THOUGHTS: RAMDOM

I know how it is when someone disappoints you. It's tempting to see things the way you wish they were instead of how they are.That's why love is madness. It's too easy to lose your mind when you lose your heart.I don't know where I stand with you. And I don't know what I mean to you. All I know is every time I think of you, I want to be with you.

It's not about forcing happiness. It's about not letting sadness win.And to be blunt, I hope you know that it’s not me who will be regretting this someday. So darling, you can just sit right there and watch the best you’ve ever had walk away.

You don't choose who you fall for. You just fall and you get this person who is all wrong, but yet so right. You know that you like them so much, except sometimes they drive you insane and no one can explain. Some feelings don't go away, they just get avoided.

I promised myself that I will never regret that I met you, for liking you and for loving you. But because it is already hurting me, I tend to forget that promises are meant to be broken and indeed it was.

And this is just one of those days where I don't understand you anymore. I'm not quite sure what you want or what you mean.. All I hear is the words you say but I don't understand a single letter of it.

Shit doesn't happen - life happens. Things go wrong, people change, & sometimes it feels like you can't go on. But, in the end, you have to stop blaming everyone else & put it on yourself to be happy, because it's your life & you have to make it through the hard times to get stronger.

Every step I take I leave a small piece of myself behind and soon there will be nothing left.

When I picked up the phone I realized that out of the billions of people on the planet, you were the one I wanted to speak to the most. It was like the deepest part of me took control and said what it felt, unafraid of embarrassment or rejection or any of that other stuff that normally leaves me paralyzed with fear. I didn’t think. I just was.

Whenever I'm around you I feel like I'm letting my guard down. It's dangerous, but still a strangely easy thing to do.

I know I'm not easy to understand. I know I keep a lot inside and I know I'm not the easiest person to read, but that's okay, because even though there's a lot about me you'll never know, there's a hell of a lot of me you can learn to love.

But don't forget who you really are. And I'm not talking about your so-called real name. All names are made up by someone else, even the one your parents gave you. You know who you really are. When you're alone at night, looking up at the stars, or maybe lying in your bed in total darkness, you know that nameless person inside you...Your muscles will toughen. So will your heart and soul. That's necessary for survival. But don't lose touch with that person deep inside you, or else you won't really have survived at all.

I hate getting close to people because I think they will just walk out of my life, no matter how close we were.

That's my problem. I don't talk to anybody about whats going on in my head, because I'm afraid they might not be able to take it.

When you're feeling your worst, that's when you get to know yourself the best.

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.

I want someone to care so much, even though I say that I don't. I push people away who start to love me because I know that if they stopped loving me, it would kill me.

Just because someone isn't loving you how you want them to love you, doesn't mean they aren't loving you with all they have.

I think that you should give me a second chance, or eleventh or twelfth or wherever we were at. I think that I adore you, every facet of your mind, every awkward flaw in you, so much it scares the hell out of me.

When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to someone who leaves you. & it doesn't mean they are bad people. it just means that their part in your story is over.

That's what life is about. Those moments when you feel entirely carefree, like nothing can touch you. It's those moments that make the hard parts so worth it. It's moments like that that make this heartache bearable. I know it'll pass - my moments will come.

I'm so afraid to lose you, when you aren't even mine.

And when it's over and it's gone, you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back, so that you could have the good.

I guess the reason I think I'm nothing is because no one has ever fought for me. I believe that if I was really, truly, worth it, that somewhere along this road, someone would've fought for me to stay, but instead, I always wound up walking away.

It's the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on. And when you want to move on, but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It's so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it.

You have to get hurt. That’s how you learn. The strongest people out there, the ones who laugh the hardest with a genuine smile, those are the people who have fought the toughest battles. Because they’ve decided that they’re not going to let anything hold them down, they’re showing the world who's the boss.

We all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world. To remind us that it won't always be this way. That someone is out there. That someone will find you.

Sometimes pain becomes such a big part of your life that you expect it to always be there, because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't.

I am searching for my future wife/soulmate. Please stop by again.