Today was good day. I feel reflesh. My mind is more relax. I was exhausted yesterday. I had to take another nap in the morning, but after i did, it was like my mind was clean. I notice the difference. I was able to sleep that night as well. Some night when I try to sleep, there seem to be a wall in my head that won't let me go to deep sleep. It might be I am tense. I am tense. Always worried. My muscle is most tense in my neck.
I developed an abcess under my left arm pit. I been putting heat compression on there. I will never shave my armpit again. I learn my lesson. This might be another expression of my mental state.
I worry that I might repeat myself over and over again in my blog....but so what?
I finish uploading alot of my audio books in Google music.
I went to a boat ride last Friday. It went around the city under all the bridges in the city. I was exhausted.
So, I worry. I worry about my parents dying. I try to enjoy every moment with my parent every weekend. I love them. I love them so much.
Monday, June 6, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
OPRAH FINAL SHOW...GOOD BYE OPRAH
I can’t deny that I have enjoyed her show. Oprah has managed to stay real by allowing her viewers to see her struggles: Her abused childhood. Her weight. Her early struggle to gain the confidence to succeed in TV. Her messages are generally universal in nature and empowering—find your inner spirit, forgiveness is empowering, believe in the power of redemption, and so forth. But it’s more than that, too.
As I was watching the celebrity-filled United Center send-off—yes, the celebrity shows are fluffy, but you have to admit it’s cool to see the range of celebrities who came out for her farewell—it occurred to me: there is no other show which has her capacity for social impact.
As they showed people—mostly women and children, but definitely men as well—from around the globe who have been touched by this show, it became clear to me what her departure from the stage will mean.
What other show has the capacity to put someone on screen, and almost instantly raise awareness of an issue to that degree? What other host has the leverage to get major corporations to donate hundreds of thousands, if not millions of dollars, to her specific causes? Who else can effect change so quickly and dramatically?
More than the celebrities, or the screaming women receiving free gifts, is the commitment to use her platform to improve the world. To speak out against abuse. To fight hunger, spread literacy, and provide a voice to others who felt they had none. To recognize so clearly that there were viewers at home who would identify with those on stage, who struggled with the same issue, and who might just use that particular episode as a lifeline to keep them afloat.
The key principle of her show, she tells the audience frequently, is intention. The good she has done with her fame and fortune is massive. Whether it is building a school, or giving away her favorite things, she is leaving a legacy of excellence and generosity. (Don’t you know how much I would have liked to be in the favorite things audience...screaming and head exploding like all the rest?) She has allowed herself to be known, glamorous one minute and flannel pajamas the next, and let us see her without makeup. She has built an audience so loyal that she seldom had to worry about ratings, but she vowed to present shows that had value for the viewer and she has done that extremely well. And let’s not forget that she got people to read and made a lot of authors’ careers.
.
Yes, I will miss her. I will miss her like a dear friend with whom I can laugh and cry. I have come to love her humor, her passion for her dogs, her straight talk and her intention to live her best life. I wouldn’t mind trying to live her best life – but I will continue to try to live my best life as well as I can. She has inspired that in me, and for that I admire and thank her. She will no doubt surprise us with her next chapters.
Just like Mary Hart...I will miss Oprah. Little by little....my childhood is going. The world is so uncertain....what is happening.
~ ~ ~ ~
As Oprah’s show has wound down, one specific episode really struck me.
When I heard that James Frey, the now infamous author of A Million Little Pieces, was going to be on her show again in the final weeks, I couldn’t believe it. How could she give that guy who lied in his book, and then presumably profited even more from the controversy, more publicity? I hate when people profit from bad behavior—see the financial collapse of 2008—and was upset that Oprah would give him this platform again.
(If you were absent from Earth and missed the James Frey controversy a few years ago, click here for a summary, or click here for the transcript of the January 2006 interview in which Oprah scorched Frey.)
But I watched the latest James Frey interview.
And it was riveting.
