POETRY: SO NOW YOU OWN MY HEART COMPLETELY

she walks with Champagne shoulders,
Graceful,
Elegant.

My thoughts return to her again...
And again


I lose myself in her breath,
Wander aimlessly in her hair,
Receive salvation in her lips

And redemption in her caress
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I had the strangest dream
A couple days ago,
It had love and betrayal,
It had truth and foresight.

I was standing on a patio
Of a rich-person's estate.
I was completely alone
In the darkness of the night.

I had a fine tuxedo
Complete with a vest and tie,
Pure leather dress shoes
Pacing along the shale walkway.

Then she appeared,
My human-like angel.
An off-white cashmere dress
With a gold threaded lace.

The way her hair flowed
Was tall grass in the wind.
Her smile was instant paralysis,
Her eyes and pearl necklace were one.

I asked for her hand
And she showed me a band of single carats.
I led her along the path
Beside the lush floral arrangement.

We sat at an elegant table
Covered with a silk cloth.
A flickering candle
Enough light for a star-crossed pair.

We dined together
Underneath the starry ceiling,
I ordered the oldest red wine
She got a little tipsy.

Then appeared from behind
Two other roses I loved.
Both had icicles of mascara
They cried The River Of Love.

The first one was my best-friend.
She helped me through the rough times.
I always thought she liked me more
And I never told her my feelings for her.

The second was my ex,
She left me for no apparent reason.
We rarely kept in touch
And I always wanted her to come back.

The one across the table
was my current girlfriend.
I haven't known her for long
But I can tell she really likes me.

The three loveliest women
Wanted me to choose between them.
My night started with unmerciful bliss
Will now end without my most vital organ.

I didn't choose my ex
She broke my heart before.
I doubt she cared about my feelings
I was her board-game.

I didn't choose my best-friend,
We've been through so much.
But who would I turn to if it failed?
Sometimes 2nd is better.

And I chose you,
The angel who likes to steal.
You are my keyholder
So now you own my heart completely
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What does love mean?
Looking into the eyes of the person
you can not live without,
Knowing that the love you have
is full of certainty and never any doubt.
Loving someone for their imperfection
and their flaws,
Looking past their most inner beauty
and deeply hidden scars.
Love is holding the person close to you
and feeling their heart beat,
Looking into their love-filled eyes
and seeing their untold dreams.
Love is unexpected and an open door,
leaving room for love to grow
of the person you most adore.
Love is hearing the words
that we each can not speak,
Knowing all your hidden talents
and believing in your dreams.
Love is the promises that have been made,
the love and trust that has been given
to take the other's pain away.
Love is knowing where your heart belongs...
fighting for love
and always keeping it strong.
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I pray that on one cold, still night
I may hold you against me, and hold you tight,
As we sit beneath the dim blue sky
And watch as the stars pass us by
With the darkness of night and the nighttime dew
I make a wish and pray it may come true

I wish to be with you and bring you near
So I can whisper ever-sweet secrets in your ear
I wish to feel your warm heart race
And your gasp of breath upon my face
I hope to stay with you until the dawn of day
And I promise... you, I shall never betray

Through the hot sun of countless afternoons
Or the pale light of the brimming moon,
Standing anywhere amidst this land,
Solely, I dream of grasping your hand
And feeling your soft warm kiss on my face,
Filled with your beauty and filled with your grace

As I lay down, I feel a sense of peace
A sense of security and a sense of relief,
But now I?m confused, my mind is astray
Is it because you are away?
Yes, indeed, this is true
To bring my thoughts to words, what I need is you

With my prayer finished, I fall asleep
I dream again of the day we meet
And until morning do I wake
When the darkness, the sun does break
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I would place an arm around you
and dance in the silence to music unheard
with rhythm from spirit, long buried within,
taking flight with the wildest of hearts of the bird
to whirl in the quiet of voices un speaking
the words that are born in most private of hearts
to feel the earth quiver from timeless gyrations
a world that was born from most humble of starts.

You bring out the best in my daytime
and the best of all dreams in my heart.
You bring out the wonders
of starlight and daybreak,
the magic of warm afternoons at the start.
You feed and sustain a weak weary spirit
with nothing from nothing at all.
Deep in the silence, the music, I hear it
and still you won't let me falter or fall.
You brush sunsets across all of my fears
to turn my horizon and all of my tears
to slow sleepy skies as twilight last nears
and I dream in the midst of it all.

Then I rise up with the wonders
of blue skies in morning
to reach for the highest of clouds once again.
My towers of strength and emotions on fire
as love, like the heart of a star, burns within.
All of the problems and worries so cold
which run from the fountains of love and desire
must bow to the magic of love's wine of old.

