PERSONAL: OPENING UP TO LOVE

There’s no point looking at any other profile. We’re both looking for the same things in a partner. And, let’s face it, I’m a pretty darn good looking guy. Great catches of the world  like myself are not somehow playing the best game of hide and ghost seek.

You see, love has always been a serious business for me and not some pleasure-seeking fantasy. I have only been in love once. and when you are young, you believe that you will meet many people with whom you'll connect with, but later in life you realize it only happens a few times. It's hasn't been easy for me to be a romantic lately. You start off that way and,after you've been in so many bla relationship. They weren't mean, they cared for me, but...they were no real...connection, or excitement.  You forget about all your delusional ideas, and you just take what comes into your life. And that is exactly what I did... I got married and I felt like I was waiting forever. I remember thinking that it didn't much matter the "Who?" of it all... I mean, that nobody is gonna be everything to...And that ultimately, it's just a simple action of committing yourself.  But, boy I was wrong.  I learned that even being alone it's better than sitting next to someone and feeling lonely. I didn't wanna be one of those people who  was..getting divorced later in life and falling down into tears, admitting that they never really loved their spouse, and they feel that their life has been...sucked up into a vacuum cleaner!

It does matter who you are with.So often in my life I've been with people and shared beautiful moments like travelling or staying up all night and watching the movies, and I knew it was a special moment, but something was always wrong. I wished I'd been with someone else. I knew that what I was feeling - exactly what was so important to me  and they just couldn't understand. That’s the thing about relationships - people are always saying, “I want to know you,I want to know who you are.” But it is so hard for anyone to even know themselves. Who I am is always changing, so how can anyone else share in that?

I always feel this pressure of being a strong and independent icon of being a man, and without making it look my whole life is revolving around some girl. But loving someone, and being loved means so much to me. We always make fun of it and stuff. But isn't everything we do in life a way to be loved a little more?

I am not much of a serial dater.  I just don't go out to just date. I want to meet someone and it would mean something. So many people just have an affair, or even entire relationships. they breakup and they forget. They move on like they would have changed brand of cereals. I feel I was never able to forget anyone I've been with because each person had their own specific qualities. You can never replace anyone what is lost is lost. I see in them little details, so specific to each of them, that move me and that I miss and will always miss. You can never replace anyone, because everyone is made of such beautiful, specific details

I am open to meeting someone now. I have a feeling that just maybe, the right person might be reading on the other side of the screen. I believe that there is a great woman out there looking for me.... But I need to know how to find her and show her what a great catch I am. Is love and romance different, or are they same? If we love someone do we need to romance them or vice versa... When do you know that you are attracted to someone? When does this attraction turn into love? Sometimes spending some beautiful moments together is what you remember the most in your entire life lived. How one night changes your entire life and how you end up meeting the most strange but most cherished people in most unexpected circumstances. Is it what they call being open to life?

We will play, we will tease, we will share, we will emote, we will foreplay, we will argue, we will discuss, we will answer, we will tell, we will lie, we will confess, we will desire, we will get, we will give, we will hold, we will leave, we will stay, we will come back, we will keep, we will remember, we will move, we will walk. we will lie, we will journey, we will laugh, we will cherish, we will wander, we will romance. I only learnt one thing - love is survival but romance is living... some people can live their life in love and some only need a little romance to live it... but the best part of two strangers like us meeting up is our conversations.