For starters, Oprah was much more low-key than she was when Frey came back to her show during the heat of the controversy in 2006. Back then, she tore into him for embarrassing her and deceiving her readers; now, sitting in a quiet hotel meeting space, with no studio guests, both Oprah and Frey were reflective on what happened. They both reflected about that famous day on her show, how the whole situation came to be, about all of it.
Interestingly enough, neither watched the show after it was first broadcast; Frey still hasn’t. (I wouldn’t, either; if there’s only pain and negativity in the rear-view mirror, take the lessons you need to get out of it and just look forward.)
He acknowledged, when asked, that he was not aware of the lion’s den he was about to walk into that day, that the producers had not told him the details in advance. Oprah then asked him essentially the same question in different ways at multiple points throughout the interview: Did he feel ambushed by the questions she asked him that day? Did he feel it was unfair? Was he upset afterward?
Every time she asked, his response always came back to this:
“Whatever happened that day, I brought on myself.”
He said it not in a diplomatic-but-quietly-I’m-upset kind of way, but in a way that suggested he really meant it. He did not communicate any feelings of anger over what happened, never once expressed displeasure with her producers for not preparing him.
So why did he come back that day, even when his attorneys advised him not to, telling him that he would expose himself to lawsuits and more?
“I came because I think I owed it to you to come,” he told Oprah. “When this was all happening, I kept saying to myself, ‘How did you arrive at this? How did you do this?’… I knew that what happened was my fault. I created that mess, I created that situation. And that if I had to come bear the responsibility of what I had done, that I should do it.”
Wow. I was stunned as I watched that.
We live in an age where we teach our children, and teens in particular, to make good decisions, to take responsibility for their actions. Yet all around us we see the opposite. We see athletes who get caught cheating yet continue to lie. Politicians who get caught yet continue to deny. People who simply refuse to say, “I made a mistake,” or more importantly, “I’m sorry.”
Frey did none of that. Over and over, he simply said it was entirely his fault. He explained that shifting the book’s genre to memoir would make the story more inspiring and thus increase sales. Once the book took off and was chosen for Oprah’s book club, things had spun out of control and there was no turning back. But all of that, he said, was on him.
Oprah, for her part, also expressed regret. She acknowledged the criticism she received after that show, that people said she judged him too harshly. Now, looking back, she said what people saw that day was a lack of compassion, for which she apologized to Frey. Also impressive.
I love stories of redemption. But more than that, I love stories where people take responsibility for their behavior and try to make things right, especially if it leads to the repair of a relationship. It’s so simple, so obvious, yet so rare.
As I was watching the celebrity-filled United Center send-off—yes, the celebrity shows are fluffy, but you have to admit it’s cool to see the range of celebrities who came out for her farewell—it occurred to me: there is no other show which has her capacity for social impact.
As they showed people—mostly women and children, but definitely men as well—from around the globe who have been touched by this show, it became clear to me what her departure from the stage will mean.
What other show has the capacity to put someone on screen, and almost instantly raise awareness of an issue to that degree? What other host has the leverage to get major corporations to donate hundreds of thousands, if not millions of dollars, to her specific causes? Who else can effect change so quickly and dramatically?
More than the celebrities, or the screaming women receiving free gifts, is the commitment to use her platform to improve the world. To speak out against abuse. To fight hunger, spread literacy, and provide a voice to others who felt they had none. To recognize so clearly that there were viewers at home who would identify with those on stage, who struggled with the same issue, and who might just use that particular episode as a lifeline to keep them afloat.
The key principle of her show, she tells the audience frequently, is intention. The good she has done with her fame and fortune is massive. Whether it is building a school, or giving away her favorite things, she is leaving a legacy of excellence and generosity. (Don’t you know how much I would have liked to be in the favorite things audience...screaming and head exploding like all the rest?) She has allowed herself to be known, glamorous one minute and flannel pajamas the next, and let us see her without makeup. She has built an audience so loyal that she seldom had to worry about ratings, but she vowed to present shows that had value for the viewer and she has done that extremely well. And let’s not forget that she got people to read and made a lot of authors’ careers.
.
