POETRY: I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER EVEN MORE THAN I DO

Last night when I couldn't sleep
Tossing and turning in my sheets
And as I drowned in my dreams
I thought about my insecurities

Will she stick around and see us through
What if she tires of my past wounds?
Is her patience going to run out soon?
Without her I will feel totally doomed!

My surroundings holding me down
Early hours bring nothing but a frown
Life seems so complicated without you around
Being connected to you makes me feel found.

When I'm with you, nothing even matters
And time seems to go just a little bit faster
Logic and reason always go out my window
Why live ordinary when we are better just so

We do as we please because we are grown
No other world is better than our own
We'll watch damn cartoons until we grow old
Hold me in your arms and never ever let go

We may not have silver spoons or finery
Or take pleasures like you do with money
We are richer than the richest of any celebrity
Our love is sweeter then the sweetest of honey

My reality may somehow sometimes be blue
But the one thing that's sure, pure and true ...

is the way I feel when I'm with you.






2

The man of her dreams
existed
only in her mind.
True love...
she was never able
to find!
She hid her passion
deep in her soul.
Buried in
some forgotten hole.
Oceans of tears
lubricated
her dry, barren years.
The woman of his dreams...
never appeared
at his door.
His eyes searched
for her
throughout
each and every store.
True love...
was so elusive.
So...he became
very reclusive.
His passion...
he had thrown away.
Given up...
all thoughts of wild,
romantic nights
and days.
Each sought comfort
at the local park.
Crying endless tears...
in the dark.
Each took a seat
on their favorite bench.
Two sets of startled eyes
met...for the first time.
She was a vision
of loveliness...
in shades of yellow and lime.
He couldn?t help but
notice her special glow...
Her delicate beauty
wouldn?t allow his river
of sweet words...to flow.
He was everything
she had ever dreamed of!
Dark curly hair,
an impish smile and
pale, beautiful eyes...
He didn?t speak a word...
Those two sets of eyes
remained...intertwined!



3

The moments I looked at you, I wish you knew.
The talks we had, I wanted you to know.
Please let me explain, and let me be the truth that I dream it to be.
Because happiness Is the smile you gave me.



4


I hope, one day, you will think back
to these moments... when we held each other
and laughed till we ached with joy
and tears tickled our cheeks.

You won't remember- why,
but you will remember- how
we were so happy.

I want you to remember
the way I smiled at you,
like it was the first time,
every chance I got.
And the way I kissed you,
like it was the last time,
every chance you gave.

I want you to remember
all the sweet words I said to you
but even more... the way I said them.

I hope, one day, you will think back
to these moments....
as we sit together in silent comfort
watching each others lips wrap around
...our addiction.
admiring one another as we inhale
...our bad habit.

You won't remember how terrible it was,
but you will remember how good it felt...
because it was time spent together.

I want you to remember
the way I touched your face
and the way you held mine....
when we made love.
I want you to remember
how I whispered softly in your ear,
just to say, "hi".....
and the way it made you smile.

I want you to remember the way I looked at you,
with big eyes and a bottomless heart...
always wondering if you knew
how wonderful I think you are.
And though you didn't love me back,
I want you to remember... how I love you
...like it's never going to hurt.



5
I long for your hands to touch me once again
I long to look into your deep dark eyes just one more time
I long for your wet passionate kisses and all the love
you give me that I'm missing
Every minute I'm not with you feels like eternity
until you - you calm me with your gentle voice
and serenity. When we're not together I feel like a part of me is
gone because I've been yearning for you for so long
I think about you day and night and in my dreams at night
We began holding each other and when we attempt to share our love
I can't wait until I finally see you so I can tell you how much I love you

6

I want to climb with you all the mountains,
I want to bathe with you in the sea,
I want to dream with you forever
Until the sky falls down on me!


