POETRY: WHY CAN'T YOU COME TO ME WHEN I AM AWAKE?

I looked at many women 
but they could never see 
love screaming for release 
Or how it needed to be free. 

Tears flowed silently
from eyes,
My heart kept wishing, 
then there was you. 

Across the land, 
deep as the sea, 
your smile warmed my life. 
Love has summoned me. 

I danced again 
with a carefree heart. 
Your hand in mine-
a brand new start. 

Our days are many, 
and I never tire of the sound
of your arms 
as they come to lay me down


2

You visit me in my dreams
And you are beautiful.
You calmly touch my face
And my body tenses up with excitement.
Your gorgeous dark eyes
Look deep into mine
And my tranquil spirit
Is uplifted and overwhelmed with passion.
Why can't you come to me when I am awake?
Why can't my jealous conscious
Experience what my subconscious feels at night?
I must be patient.
I will wait for you
And when you come
You will be perfect
And I will love you
Unconditionally.
But I wish you would hurry
Because I am lonely.
Oh how I long for you.

3


My love is you
you are my love.
You're everything that 
I have wanted and needed.
You are my life, my heart,
and my soul. With you I feel
complete. I love you will all 
of my heart. Just know that my 
feelings for you are true.



4

As he kneels to her every desire she wonders 
if this was her final destiny?
What about the one that went away? Was he the one who held the key?

What if god made a big mistake? He doesn't feel like her true soul mate!

Is he her wrong prince charming? How can she love him with her mind 
still wondering? Her heart is longing for the one she lost.
As he tries to make all her dreams come true, she hides her tears 
as she whispers "I Love You Too".
Why can't her heart feel complete bliss? Why was he the one 
who held that special kiss? She doesn't want to feel empty like this! 
Was it a mistake to marry him? She wonders every night what might 
have been.

Where did the one she fell in love with go? If only she could go back 
and change the past she would have made his love for her last, 
and forgive and forget the pain he once caused.
He is not the prince charming she wanted him to be, 
he is only her husband, but not her final destiny.

The one who knew all, her secrets and fears is now gone forever 
and she bears these lonely tears. Happily Ever After is not 
at all what it seemed, but maybe this was part of god's little scheme.
Why did it all have to disappear? Her heart is still aching 
her mind isn't clear. Where did he go? Where could he be? 
The one she truly loved her Final Destiny

5

Lovers are so vulnerable.
They want to open their hearts.
They want to let down the drawbridge
And open the gate.

Lovers are so brave.
They let the deep wounds heal, then try again.
They polish the old armor and walk out, clanking;
Lifting the visor to flirt a little.

The castle of the heart is strong.
Keep it warm and full of music.
Give banquets for your friends.
Dance all night and sleep late the next morning.

Lovers are so vulnerable and brave.
They deserve trumpets and banners
As they ride out to risk their hearts;
Letting down the drawbridge, opening the gate

6

i'm no poet.

but you are the nightingale in this bag of bones
you glide through these cables 
past this bellowing drum of a heart
wings gently brush along the walls
of this electric soul

i'm no less a man.

but your voice it echoes
over the steady hum of the cables
and you descend upon me
in the places i've forgotten
to sing your heavenly discourse
for the rusty walls of this electric soul

the hum of the cables dies to a whisper

i'm no fool.

but i am listening...

7

You are my life, my security, my destiny.
If you were not alive, 
what would the significance of living be.
Sacred are you who is in my heart.
I shall never let the love for you depart.

Even when it is raining- it is sunny to me.
You light up my life and that is all I can see.
Dark, thunderous clouds roll through the sky,
But yet, the sunshine still will never die.

My heart is set to this one special place,
For it is you that takes up the miraculous space.
Just looking into your eyes 
makes me feel confident and strong.
We will always share this prominent bond.

You need to disconnect from what you had in the past,
So our love for each other can become and last.
My future rests within your soul and desire,
Setting my spirit burning as powerful as a fire.

I use my inspiration and picture this fantasy in my head,
And have come to the conclusion 
that living without you is what I dread.
My feelings of expression are shown to you up above,
Letting you know that you're my only love.