Yes, I will miss her. I will miss her like a dear friend with whom I can laugh and cry. I have come to love her humor, her passion for her dogs, her straight talk and her intention to live her best life. I wouldn’t mind trying to live her best life – but I will continue to try to live my best life as well as I can. She has inspired that in me, and for that I admire and thank her. She will no doubt surprise us with her next chapters.
Just like Mary Hart...I will miss Oprah. Little by little....my childhood is going. The world is so uncertain....what is happening.
~ ~ ~ ~
As Oprah’s show has wound down, one specific episode really struck me.
When I heard that James Frey, the now infamous author of A Million Little Pieces, was going to be on her show again in the final weeks, I couldn’t believe it. How could she give that guy who lied in his book, and then presumably profited even more from the controversy, more publicity? I hate when people profit from bad behavior—see the financial collapse of 2008—and was upset that Oprah would give him this platform again.
(If you were absent from Earth and missed the James Frey controversy a few years ago, click here for a summary, or click here for the transcript of the January 2006 interview in which Oprah scorched Frey.)
But I watched the latest James Frey interview.
And it was riveting.
For starters, Oprah was much more low-key than she was when Frey came back to her show during the heat of the controversy in 2006. Back then, she tore into him for embarrassing her and deceiving her readers; now, sitting in a quiet hotel meeting space, with no studio guests, both Oprah and Frey were reflective on what happened. They both reflected about that famous day on her show, how the whole situation came to be, about all of it.
Interestingly enough, neither watched the show after it was first broadcast; Frey still hasn’t. (I wouldn’t, either; if there’s only pain and negativity in the rear-view mirror, take the lessons you need to get out of it and just look forward.)
He acknowledged, when asked, that he was not aware of the lion’s den he was about to walk into that day, that the producers had not told him the details in advance. Oprah then asked him essentially the same question in different ways at multiple points throughout the interview: Did he feel ambushed by the questions she asked him that day? Did he feel it was unfair? Was he upset afterward?
Every time she asked, his response always came back to this:
“Whatever happened that day, I brought on myself.”
He said it not in a diplomatic-but-quietly-I’m-upset kind of way, but in a way that suggested he really meant it. He did not communicate any feelings of anger over what happened, never once expressed displeasure with her producers for not preparing him.
So why did he come back that day, even when his attorneys advised him not to, telling him that he would expose himself to lawsuits and more?
“I came because I think I owed it to you to come,” he told Oprah. “When this was all happening, I kept saying to myself, ‘How did you arrive at this? How did you do this?’… I knew that what happened was my fault. I created that mess, I created that situation. And that if I had to come bear the responsibility of what I had done, that I should do it.”
Wow. I was stunned as I watched that.
We live in an age where we teach our children, and teens in particular, to make good decisions, to take responsibility for their actions. Yet all around us we see the opposite. We see athletes who get caught cheating yet continue to lie. Politicians who get caught yet continue to deny. People who simply refuse to say, “I made a mistake,” or more importantly, “I’m sorry.”
Frey did none of that. Over and over, he simply said it was entirely his fault. He explained that shifting the book’s genre to memoir would make the story more inspiring and thus increase sales. Once the book took off and was chosen for Oprah’s book club, things had spun out of control and there was no turning back. But all of that, he said, was on him.
Oprah, for her part, also expressed regret. She acknowledged the criticism she received after that show, that people said she judged him too harshly. Now, looking back, she said what people saw that day was a lack of compassion, for which she apologized to Frey. Also impressive.
I love stories of redemption. But more than that, I love stories where people take responsibility for their behavior and try to make things right, especially if it leads to the repair of a relationship. It’s so simple, so obvious, yet so rare.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Thursday, April 28, 2011
IT WAS 30 YEARS AGO ......(PRINCE WILLIAM WEDDING)
I remember Princess Diana wedding about 30 years ago. I was just kid. God...how time has pass by. I still remember that day...we used our VHS recorder to record the wedding.