7

Next to you
I was next to you that night
All the world seemed to stop
Leaving you and I there to sleep
And the only thing I felt was your love for me
It was a warm blanket covering my soul
You kissed my head
Touched my cheek
And whispered
"I love you"
There was no doubt in my mind
I love you too
You held me close
I could feel your warm breath on me
Such a beautiful perfect moment
A moment which feels like a lifetime
All I can do is
Breathe in this moment
And think
Tomorrow I'll be
Next to you


8

I await her approach,
Time is standing still,
Where is she, I wonder,
As the night drifts towards me like a prowler
with the uncertainty of whether I will feel her again,

Though she does not know and I am not sure,
I treasure her like a gem in the eye of the beholder,
The diamond in the rock that has hundreds of years to form
and bursts outward into my grasp so that I may embrace it
within my bosom and hold it there for eternity,

Time still passes and I am comforted by the thought of her,
As I dance in the rain and as the ocean crashes against my naked skin,
In the quiet of the storm I feel her presence near me,

With the touch of her mouth I feel her embracing me,
Consuming me,
Taking control of me,
All of me,

When she nears the realm of my existence, I quiver,
She is so innocent and gentle,
I pierce through my coverings and stand in my naked flesh,

Awaiting her next move and hoping for just a slight touch,
One of which would last me for a lifetime,
Just one would fulfill the emptiness I feel,
Just one may damn me,

But the comfort I need and want, she possesses,
Nowhere to go but forward,
But I am forced to turn away,
What she possesses is too much,
Too great,
Too overwhelming,

I cannot,
But I must,
I want to cry and shatter where I stand,
Desire, Passion, Lust, Need, Want,
All Within the Stranger,
The Animal,
The Unknown,
The Comforter.


9


worlds apart during the day
lovers only in a dream
completely absorbed into one another
just to be torn apart at dawn
leaving me wanting
only to dream
of you and what's to come




10

My love
I will dance
in the clouds
with you
Among the windswept
hills of a distant
paradise
Of nature's shelter
Among the pines,
alpine flowers
and wild roses

My love
I will climb
to the highest
peaks
with you
Among the angels
in a feathery forest
of frosty
imagination
I will be there --
There, in your
arms

My love
I will cross
the deserts
of the world
with you
Scorched by the
hellish sun
I will protect you
from all this
And we will survive

My love
I will cross the oceans
to be with you
Among the desolate
lonely places
In the wild winters
of the frozen North
I will be there
with you

My love
I will be with
you
In the pathway of
our destiny
Holding you,
embracing you
Caring for you,
forever,
with you



11

Passion, a poet's thoughts
Of moments in a mind's day
Beyond the visual, in
thought's play
Of layers of memories
Real. imagined, dreamed
In interplay
Scenes, sounds, smells
Interwoven and separated
And from all this
a passionate play
Of lovers deeds and places
of virtual paradise
Impossible colors, improbable
designs
Architectural conglomerates
of wild invention
Places of paradise and
sensuous fruitfulness
In boundless play
such places we visit
To feast on the visions
of such profound complexity
In interwoven imagery
where our delights are met
Improbable journeys to
realities of our deepest thoughts
Our passionate minds


12
The power of a kiss, is an incredible thing,
it lifts you to such levels. The levels can be of lust,
passion, pain, and ultimately love. I believed kissing
was just that- kissing- but to kiss, means to learn the power
and levels of it. The level of lust is purely that,
passion can be love, lust, and other emotions which are
of unexplainable measurements and powers. Oh and the pain
of a kiss- to know this is your final kiss, that there
shall be no more from the mouth for which you yearn,
a pain like no other. But the bliss of a kiss, that is
kissed with love and all the joys and wonders which come with
that kiss as if all of the world ceases to exist at
the very moment your lips touch. I suppose the meanings
of kisses are defined differntly by everyone but these
are my defintions- but what do I know...


13

It fills the space
in your soul.
It keeps you together
and makes you whole.

Living without it
could hurt so much,
you can feel it
with his every touch.

I look in my future
and all I see,
are visions of love,
just you and me.

Together forever,
side by side.
You've always been there
even when I've cried.

My feelings for you
are stronger than before.
They continue to grow
each day more and more.

So with these words
I'll say my vow:
"I'll love you forever,
even more than I do now."