precious moment.
Even though you were nowhere near,
My ear heard your voice whispering.
Every time the wind blew
I felt your arms around me.
As I stared at the stars
I felt your soul reaching for mine,
As I was searching for yours
I thought of the good times we have had
And the better ones to come.
I felt that you were staring at the moon
At the same moment as I.
I remembered the dreams that we had shared
And the closeness of our love.
When I closed my eyes
I felt your lips on mine
So, tonight Long, long after dark..
Look at the moon and stars
And open up your soul,
Know that I will be doing the same.
Wherever we are or the number of miles apart,
Remember to take that walk and look up above,
Close your eyes and open your heart
And feel me beside you,
My arms wrapped around
Whispering in your ear
And we will be together.
Let nothing keep us apart.
To feel my warmth and smile
All you need is the moon and stars...



5

The first time my eyes set sight on your beautiful face,
I thought there had to be something.
The first time you spoke to me in your precious voice,
I felt that there had to be something.
The first time you embraced my body in your warm arms,
I wondered if there was something.
The first time our lips united that night,
I knew there had to be something.

I was right,
there was something,
and there still is...
...and will be.

6

Even if thy stab me 
with one thousand knives,
to every inch of my body,
I shall bleed

But each drop of blood will
whisper thy name
and my heart will beat
with thy name as its
rhythm.

And even though thy have stabbed
me true enough to make me die
I will never, ever
HATE, CURSE or SWEAR at you

For my heart will still 
Love thee to the very depth

And maybe before my soul
flies out my body
My lips will utter these words:
I Still Love You.

7

I fear you, 
your sweetness, 
your personality,
the outside part of your body.

I fear my fantasies of you
(i wonder how soft your lips are)
I fear my dreams
and how they may come true, one day.

I fear this seed of love growing inside me.
And knowing I can do nothing about it
makes me feel helpless !!!

I fear your touch, 
your laughter, your voice ...

I fear your likes and dislikes,
the scent of your perfume, 
the warmness of your tight muscles.

I fear how your enchanted world
drives me wild.
I fear your serenity, your calm.
I fear the nudity of your soul,
the sincerity of your words.

I fear this obssesion for you 
could turn into something real.

... but what I fear the most is 
the way you ignore my existance...

8

I thought of you last night, 
the steam surrounding your hot, soapy body
the feeling of my hands running over you.

I thought of you last night,
the smell of you on my pillow made me feel 
your arms around during the night.

I thought of you last night,
during my dreams as i see the face of our children 
and the tears of pride in your eyes.

I thought of you last night,
and how you make me feel 
truly wonderful, divine and loved.

I thought of you last night,
my thoughts of love 
poured down my cheeks.

I thought of you last night,
even though you were not there in my heart i felt a closeness 
that was magical and spiritual.
i could feel your presence, touch, your breath.....

I thought of you all night.

9

This promise I make today
Continues through forever and always
Today you are mine
Until the end of time

I'm committing myself to you
In all I say and do
Remembered forever in my heart
As a love that won't depart

I love you for all you are 
No matter near or far
Hold me deep inside
Take me along for the ride

I love you for all you make me
You take me to the depths of the deepest sea
You make me shine with a certain glow
An unbreakable bond only we will know

I love you when we are together 
And know we'll make it to forever
So this I say to you now
My solemn promise and vow

10

I love you.
These words have been said so many times,
And saying them again to you always runs through my mind.
To see your expression,
A look signifying passion and affection.
As if you want me to say the words over and over again,
And I will continuously, until you say when.
Through my expectations made by the world,
I hold a pearl in the palm of my hand,
Telling me to be myself, my own man.
But how can I, when there are things people expect me to say and do,
I find peace and serenity when I am around you.
I can do goofy things without strange stares,
I can expose myself mentally, completely bare.
Showing the deep thoughts that run through my brain,
Thoughts of a genius or a man insane.
Tell me which am I.
Because though I do crazy things I do it for a reason,
I feel I am gaining more of the world with each changing season.
Do my dreams float around in my mind and disappear into air,
Or do they remain where they are for all the world to share.
Tell me...
What more can I do for you is the main factor,
I relieve myself of all other stress because nothing even matters.
Surround me with your presence, engulf me in your love,
Let me feel your sexual essence, 
As if God gave me his Holy Spirit from above.
I am neck deep in a pool of hope and joy,
And this feeling is so numbing it can be hard to enjoy.
As the waves of your kiss splash over my face,
I drown in the current of your embrace.
This is my song...
It is a song colored with everything from platinum to baby blue,
This is the song of my heart, and I give my heart to you.

12

Awaken from dream in the middle of the night
I sat on the bed with wandering thoughts,
even though I couldn?t recall the scenes
that tampered with my sleep.
The darkness still covered the room -
my eyes tightly closed and squeezed -
I deeply sought meanings to the night.
But as darkness of the night
gave way to bright light of the day,
my memory began to reconstruct
the vivid pictures of the vision:
In rapid succession of appearances
you showed me multiple ways
you could please, and what your love
could, in a short time, accomplish.
You made a bed of gold, gently laid 
me down in the middle, and fully
covered me with roses and flowers,
in sweet communion of your love.
Then I embraced peace that fully reigned
in my soul, bringing forth fruits that inspired me.
As the door slowly creaked open
I saw you gently step into the room,
stretching out for my passionate grip.
You made me the focus of the dream
(I relayed the contents to you in brief)
and my desire to reach perfection of love and life
was enlarged by interpretations you reached.
You lightened up my mood with your face
beaming with laughter and smile, and together
we spent the day caressing with wet smooches,
feeling you permanently lodged in my heart.