I woke up 4:45 this morning and got to watch part of the wedding because I had to go to the city to see a doctor. I am happy for Prince William
I woke up 4:45 this morning and got to watch part of the wedding because I had to go to the city to see a doctor. I am happy for Prince William
Thursday, February 3, 2011
MY BIRTHDAY
Today was my Birthday. I was surprise at work today...a medical assistant put up a banner saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY and later on in the morning...gave me like 50 cupcakes. I share the cupcakes with everyone in the clinic...they had to stop at my office...and wish me Happy Birthday. It really touch me alot. Today was a good day
Saturday, December 25, 2010
JOURNAL
I saw TRON today...It was great...i remember watching the original when I was a kids. I just feel stressed out. I am not happy right now...
I am watching..."The Greatest Story Ever Told" and I wish I was like Jesus...i could give all my possession away and let go of EGO and save people. Give them the peace they want...and seek.
I want to try to form a company online, but I have no idea where to begin or how...even thought I had many books on how to start a business.
You can never tell what people are thinking and feeling unless they tell you, and usually they lie. you ask them, ‘Whats wrong?’ and they say ‘Nothing’. You accept this because it’s easier than digging for the truth. People smile when they want to cry, they laugh when they want to scream and shout. They pretend like nothing is wrong because they don’t want to face the truth. Things aren’t always rainbows and butterflies, sometimes you gotta scream and cry your anger and sadness to the world, because you can only hold it in for so long before something in you snaps. so when you want to cry, cry. When you want to scream, scream. Don’t hide behind fake smiles, it’s ok to not be alright.
I am watching..."The Greatest Story Ever Told" and I wish I was like Jesus...i could give all my possession away and let go of EGO and save people. Give them the peace they want...and seek.
I want to try to form a company online, but I have no idea where to begin or how...even thought I had many books on how to start a business.
You can never tell what people are thinking and feeling unless they tell you, and usually they lie. you ask them, ‘Whats wrong?’ and they say ‘Nothing’. You accept this because it’s easier than digging for the truth. People smile when they want to cry, they laugh when they want to scream and shout. They pretend like nothing is wrong because they don’t want to face the truth. Things aren’t always rainbows and butterflies, sometimes you gotta scream and cry your anger and sadness to the world, because you can only hold it in for so long before something in you snaps. so when you want to cry, cry. When you want to scream, scream. Don’t hide behind fake smiles, it’s ok to not be alright.
Monday, September 27, 2010
JOURNAL/THOUGHTS: FREE CLINICS IN NEW YORK CITY
Free Clinics in New York City
The New York City Free Clinic
Sidney Hillman Health Center
16th East 16th Street, 3rd Floor
Manhattan, NY 10003
Saturday morning hours
An appointment is necessary
917-544-0735 (4-6 pm weekdays and 9-12 Saturday) or (212) 263-1001 (alternate #
between the hours of 4-6 PM weekdays)
Accepts uninsured and underserved
The Walton Free Clinic (ECHO Free Clinic)
Walton Family Health Center
1894 Walton Avenue, corner of Walton Avenue and 177th Street
Bronx, NY 10453
Saturday morning hours
Call 1-800-836-1316 to schedule an appointment or 718-583-3060
Walk-ins are accepted, but it is best to make an appointment
Accepts uninsured and underserved
Bronx Community Clinic
953 Southern Blvd.
Bronx, NY 10459
(718) 741-4900
Bedford Stuyvesant Family Health Center
1413 Fulton Street
Brooklyn, NY 11216
Phone: 718-636-4500
Brooklyn Community Clinic
1205 Sutter Avenue
Brooklyn, NY 11208
Phone: 718-647-2600
Dental Health Clinic: NYU (New York University) Free Dental Clinic
Location: Manhattan at 345 East 24th Street (on the corner of First Avenue).
Tel: (212) 998-9800
Hours of operation: Monday through Thursday, 9 a.m. to 7 p.m., and Friday, 8:30 a.m. to
3 p.m.
Walk-in registration is available; emergency care available do not need an appointment;
Accept insurance.
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Mental Health Free Clinic: Fieve Clinical Services, Inc.
226 East 79th Street New York, NY 10021
(212) 772-3570
Monday: 9:30 AM to 6:30 PM Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday: 9:30 AM to 6:00 PM
Friday: 10:00 AM to 4:00 PM
Free medical and psychological evaluations.
