PERSONAL/ LOVE LETTER/LOVE LETTER

I lay here, in my soft bed uncovered and completely exposed unable to move, I am tied down....not by ropes or chains but by love. Your love, and its not letting me up until I finish this...sleep takes no priority over you.

I was born to be yours, I was born yours. Every act I have committed in an effort to find myself, every exploration, every search within has been me looking for you...knowing myself so that I may know you. I never could give all of myself to another because your so much a part of me...how could I give that away?

There have been times that I honestly believed I was giving the woman in my life all of me....only to discover she wasn't you, there was more to me than I was giving, and I was not capable of giving this new found part of me to anyone who was not u....

I remember laying in bed with an ex when I realized he wasn't you. I wasn't mad at her for not being you, my frustration came from the unspoken lies. I untangled my body from her lonely touch, pulled away from her and spent the rest of the night with my back to her. I didn't sleep that night, I didn't think of the words to say to her.... I laid there praying for the nights to come where I would lay with you and never feel this loneliness again. Morning came, we talked.....there was no fighting....she agreed with me, but she was the only one. My mother called me self destructive, my friends told me I was fucking up a good thing, and his parents gave me a guilt trip as if I were breaking up with them. My heart submitted to your love long ago....and I will always remain true to it.

 I've had to be my love.....it has been the only way to not be tainted by this world as I made my journey to you. I apologize for moments where I have not know when to let go of that strength. You are such an amazing woman, strong in every way I need you to be....I know now that all these years it was your strength within me I've used to protect myself, and I understand now that we are no longer apart there is no need. I don't need to be seen as strong...all I desire is to be yours in every way. When u see me look at u, please know I look to you....giving you all that I am....and I look for u to lead me.

Everything in life I want with u. I will submit....but only to you. I want a life filled with love... I want it with you.

I love you and intend to submit to your every whim...your wish is my command...I Respectfully ask u to let me be the one to lovingly fulfil ur every desire.

Yours forever,