JOURNAL: Anne Can't Commit

This is Anne. She is from Germany. I have been talking to her for three weeks now on yahoo messager. She will be coming to New York City in 19 days. I look at your picture everyday and it inspire me to write all the time. I hope to take her hand and show her a new world. I find her to be a truly beautiful women. She can do serious harm to me, but I am willing to take a chance. My dearest Anne, you are a jewel in a ocean of dancing dimonds.



A Jewel

by Alex

I was wandering around in the dark

Asking God to help me find my way

And then there you were

A jewel in the ocean of humanity

A diamond

Shining brightly

Reflecting light everywhere

Lighting up my world

You were so bright

So beautiful

So wonderful

I was afraid

Not believing it could be true

That you were there

Loving me

Holding me

I thank God a thousand times everyday

For giving me the gift of you

You will always be in my heart.








PART 2

Yesterday I met Anne, she was beautiful. We met in Barnes and Nobles, she called me from the telephone booth. I felt different this time. She made my heart sing.We went to see "The Gates" in Central Park. I looked into her eyes and I saw my future. Please God let this be the one. I ache for her even now. We had shushi in one of my favorite spot. I looked across the table and she looked like an angel. We went back to the apartment and we try to watch "BEFORE SUNSET" on the computer, but the DVD got stuck, so I read to her "Conversation With God", I looked into her eyes and wanted to kiss her, but I didn't.


I got home and wrote this.

With You
by Alex

Happiness has my heart filled.
Stars shine bright when you're around.
When I'm with you, time is stilled.
I hear your voice, no other sound.

When, into your eyes I gaze,
Or, I hold your gentle hand,
All the world just fades away.
Time apart, I cannot stand.


That night we slept in the same bed. We slept That night we slept sideway. I thought for a while it was a German things, but it wasn't. I wanted to tell her to lets straighten up, but I didn't. She had no problem sleeping that way and tried to sleep. I couldn't sleep well that night. The next day we had a bath. To me that was the best moment of the weekend. She was in my arm and I was kissing her and I knew there was no other place I wanted to be than to be with her at the moment in time. I want to show Anne the world if she would let me. I hope she will give me the chance.





PART 3

The fact that Anne like me raise her in my estimation. I will try not to make the mistake of obsessing about her. I will keep my balance and distract myself with all the things I did before meeting her and take the same amount of pleasure in them , rather than feeling that everything is somehow diminished by the fact that she isn't there to share it with me. To obsessive about a relationship means you are worrying about whether you are pleasing or not. A man must take time out to find out what kind of food a women want to eat, what kind of movies she likes, and try to plan dates that are within her tastes, this show a woman that you don't just want to have sex. I love a women who doesn't conceal her affection, who is happy to hear from me. I love when a person makes me feel included in her life by telling me about her day, her friends, and her interests






PART 4
The past few days Anne has been ignoring me. She told me later that she met some guys that she was talking to before she came over. This got me upset. She wasn't giving me the attention I deserve. Once again, it just show that people can't commit.I offered her everything if she just commit to a serious relationship with me. She wants to take it slow, and well I don't have time for someone who want to date other men and me. I am very sad.

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