Websites: www.fieveclinical.com & www.depression-md.com
STD Clinics
Harlem
The clinics listed below are all located in the Harlem neighborhood. The doctors at theseclinics have been trained to work with teens and young adults. You can go to these clinics for a health check up or if you feel sick. All of the clinics listed offer urine screening tests for STDs (which means that the doctors find if you have gonorrhea or chlamydia without a full exam).
Helen B. Atkinson (HBA) Health Center
81 West 115th St.,(212) 426-0088
Monday, Tuesday, Thursday 9-5, Wednesday 10-6, Friday 9-1, Saturday 9-4
Sydenham
215 West 125th St., (212) 932-6500
Monday through Friday 8-8, Saturday 8-4
NYC DOH Adolescent STD Clinic
2238 Fifth Avenue,(212) 690-1760
Wednesday 1-5
Drew Hamilton Health Center
2698 Eight Avenue,
at 143rd St.
(212) 939-8950
Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday 8:30-5, Tuesday 11-7
The Young Men's Clinic
21 Audobon Avenue,
btw. 166th & 167th Streets
(212) 342-3201
Monday 4-8, Friday 1-5
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Manhattan
•Central Harlem
2238 Fifth Avenue (137th Street)
New York, NY 10037
phone: 212-690-1760 - Call before attending
o STD Services & HIV Counseling and Testing:
Monday thru Friday — 8:30- 4:30
o Travel Information: #2 train to 135th Street
•East Harlem
158 East 115th Street (off Lexington Avenue)
New York, NY 10029
phone: 212-360-5962 - Call before attending
o STD Services:
Tuesday, Wednesday & Thursday — 8:30-4:30
HIV Counseling & Testing
Monday thru Friday — 8:30-4:30
o Travel Information: #6 train to 116th Street
•Chelsea
303 Ninth Avenue (28th Street)
New York, NY 10001
phone: 212-239-1725 - Call before attending
o STD Services & HIV Counseling & Testing:
Monday thru Friday — 8:30- 4:30
Saturday — 9:00-2:00 P.M.
o Travel Information: C or E trains to 23rd Street or
#1 or #9 to 28th Street
•Riverside
160 West 100th Street (between Columbus/Amsterdam)
New York, NY 10025
phone: 212-865-7757 - Call before attending
o STD Services & HIV Counseling & Testing
Monday thru Friday — 8:30-4:30
o Travel Information: #1, #9, B, C, to 96th Street
Bronx
•Morrisania
1309 Fulton Avenue (E 169th Street off 3rd Ave)
Bronx, NY 10456
phone: 718-579-7714 - Call before attending
o STD Services & HIV Counseling & Testing:
Monday thru Friday — 8:00 A.M.-4:00
Saturday — 8:30 A.M.-1:30
o Travel Information: #55 or #15 bus to 169th Street/3rd Avenue
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Staten Island
•Richmond
51 Stuyvesant Place (Wall Street)
St. George, NY
phone: 718-983-4515/ 4513 - Call before attending
o HIV Counseling/Testing:
Monday thru Friday — 8:30-4:30
STD Services:
Monday — 1:00-4:00
Thursday — 1:00-4:00
Brooklyn
•Crown Heights
1218 Prospect Place, 2nd Flr. (Troy Ave.)
Brooklyn, NY 11213
phone: 718-735-0580 - Call before attending
o STD Services & HIV Counseling & Testing:
Monday thru Friday — 8:30- 4:30
o Travel Information: #3, #4, A, or C trains to Utica Avenue
•Fort Greene
295 Flatbush Ave. Ext. 5th Flr.
Brooklyn, NY 11201
phone: 718- 643-4133 - Call before attending
o STD Services & HIV Counseling & Testing:
