POETRY: EVERYTIME I LOOK AT YOU

Unlooked for- came thy love to me
While in my lonely reverie
No hope, nor dream did there abide
For joy in life so long denied

Then in my dark thy beauty shone
And waked my soul for thee alone
An angel?s touch was thy caress
When laid my head upon thy breast

Now silken skin and secret lips
Mere memories in my fingertips
Unlooked for- went thy love from me
And evermore I?ll long for thee

If in thy heart I cannot be
I wish thee love eternally

PART II

I can write about the Acropolis in Athens
As the sun goes down and the night chases on
It is so beautiful.
I could imagine the Taj Mahal
Ivory towers and crystal waters
It is surely beautiful

A baby's skin against it's woollen cover
Asleep, perfect as a doll
That is beautiful
And as warm rain flows through the forest canopy
Dark and wet, yet refreshing, exciting
A thing of beauty

A view, a scene, the sea on the beach foaming
A countryside trail, a high mountain range
Natural beauty
The red soil of Mars, the clear sky at night
A pearl in an oyster
To some, such beauty

I can think of others, the sound of soft music
The beat of a bird's wing
Listen to such beauty
The aroma of spice, ozone and the sea
The dark smell of sensuousness
Fantasize the beauty

To label beauty, to define its sheen and aura
Is impossible as clasping at air
But I have seen it; I have seen what it is
To rival and match, to outshine them all
So precious and deep, her eyes, my heart leaps
Her lips, her cheeks, flushed with prettiness

The small vibrations, slight quiver of her hand
The smooth undulations of form
I now know beauty, I have touched it and seen
And it's you, it's you .. you have touched my heart
And I will love you and care for you
Because you are total beauty inside and out

PART III

when the world falls down upon you
your sunshine turns to rain
all the love within my heart
shall wash away your pain

when the darkness creeps upon you
your blue skies fill with gray
all the passion my heart shines
shall bring a brighter day

PART IV

The truth is: love to me is unknown.
My heart has been broken so many times
I have forgotten the meaning of the word LOVE.
So, I take my time reading poems and verses
Trying to find some meaning to what I feel
...But I come up with nothing.
Nothing because that?s how I feel
Like there?s nothing in my heart, nothing left to feel.

But somehow, someway,
every time I look at u,
hear your voice,
think about you,
or even hear your name,
I feel something in my heart.

Is it LOVE? I hope so because you're special to me.
We haven?t known each other long but that?s beside the matter.
The matter is- that you are entering a place
That to most people it might take many years to achieve,
...MY HEART.

But you seem so far away from me.
I have to wake up everyday and face reality.
But reality really doesn?t matter any more- because I have you.
Even if you are far away from me
I know in my heart, deep down inside, you?re here with me.

So, is this love or just foolishness?
I have no idea- but it's what I?m feeling.
So, I leave you with these thoughts
In hopes you?ll answer back
And help me figure out what I?m felling inside.


PART V

An image in my mind
overflowed into a world of hurt,
reality struck me all at one time.
Something that seemed so real
was just a figment of my imagination
because I wanted it to be.
What I thought could be everlasting love
turned to be everlasting hurt.
:::::
Loneliness is so very unkind
it can hit you fast,
it will leave you blind.
Once you realize you are all alone,
you try to think of all the things
you've done wrong.
I am a lost lonely soul flying far far away
searching for my lost happy days...


PART VI

Things never seem to work out the way you want them to.
You're so close to loving someone and being happy,
But then something has to happen that alters all your plans
And ruins everything.
To me it really doesn't seem fair to get all your hopes bulit up
Then they get crushed, it's heartbreaking and earth shattering
And to put it in more simple terms...
IT SUCKS!!!!!!!
You know i'm starting to belive maybe not falling in love would
Be a lot easier, and less painful.
But then again, just because i have gotten my heartbroken
A couple of times doesn't meen the next time I fall in love
It won't be easier, and it won't be different.
Who knows, maybe even the next time everthing will go well
And you know why I'm willing to try?
Because to me love is a risk, and it's a risk i'm willing
To take until I fall in love eternally!!!