Our ego is in us...we are in the self. Ego is visible in our personality and bears our name. The Self is the soul. You know how the ego sounds like....
-I insist on getting my own way most of the time
-I demand that I highly appreciated for every good deed
- I have to be excused for every misdeed, denying or justifying my misbehavior and canceling any need for amends.
-I cannot criticized or even give feedback without becoming defensive
-I believe I am entitled to an exemption from the conditions of ordinary existence.
-I demand love, respect, and loyalty....no matter what
-I cannot show that I need others or that I am dependent on them in any way.
There is no peace when the ego rules. ....it is aggressive because of its me first attitude, and its retaliatory, punitive flavor. The essence for the ego is the terror of having face the conditions of existence without control over them or entitlement to exemption from them.
Love is behind our fear all the while, waiting for its chance to scale the wall then to sift through us to everyone else. Don't you see that people and events that challenge and deflate our ego are assisting forces on our journey to life. When Joanne, Melissa, and Maria.. who broke my heart, the friend who cheated with my girlfriend, the teacher who showed me how much I needed to learn.....all have been players in the touching drama of my uphill liberation from ego. Each helped me by giving me the opportunity and vulnerability..to open my heart. Life let's us know when to hold and let go. And when we finally accept the truth...the reality...there is something sane and awake in us that is shut off when we are struggling through our dramas and holding our ego position in them.
You must realize that in our own lives...how people and events keep coming alond to depose our ego's arrogance, to show us how little control we really are, to strip us of our imaginary entitlement, to disrupt our best laid schemes...like hoping my Ebay stock would hit 41 ALL OF IT....helps us to become more realistic about our limitations. There is an energy within ourselves and within the universe that humbles us, topples our ego, upsets our plans, demonstrates to us how little our wishes matters, and dissolves the forms that no longer serve us though we may be clinging to them for dear life.
The trickster in relationships is that woman who betrayed you, the partner who used you, the person who took your money...in each instance, someone, something, or some events turned your life upside down or showed you how VULNERABLE you were, how YOU WERE NOT ALL YOU CRACKED YOURSELF UP TO BE.
We contain...both arrogance and humility. The soul want to reconcile these polarities. Selfish people may be forced by crisis to be selfish, macho man may be forced to be tender. Big shots may be forced to knuckle under. The dismantling of ego. We are broken up, we are forced to let go. Through such symbolic death we are reborn. The whole events is like a rope trick in which the body ascends, falls to the ground in pieces, and is reassembled.
WE DON'T HAVE TO STRUGGLE TO BE FREE.....ABSENCE OF STRUGGLE IS FREEDOM.
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