Monday thru Friday — 8:30-4:30
Saturday — 8:30-1:30
o Travel Information: #2, #3, #5 trains to Nevins Avenue
N, R, D trains to Dekalb Avenue
•Bedford-Stuyvesant
485 Troop Ave. - 1st Flr.
Brooklyn, NY 11221
phone: 718- 574-2482 - Call before attending
o HIV Counseling & Testing:
Monday thru Friday — 8:30-4:00
o Travel Information: C train to Throop Avenue
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
JOURNAL
So this past Wednesday...on Sept 1 I sign a contract on a home. I can't wait to move in. I will finally be a home owner. No more apartment. I will invite my parent over as soon as i move in.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
JOURNAL: BARNES AND NOBLE CLOSING
Another example of why I left the upper west side. My favorite spot in the city... Barnes & Noble at 66th Street and Broadway in Manhattan is closing by the end of the years. I can't tell you the many hours I spent there and the number or famous people I met there. It sadden me that this place is closing. I wrote my first blog in yahoo's geocities from there. The whole upper west side is changing, but in my opinion..for the worst.
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/08/31/nyregion/31barnes.html?_r=1&ref=nyregion
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/08/31/nyregion/31barnes.html?_r=1&ref=nyregion
Saturday, August 28, 2010
JOURNAL
So I am signing the contract on house. I am more relax now. I had a great life, yet I never seem to be able to enjoy it. I am always on a high state of fear and anxiety. I can't ever seem to relax. I am blessed. I lived in New York City in the upper west side.
Monday, August 23, 2010
JOURNAL: FOUND A NEW HOME
So I finally found a house last weekend...and i made a bid. After looking at more homes this weekend, it made me raise my offer for the house. It has everything...two car garb., near the high way, property tax no high, big lot, and the best thing..is the owner fix the bathroom. I don't have to really do that much work. After looking at 100 homes....since this spring, I am done. Thank you God for help me.
Monday, August 16, 2010
JOURNAL
I made a bid for a house today. I didn't sleep well last night. I saw myself living in that house.Dear God...please help me with this house
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
JOURNAL: JURY DUTY
I had to go the city for Jury Duty. I don't live in the city anymore..so I show the clerk all the paper. I got dismissed. But still it was stressful to go the city today.
I was exhausted when I got home....but i sure happy I didn't go to work today.
I was exhausted when I got home....but i sure happy I didn't go to work today.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
JOURNAL: NEVER FEELING GOOD ENOUGH
I think I'm better off than most people but I always feel like it's never enough. Sometime I feel down and unhappy because I wish to have this and be able to that. I got some of things that I thought would make me happy but the happiness is only temporary. When I get what I want, I tend to forget about it and want something else. It seems like nothing could satisfy me and maybe I should just be happy with what I got.
Who measures what a "successful" life is? You do. Nobody else.
If all you ever achieve in life is wasting your time away daydreaming and writing just one small piece of song or poetry, and that little bit of poetry becomes an inspiration generations later to a person who remakes world society (or whatever) - is that a life you would consider "unsuccessful"?
If somebody is perfectly happy just living alone in a hut, growing their own vegetables, who are you to determine that that kind of life is wasted?
If happiness exists, I think it is not up to others to judge or decide what is valuable and what isn't.
However, the point is to determine whether however you live your life actually DOES make you happy. If not, you're buying comfort and the illusion of safety at the expense of happiness.
The same is true for the opposite. Setting goals arbitrarily (new car, new house, etc.) in the material world just to in the end realize that it means nothing, because you never found out what would have made you happy.
For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time to still be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.
This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have. And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time … and remember that time waits for no one…
So stop waiting
until you finish school,
until you go back to school,
until you lose ten pounds,
until you gain ten pounds,
until you have kids,
until your kids leave the house,
until you start work,
until you retire,
until you get married,
until you get divorced,
until Friday night,
until Sunday morning,
until you get a new car or home,
until your car or home is paid off,
until spring,
until summer,
until fall,
until winter,
until you are off welfare,
until the first or fifteenth,
until your song comes on,
until you've had a drink,
until you've sobered up,
until you die,
until you are born again
to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy…
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
Who measures what a "successful" life is? You do. Nobody else.
