PERSONAL: NOT TRYING TO SELL MYSELF

I am not here to sell myself, my self worth with convincing verbs, nouns and adjectives, I simply want you to take interest in the raw truth of who I am and what I am about. ~~ I'm a divorced man who hasn't been up to keeping a fulfill flamboyant social life, I work a good 9 hours a day, by that time I look forward to getting home and unwind, I'm getting bored with all work no play makes John a dull boy, and I am so not dull ~ but the thought of getting myself out there in a social setting ~ alone and with no friend or sweetheart for company, well it just very seldom happens that I get the nerve up to just go about it alone and see what happens.. So, simply put.. I'm single because I work and my friends are wrapped up and do their own thing as well.. I do manage to get out with a few of my friends and closely related family members, for some fun a few weekend nights a month, but I'm not ffulfilled by any of that. I want someone to get to know and share real time day to day, you know, bond a relationship. I by no means am desperate, I have a life, but it's without that special someone, and it's sad in a way cause I am so very grounded and have been stable for a long time, but when it comes to women ~~ I just don't know how to go about finding one sincere and with similar wants, the key is " a woman truly looking for a one on one relationship and ready to put into what it takes to make and help create a long n loving bond with someone and be kind and caring in the process. Pardon me for saying so, but I just give up on this whole social games that are played, there's so much beauty everywhere you look and women are hard to hold due mostly to the lifestyle here, and you know, I can't say I blame you.. (not a woman basher, please don't think that !) Just that the world is Your oyster and when you find that pearl, you should recognize it and embrace it and take a chance on love and put forth time and really open your heart to it.. I don't know, I get alittle disappointed by how many of us are alone and want more from life and I just can't help but wonder why, WHY, is this so cumbersome of a defeat..I thought I was a a single woman's dream (I  have a career, steady income, a home, drug and disease free and LOOKING for a RELATIONSHIP).  I don’t understand a woman not being  attracted to ALL that since all I ever  hear is how hard it is to find a "a good guy"..... Our parents never lived this way, or did they ? Genuine, hopes and dreams, small as they are, are still someones dreams and wants, and yet we're here . Well, if I haven't made it perfectly clear, I am seriously looking . Looking for someone genuinely being truthful, a person who feels they too are looking seriously for someone special in their life, this online dating stuff has such an unspoken range of ideals for people ? Match me in a game of tennis ~ Match me and play the bass while I play my drums, Match me and we'll talk over coffee about some good real estate investments, and the best yet " hey it's only 6 pm lets hookup for for a dinner. I want what I want, just as you want what you want... But, I want something coming forth with real heart and true intentions. I'm not doing this for just a past time and social despair.. So, there you have it... That's why I am here... and I know that if you were a level headed woman (even had read all of this ) would still find in between the lines that I am not twisted and full of hate, possessiveness, jealousies n so forth, please read other aspects of profile and think me over.. waiting for you to come through, a love worth waiting for ,