8

Wild hearts filled with blazing glory
Compassion?s eyes that run so deep
Fingers feeling and yet untouching
Senses aroused and easily pleased

Hard days night, into the morning
Rivers dry in it's widening bend
The road goes by, idle of traffic
Quietness, does my mind it spends

Alone now and I lay thinking
The room is still but moves in meld
Urges of life are so demanding
Remaining in a transit spell

Roars of thunder heard behind me
Rumbles felt beneath my feet
Lightning strikes in a far off distance
Rain drops beat upon my eave

Many thoughts of you are coming
Loving, touching, upon my face
Hands that reach across the table
Into my own with such mindless grace


9

I raised up my head
and the sky was blue
The heavens gave light
and the stars shined through
Here I am
surrendering to you
Just one more time...
...to be close to you

10

Upon the early birth of dawn,
The Earth erupts into a calm;
Rays of warmth's splendid light,
Shake the ice from winter's night.

The birth of newborn babes rejoiced,
Faces around the bed made moist;
For life has been extended anew,
Feelings shared in pairs of two.

Convergent souls give rise to one,
Their hopes and dreams given to son;
To see a part of you passed on,
A legacy passed on at dawn.

10

Love is but a whisper that comes from within,
it tells our heart it's time to begin.

To love the one we choose in our life,
whether it be a husband or a beautiful wife.

It shows us the stars that are possible to reach,
it's the story of life it begins to teach.

Day dreams start to come each and every day,
of living together and watching your children play.

Love comes from deep in the soul,
years and age begin to take a toll.

Our bodys die and fade away,
but love is always here, it's here to stay.

My friends remember love is but a whisper that comes from within,
it is always here and will never end.

11

A dove spreads his wings
and glides over the midnight soil

His peace shines within,
and he caresses the wind
as he glides over the midnight mist.

Through the window of a nearby house,
far from the reaches of the city lights,
the dove stops in awe as he views a nearby Angel
stretching in the moon's early light

A tear runs down his face,
and he hangs his head,
as he realizes this Angel has not yet grown her wings,
and he prays to the heavens she will mature
and soar into the sky,
... free of torment.

In my sleep,
I dream of her,
yet, I cannot touch her.
I can feel her presence, as I rest

I smell her essence,
and I can feel her heartbeat in tandem with mine.
I feel her sigh with every breath I take,
and I feel our tears stream across our cheeks...

Such emptiness,
such longing,
if only I could be by her side forever.

Could it be,
could I be so lucky
to know such bliss ?

I still wonder to myself how I, of all people,
could have been blessed with such intense passion

And yet,
it is a curse which haunts me,
for I feel the pain of a thousand hearts.. in agony..

I pray, I wish, I hope, I crave,
a love which lasts forever,
and that that love is pure in spirit,
devoid of evil,
and so beautiful,
it could make even the most evil soul drop to his knees
and weep like a newborn child.

How do I explain this intense love?.
I cannot,
but I smile as I watch the dove soar before me,
against the evening's fading light,
and I shed a tear with its sadness
as it waits for the Angels to grow into ligh

POETRY: LOST IN LITTLE MOMENTS, THESE MEMORIES

seemingly virginal was her skin
as i strolled along the beach this morn.
waves had erased away all evidence
of all who had ventured before me
saving a single starfish
proposing that maybe
it was placed there for me to find.
gently cradling it in my hands
and wading into the embrace of the sea
i placed it back into its world
and smiled.
guiding myself back onto the sand
i found my own tracks erased
and having an uneasy feeling
of my own isolation there
a woman appeared, said she found me.
gently cradling my face in her hands
she embraced me with her heart
and smiled...

2

This deep blue sea is a window to my heart.
I feel it beating for its last time.

The window- fading, the heart- turning to stone.
The sea will dry up...
And a desert shall take over
A window lost forever...

Shall I never be found?
Maybe a lost stranger will dig me up
And my heart, once again beating
and full of life t

Till that day comes...
Life is not life.