If all you ever achieve in life is wasting your time away daydreaming and writing just one small piece of song or poetry, and that little bit of poetry becomes an inspiration generations later to a person who remakes world society (or whatever) - is that a life you would consider "unsuccessful"?
If somebody is perfectly happy just living alone in a hut, growing their own vegetables, who are you to determine that that kind of life is wasted?
If happiness exists, I think it is not up to others to judge or decide what is valuable and what isn't.
However, the point is to determine whether however you live your life actually DOES make you happy. If not, you're buying comfort and the illusion of safety at the expense of happiness.
The same is true for the opposite. Setting goals arbitrarily (new car, new house, etc.) in the material world just to in the end realize that it means nothing, because you never found out what would have made you happy.
For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time to still be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.
This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have. And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time … and remember that time waits for no one…
So stop waiting
until you finish school,
until you go back to school,
until you lose ten pounds,
until you gain ten pounds,
until you have kids,
until your kids leave the house,
until you start work,
until you retire,
until you get married,
until you get divorced,
until Friday night,
until Sunday morning,
until you get a new car or home,
until your car or home is paid off,
until spring,
until summer,
until fall,
until winter,
until you are off welfare,
until the first or fifteenth,
until your song comes on,
until you've had a drink,
until you've sobered up,
until you die,
until you are born again
to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy…
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
Monday, February 1, 2010
JOURNAL:SAD DAY...MY WIFE WILL HAVE A MISCARRIAGE
My wife had a anembryonic pregnancy.She will have a miscarriage. I am so sad...I thought I was going to be a daddy, and I found out that i will not be one.
Blighted Ovum
Despite the fact that it is a fairly common complication, few people have heard of blighted ovum, also known as an anembryonic pregnancy. Simply put, a blighted ovum is when normal conception, implantation, and growth of the placenta happen but no fetus develops. A blighted ovum always ends in a miscarriage within the first trimester and is in fact the cause of 50% to 60% of all first trimester miscarriages. Unfortunately, there is nothing that can be done to prevent it.
What happens with Blighted Ovum?
Since the implanted egg is fertilized, it is natural to assume that everything should progress normally with the pregnancy. With a blighted ovum though, the body can detect that something is wrong with the fertilized egg and therefore stops developing it. It is your body's own way of ensuring you have a healthy pregnancy and baby.
While it is not known exactly what causes a blighted ovum, most experts believe that some sort of chromosomal abnormality with either the egg or the sperm prevents the normal development. However, this abnormality is not indicative of future problems. Although a blighted ovum is common, it usually happens no more than once. Therefore, your health care provider will not refer you for genetic testing. If you experience two or more consecutive miscarriages though, then you may be referred for genetic testing.
It is also possible to have a blighted ovum with a twin pregnancy. In this case, one of the fertilized eggs does not continue to develop while the other does. The blighted ovum does not affect the second fertilized egg.
Blighted Ovum
Despite the fact that it is a fairly common complication, few people have heard of blighted ovum, also known as an anembryonic pregnancy. Simply put, a blighted ovum is when normal conception, implantation, and growth of the placenta happen but no fetus develops. A blighted ovum always ends in a miscarriage within the first trimester and is in fact the cause of 50% to 60% of all first trimester miscarriages. Unfortunately, there is nothing that can be done to prevent it.
What happens with Blighted Ovum?
Since the implanted egg is fertilized, it is natural to assume that everything should progress normally with the pregnancy. With a blighted ovum though, the body can detect that something is wrong with the fertilized egg and therefore stops developing it. It is your body's own way of ensuring you have a healthy pregnancy and baby.
While it is not known exactly what causes a blighted ovum, most experts believe that some sort of chromosomal abnormality with either the egg or the sperm prevents the normal development. However, this abnormality is not indicative of future problems. Although a blighted ovum is common, it usually happens no more than once. Therefore, your health care provider will not refer you for genetic testing. If you experience two or more consecutive miscarriages though, then you may be referred for genetic testing.
It is also possible to have a blighted ovum with a twin pregnancy. In this case, one of the fertilized eggs does not continue to develop while the other does. The blighted ovum does not affect the second fertilized egg.
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