FROM A FRIEND

Healing sometimes doesn't happen as fast as we want. Sometimes we think we are all better and then boom we realize not only are we not 100 percent recovered, but we just re injured ourselves, by taking on more than we can handle. We try to quicken the recovery of say a broken heart, by getting involved with new people, exercising, doing mental and physical makeovers, going out, watching movies, having sex, popping pills. A broken heart is hard enough, but what is even worse is when a relationship leaves us with lower self esteem, feelings of rejection, being inadequate all over really low confidence. This is the hardest thing to heal. Our own self image. Whatever reason we feel this way, we didn't put there maybe feelings began at childhood, maybe from parents, from classmates, bullies on a bus, from first girl or boyfriends, unfaithful partners, unkind unloving spouses. rejection and low self esteem suck, and will be that poison in a new relationship. How do we get better. By not forcing it, I think. By praying. And having people in your life that only love you, think you are amazing, smart, good looking, people that listen and open up as well. Who knows maybe for every year we were exposed to abusive, esteem eating parasitic people we need the same number of time with those that adore us, believe we are more than enough, and winners. Someday Alex, you will be with her, the woman that will put you on a pedestal, think that you are the greatest, adore holding your body, and kissing you from head to toe, she will not only respect your opinion but think it is pure genius, she wont really see your flaws as anything other than things she wants to help you with and enjoy helping you with. Which is the greatest thing about our imperfections, because sometimes we get so obsessed with them we don't realize that our flaws have suddenly made another so happy because they see it as their life's purpose. That is sweet love. One day you will have someones sweet love. That is the love that endures all. I pray for God to send her to you as soon as possible.