3

Love is a jewel treasured in a person's heart and you do not know how
it got there or when it came to be.
It is an emotion two people feel for each other when no one understands
but them and there is no need for others to you see.
You know that when you are sleeping, someone far away is dreaming about
you and longing to feel your touch next to them,
To hold you and tell you they love you and would do anything to be with
you as you would to be with them.
You feel a sense of peace in your heart because you know deep down
inside they will soon be yours no matter how long it takes, that they
are worth the wait.
When you find love, never let it go and and when it is right in your
heart you will know:)

4

The ocean waves crash softly onto shore
And the sun creeps silently into the sky
And I open my eyes slowly to see you
Right beside me
I softly touch your tender skin
And as I do comes the whisper of the wind
As it glides softly thru to brace your face
And then climbs thru your hair
And crawls upon my face
I feel the sensation of your love
As the wind lies down slowly to rest upon my face
And I breath in deeply
And your love is quickly spread thru my body
Everything freezes but the time
And soon it is night again
And I look into your eyes
To see the stars of the night
Reflected in your eyes
And I kiss your lips
Slowly we fall asleep again
In each other's arms
To again repeat the sense of your love
And as I close my eyes
The wind glides over your mouth and collects
And then brushes past my ears to echo the words
I love you

5

In the merciless dark of emotions
I linger
Where lovers entomb me -
Trapped in their folds
I am a spider
Scurrying from its own web

While all the days, the nights, the hours
Spent in the company of love
Serves to crush and mold me -
To placate and console me -
To enter immutable shapes
From which I cannot, and never shall escape.

Once I was a King, now merely dust
Calling for its echo in sepulchral tones -
Decorating darkness in a jeweled box -
Trapped in this burial chamber of the heart

Where emotions surround me -
Their force gives me form, shaped by their art
For love is my casket
And I am its corpse -

Lost in little moments, these memories
Of summer days on the pyramid sands -
Sharing and declaring true sunset
Or traces made by indelicate hands -
All these have fled, and I am alone -

Bereft of choice by my lack of emotion

I linger



6

When I was young and alone
I never thought there could be
Another person who was alone
Dreaming of someone like me.

Then the day came along
When I knew I had found
Another person just like me
With both feet on the ground.

So we both knew it was destined
And we both knew it was right
And we realized we'd found magic
As we hold each other tight.

So beneath this endless sky
Where all the heavens see
I will now dare to say I love you
Because I know that you love me.



7

there is a thin line between lust and love
lust is a craving for chocolate
love is a craving of emotion.
love soothes emotionaly
lust soothes physically
messing through hair and a soft touch on the lips
love is a race of the heart 
while lust is a race with the hand.


8

Sweet memories sometimes conflict
In our minds when experiences resemble one another
But so vivid is the night when two hearts clicked
And were ordained by the astral angels that assembled.

The night was mundane
Except that the silver moon was absent
But the countless stars winessed the mandate
Along with the women who roast corn by the roadside.

Just on a routinely mooching
Even thinking that we knew love
Palms fused before the envious munchers
God! The spell fell over us and our heads were lost.

Our bodies felt so weak
And we lost knowledge of our own fingers
The magic union vision now falls upon at work 
And since my love for thee, remains wonderous.

8

Your heart is not just a muscle
that beats inside your chest.
It's a place where all
of your love can rest.

Your heart is not just a part of
your body; it's part of your soul.
But sometimes your heart
can take a toll.

Your heart can be broken;
your heart can be shattered.
Your heart can be whipped;
your heart can be battered.

Your heart can be your enemy;
your heart can be your friend
your heart is the little voice
inside you that said
"i think i can"

9

A life spent without shared dreams,
Is a life not truly lived.
Let's say we'll go to that beach,
Even if we know we never will.
Say we'll make love on the shore
As the waves roll against us.
Our bodies will become one
Beneath a large moon
Surrounded by bright stars.
The moist sand will swallow us,
As we become one with the earth.

