POETRY: WHY CAN'T YOU COME TO ME WHEN I AM AWAKE?

I looked at many women 
but they could never see 
love screaming for release 
Or how it needed to be free. 

Tears flowed silently
from eyes,
My heart kept wishing, 
then there was you. 

Across the land, 
deep as the sea, 
your smile warmed my life. 
Love has summoned me. 

I danced again 
with a carefree heart. 
Your hand in mine-
a brand new start. 

Our days are many, 
and I never tire of the sound
of your arms 
as they come to lay me down


2

You visit me in my dreams
And you are beautiful.
You calmly touch my face
And my body tenses up with excitement.
Your gorgeous dark eyes
Look deep into mine
And my tranquil spirit
Is uplifted and overwhelmed with passion.
Why can't you come to me when I am awake?
Why can't my jealous conscious
Experience what my subconscious feels at night?
I must be patient.
I will wait for you
And when you come
You will be perfect
And I will love you
Unconditionally.
But I wish you would hurry
Because I am lonely.
Oh how I long for you.

3


My love is you
you are my love.
You're everything that 
I have wanted and needed.
You are my life, my heart,
and my soul. With you I feel
complete. I love you will all 
of my heart. Just know that my 
feelings for you are true.



4

As he kneels to her every desire she wonders 
if this was her final destiny?
What about the one that went away? Was he the one who held the key?

What if god made a big mistake? He doesn't feel like her true soul mate!

Is he her wrong prince charming? How can she love him with her mind 
still wondering? Her heart is longing for the one she lost.
As he tries to make all her dreams come true, she hides her tears 
as she whispers "I Love You Too".
Why can't her heart feel complete bliss? Why was he the one 
who held that special kiss? She doesn't want to feel empty like this! 
Was it a mistake to marry him? She wonders every night what might 
have been.

Where did the one she fell in love with go? If only she could go back 
and change the past she would have made his love for her last, 
and forgive and forget the pain he once caused.
He is not the prince charming she wanted him to be, 
he is only her husband, but not her final destiny.

The one who knew all, her secrets and fears is now gone forever 
and she bears these lonely tears. Happily Ever After is not 
at all what it seemed, but maybe this was part of god's little scheme.
Why did it all have to disappear? Her heart is still aching 
her mind isn't clear. Where did he go? Where could he be? 
The one she truly loved her Final Destiny

5

Lovers are so vulnerable.
They want to open their hearts.
They want to let down the drawbridge
And open the gate.

Lovers are so brave.
They let the deep wounds heal, then try again.
They polish the old armor and walk out, clanking;
Lifting the visor to flirt a little.

The castle of the heart is strong.
Keep it warm and full of music.
Give banquets for your friends.
Dance all night and sleep late the next morning.

Lovers are so vulnerable and brave.
They deserve trumpets and banners
As they ride out to risk their hearts;
Letting down the drawbridge, opening the gate

6

i'm no poet.

but you are the nightingale in this bag of bones
you glide through these cables 
past this bellowing drum of a heart
wings gently brush along the walls
of this electric soul

i'm no less a man.

but your voice it echoes
over the steady hum of the cables
and you descend upon me
in the places i've forgotten
to sing your heavenly discourse
for the rusty walls of this electric soul

the hum of the cables dies to a whisper

i'm no fool.

but i am listening...

7

You are my life, my security, my destiny.
If you were not alive, 
what would the significance of living be.
Sacred are you who is in my heart.
I shall never let the love for you depart.

Even when it is raining- it is sunny to me.
You light up my life and that is all I can see.
Dark, thunderous clouds roll through the sky,
But yet, the sunshine still will never die.

My heart is set to this one special place,
For it is you that takes up the miraculous space.
Just looking into your eyes 
makes me feel confident and strong.
We will always share this prominent bond.

You need to disconnect from what you had in the past,
So our love for each other can become and last.
My future rests within your soul and desire,
Setting my spirit burning as powerful as a fire.

I use my inspiration and picture this fantasy in my head,
And have come to the conclusion 
that living without you is what I dread.
My feelings of expression are shown to you up above,
Letting you know that you're my only love.


8

Wild hearts filled with blazing glory
Compassion?s eyes that run so deep
Fingers feeling and yet untouching
Senses aroused and easily pleased

Hard days night, into the morning
Rivers dry in it's widening bend
The road goes by, idle of traffic
Quietness, does my mind it spends

Alone now and I lay thinking
The room is still but moves in meld
Urges of life are so demanding
Remaining in a transit spell

Roars of thunder heard behind me
Rumbles felt beneath my feet
Lightning strikes in a far off distance
Rain drops beat upon my eave

Many thoughts of you are coming
Loving, touching, upon my face
Hands that reach across the table
Into my own with such mindless grace


9

I raised up my head
and the sky was blue
The heavens gave light
and the stars shined through
Here I am
surrendering to you
Just one more time...
...to be close to you

10

Upon the early birth of dawn,
The Earth erupts into a calm;
Rays of warmth's splendid light,
Shake the ice from winter's night.

The birth of newborn babes rejoiced,
Faces around the bed made moist;
For life has been extended anew,
Feelings shared in pairs of two.

Convergent souls give rise to one,
Their hopes and dreams given to son;
To see a part of you passed on,
A legacy passed on at dawn.

10

Love is but a whisper that comes from within,
it tells our heart it's time to begin.

To love the one we choose in our life,
whether it be a husband or a beautiful wife.

It shows us the stars that are possible to reach,
it's the story of life it begins to teach.

Day dreams start to come each and every day,
of living together and watching your children play.

Love comes from deep in the soul,
years and age begin to take a toll.

Our bodys die and fade away,
but love is always here, it's here to stay.

My friends remember love is but a whisper that comes from within,
it is always here and will never end.

11

A dove spreads his wings
and glides over the midnight soil

His peace shines within,
and he caresses the wind
as he glides over the midnight mist.

Through the window of a nearby house,
far from the reaches of the city lights,
the dove stops in awe as he views a nearby Angel
stretching in the moon's early light

A tear runs down his face,
and he hangs his head,
as he realizes this Angel has not yet grown her wings,
and he prays to the heavens she will mature
and soar into the sky,
... free of torment.

In my sleep,
I dream of her,
yet, I cannot touch her.
I can feel her presence, as I rest

I smell her essence,
and I can feel her heartbeat in tandem with mine.
I feel her sigh with every breath I take,
and I feel our tears stream across our cheeks...

Such emptiness,
such longing,
if only I could be by her side forever.

Could it be,
could I be so lucky
to know such bliss ?

I still wonder to myself how I, of all people,
could have been blessed with such intense passion

And yet,
it is a curse which haunts me,
for I feel the pain of a thousand hearts.. in agony..

I pray, I wish, I hope, I crave,
a love which lasts forever,
and that that love is pure in spirit,
devoid of evil,
and so beautiful,
it could make even the most evil soul drop to his knees
and weep like a newborn child.

How do I explain this intense love?.
I cannot,
but I smile as I watch the dove soar before me,
against the evening's fading light,
and I shed a tear with its sadness
as it waits for the Angels to grow into ligh