I would place an arm around you
and dance in the silence to music unhear
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Sensual foretaste
isn't the physical in orbit
waiting to be met
by a seizure of kisses

It's the unfolding pleasures
from a wellspring of mirth

The untouched mouth,
with fugitive confessions

The apple of mysteries,
the skin of discoveries

Unexplored salts,
unlearning the strange

Foretaste of rapture,
on uncharted blood.



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I look forward and see nothing, not the nose on my face.
I throw my hand forward and yet I feel nothing.
Here in the dark I am alone.
The darkness engulfs me and it is as my own.

Though no one is here, I feel as though they watch.
My flaws are as clear as day to them, even through the night.
They are the eyes of the world.
The always judgmental eyes.

I feel so helpless, it takes my soul.
The odium of the emptiness is as madness.
It feels as if it is suddenly getting smaller,
and I feel claustrophobia set in.

My breathing gets hard, the air is so heavy.
I yell for a reply.
So here the yell of my voice wakes me,
I lie sweaty and scared; I search for a gleam of light.

Then I realize- I have more light than I will ever need.
I can feel you lying there next to me.
I notice how calm you are as you sleep,
My love, you are in a state of nourishing ease.

As I see you there I finally remember
that I have a candle through the night.
I can feel our hearts beating as one,
I can feel our breathe, as if from my lung to yours.

The yell wasn?t for me, but you.
For you to come to my aid.
For you to light up my path.

I have finally found the care I need to awaken from the nightmares.
I have found my guide through the damp dark trails of life.
My guide, my light, my life... is you.
I thank you for being that person for me in my time of darkness.

Not only do I thank you for this,
I love you for it.
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It allures me,
drawing me deeper within it's rapture,
So softly it caresses my eyelids,
The blade of my bare shoulder it captures.

Hypnotized by music,
heard only from within the heart,
It belonged to a legion of it's own
right from the very start.
Down the back of my neck and around to my ear,
When delivered with love and true passion,
nothing could be more dear.

Jubilant, Erotic, Mystical,
going from fragile to extreme in a breath,
From breast to breast, down belly and thigh.
It's lustful and sexy,
it's very presence could make you cry.

If the flame should ever burn out,
you're sure to miss,
A gift given from the gods,
the sound of a kiss


9
In the pain of loving,
I cry out
Longing for your sensitivity
For in my heart
there is deep
yearning
For a time and place
of serenity
Calm waters
and a river bank
And Spring songs
caressing
our thoughts...

In serenity of minds
Sheltered in the thickets
of yellow gorse
Among the meadows
of violets and celandines
I dream of our lying
there in perfect peace
Watching the sky blue
heavens and praying
for serenity
in our loving...

Serenity that elusive
place,
of exciting peace
I need that
more than anything
And in us, I see that
magical land
Of a lover's dream
A place of passion
unleashed
Of calm and creation
and boundless
love...
10
Lost in the light of a silvery moon,
I feel hope floating down from afar.
Maybe my wish will be sent to me soon,
As I bathe in the wonder you are.
Trapped in this lifetime of troubles I know
Most things never turn out as planned.
Drawn and enchanted, I look from below
At a presence that few understand.

Lost in the light of a silvery moon,
As a magic upon me does shine.
A million love songs have sung to your tune,
Just maybe, the next one is mine.
I stand here tonight, as I share your delight,
Seeing beauty from darkness arise.
Forget not my heart as we once again part
And you slowly descend from the skies.
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I can't promise to give you
days without pain,
happiness without sorrow,
or sun without rain,

But I can promise to give you
strength for the day,
comfort for the tears,
and a light for the way.

And with the laughter and joy you've brought to my heart,
I know deep inside, we can never find it to part
For, when I think of life without you
I do realize realize it would be too tough
Because, when it comes to your love,
I can't come near to getting enough.

Your smile, to me, like the moon,
Can light up even the darkest of nights,
For within your big, brown eyes
Bears a great amount of sunlight.
Every conversation I share with you
Takes out another side of your true self
That's different in every point of view
From the others that didn't stay true.

Our long interesting talks,
Our sweet romantic walks,
Are remembrance to show, that, to you,
My love, I will always stay true.
I Promise to be there for you when things go wrong
I Promise to do whatever it takes, no matter how long.
And if it's true that you reap what you sow,
Then I'll reap inside of you my love
So within you the passion can grow and grow.

Now, to make things complete
You know most of all
That you must put your faith
In the one up above;
For it is Him that has led me to give you
My everlasting and undying love!
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What do I have of you... and you of me?
Only our words... words our feelings form and bestow...
as gifts to one another?s hearts.
Words... grow into love... with a breathless wonder...
and are whispered...
And accepted as the treasure they are...
priceless beyond measure...
cherished beyond belief.
Words... emotions... shared... softness...
tenderness... gentleness...
heart words.
From your heart... to mine...
from my heart to yours.