Let's say that we'll take a walk in the woods,
Even if we know we'll never have time.
Say we'll walk in the meadow
Beside a gurgling stream.
We'll dance in the moonlight
With the fireflies.
Falling onto the grass we'll lay,
Watching the stars glisten
Until the world around us is a dream...

Let's say we'll go to the mountains,
Even if we doubt we ever will.
Say we'll ride bareback on horses,
When neither of us ever liked them much.
We'll find we love it as we ride
Higher and higher,
Until we can look down upon the little town below.
We'll light a fire under the stars.
The light will embrace us as we kiss...
A kiss of true, unconditional love,
Of dreams we've shared throughout the years.


10

Your kind hand has touched my heart
Your words have soothed my soul
Our spirits dwell in harmony
To you my life I owe

You are the very reason 
For everything I do
With patience and understanding
That is imparted to all but a few

This gift you choose to share with me 
And a precious gift at that
Your love in abundant measure
Is always given back.

Cast on life?s waters carefully 
The buds of love return
The eternal flame within my heart 
For you will always burn

11

There are tears in your eyes
There are wonders in your mind 
I hold you close, near my heart
I feel your heart beat companied with mine 
* * *
You are surely mine,
I am surely yours 
There is no me and you 
But only we and our
* * *
Come close to me
let me hear your heart beat
let me hear it so softly
* * *
Your touch is so smooth
Your kiss is so tender 
Your embrace is softer
Your love is nicer
* * *
Come sit with me 
Come share with me 
The world and future of what is going-to-be
* * * 
I want only you
I need only you
Because I see through you... 
me 

12

At night, all seems at peace. 
All things are getting sleepy, 
all things are slowing down. 
It's time once again to let the body rest. 
Yet lying here in bed, 
it's hard for me to sleep. 
I can feel the heat from your body, 
I can hear the beating of your heart. 
I can hear your breathing steady. 
I love having you so close to me. 
I can see the outline of your face 
in the dimly lit room. 
As I stare at your beauty 
I realize how wonderful you are. 
And as I watch you sleep, 
I can't help but wonder, what's going on 
behind your closed eyes? 
What are you dreaming about 
that helps you sleep so peacefully? 
It makes me feel so wonderful 
that you feel so safe with me 
to fall asleep in my arms without a second thought. 
I wonder what your dreams are 
and what you hope to be 
and when you are successful 
I hope I'm there to see. 
I wonder what a guy like me did 
to deserve a young woman so special. 
A woman who gives me her time so freely, 
who treats me like I'm special. 
I would never want to be with another. 
I've lucked out getting the best there ever could be. 
If ever you should stay awake long enough, 
and I fall asleep fast enough 
perhaps you might look at me while I'm sleeping 
and wonder what I'm dreaming of 
behind my closed eyes. Be assured my love 
all my dreams, both awake and asleep, 
only consist of you. 

13

You're in the very deepest place
Where no-one else can see
Fathoms down in consciousness
Where I meet you and you meet me

Fantasy and energy
Combine in fire and synergy
Life sparks independently
Powers surge contentedly
Dimensions connect dynamically
Dreams can become reality

You're in the very deepest place
Where no-one else can see
Fathoms down in consciousness
Where I meet you and you meet me

PART III

When you wake up tomorrow, 
Know i am thinking about you at the very moment
For you are always on my mind and in my heart.
When you wake up tomorrow,
Know that someone longs for your sweet and tender touch.
When you wake up tomorrow
Feel rejoice and energy just to know 
That someone cares as much for you as I do.

14

Life....what is it for?
Why do we live?
Is it to love? 
To have fun?
To enjoy ourselve?
What is Life for?
It doesn't matter.
Because it's not about life...
Not about love... fun... 
or enjoyment.
It's about beauty.
That's why we live.
That's why we die.
Because we're beautiful.
So.... 
beautiful.
Everything we do.
Everything we say.
Everything we think.
Everything is beautiful.
And why...
Do people feel awe 
When they see beautiful things...
mountains...
animals... 
people... 
it's because of beauty....
It's because....
we
are 
in
love 
with
beauty. 
And that's why we live....
because life...
is beautiful. 
And we...
are in love....
with beauty.